I enjoy hanging around with people, who don't mind spending time in the nature, enjoy talking about deeper subjects and have a weird sense of humour.

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Literally anyone who can understand me and engage in a decently sustained conversation, because my interests are nothing like those of most other people of similar demographics as mine. Basically anyone adaptable enough to shift conversations back and forth between serious matters such as school, and more leisurely topics such as anime. But I highly doubt most people who spend a significant amount of time online chatting in forums, Discord etc. would enjoy the former.

What would you look for in a partner? This is possibly a question that's been asked many times before, but I feel that it's important to have clear ideas of what you want. If you don't, then it's best to avoid looking to deepen a relationship with a partner until you discover what traits you want him or her to possess.

Well, I've lived together with my girlfriend for 3 years now. It's good to date someone you can be yourself with and don't have to play a role. Self-explanatory things, she has to be reliable and supportive, all that. Obvious stuff. It's important to be able to talk with her about anything, important and deep things but also weird little things. She has a good taste in music, our tastes in a lot of things go hand in hand, actually, it's really great. Of course, she's absolutely adorable as well.

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For me to stop fearing relationships ._.

Same question!

I would like my partner to be able to be a bit more talkative than me, while not being annoying. She also shouldn't be too possessive since that limits a lot of freedom. Preferably she would have the same interests as me, but I wouldn't be too upset if she didn't. Bonus points if she has thicc thighs and glasses.

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Their caring and cheerful vibe

What are your thoughts on Safeway? (a store)

i'm pretty indifferent about it. not much to say.

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...are there any moments you wished you could just erase from your life history?

No.
I've made a lot of mistakes and have lots of embarrassing moments in my life before, but they helped to make me as the person I am today.
Simply erasing mistakes I've had in the past won't change me into a better person, it would only cause me to make that same mistake in the future.

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Same question.

I appreciate every moment I experienced in my life, whether it is a sad memory that I definitely don't want to re-experience it or an awkward memory that I just want to get hit by coldtooth's bus whenever I think about it, since, as Tad has said, these memories built up who I am today. Also it would be a boring life if the road that you have to go is all smooth wouldn't it?

Sq

Would be great to have something erased... If that action was without consequences on my own memory.
But in the event of erasing both moments and their respective cerebral memories, I'd rather wish for some people to be gone, in any meaning.


How's the harassment/bullying rate in your country?

Physical bullying? Pretty low.
Cyberbullying? It's been on the rise, but it's not that bad.
I think I've said it before, but over here teachers actually care about the well-being of their students. It's pretty hard to get away with bullying in any form for an extended period of time.
Harassment as in rape, etc.? Definitely low. It only really happens at night, and even then there's enough people around that it's more than likely that someone will notice. Overall, my country packs a huge population into a tiny area, so it's pretty hard to get yourself truly "alone" anywhere.

Same question

seems pretty bad. i haven't experienced much personally, but have observed plenty of it.

i'm not very well-versed in it, so speaking about it would be tough to do with accuracy.

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what are your core motivations for living?

I don't know why but ever since the kyoAni tragedy, I can no longer think "It wouldn't bother me if I were to die tommorow", which is something that I've always thought since I started refeclecing on myself (Funny enough the one other time I couldn't think that was when I had finished watching Clannad and was waiting to watch after story). Ever since that tragedy I am trying harder to improve myself for their sake, which is why I have begun playing the euphonium and working out.

SQ

i don't really have one lmao

What's one thing you would take back if you could?

My highschool days definitely. I've wasted my chance to play in a band because back when I was in high school I didn't care about music. The best I can hope if I want to do band would be a collaboration on the internet with other people. Though before thinking about that I should get better at my instrument.

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now... there is one thing i want back, only one... it is something i treasured when i was young, it is my harmonica... my dad knew i loved harmonicas way back, so he bought 2 of them... i lost them both (high chance my manipulative aunt stole those two, she stole my sibling's money, turned them into a slave as well), but if i could just have one of those, doesn't matter if its the more fancy one or not... i just want at least one back... i want to learn how to actually use that... i want one of my dreams to be true...

my parents doesn't want to buy a harmonica anymore... now i might be a bit too desperate, but i just want to save up money just to buy one... i just want one... one harmonica... i would be happy to at least have one... that is all i want...

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My CD copy of every game I used to play when I was young. I’ve been trying to find them for years but only could find a few of them

Sq

The old netlabel I used to be on until it died in like 2013.

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The old osu forum site.


Same question.

I can't think of anything that used to belong to me that I regret having done away with, but I remember reading some book in primary school. I had loaned it out from the library and it was a really thick book, I think it was a story about the journey of a Scrabble player. I couldn't finish the last chapter before the book was due, so I returned it. I never saw it again. Looking back, I wish I'd finished it to figure out what happened in the end.

What advice would you give to people who easily get distracted?

Put yourself in a situation where you cannot get distracted. I can easily get distracted when I am working with a computer, so I try to avoid using them if I don't need them. I actually stay at school to study because I know that if I get back home to study, I will end up playing on my computer and won't get a whole lot of work done.

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samX500 wrote:

Put yourself in a situation where you cannot get distracted. I can easily get distracted when I am working with a computer, so I try to avoid using them if I don't need them. I actually stay at school to study because I know that if I get back home to study, I will end up playing on my computer and won't get a whole lot of work done.

SQ

HOLY SHIT.

