And I am basically failling almost every single test at this point rn yuck...
But the thing that ticks me off is you NEVER know what's truly coming...I always tend to have to have a feeling to try studying everything even though I am literally procrastinating ..
And then when the test is there suddenly I have a feeling that I lost all of the past memories that I have done and a handful of information suddenly is gone or I missed out something so important that comes in first, but I know everything else...
And yeah what I hate the most is getting numerous fails in a row...Because dear god having to wait like 2 months to finally to try to improve ur grade is soo aaaaaaaa....
Although I actually had lost all of the motivation of being a game developer AS SOON AS I STARTED the 9th grade...There it was a plane crash. I thankfully passed it next time and I wanted to get a job...But my parents weren't too sure about that and thought that I could still pass the entire college...............
Second class and I already got more bored and disinterested and distracted too.
I would rather get a simple job that I can do that only pays me a few bucks instead of goddamn continuing to suffer in this place having to memorize stuff that gets more and more complicated. Although I like the teachers and students.
My mom wants to think of how it would happen when I enter the third grade, because there I can decide to go to a different class that is aimed at programming stuff more, instead of being an expert at electricity or something, because as a kid I always got very interested at programming stuff, but now.........
oof
Thankfully I seem to get a lot more interested at doing music and some art. I have done music before and even did some lyrics of what my first songs would be like, but I only seem to have taken the first steps of music, despite of me always listening to it.
And by art I was always imagining of me doing an episode that would air on TV or on streaming platforms or like even YouTube....Where I would post a webseries for fun.
Idk if it's also okay for me that I would turn on the ads to get some money there too..?
At the very least NO sponsorships, because I hate it everytime the YouTubers mention "This video is sponsored by:" or when they try to make a joke out of it...I just immediately skip this section everytime. Some YouTubers handle that much better (putting it at the end of the vid), but others not so much...Also that wouldn't even fit for that..nah...hell nah...
But I might turn on the ads to get some extra money...I think....idk....
But for now it's just me posting it in some kind of comic...
I also don't really know which desktop I wanna use for animation. I personally either want a simplistic animation program that supports widescreen, despite it being awkward to use.
OR I could technically use the osu! storyboard as animation.
It sounds very very very dumb, but let me tell you something.
The osu! storyboard does have some effects you can do and you can technically customize at how many frames you can animate by calculating the bpm.
And you could draw like all the body parts and add these all together to make animation.
It may look very off..But I wasn't really aiming it to animate it to perfection, rather mote in the middle road where I try my best to make it look half-decent. I could do some more detailed shots if I have some more experience at doing art.
And oh my goodnees I am talking too much lol.
Anyways I suck at school.
The end.