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10:22
Ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn
Ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn
20:58 Today has been strange. These couple of days have been strange. I want everything to return to normal, but know they can't.
Carmlillball wrote:
20:58 Today has been strange. These couple of days have been strange. I want everything to return to normal, but know they can't.
Change can very easily be very frightening.
I think because of this humanity has a tendency to force their environment to adapt to them instead of adapting themselves to the environment - to almost universally disastrous result. If things change, I generally look favorably on the idea of changing yourself to meet those differences.
4:28 PM
AirPods are overrated and Chobani is disgusting1221 am
What do religions that believe in reincarnation think of yolo
1228am
What do religions that believe in reincarnation think of yolo
1228am
Its 9:15 am. Not in a good mood.
16:24. I'm watching isekai trash again for some reason. AND I'M ENJOYING IT.
Puzzle wrote:
Carmlillball wrote:
20:58 Today has been strange. These couple of days have been strange. I want everything to return to normal, but know they can't.
Change can very easily be very frightening.
I think because of this humanity has a tendency to force their environment to adapt to them instead of adapting themselves to the environment - to almost universally disastrous result. If things change, I generally look favorably on the idea of changing yourself to meet those differences.
4:28 PM
19:13
Hiya!
I mainly like to look on the positives, but it's still horribly difficult.
In the end, time is the best thing to solve this. To have the changes happen for so long that they feel normal. And getting used to this concept helps. 'I wont be panicking about these changes in a month or so, so why am I panicking?'. I admire this way of thinking and find it very helpful.
Carmlillball wrote:
Puzzle wrote:
Carmlillball wrote:
20:58 Today has been strange. These couple of days have been strange. I want everything to return to normal, but know they can't.
Change can very easily be very frightening.
I think because of this humanity has a tendency to force their environment to adapt to them instead of adapting themselves to the environment - to almost universally disastrous result. If things change, I generally look favorably on the idea of changing yourself to meet those differences.
4:28 PM
19:13
Hiya!
I mainly like to look on the positives, but it's still horribly difficult.
In the end, time is the best thing to solve this. To have the changes happen for so long that they feel normal. And getting used to this concept helps. 'I wont be panicking about these changes in a month or so, so why am I panicking?'. I admire this way of thinking and find it very helpful.
I'm pretty glad I could suggest something that was helpful, then.
4:05 PM. I'm really, really upset right now. The gist of it is I busted my ass off at work today, promised some customers that I would have things shipped today (literally like 18-20 different parts in a single shipment which is ridiculous) and it's not going to go out because FedEx pickup was fucking early. Early, of all fucking things. We have an entire hour window for pickup- 3:30 to 4:30 - and they come by before 3:20 for the fucking pickup and now because of it this fucking 31 pound box that I worked my ass off to get out on time with literally 20 different parts in it under 8 separate repair orders - that I had to do the paperwork on, package, ship - which I explicitly told our customers would be shipping today - is not going to go out because they come by early. Which we've told them not to do before. I got that shit out in record time and now it doesnt even matter. We even had another package after that - which is supposed to be an expedited package - which won't be going because of this. And I've just generally had an awful day and this made it so much worse.
Wow that sucks. It's always annoying how the things that other people do directly inconveniences you or if serious enough, completely fuck you over and you'll have no control over it whatsoever.Puzzle wrote:
4:05 PM. I'm really, really upset right now. The gist of it is I busted my ass off at work today, promised some customers that I would have things shipped today (literally like 18-20 different parts in a single shipment which is ridiculous) and it's not going to go out because FedEx pickup was fucking early. Early, of all fucking things. We have an entire hour window for pickup- 3:30 to 4:30 - and they come by before 3:20 for the fucking pickup and now because of it this fucking 31 pound box that I worked my ass off to get out on time with literally 20 different parts in it under 8 separate repair orders - that I had to do the paperwork on, package, ship - which I explicitly told our customers would be shipping today - is not going to go out because they come by early. Which we've told them not to do before. I got that shit out in record time and now it doesnt even matter. We even had another package after that - which is supposed to be an expedited package - which won't be going because of this. And I've just generally had an awful day and this made it so much worse.