THE ABSOLUTE SAME.

so i've got a similar problem, and i tend to throw on every bit of work i can do while i'm still at school. i used to stay after-school in one of my previous high schools, in the classroom of a pretty interesting art teacher i knew, in order to work on my art projects. sadly, i had forgotten to reclaim them before i left the school due to moving out of my old home, back when it got sold. it frustrated me, as i was really proud of my charcoal piece.

anyways, i don't have anything great to offer, heh. i'd probably say the same thing. adapt to your circumstances the best you can and get done with whatever you can while you have the time. ask for help if needed, or find a method that works for you and gets you engaged in the work you do, like some internal goal or something.

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ever wonder what others think of you, and what perspective they have regarding you as a person?

Yes and that’s why even tho I don’t look like it, I’m self-concious all the time

Sq

I think it's only natural to have such questions.
I'd suppose everyone would wonder the same thing from time to time, even if they don't really care what others think of them.

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Which philosophy do you follow, believe or is interested in?

John Locke is my personal favourite philosopher. Empiricism used to be my #1 interest while studying philosophy and I strongly "follow" it. I also like Plato.

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A fair question. I had an interest in philosophy, but was not exactly very serious about it. I never purchased any books to read up and research on it, and hardly spent much time going through everything, and I'd mostly delved into its more existential "answers", in a sense.

I think I had mostly sympathized with the ideas set in Absurdism.

Hmm. I glanced at it again and found something that sounded rather similar to my thought process when I escaped my own thoughts of suicide.

I had thought that "As pointless as life may seem, death would be even more pointless".

In the New World Encyclopedia's entry for Absurdism, it eventually says: "...suicide is not a worthwhile solution because if life is veritably absurd, then it is even more absurd to counteract it...", and "...the beauty that people encounter in life makes it worth living. People may create meaning in their own lives, which may not be the objective meaning of life but still provides something for which to strive".

So, yeah. It seems to describe my thoughts pretty well at times, but I should look into things more seriously at some point.

A large part of why I live, after all, is to create, and whether it be some sort of meaning for myself, or perhaps some solace for others to find, even something for me immerse myself in, it's all enjoyable.

I strive to create, and to see how things turn out.

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same question.

i'm really interested about Nietzsche.
I haven't own any of his books yet since I'm poor atm but I've read about him.
Though it's a shame how he's been misquoted and his philosophies were misunderstood. The prime example of this is how he was misquoted by the Nazis in WW2 to further their ideals.

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Same Question.

I think of myself as an utalitarian dabbling in social darwinism, although I find most philosophy highly interesting. I would love to own more classical works. Right now, I'm thinking I might try to grab some of Gilles Deleuze's work.

Same q

I'm pretty ignorant in philosophy so I don't know any of this stuff lmao

How do you view yourself now compared to 5 years ago?

I Don't think i am change,still an introvert kid who had trouble talking to new people.i mean i want to change,but its quite hard
Same question

my view to myself compared to 5 years ago feels like a whole different story... i view myself as a main character... see myself on top of everyone else, perfect... i view myself as the perfect human, the best... my ego is so horrifying i would say anything even though it would hurt people so badly... that was who i was back then... and that was the final year that personality of mine is extremely visible, yeah it went on throughout my young days.

my view to myself now is a huge change compared to the past, yes i still see myself above people sometimes, but its not that extreme. that is because my ego went down so quickly, in just a few months after going to a different country, my ego dropped so hard that it even got my social skills with it. that caused my view of myself to change, i now see myself as a someone... nothing special... sometimes even lower than that... i don't want to achieve what my past self wanted, perfection... its impossible...

i'm just glad i didn't find this place when my ego was high... i would've been a nightmare to deal with...

same question

I view myself extremely differently. 5 years ago I didn't do anything at all with my life, I wasn't practicing any activities, meeting up with people or even consuming art. All I did was mindlessly watch youtube video, and not valuable entertainement, really just dumb video with no value other than immediate self satisfaction.

I personally consider myself to have been born 4 years ago, as that was the time where I finally started to do something with my life.

This question may be more interesting to answer in another 5 years. I've already changed massively in just those 4 years and I see no reason why I would stop changing and improving myself.

SQ

I don't even know myself from 5 years ago. Being thrown out of home 4 years ago was when the current me was born. I eventually became more functional, graduated from high school a couple months later and got my first jobs and such. Started releasing some music I'm still happy with, I guess I started being, you know, decent at it. Got together with my girlfriend half a year later and moved together with her another half a year later. Stuff that I had never had any experience with before. Growing up might be scary to some, but for me, it saved my life. I didn't have to live with an unstable mom anymore or sleep on a friend's floor for too long.

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"17", so when I was goofing around when I should have cared about my high school graduation coming next year...
I guess I was an idiot at that point. Easy to say.
That wasn't a proper answer, now that I read the question.
But given what I said, it's obvious I can say "better than this boy".


What's a joke (or a "meme", but not a prank) you enjoy?
(I'm not asking the type of humor, but an actual joke you've read/heard from anywhere. Like these.)

"What did the Spanish guy say to the other Spanish guy?"
"I don't know, I don't speak Spanish"

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My favorite meme format is the brain expansion meme. There are a few other meme format I really like but the brain expension really is king.

I also like joke that portray the dumbest of things as the supperior way of doing things.

SQ

John Cena, back when it was a fresh and new thing

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i hate my old posts

"I bought a circumcision -50% off. It was a rip off."

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Pork Chop Duo's jokes

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Well, instead of editing the message, I'll just delete and get this thread up again Kak.


So here's a new question instead of me posting more Bokete stuff.


