11:33 pm
I think Imma take a shower

17:49 study time pain

11:13am, it's too damn early for a vampire catgirl to be awake and out of bed.

11:06

what am i even doing wrong... ngl

2:08 pm: owie my stomach

11:11

i feel like everyone hates me

3:14pm

Seems like I got silenced recently, not gonna question it.

10:45 am: wow ot ded

5:20pm: damn it seems like i got hit in a mass-silence for replying to a comment that called a map "L". Cool.

3:07pm
i feel stressed for no reason

16:28

march 29th

13:35

Gonna take a shower soon and then pray Zohar.

05:00 am

Formula 1

05:10 am

(F1 Melbourne 2024 spoilers)
Max Verstappen is not gonna win, it was worth it to wake up that early.

7:01 PM Gonna read the Qur'an I think.

1:41 PM greg

14:00 sleepy still

14:02 forgot to take my medication

19:32 29.03.2024
Man, it's been years since I was last in here. It's kinda fun to see how the forum has (and hasn't) evolved over the years. I'll probably take a couple minutes or hours to stroll through nostalgia lane. Wonder who is still active of the old guard.
If the new folks know who the old folks are and such.
Time really changes so much, and then still you have some things like this forum which are a familiar harbour throughout it all.
Hope you all have fun in the forum wasting hours and making top-tier shitposts

13:02

splatoon

10:16pm

my balls hurt

16:32
I want to sleep

14:20

what a time

13:58


I am bored

19:39

i don't care about the atrocities, airy's a goddamn mood

19:07

I'm doing some math.

03:19

...

extremely sleepy
brain fogged
indifference

4:54 AM
Snow.

8:43 PM

Bro i suck at english

10:10 AM

At school, bored out of my mind

11:49 AM

hope to autocannibalize
for verisimilitude

17:46

fuck school

11:04pm

holy sh*t

5:54 PM

I do not, in fact, like loud noise

10:03pm

Busy as hell with exams

18:15 Eastern Europe time
Maybe i could do homework

12:12pm

Plan on doing a ton of chores today

06:55 uhr morgens und ich weiß zum verfickt nicht was ich tun soll, weil ich leider sehr galangweilt bin... ._.

(eigentlich ist es 06:56 uhr morgens aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)

It is 7:09 PM.

My French homework is sitting right in front of me, almost finished.

Just finish it, it won't take that long.

6:44 pm

i keep remembering, i keep fearing

almost everyone seems scary for one reason or another, either for things i believe ive learned about them or for the things i dont yet understand about them

...memories of them from years ago...

people who befriend me only to find out they want to fly me over somewhere or solicit me or something, people who i felt i had to defend and work for because i was sympathetic to them, people in my life that i cant trust to be safe for my vulnerabilities, people who would be gross to me, im tired, people are tiring

why is so hard to trust people and not be paranoid or neurotic near them...? and the people that sometimes seem safe are often people i cant rlly connect with, or are people i fear are exhausted with me or annoyed by me or confused by me. its probably my own shortcomings, fearing im not responsible enough to handle being near anyone... already i fear ive taken enough of people's time and energy, and i dont want to be near people that exploit me either

if i cant trust myself to be "normal" or safe or healthy with people, and if i cant trust people to be safe healthy connections for me, then... would i "deserve" any connection at all? the more i wonder about it, the more i feel compelled to believe i shouldnt want friendship

i dont want to want anything...

i would like to be wrong about people, but

im not exactly a wonderful person either...

neglectful, lazy, obstinate, insecure, neurotic, cowardly, irresponsible, incompetent, indecisive, vain, deluded, and generally oblivious to the world around me

i cant imagine how i realistically would be able to expect to grow to be any better right now, and...

im too fatigued to willingly change anything

It's 8:51 PM.

I have finally finished the French homework task.

Now to go to sleep.

But why am I here instead?

11:21 PM
I'm thinking I should probably go to sleep but I have the day off college tomorrow so it will be fine right?

8:28 am


in my head, they're fighting.

9:57 pm

God why does class have to start at 6 in the morning

13:36 Eastern Europe time
What happens if you could ignite methane in in a very, very cold place? Since burning methane produces water will it just turn into dry ice?

18:44 (6:44 PM) WIB
Damn, Graduation album is a banger

11:59 am

i wanted to type a more meaningful message here that held a vulnerable stream of consciousness, but

i realize i dont want that at all

except im contradicting that now, because if i start saying something, i dont stop until it exhausts me enough. im so lucky that forums like these allow me to take my time and choose to restrain myself from describing most of the things i already know i dont want to share

00:21

gotta go tf to sleep it's a school night

C'est 16h08.

Pour protéger l'environnement, la chose la plus importante est doe conserver l'électricité et l'eau, et pour faire de ça, je pourrais éteindre mes appareils et la lumière quand je finis les utiliser, et aussi fermer le robinet quand je me douche.