pentaqola wrote:

came back to playing osu! and holy shit my skills really has gone to shit after such a long time of not playing

not that i'm a super good player to begin with but still

unless i'm actually judging myself too much i still think im absolute crap

z0z wrote:

i need to sleep earlier
it's almost 7am

probably unlikely to happen anytime soon

Achromalia wrote:

the headphones broke. again.

i'm desperately trying to fix them.

continue.

it's literally the one thing i use most frequently right now that's among the more valuable things in my music production. they're so good, too, they just have issues with structural integrity. almost an infamous point of disappointment.

i basically died inside last night when it happened, but i'm kinda over most of it now that i've understood some of the problem, and now that there's hope to repair it. i just need to understand how, and then do it right. only i can do this right now, after all. i definitely don't want to bother my dad and go through his scrutiny of my stupid fucking mishaps with my equipment and belongings. it's always something that he tends to place the blame on, and even i personally tend to believe i'm at fault for it.

i mean, it's sorta rightful, i think.

i dunno. i just lose trust in myself to take care of things, sometimes.
and it's hard to say, even if this is a common and infamous point of damage in this line of Audio Technica headphones, that this would be solely thanks to that external factor-- not without also somewhat believing i played a part in fucking it up through neglect, too.

i don't seem to know how not to blame myself for this. it's kind of a return to 2018/2019-tier self-hatred, and i'm not really fond of that, as it's really detrimental and kinda makes me miss the point.

anyways. i don't wanna do anything right now without a clear head and a proper understanding. i'll leave it be, go a while without any audio, and come back to this.

[quoted from the server i vented about this in.]