What's a song you think that is "overrated"? Like, "I don't understand what's so good in it to get [number] views, even after listening to it."
(Please don't make it because of your personal taste, of course '-')

This question is fundamentally flawed, enoying music is entirely based out of personal taste and personal experience. The term overrated only really means that your taste don't match the majority regarding that specific song.

I am gonna answer anyway based on personal taste.

In my case I'd say most of pop music isn't nearly as good as it's amount of popularity suggest, however that's kind of normal because pop music is made to apeal to a lot of people and thus it is good to a lot of people but great to almost no one, which is why it is extremely popular and also extremely looked down upon by anyone that cares about music.

SQ

This one is easy.

Kyary Anan by Kyary Pamyu Pamyu.

What's your favorite book that you've read? Manga/graphic novels don't count.

Anything by Asimov. I,Robot probably the most.

If you are a fan of rock/metal, what is your favourite guitarist? (My favourite is pretty obvious, just read my signature.)

Either Mick Mars or Brad Delson.


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Have you had the urgency to know something was wrong and it was correct?
In other words, did you ever have a gut feeling that turned out to be true?

What Kyoto Animation announced about their donations was something I'd speculated; they're using it for compensation of the affected personnel rather than business recovery.

Describe the first close friend you made. Is he/she still relevant to your life?

My first close friend is a childhood friend that I met in daycare. The daycare I went to was just the house of an old lady and I don't remember her taking care of many other kid than myself and my childhood friend. He was my only friend for most of my childhood and has been my only close friend trhoughout my childhood until my parents decided we would leave our small town for a bigger city were both of my parents found better job opportunity.

At first, I tried to keep ties with him everytime we went back to my old town where my grandparents still lived but after a year our relationship kinda just faded. Internet wasn't as present back then and neither of us used it so we couldn't keep in contact. It's almost been a decade since I have last seen him so if I were to meet him again I am sure he would have become a completely different person, after all, we weren't even 10 when I left the town.


Did you grow up in a small town or a large city (or anything in between)

I've primarily lived in what's been probably the most crime-ridden ghetto area of the greater local region.

So, gunshots, sirens, fights, car crashes, were all pretty commonplace and easy to see at some point every month or so.

Luckily, we only got burglarized, and though a fair amount of value was stolen (including my precious PS2 that i cried over in the car), we got things back together in due time.

Still, life was pretty rough.

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SQ.

i was born and raised in helsinki, finland's capital and also the biggest city, but tiny in comparison to probably most cities you could think of. also, we lived on the very edge of the city, a very sparsely populated area, right next to another town that was already significantly smaller.

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Very small, since Singapore is already a city-state

What would it take for you to take a bullet to save the life of another? It sounds like a weird question, but it came from my Physics teacher who showed us a Netflix documentary after our exams.

To be honest, I don't know.
It would depends on the situation and the person that I'm saving.

Same question.

i wouldn't care; any bullet is dangerous, and i frankly don't care about myself
so it'd take literally nothing for me to take a bullet, i'd just take it

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favorite ice cream ?

It really depends on the day. My favorites are the good old maple&nut and chocolate, I don't really have a favorite among these two, it really just depends on the day.

What do you think are the "Main flavour" for sweets and desserts?

Chocolate

Yes?

[sample answer]

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In terms of art-styles, do you prefer high-res 2D animation, or high-FPS (30FPS+) pixel animation?

They're both pretty cool. But I think I like 2D animations juuust a little bit more.
They're pretty close though.

Same question.

as tad said, they are both cool.

they both are great in their nature, both are polar opposites if you think about it.

even though i really love 2d animation, i kind of prefer pixel animations over 2d animations.

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sq

As Tad and penta said, both of them are great if they are used properly. I kind of dislike having to choose among one of two art because no matter what my preference may be, in the end it all depends on how the art is used not on what the art is. I'd say in general I prefer 2d animation but really I wouldn't put one above the other.

What do you think of online personality test?

They're somewhat entertaining if nothing else.
There are things that it gets right and things that it gets wrong.
Guess I'm indifferent towards them.


Same question.

They're entertaining, though not be fully accurate.
If you would really like to learn about yourself, you need to think about yourself. How do you behave? Maybe find, in your conscious, or sub-conscious, why. Looking at yourself would be more accurate than some generalised test.
But there's something fun about Buzzfeed telling me that I'm a 25 year old male blueberry muffin, with no children, who's living in Canada and working as a doctor.

Same question

They can be fun to take at times though I don't believe that what they say is true in the slightest.

Do you think that people should never make decision based on bias.

Absolutely not.

I don't believe every decision should be decided based only on your bias but I don't think you should disregard them either.

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Same question.

decisions are technically made by bias all the time.

your mind's bias directs where your decisions go.

for example, a logical bias that appeals to a need for concrete evidence before doing things. this presents you with the tendency to prefer options or make decisions that provide you with more leniency to take a moment and reflect over what you know and don't know.

other times, an ideological one. this could be a commitment to a particular set of ideas you may have agreed with at some point, for whatever reason. this is more commonly referred to when people think of "bias".

sometimes it's emotional. you may have a bias towards letting your anger consume you for a while, as you may believe it gets it out of your system or something, perhaps that helps, and you decided to stick with what worked.

i think it depends on what you mean by bias, but in a general sense, i'd have to say no.

"bias", in its own way, is technically the means to a decision.

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are there things you consciously continue to do despite obvious detriments, out of vanity? if so, what are those things, and what reasons do you speculate may cause that or somewhat justify that in order for you to continue doing that?

ambot wala guro

Magkano isang piraso ng burger patty dyan?

No sé, no he visto hamburguesas de carne individuales, así que no tengo una buena respuesta.

