A fair question. I had an interest in philosophy, but was not exactly very serious about it. I never purchased any books to read up and research on it, and hardly spent much time going through everything, and I'd mostly delved into its more existential "answers", in a sense.
I think I had mostly sympathized with the ideas set in Absurdism.
Hmm. I glanced at it again and found something that sounded rather similar to my thought process when I escaped my own thoughts of suicide.
I had thought that "As pointless as life may seem, death would be even more pointless".
In the New World Encyclopedia's entry for Absurdism, it eventually says: "...suicide is not a worthwhile solution because if life is veritably absurd, then it is even more absurd to counteract it...", and "...the beauty that people encounter in life makes it worth living. People may create meaning in their own lives, which may not be the objective meaning of life but still provides something for which to strive".
So, yeah. It seems to describe my thoughts pretty well at times, but I should look into things more seriously at some point.
A large part of why I live, after all, is to create, and whether it be some sort of meaning for myself, or perhaps some solace for others to find, even something for me immerse myself in, it's all enjoyable.
I strive to create, and to see how things turn out.
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same question.