All you can do is simply hope that it won't happen and be prepared when it inevitably do happen.
It's even more annoying when you realized that it's completely normal and happens somewhat frequent to anyone.
At least it's not too unbearable if it's a genuine honest mistake, like sometimes people just want to fuck over other people for the sake of it and you can't do shit about it.
My older brother is a prime example of such people, he constantly fucked me over for no real reason. He always fucks up and acts incompetent, even though I'm pretty sure he's not that incompetent, just to annoy me or fuck me over with something. And he always use the same fucking excuse of "oh, we're family so you're supposed to forgive me" and he talks as if I'm the petty person and it's my fault that he fucked up that badly.
Like, what the fuck?
I don't really hate my brother, but it's really hard for me to take him seriously.
OT: 4:36 am
I should go to bed.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Wow that sucks. It's always annoying how the things that other people do directly inconveniences you or if serious enough, completely fuck you over and you'll have no control over it whatsoever.
All you can do is simply hope that it won't happen and be prepared when it inevitably do happen.
It's even more annoying when you realized that it's completely normal and happens somewhat frequent to anyone.
At least it's not too unbearable if it's a genuine honest mistake, like sometimes people just want to fuck over other people for the sake of it and you can't do shit about it.
My older brother is a prime example of such people, he constantly fucked me over for no real reason. He always fucks up and acts incompetent, even though I'm pretty sure he's not that incompetent, just to annoy me or fuck me over with something. And he always use the same fucking excuse of "oh, we're family so you're supposed to forgive me" and he talks as if I'm the petty person and it's my fault that he fucked up that badly.
Like, what the fuck?
I don't really hate my brother, but it's really hard for me to take him seriously.
OT: 4:36 am
I should go to bed.
I hate the family excuse so fucking much. I cant even begin to describe to you how much o hate it. It's such bullshit.
Like, I'm not trying to bash on your brother or anything. I dont know him. I'm just speaking in generalities. But thinking people deserve something just because they're family is such a retarded way of thinking. My family is fucked up. My family is awful. They dont deserve shit from me, and I'm not going to give them a damn thing - whether its money, respect, a place to stay - I dont care what it is - unless they deserve it. My family had fucked my life up. I'm still recovering from it. Its taught me that saying somebody deserves something only because they're family is a nice way to ruin yourself. People deserve what they earn. I will never, ever allow anyone to fuck me over just because they're 'Family'. I will never give someone a pass because they happen to be related to me. I don't treat anyone differently just because they're my family. I might love them more, but that doesnt mean I'm going to ignore the bad things that they do. Maybe forgive them easier, maybe make more of an effort to help them, but let it slide just because they're family? No thanks.
That's just my opinion. My own family has really messed things up for me. So it always pisses me off when I hear something about how somebody deserves this or deserves that just because they're family. No they dont. They deserve it if they earn it.
8:24PM
YEETYEETYEET i dont feel any better but here we are
YEETYEETYEET i dont feel any better but here we are
9:02 PM
Sometimes I think about the sky
Turning into fruits and vegetables for no reason why
Sometimes I think about the sky
Turning into fruits and vegetables for no reason why
reuni wrote:
8:24PM
YEETYEETYEET i dont feel any better but here we are
Reuuunniiii I missed you mist Charamaraharadarau
Puzzle wrote:
reuni wrote:
8:24PM
YEETYEETYEET i dont feel any better but here we are
Reuuunniiii I missed you mist Charamaraharadarau
boom
9:33PM
i watched all of kakegurui s1 and im halfway thru xx and boy do i have a lot to say about it
ill wait till i finish tho
10:19 p.m
I'm kinda bored, thinking of doing some photoshop stuff or finish an essay
I'm kinda bored, thinking of doing some photoshop stuff or finish an essay
04:31PM
Wait, wait, wait, wait...
"Dale (CV: Okamoto Nobuhiko)"...
I guess I'll watch just to see if that fits.
Wait, wait, wait, wait...
"Dale (CV: Okamoto Nobuhiko)"...