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Achromalia wrote:

are there things you consciously continue to do despite obvious detriments, out of vanity? if so, what are those things, and what reasons do you speculate may cause that or somewhat justify that in order for you to continue doing that?

It would be that I avoid using french, my native language, as much as I possibly can. I actually know the reason for that.

First reason.

I associate french with christianity since the french speaking citizen of Quebec have been under the rule of religion for a long time. This actually scarred the province greatly since the french Canadian didn't have access to good education, only religious one, it made them pretty much slave to the english-speaker who could get actual education and become buinsnessman where as french Canadian could only work low paying job. The scar of the religious past of Quebec are still hurting Quebec, Quebec is currently amoung the poorest province in Canada and though most people don't value christianity much anymore, there is a lot of racism against people of other religion, especially muslim. I also despise religion in general for numerous other reason that I won't list because it would take too much time.

Now for the second and more important reason.

Back when I was younger I used to consume every media (almost exclusively youtube video in my case) in french since I didn't speak any other language. Since France has a much bigger population than Quebec, there is an overwhelming amount of France's french video and French's creator are also much more popular than Quebec's creator on youtube so the french media I was watching was almost entirely made by French.

At some point I realised that I had started to use a lot of French expression in my daily life and much less Quebec expression since I didn't talk to many people and didn't learn Quebec's expression. That realisation made me very angry at myself since I don't consider myself French in the slightest and this also happened during my phase were I was a very partiotic Canadian. I actually don't acknowledge France as the "Motherland that developped Quebec". From what I learned in history Quebec under French rule was misery and Quebec and Canada only started to grow when the British took over.

After this realisation, I stopped watching any french media altogheter and started to only watch english media even if I wasn't good enough to really understand them. This event is actually what led me to learn english and got me more invested in online communities, which is where I found all of my passions.

The first community I got invested in was heartstone. Through heartstone I found about nightcore. From nightcore I discovered the greatness of music in general and got introduced to anime, which led me to start watching anime. Anime has led me to discover a lot about myself and made me find the euphonium. The euphonium revived my interest in band music and got me more interested in every non-lyrical music as well as instruments in general.

It has now been perhaps around 4 or 5 years since I last used french on the internet and though I am not as opposed to use it anymore, I am still very reluctant, in fact everytime I see french a strange sensation that I dislike and can't really explain fill up my body and make me advert my eyes frmo the screen before I adjust to the language. And the quality of my french has decreased in my daily life, I am finding it much harder to express myself in french because I lack a lot of vocabulary (and english's vocabulary is also much wider and complete than french's one)

That turned out to be a lot longer than I planned it to be.
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Are there things you avoid for no good reason?

i'd probably say hygiene. i tend to find it as a pretty big nuisance to maintain my body, and i really only do the minimum i need to survive. i have a terrible habit of neglecting my body altogether as i'm always more interested in something i'm doing, whether it be work concerning music or art, or somethin' else. i forget to piss or even take a shit because i'm stuck all day staring at screens, typing up a storm, cramping up my fingers, and drowning my ears.

man, cyborgs are a lot cooler. they can function and not have to ever process the concept of handling the mess that is the digestive system.

i hardly eat so i'm pretty underweight, and i have a mild iron deficiency, possibly anemia in some mild form as i struggle to exert myself without my heart working insanely hard to keep me going, pretty evident by the numerous times i've collapsed on the track during Physical Ed.

although i don't have much of a problem with showering, i don't take care of my skin as well as i should. i put little effort into cleaning up my face as it's not really a concern to me. it's not like it affects my ability to work.

so yeah. it's something that can go either way with people. some people just simply have to be 100% clean, or look perfectly smooth and neatly groomed, or they just can't go anywhere or do anything. i more or less don't care much about how i look. as long as i'm acceptably clean, then that's fine for me.

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SQ.

all the time; my mental health, i procrastinate, i don't do things until i'm prompted to do them, it's...
it's a lot of stuff.

are you satisfied in life as a whole?

not yet, no.

it's been hell. the only reason why i cling onto it is because i've got shit i want to see. i've got shit i want to do.

although i'm not there yet, even if life is still kinda shitty, i do think there's something to look forward to.

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SQ.

it's hard to say. I've been wasting my life up until 15 years old but these past 4 years I've started to find things that I truly want to follow. I'd say I've only been truly living for 4 years which is not enough for me to say that I do or do not feel satisfied with my life. Though if I were to make an hasteful claim, I'd say yes, especially since I've started to play music.

SQ

Is anyone?

Do you prefer philosophy or psychology?

Philosophy. I really dislike all social science because they don't provide any hard rule that cannot be broken, they just find some trend within a large group of people and there is always a lot of case where these trend don't apply. Philosophy is kinda nice though I don't really like to study other people's philosophy, I mostly try to find an answer on my own.

What do you believe has been the most important period in your life?

Sleep

Sq

august 2016 to august 2019.

i've changed a ton throughout that period of time.

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sq.

Damn, Achro, you've been through a lot. That's amazing, I'm glad you've found something to work on. I hope your irl situation gets better in the future.

I think my life-changing time period was the summer between 9th and 10th grade, which is the summer of 2015, and probably going up to summer of 2016 as well. To explain why, I need to go back to elementary school.

I never learned how to make friends in kindergarten or elementary school. I wanted friends to play with, I really did. But I would always go about it the wrong way: I would chase kids around when they wanted to be left alone, force myself into playground games I wasn't invited to, and generally annoy the hell out of every kid I came across. I would also frequently break down and cry if other kids were being mean to me. I ended up getting bullied daily for this, and because I kept trying to make friends, I would play into anything that anyone said to me. The fact that I went to three different elementary schools didn't help, either; and in every single school I did the same thing. It's as if I wasn't getting the message that this is not the way to make friends.

