I had experienced the powers of a god and now after witnessing such a miracle i knew i had to control this powers. I started investigating the human mind trying to get as much information as possible and i reached my conclusions.
It is fucking inconsistent
No matter what i did i would not get a dream like this, after seeing the light of god and the doors of heaven open right before my eyes, everything that i've ever wanted was in plain sight but it was unreachable. I was devastated...
I tired to accept my failure, accept that i couldn not reach my full potential, but the memory of the miracle was still tormenting my days, for 4 whole months.
Until yesterday, it happened. I've seen the light of god once again and it is as beautiful as i remember, Im still in shock, i don't know how to feel about this, after all of this pain and troubles, is hope still a possibility? Is this a test from god?
Maybe, just maybe, in the future i will conquer the human mind and show everyone the true path to salvation.