I guess I'll watch just to see if that fits.
2:30PM
whats so special about this week and why is it everyones busy week
whats so special about this week and why is it everyones busy week
Well, I had to psuedo-run my family business because my aunt was gone, so that was my reason
1:31 PM, I didn't get enough sleep last night. It's ruining my ability to focus :c
1:31 PM, I didn't get enough sleep last night. It's ruining my ability to focus :c
ok mcafee we get it932pm
sikks music puts me in a mood
cut off my legs
sikks music puts me in a mood
cut off my legs
im so fucking drunk
9:34 pm
9:34 pm
10:36PM
every day i feel closer to a breakdown and it sucks that i dont know when its coming but i can feel it
every day i feel closer to a breakdown and it sucks that i dont know when its coming but i can feel it
io love you reuni dont do it
5:24 Wow I woke up early.
It's 11:42 pm
Hi Carm
Hi Carm
09:57AM
*Sees*
https://forums.warpportal.com/index.php?/topic/244618-patch-notes-6132019-complete/
Damn it, I'm missing...
*Sees*
https://forums.warpportal.com/index.php?/topic/244618-patch-notes-6132019-complete/
Damn it, I'm missing...
9:19
Hi Puzzle! c:
Nothing seems to be giving me any enjoyment today, apart from music. So I'm mainly just listening to music while popping in and out of the forums. But at least I'm eating some breakfast today!
Puzzle wrote:
It's 11:42 pm
Hi Carm
Hi Puzzle! c:
Nothing seems to be giving me any enjoyment today, apart from music. So I'm mainly just listening to music while popping in and out of the forums. But at least I'm eating some breakfast today!
10:19AM
bruh what
i finished kakeguruixx and that should not have been its own season. should’ve been a two part season if anything bc that doesn’t wrap anything up properly, as well as there’s LITERALLY half of the election left. smh my head
bruh what
i finished kakeguruixx and that should not have been its own season. should’ve been a two part season if anything bc that doesn’t wrap anything up properly, as well as there’s LITERALLY half of the election left. smh my head
I can't tell if today was a good day for osu or not.
Well, it's 3:11pm anddddd I wanna draw honestly
Well, it's 3:11pm anddddd I wanna draw honestly
1:12 PM PST.
tired. i wanted to make music and had some actual drive for a second, but now i'm a little inert again.
fuck. just looking at my projects discourages me. i don't know what to do with this mess.
tired. i wanted to make music and had some actual drive for a second, but now i'm a little inert again.
fuck. just looking at my projects discourages me. i don't know what to do with this mess.
21:21 I want it to be 22:00 already and for me to be tired. I just want to sleep and have it quickly be tomorrow. At least something interesting will be happening for a while.
And I'll probably have someone to talk to on email, being a friend of a friend. This entire situation is really confusing and I'm hating it. I want it to be July already. I want to talk to my mate again. I want to know she's okay. I want her to know I'm okay. I was in a bad state of mind last time we talked.
And I'll probably have someone to talk to on email, being a friend of a friend. This entire situation is really confusing and I'm hating it. I want it to be July already. I want to talk to my mate again. I want to know she's okay. I want her to know I'm okay. I was in a bad state of mind last time we talked.
8:37PM
i napped for 4 hours today
thats how my day went
i napped for 4 hours today
thats how my day went
6:04 PM PST.
fuck.
i haven't even gotten anything done today, aside from posting the OT!Parliament announcement.
kill me.
eughhhhhhhhh.
fuck.
i haven't even gotten anything done today, aside from posting the OT!Parliament announcement.
kill me.
eughhhhhhhhh.
COCOOOCOCOCOCOOCOCOCOCOCOCOOCOCOCOCOOCOCOCOCOC 836pm LOVE OF MY LIFE AHAHHAAH
10:00 PM: My mouse is starting to lag to hell more and more frequently, I think I should get a new one.