One week, at the very end of elementary, at the end of my 6th grade year, I had a massive headache at the beginning of the week and I was feeling out of it for the whole week, so I didn't bother anyone at all. I overheard some girls talking about me, and they said, "man, if <john> were always this quiet, he wouldn't be so disgusting to be around." I think that overhearing this was the best thing that happened to me; this was the first big epiphany of my life. From then on out, I decided to stop trying to make friends and stay quiet the whole year (which was only about a month), and sure enough, I stopped getting bullied and started getting ignored. Life was looking up (or so I thought). My family was going to move and I was going to go to a middle school in a different area than my last elementary school, so I wasn't going to see anyone I knew there. It was the perfect chance to try out my new tactic there.

So middle school starts, and as planned, I get ignored. But it turns out being ignored 24/7 can hurt more than being bullied. I kept to myself so much in 7th grade, that by the end of the school year, I regressed in social skills. I couldn't face other people or look anyone in the eyes. But what hurt the most is that deep inside I still wanted to make friends. I thought that somehow, by keeping quiet and not talking to anyone, I was somehow going to make a friend. I still had a little hope that there was still a chance for me to be social. And that never happened, as I learned the hard way. For the two years of middle school, I was pretty much alone. Needless to say, I felt pretty down those two years.

We ended up moving once again to another area and I went to a brand new school for 9th grade; the school was a small charter school. I brought that hope and therefore loneliness over from middle school over to 9th grade, which is nothing new.

It was after 9th grad, the summer between 9th and 10th, that I discovered anime, and most importantly, I discovered WataMote. In case you don't know, WataMote is the story of Kuroki Tomoko; this is her:



Her story is that she is a brand new high school student and she wants to make friends and find a boyfriend; unfortunately, she is very asocial and has trouble even muttering goodbye to her homeroom teacher. However, as the story progresses, she goes on a class trip (as Japanese students usually do) and she somehow comes back with some friends. As you can probably guess, I absolutely found myself in her shoes. That summer, I watched WataMote and read the manga. I read it once that summer, and once more near the middle of 10th grade.

The first time I read it, it actually made me even more sad and pathetic, because I figured that if I copied everything Tomoko did, I would somehow end up with friends just like she did. In 10th grade, I ended up going to Starbucks alone for my birthday, watch anime in public with the speakers up, and generally being awkward with my classmates. After a while, I realized that this wasn't working and decided to read it again.

The second time was truly the second big epiphany of my life. I realized that Tomoko only acquired friends after she stopped caring about not having friends. She only became popular after she stopped becoming popular and was just herself, as cheesy as it sounds. I was halfway through my second year of high school, so it was way too late for me now. I managed to convince my mom to enroll me in the local public school, however; this way, I would get one last chance before I graduated, even if it was just two years.

I told myself to stop caring about being alone and to just be myself; of course, that won't repress that feeling completely, so 11th grade passed by and nothing came out of it. I told myself to not be sad about it, and to not care, but I was sad inside.

However, 12th grade came around and I decided to actually do something. I joined SRLA (a running club where you train to run the LA Marathon) and I had a lot of fun there. And I made my first friend in 6 years during the first semester of 12th grade, and we hung out every day during the second semester, because we had free period together; we used to play Mario Party DS together. I still have him on PSN and talk occasionally.

At the end of 12th grade, I decided to read WataMote one last time. I really had a ball remembering my cringy past (as I am doing now). I stopped reading at the chapter where her third year begins. Here's the page:



I felt that this was a gold stopping point, because we were both starting something new: she was starting her last year of high school, and I was starting my first year of college. If I go back and read it once more, I'll probably get emotional and cry. I think she has a girlfriend now, and if she does it'll probably send me into a spiral of guild and jealousy, so if she does please don't tell me.

Anyway, long story short, I discovered WataMote and it changed my life. I love Tomoko with all my heart for helping me get on the right track <3



TL;DR: I (think I) transitioned from a 3 to a 4 on this chart.



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Same question ^_^

For me, it has been my 4th year of secondary school (equivalent of grade 11). Before that, I didn't have anything that I really wanted to do on my own nor friend with whom I could do things. During that year, first of all, I joined the programming team in my schools robotics team and though I didn't do a lot for the team in that year, I have absolutely loved the experience and it has lead me to pursue programming as a career.

Second, at the time my english skill had improved significantly and I was more at ease at joining english community. The main community I would stick around was the heartstone community. However, there is a community that I found through heartstone that has been an incredibly valuable experience for me and that is the nightcore community.

Before then, I would never listen to music, when I was young I have been lead to believe by the kids around me the music was cringy and I have lived a long part of my life avoiding music to not be cringy, which is one of the greatest mistake I have ever done. When it came to nightcore, it was different. Since nightcore was a form of music specific to the internet, I could listen to it in secret and not feel like it was cringy. It felt so great at the time, it was an incredibly strong feeling of deliverence to finally be able to listen to music after having avoided it for so long. Nighcore introduced me to music in general, which has now grown to be a very important part of my life. Nightcore also introduced me to anime and got me interested in it so when friends in the robotics club told me about anime, I was fully willing to jump in. Anime itself became yet another incredibly important part of my life.

After that, I finally had hobbies. Music, anime and just hanging around internet community. I feel like having those hobbies have been the most valuable things that has ever happened to me.

