no... i mean, i generally am sincere when im expressive!! but a lot of the time im actually trying to mimic and emulate people around me because im generally sick of being numb-- its a case of "sincerity through insincerity", or "it's an act, but it's not fake", or "i'm putting on a mask so i can live how i want to"
i desperately crave to hold onto some kind of lost escapist childhood i never had, but im already all tired and cynically aware and worn out. usually im guessing blindly with anything i do feel :'/ i dont understand how i feel, its all lost in an empty sea of fog
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edit: ah;; i was too late >;p
i was indeed exclusively an std player!!
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next user will often introspect and evaluate why they say what they say online and what causes them to say it