1:12 AM:
i'm internally screaming because I used to think an inappropriate word (guess it) and thought it meant a kind of body type and used to say "I'm a big (word)" please help me
i'm internally screaming because I used to think an inappropriate word (guess it) and thought it meant a kind of body type and used to say "I'm a big (word)" please help me
11:07 PM PST.
i still feel so fucking terrible.
i don't know why.
i'm just so damn tired.
fuck.
i still feel so fucking terrible.
i don't know why.
i'm just so damn tired.
fuck.
17:12 Welp, time for another day!
At least some interesting things are happening today.
At least some interesting things are happening today.
11:13 PM PST.
fuck fuckfuckfuckffcukfcuk
why
whywhy why why whywhywhy hy
eghhhhhhhh
justfcuking
tired.
tired.
tired.
it's so fuckign late already.
so tired.
fuck this.
fuck fuckfuckfuckffcukfcuk
why
whywhy why why whywhywhy hy
eghhhhhhhh
justfcuking
tired.
tired.
tired.
it's so fuckign late already.
so tired.
fuck this.
11:44 PM PST.
father's day has been lackluster.
i have nothing good to say, and my dad's obviously in an irritable mood.
i still feel fucking miserable.
father's day has been lackluster.
i have nothing good to say, and my dad's obviously in an irritable mood.
i still feel fucking miserable.
1:46 am
what is one solution that is doable?
(for the project that's due tomorrow)
what is one solution that is doable?
(for the project that's due tomorrow)
11:57 PM PST.
i'm an absolute fuck-up of a son sometimes.
i'm an absolute fuck-up of a son sometimes.
12:03 AM PST.
i feel strangely suicidal.
not in any serious sense, but i just feel like i want to fucking relax and not exist or something.
eugh. my creativity is just drained.
i can't do anything.
this is terrible.
i feel strangely suicidal.
not in any serious sense, but i just feel like i want to fucking relax and not exist or something.
eugh. my creativity is just drained.
i can't do anything.
this is terrible.
2:08 pm
I wonder what I should get for dinner
I wonder what I should get for dinner
2:12am
holy shit, i'm finally done
there still is the project due on tuesday but i got some of it done already
i'm not sure how well i'll do on the 2 final exams tomorrow
holy shit, i'm finally done
there still is the project due on tuesday but i got some of it done already
i'm not sure how well i'll do on the 2 final exams tomorrow
16:02 WIB
Should I install TOR to entering the "KNIGHTS" Base
Should I install TOR to entering the "KNIGHTS" Base
10:56 My music choices are getting more and more depressing..
23:51 WIB
creating a darkweb side of endline gate?
maybe....i can do that
creating a dark
maybe....i can do that
1:20PM
chicken
nugget
biscuit
nugget in a biscuit
nugget
biscuit
nugget in a biscuit
nugget
biscuit
nugget in a biscuit
dip it all in mashed potatoes
chicken
nugget
biscuit
nugget in a biscuit
nugget
biscuit
nugget in a biscuit
nugget
biscuit
nugget in a biscuit
dip it all in mashed potatoes
03:00 WIB
i did it.
i made it.
you think i can't do that, huh
but
finally
it's here
here you go
bh432-d94an-r753z-v17bz
follow this code and i'll see you on new cities
i made it.
you think i can't do that, huh
but
finally
it's here
here you go
bh432-d94an-r753z-v17bz
follow this code and i'll see you on new cities
23:41 Thinking about finding an ergonomic setup to play osu with. Still haven't found one that actually feels comfy to play with.
2:58 PM PST.
it's over for now.
i'm on a forced hiatus, sadly.
thanks to my admittedly terrible inability to care for my things, i've fucked it all up for myself.
my laptop is fucked.
and i won't be getting another one.
music and art are out of the picture, just like that.
bye.
well, at least this phone will have to do.
maybe a job would help, but i'm not entirely sure how that'd work.
i'm fucked.
it's over for now.
i'm on a forced hiatus, sadly.
thanks to my admittedly terrible inability to care for my things, i've fucked it all up for myself.
my laptop is fucked.
and i won't be getting another one.
music and art are out of the picture, just like that.
bye.
well, at least this phone will have to do.
maybe a job would help, but i'm not entirely sure how that'd work.
i'm fucked.
7:39 am
What should I get for breakfast?