I personally consider to have been born on that year, since it is at that moment that I really started to do something with my life.

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Have you ever avoided something because of social pressure?

Having social anxiety........ Pretty much everything.

Sq

Pretty much.

Pineapple on pizza, abomination or not?

i actually got to try pineapple on pizza this day...

it is in my opinion not really an abomination as i thought it would be. at first i thought that it is this terrifying mixture of a flavor, but when i finally got to taste what i thought would be bad... it is way better than i thought.

sure... it isn't as great as the classic pepperoni pizza, but it definitely one of the most lovable flavours for me...

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do you think you have found your purpose in life? if so, what do you think is your purpose and why do you think this is your purpose?

nope! i find no real purpose, considering that a purpose would imply that some indirect entity imposed an expectation or purpose for which i should fulfill. instead, i live for its own sake. i don't have a good reason to die, so i didn't die. i don't have a whole lot of reasons as to why i should want to live either, but i'm already alive, and... well, i'm too lazy to kill myself at the moment. i just don't really care to.

i just stick around to see how things go, while creating things in hopes that others can live a little more comfortably.

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opinions on the concept of things being "taboo", or NSFW?

Achromalia wrote:

nope! i find no real purpose, considering that a purpose would imply that some indirect entity imposed an expectation or purpose for which i should fulfill. instead, i live for its own sake. i don't have a good reason to die, so i didn't die. i don't have a whole lot of reasons as to why i should want to live either, but i'm already alive, and... well, i'm too lazy to kill myself at the moment. i just don't really care to.

i just stick around to see how things go, while creating things in hopes that others can live a little more comfortably.

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opinions on the concept of things being "taboo", or NSFW?

Don't really like it that much, despite the fact I talk about it a lot. I only like it if its cropped/censored.


What do you think of skinning?

Woah, the first thing that came to mind is peeling the skin off people. I'm going to assume you didn't mean that kind of skinning.

I think skinning is a pretty cool feature. I think that the theming feature that Stepmania has is way more fleshed out, though. It allows you to make custom menus and everything.

The only thing I don't like about skinning is the osu community's tendency to distribute skins using .osk files. I would much prefer if skins were to be posted to the Skinning forum first. That way, the posts could tell if the skin is bad or not.

What are your thoughts on tho Love Live franchise? And who is best girl?

i'm indifferent about Love Live. i'm honestly not sure why, but i just didn't seem to be interested by it.

probably the mood/tone of it.

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Achromalia wrote:

opinions on the concept of things being "taboo", or NSFW?

Being able to hide NSFW is a good way to keep oneself safe in public, just like reddit does.

There are just too many kids in the web, so the option of hiding NSFW is good at least when speaking about parental supervision, yet you can't completely save them for seeing innapropiate content.

About Taboo, it is more like a relative thing.

How tolerant are you to spicy foods?

I am quite tolerant of spicy food for Canadian standart. However I have never really eaten south-american food, which I hear is on a whole other level of spiciness compared to anything that we can even get here in Canada.

Do you believe self-driving car would be better than normal car and why?

definitely depends. there's a lot to consider and we'd have to make some assumptions. in theory, i think self-driving cars are definitely better. vehicles like these are immensely helpful for companies regarding delivery of stock for retail. it's preferable to human occupation as you don't have to pay a robot. it saves those companies money.

in fact, this is exactly what's starting to happen around here in the US, truck-driving is slowly being automated and many drivers are losing jobs because of it-- which is where its negative effect comes into play. with more automation, comes job loss. any rote tasks that can be easily performed will be automated, and that means more efficient work gets done. companies can aid from this. sadly though, those who are unemployed will have no means of income and will need to look for other jobs. a Freedom Dividend of $1000 a month would help them pretty greatly as people look for different occupations, and provides them with mobile income as a floor to stand on, so people can climb out of poverty easier. it's a proposal being put out by 2020 presidential candidate Andrew Yang.

sorry, had to bring it up, the idea's fairly important and i'm going to need to spread it around if i want Andrew as my president.

back to the community use of self-driving vehicles. if self-navigation and self-correctional AI is well-developed, and is safe to mass-produce, then those vehicles would be definitely preferable. you're less concerned about user error and more concerned about the vehicle's navigation skills. the problem there is that you'll need to have technology that is advanced enough to be trustworthy on the streets.

it's also likely that these cars would make usage of electric energy, which would be even better, helping to reduce the carbon footprint of fuels used in transportation. seems primarily to be a victory for humanity.

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do you believe attending college/university is your most optimal path to your ideal field of work?

As someone from Quebec, definetely. Universtity in Quebec is far cheaper than in the rest of Canada and in the US. I haven't looked into the cost too much but a friend of mine who is currently taking the program that I plan to take told me he had spent 10k CAD for a little over half of the program, which is a considerible amount of money but isn't nearly as bad as some of the ridiculous cost I've seen from american university. Plus, my program would be software engineering, which is a field that is begging for workforce, in fact, tech companies have helped fund the program because of how badly they need workforce in that domain and the program as 2 mandatory paid internship, which helps getting the money to afford university, depending on how good you are, you can even get up to 4 internship. If you can graduate from the software engineering course you'll definetely get a job because of how badly software job are needed. Plus these job offer some very good advantages and salary.

I am really grateful for living in Quebec because of how accessible school is. It is so accessible that university is absolutely worth it, at least in my field. Even if it is a big investisment, having a univeristy course under your belt will not only make it easier to get high paying job but will also teach you a lot about how to program. Some people say that university is useless and doesn't teach anything that is relevent in a real job and only serves as a paper to show in job interview but I don't think it is true for the field of programming. My friend talks about the course he takes and these course seems to teach some important notion to become a great programmer.

