Itz_UwU_Playz wrote:
hello, stomiks. i have a few things i have to tell about my current mental health
actual personal shitfirst of all, i have undiagnosed ptsd. this leads me to not be brave enough to tell whatever interests or feelings i have right now. im not brave enough to give my phone to any of my family members without my watch (p.s. i dont have any sus folders fr). i have kept this feeling for about a year or smthn. if you can provide me with any therapy please help. thank you.
finally, im gay and my family is homophobic. im afraid once they discover im gay they'll kick me out of the house (again).
Do you have a support system? Like friends or other relatives that you could rely on and provide you with emotional support? You should confide in them about your personal problems, and just be yourself around them. If it's possible, ask them to take you to a psychiatrist or medical professional to get your mental and physical health checked.
It seems that you are suffering from self-confidence. Maybe the reason that you don't want to express yourself to others is because you're scared of their expectations. That they will dislike it, or maybe they'll think you're weird, that your relationship with them will drop if you show them who you truly are. But most of the times, it's not true. Sure, sometimes they might tease you here and there, but they will appreciate that they got to know you more and maybe even participate in your self-expression.
A good step to increase your confidence is to stop caring about what other people think. You will get held back if you continue to dwell on such negative thoughts. It is also best to improve your qualities as a person, so that you will be more likable to people.
Now with your problems about your sexuality. It would be best to hide anything that would make them suspicious of you being gay. It is not ideal to give them a reason to kick you out of the house. If you are a minor and they did kick you out of the house, then call child protective services, as it would be illegal to kick out a minor undre. They will handle it from there and you will be under their care.
If, in the future, you want to come out to your family members about being gay, then read the following questions:
Are you a legal adult?
Are you certain that you will be safe in doing so?
Are you financially stable?
Are you mentally prepared and are you willing to acknowledge that they will never accept your being gay if you were to come out?
If any of these questions are no, then do not come out to your family members until you are able to say yes to all of these questions.