What should I get for breakfast?
7:40 PM PST.
SHIIIIT.
i fucking despise everything.
i can't do anything useful with my life. it all feels so fucking meaningless.
all because i'm not able to make music and art.
kill me.
SHIIIIT.
i fucking despise everything.
i can't do anything useful with my life. it all feels so fucking meaningless.
all because i'm not able to make music and art.
kill me.
Achromalia wrote:
7:40 PM PST.
SHIIIIT.
i fucking despise everything.
i can't do anything useful with my life. it all feels so fucking meaningless.
all because i'm not able to make music and art.
kill me.
I had a similar issue, I used to be really devoted to art, but I was really depressed and I believed I couldn't do it anymore because I thought everything was all crap. But with all things, it takes time and patience for there to be great outcomes. It may look like crap now, but instead of beating yourself over all that, do one day at a time. Then you'll see that later you'll start to form your own style and you'll be happy with how everything comes out. Don't sweat it, you're being hard on yourself, you have a long way to go.
ot: 11:32 p.m
I came home from class at 4:00 p.m and went to sleep as soon as I got home. I woke up at 8:00 p.m, I'm wondering if I can go back to sleep.
11:34 pm
i guess i'm going to continue the project that's due tomorrow
i guess i'm going to continue the project that's due tomorrow
12:32 Today's going by at a reasonable pace. I hope this continues.
Deja VuAchromalia wrote:
2:58 PM PST.
it's over for now.
i'm on a forced hiatus, sadly.
thanks to my admittedly terrible inability to care for my things, i've fucked it all up for myself.
my laptop is fucked.
and i won't be getting another one.
music and art are out of the picture, just like that.
bye.
well, at least this phone will have to do.
maybe a job would help, but i'm not entirely sure how that'd work.
i'm fucked.
I have heard all this before.
20:33 WIB
beautiful isn't it?
as you can see
there's no any data there
except 177013, 69 88 80 76 79 82 65 84 73 79 78 and yrots edis
actually there is REDACTED, REDACTED and REDACTED
oh, you didn't see that. Sorry
I'll make them visible for you
but, I must revoke your code. Sorry
Don't worry, I'll give you the new one
as you can see
there's no any data there
except 177013, 69 88 80 76 79 82 65 84 73 79 78 and yrots edis
actually there is REDACTED, REDACTED and REDACTED
oh, you didn't see that. Sorry
I'll make them visible for you
but, I must revoke your code. Sorry
Don't worry, I'll give you the new one
8:36 pm
Still don’t know what should I get for dinner
Still don’t know what should I get for dinner
15:45
Seems like dinner's going to be the first meal of the day. I couldn't be bothered to have breakfast or lunch, and I don't think I'm going to get anything within the next 2 hours. Heck, I don't even want dinner.
Been watching some videos by penguinz0. His older content never really gets old so I've spent some time rewatching them. Might go on r/science later.
It feels strange, not checking my emails today.
Seems like dinner's going to be the first meal of the day. I couldn't be bothered to have breakfast or lunch, and I don't think I'm going to get anything within the next 2 hours. Heck, I don't even want dinner.
Been watching some videos by penguinz0. His older content never really gets old so I've spent some time rewatching them. Might go on r/science later.
It feels strange, not checking my emails today.
6:37PM
TIL I CAN SINGLETAP 250-260BPM OKAY ITS FUCKIN DT TIME WHEN I GET MY STUFF BACK
TIL I CAN SINGLETAP 250-260BPM OKAY ITS FUCKIN DT TIME WHEN I GET MY STUFF BACK
6:57 am
When will I start cleaning my modding queue list...
When will I start cleaning my modding queue list...
7:53 Every day's coated in a beautiful layer of odd melancholy.
12:13 Had the opportunity to see the college I'll be going to and get more used to everything. A bit of weight off my shoulders. The change's starting to get less stressful and my mind's starting to get in a better place.
7:50 pm
Had my dinner but still hungry, help
Had my dinner but still hungry, help
9:24 AM
I'm wondering why I'm awake.
I'm wondering why I'm awake.