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Do you believe that having a good education will make you more likely to find success?

In this country, very difficult no matter how educated I am, there's a huge brain drain because of extremely low wages, even by people with doctorates.
If I want to reach actual success I'd better emigrate or something, which is something I don't want to do yet, as I am still studying, and don't want to leave without a degree.

If you could teleport, but just once, where would you teleport?

I don't think I would ever use the power to teleport to anywhere that I couldn't get back from, seeing as how I can't use it again. I would save it for if I'm ever jumped by a gang and I have to teleport anywhere that is not there.

johnmedina999 wrote:

What are your thoughts on the Love Live franchise? And who is best girl?

I remember that love live was one of the very first anime I have watched, and back then it was among my favorite anime. I found the first season decent, but nothing more but when it was when I watched the second season that I fell in love with the franchise.

I still remember the scene on the beach where the group decided to end their group as to keep the name of muse to themselves rather than letting it become a school brand that would no longer represent the nine of them who have worked so hard to break through and get a chance to compete among the best. This scene is by far my favorite of the whole franchise and I can shamelessly say that it made me cry, it was in fact one of the very first scene that managed to make me drop my tears.

Another great scene was the graduation ceremony, which I absolutely loved. I watched that scene when I was in secondary 4, which is the year prior to the final year in Quebec's education system. Back then I thought, "I want to sing love live's graduation song on the day of my own graduation". I was sure I would graduate without any issue, I had extreme ease at school and the content seen in secondary school isn't very difficult. However, come secondary 5, the last year of secondary school, I realised that my weakness in french might cause me to fail. I had always been weak in french but I always managed to pass thanks to the exercise other than writing, since my only weakness as grammar. But this time, the final french exam was different. If you failed one of the three category evaluated in the exam, (content, grammar, structure) you would fail the whole exam.

I feared that I would fail this exam, in fact I didn't think I had the skill to pass it. I thought back at my wish to sing love live's graduation song on my graduation day and realised that though back when I thought of the idea it was just a silly little wish that I didn't care about all that much, over the year that had passed, it had become something that I had started to look forward to. I ended up working as hard as I could not to fail the exam and when the exam came, I desperately wanted to succeed so that I could graduate and sing this song. I always had the tought in my head that failing this course wouldn't be all that bad because the way the school system is made, I could have taken the course again in a specialised course along with a few mandatory course that I would have to take in Cegep, the next level of education. However, I refused to take that route because I felt like I wouldn't truly graduate if I did, and thus, wouldn't be able to sing the song.

I believe that love live is a major reason as to why I so surprisingly managed to pass this critical exam with a grade of 77% despite having failed all of the prior similar exam with grades of around 50% by making around 70 mistake in around 500-600 words if I recall correctly. For that reason it has been of my most dear anime for a long time.


However, after all of the time that I have seen this show, it's magic has faded aways. In fact, I have come to dislike the franchise when I realised just how much of a commercial brand it was with all of it's merch and the coming of love live sunshine. Also, I absolutely despise the movie of the original love live. It is the worst move I have ever seen and I feel as though it is an insult to everything that made love live so great.

If you are asking for best girl, it would be Nico. Her story really surprised me and made her the most genuine character in the series.

Holy shit that answer ended up far longer than I had thought.

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Rank the seven deadly sins based on how much you believe you are guilty of comitting them.

#1) Sloth: the primary vice of my being is laziness, inertia, and apathy. i'm plagued by inaction.

#2) Pride: this is actually somewhat subdued, but is present. i aim to perform well.

#4) Greed: i'm satisfied with modest things. generally, some desire to gain exists, but it's rather mild.

#4) Lust: my libido is actually pretty low relative to most others. just not very aroused by people, per se.

#5) Envy: pretty rare, but i do occasionally hope to gain the artistic or musical skill others have.

#6) Wrath: i don't care enough to be angered or inflict wrath on people, with one mild exception. myself.

#7) Gluttony: i actually eat like shit. with a BMI of 15.8, i'm already severely underweight.

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this is a good question, i like it.

samX500 wrote:

Rank the seven deadly sins based on how much you believe you are guilty of committing them.

welp... time for me to look at myself with this... wonder how much of this i am guilty of...
this is not on any order so... here we go

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Gluttony - there are a few cases i am guilty of this, but even then i actually eat way less than others. i would be thanking my pickiness if it wasn't for the fact that this is the same pickiness that wouldn't let me eat vegetables for GODS SAKE.

Lust - i have this mostly on my thoughts. the only thing that is preventing me from acting on these desires is my self control.

Sloth - ah yes... a funny little classic for me. i would have considered myself as the embodiment of sloth itself if it wasn't for the fact i don't stay lazy for the whole day. i get tired of my laziness sometimes, and i go ahead and work on something that i don't even need to do.

Envy - i am no person to try and put someone down for the sake of my pleasure. i am the person that would rather shame themself than be bitter about someone's achievement.

Pride - i am prideful sometimes, not in the sense i see myself as above others. if we are talking about the bad type of pride, no... i am way too open-minded for that.

Greed - greed... i hate it... not only by concept, but how people use it in my country... you don't give them a single coin? you don't give them free food? you are now the embodiment of greed. in my opinion, the word lost its meaning to me because of this. i just... don't get it because i am not spoiled with expensive stuff at all... and i am saving up my money and trying to be thrifty.

Wrath - even though i am kind of a hothead. i do not seek vengeance out of pure anger, forgiveness is way better in my opinion.

