ever felt like you are in a community or in a group of interest but you just cannot connect to them anymore?
back then in circa 2014 when i was unemployed i was able to get in chat with people in the internet (not urgently irl because yuck), and it kinda helped i got around this time a moderator and i was yapping with people in #turkish, tyrannize #german, mod and map actively and interact with the respective community and on top of that I was interacting with other gaming communities (like maplestory) and spend time to chat with strangers and/or people i sorta got closer to.
and years pass, at some point i got a job and things were moving - those communities but also me - and I think i reached a point where i probably hate bothering to invest time in interacting with communities. maybe "hate" is too strong as word but even in """""those""""" times when i was here in OT, i had lots of fun. but idk what happened that i either cannot bother to spend time or just feel like I am wrong there. is that boomer mindset? am i gay? perhaps did I grow out from interacting online in forums, internet chats and games?
it kinda feels sad to think about. or maybe it's a true me-issue.
back then in circa 2014 when i was unemployed i was able to get in chat with people in the internet (not urgently irl because yuck), and it kinda helped i got around this time a moderator and i was yapping with people in #turkish, tyrannize #german, mod and map actively and interact with the respective community and on top of that I was interacting with other gaming communities (like maplestory) and spend time to chat with strangers and/or people i sorta got closer to.
and years pass, at some point i got a job and things were moving - those communities but also me - and I think i reached a point where i probably hate bothering to invest time in interacting with communities. maybe "hate" is too strong as word but even in """""those""""" times when i was here in OT, i had lots of fun. but idk what happened that i either cannot bother to spend time or just feel like I am wrong there. is that boomer mindset? am i gay? perhaps did I grow out from interacting online in forums, internet chats and games?
it kinda feels sad to think about. or maybe it's a true me-issue.