15:22 I don't know anymore. l keep going through phases of feeling joyful and feeling plain terrible.
02:32 WIB
i see you're waiting, don't you?
waiting to get an access to that "gate" huh?
i see...
here you go
b3d7q-9ny7g-2xfsz-iv7me
waiting to get an access to that "gate" huh?
i see...
here you go
b3d7q-9ny7g-2xfsz-iv7me
20:55 Please hurry up, tomorrow.
9:35 p.m
Thinking of washing my hair, and grinding for spirit orbs on Brave Souls after
Thinking of washing my hair, and grinding for spirit orbs on Brave Souls after
10:25PM
I HEAR A NOISE AND I CANT TELL IF IT IS AN ANGRY BABY OR AN ANGRY CAT AND IM FUCKING TERRIFIED
I HEAR A NOISE AND I CANT TELL IF IT IS AN ANGRY BABY OR AN ANGRY CAT AND IM FUCKING TERRIFIED
8:33 l don't even know anymore.
10:10 Not very happy with my brother. At all. ._.
18:12 10 more days until July, 10 more days!
Why have I got 'Angels on the moon' stuck in my head despite me listening to 'The Siren'?
10:10 Not very happy with my brother. At all. ._.
18:12 10 more days until July, 10 more days!
Why have I got 'Angels on the moon' stuck in my head despite me listening to 'The Siren'?
11:53 Really bored
21:46 Late night tonight, sleeping at either 10:30 or 11:00
7:20 I'm actually feeling motivated. A rare, beautiful thing.
[A bit before 10:15AM]
What?!
One of the best ships on Steam?!
What?!
One of the best ships on Steam?!
10pm
Pretty sure I’m wasted
Pretty sure I’m wasted
16:21 And I'm addicted to ANOTHER band - Delain.
Currently listening to:
It reminds me of a friend I used to have. She liked Thriving Ivory and Evanescence. In fact, she got me into Thriving Ivory. I know that she would love this band, if she doesn't know it already. The song is quite emotional for me, but I love it all the same. I like emotional songs.
I also love the beat and vocals.
I really thank Osu! for introducing me to Delain (I was searching for Nightwish beatmaps).
16:42 I keep going over and over every possible route I think the conversation in July can go. I can't stop. It's really annoying and quite worrying, but it also makes me feel secure and know my future self will thank me for it.
Currently listening to:
It reminds me of a friend I used to have. She liked Thriving Ivory and Evanescence. In fact, she got me into Thriving Ivory. I know that she would love this band, if she doesn't know it already. The song is quite emotional for me, but I love it all the same. I like emotional songs.
I also love the beat and vocals.
I really thank Osu! for introducing me to Delain (I was searching for Nightwish beatmaps).
16:42 I keep going over and over every possible route I think the conversation in July can go. I can't stop. It's really annoying and quite worrying, but it also makes me feel secure and know my future self will thank me for it.
[Started writing this at 08:00PM]
FPS games feel bland, progressively.
Part of real players have their ways of having fun, toxic/offensive to some other parts, whom the "toxic" people consider "retards". While you can have your way against CPU players, when it comes to skill.
At least, a few of them explain their "behavior"... But that only shows how important(?) is the gap of skill level between them and their victims.
That sentence above kind of irritates me even more. That may say that I'm one of those "retards", but the opposite side are quite wrong as well to me.
"Fun", eh...
FPS games feel bland, progressively.
Part of real players have their ways of having fun, toxic/offensive to some other parts, whom the "toxic" people consider "retards". While you can have your way against CPU players, when it comes to skill.
At least, a few of them explain their "behavior"... But that only shows how important(?) is the gap of skill level between them and their victims.
That sentence above kind of irritates me even more. That may say that I'm one of those "retards", but the opposite side are quite wrong as well to me.
"Fun", eh...
9:52PM
WHY AM I ALLOWED ON THE INTERNET PAST LIKE 7 UGHHHGFJFJDHSJHSNA
WHY AM I ALLOWED ON THE INTERNET PAST LIKE 7 UGHHHGFJFJDHSJHSNA