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this is honestly a fun ask to do... so...
same question!

Sloth: I'm usually feeling bad if I sleep less than nine hours daily. I also hate to move, especially when I'm on those moments in where I'm thinking about... things (most of them nonsense). Ah, and I'm too lazy to put this in an order, so you might get an idea.

Lust: Currently controling it. I won't say anything else.

Gluttony: Possibly my worst sin. I like to have something to taste, chew and gulp at all times. If I had the money, I'd buy a pack of assorted cookies and crackers everyday. Even so, I'm losing weight.

Pride: I use to brag, a lot. Unconsciously. About everything. AND MORE THAN YOU.

Wrath: There are few things that make me angry, but these, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH. Fortunately, I'm able to recognize when I'm angry on time, so, my head cools quickly.

Envy: After all, everyone you admire in the bottom is a normal person like you and me. We are not better or worse than anyone in average, so at least I don't envy persons. I might envy a favorable situation or something material other person has, but I don't care about that too much.

Greed: Particularly I consider myself as a simple person. I don't want a huge house, a lot of money or else, just the necessary to have a peaceful life, that doesn't mean I won't buy some things for myself once in a while, yet, when we die we won't take anything so I don't care too much.

Possibly one of the best questions asked so far, so. Same Question.

Here I'll answer my own question

1) Greed: This is definetely my worst sin. I value money to an extreme extent and I wish to have as much of it as I can. I don't really buy a lot of things and greed is the reason for this, I just hate the idea of spending my money and I rarely find something that I think is worth my money.

2) Pride: Pride is a sin that I try really hard to deny but that absolutely do exist. In my head I always rank the people around me and I very often find myself ranking myself above others. It's something that I try hard not to do but that I can't seem to get away from. I also often can't accept opinions different than mines. I usually try to knock myself down and to tell myself that I am bad or stupid to control that pride but when I start to receive praise or that I start to do well on a certain subject, my pride goes way out of hand and always ends up messing everything up. Because of that I am actually pretty sensitive about receiving praise and try to neglect them when I do. Because of how high my pride is and how much I despise being that prideful, I try to lower my self-esteem as much as possible so that it doesn't impact my life, which might sound like a bad self-destructive thing to do but it actually helps me a lot, especially on academic, making myself think I suck at something will make me work very hard on it so that I don't suck at it anymore.

3) Wrath: I don't often feel wrath against other person, there are very few subject I feel strongly about enough to genuinly feel wrath and I usually don't even debate that much so I have very few moments I can feel wrath. However, I am incredibly strict on myself and when I start to do poorly, I become incredibly angry at myself and that anger will last for as long as I haven't redeemed my poor ability and started to get good result again. This is especially bad when the thing I am trying to achieve apears to me as easy. If I cannot do something that I think is easy I will be incredibly angry at myself.

4) Sloth: I often feel like I don't want to do anything and end up wasting tons of time and sometimes entire days doing nothing. I am also to lazy to commit to something on a short period of times. So if I only have one free hours, I will tell myself that I will commit myself latter because right now I don't have the time. My sloth also cause me to have fairly low ambition and makes me think that high ambition are out of my reach. It is the reason why it took me so long to commit to play an instrument. I used to think that learning an instrument was out of my reach and it took me a very big event to shake off that thought. In fact, I think that every skill that I can learn is out of my reach. However, when I have to work to acomplish something, I absolutely will. My fear of failure and my wrath against myself if I do fail are far stronger than my sloth and if I feel like I am about to fail I will work as hard as I can not to fail.

5) Lust: I am very good at controlling it and when I see woman in the city wearing suggestive clothing, I am repulsed by it and actively try not to look at them. However, I do masturbate very often, it's just that I really don't want to see erotic things when I am not in the mood to masturbate.

6) Envy: I don't really feel envy. That is a combination of both my high pride and my low ambition. When I see someone, either, I will think that they are worse than me because of my high pride and will thus not have anything to envy them for, even if they are more succeful than me, or I will think that they are far better than me and that their skill are out of my reach and don't envy them because I do not think I can reach their skill.

7) Gluttony: I don't eat all that much and not all that often. To me eating is kind of a waste of time and if I need to stop doing something to go eat, I won't do it because it will cut me off some time that I could spend working on my work. If I actually do go eat in the middle of my work, it's because I am so hungry that I can't think properly and eating will be an investement of time that I make so that I can think clearer and work faster afterward. Very often I am also just too lazy to go eat something, I very often go to sleep hungry and then try to sleep despite my stomach hurting because I don't want to get up.

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I'll continue with this question, I am glad you like it!

oh no is that pride

1.Greed
2.Envy
3.Pride
4.Wrath
5.Lust
6.Sloth
7.Gluttony

What’s your biggest regret in life?

When I wrote in Mafia Forums for laugh about the inactivity in this subforum.
The problem it's when I posted, my name appared during 22 days in the Mafia button (I never wrote here). For stop that, I called help in the SHITPOST THREAD.
Today it's over...

Rank the 7 deadly sins based on how much you believe you are guilty of comitting them.

from most guilty to least:
1. gluttony
2. sloth
3. wrath
4. envy
5. greed
6. lust
7. pride

what's your biggest achievement on osu?

Still to be seen. So far breaking out of the first 2000s rank.

How far do you want to aim in osu!

answer / i quit osu 4 years ago, i didn't want to aim in any direction but i did hit rank 2.

question /

if you could go back 4 years in time what would you have done differently? (osu related)

rank my beatmap lmao

If you could pick any super power what would it be and why?