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23:41 Thinking about finding an ergonomic setup to play osu with. Still haven't found one that actually feels comfy to play with.
2:58 PM PST.
it's over for now.
i'm on a forced hiatus, sadly.
thanks to my admittedly terrible inability to care for my things, i've fucked it all up for myself.
my laptop is fucked.
and i won't be getting another one.
music and art are out of the picture, just like that.
bye.
well, at least this phone will have to do.
maybe a job would help, but i'm not entirely sure how that'd work.
i'm fucked.
it's over for now.
i'm on a forced hiatus, sadly.
thanks to my admittedly terrible inability to care for my things, i've fucked it all up for myself.
my laptop is fucked.
and i won't be getting another one.
music and art are out of the picture, just like that.
bye.
well, at least this phone will have to do.
maybe a job would help, but i'm not entirely sure how that'd work.
i'm fucked.
7:39 am
What should I get for breakfast?
What should I get for breakfast?
7:40 PM PST.
SHIIIIT.
i fucking despise everything.
i can't do anything useful with my life. it all feels so fucking meaningless.
all because i'm not able to make music and art.
kill me.
SHIIIIT.
i fucking despise everything.
i can't do anything useful with my life. it all feels so fucking meaningless.
all because i'm not able to make music and art.
kill me.
Achromalia wrote:
7:40 PM PST.
SHIIIIT.
i fucking despise everything.
i can't do anything useful with my life. it all feels so fucking meaningless.
all because i'm not able to make music and art.
kill me.
I had a similar issue, I used to be really devoted to art, but I was really depressed and I believed I couldn't do it anymore because I thought everything was all crap. But with all things, it takes time and patience for there to be great outcomes. It may look like crap now, but instead of beating yourself over all that, do one day at a time. Then you'll see that later you'll start to form your own style and you'll be happy with how everything comes out. Don't sweat it, you're being hard on yourself, you have a long way to go.
ot: 11:32 p.m
I came home from class at 4:00 p.m and went to sleep as soon as I got home. I woke up at 8:00 p.m, I'm wondering if I can go back to sleep.
11:34 pm
i guess i'm going to continue the project that's due tomorrow
i guess i'm going to continue the project that's due tomorrow
12:32 Today's going by at a reasonable pace. I hope this continues.
Deja VuAchromalia wrote:
2:58 PM PST.
it's over for now.
i'm on a forced hiatus, sadly.
thanks to my admittedly terrible inability to care for my things, i've fucked it all up for myself.
my laptop is fucked.
and i won't be getting another one.
music and art are out of the picture, just like that.
bye.
well, at least this phone will have to do.
maybe a job would help, but i'm not entirely sure how that'd work.
i'm fucked.
I have heard all this before.
20:33 WIB
beautiful isn't it?
as you can see
there's no any data there
except 177013, 69 88 80 76 79 82 65 84 73 79 78 and yrots edis
actually there is REDACTED, REDACTED and REDACTED
oh, you didn't see that. Sorry
I'll make them visible for you
but, I must revoke your code. Sorry
Don't worry, I'll give you the new one
as you can see
there's no any data there
except 177013, 69 88 80 76 79 82 65 84 73 79 78 and yrots edis
actually there is REDACTED, REDACTED and REDACTED
oh, you didn't see that. Sorry
I'll make them visible for you
but, I must revoke your code. Sorry
Don't worry, I'll give you the new one
8:36 pm
Still don’t know what should I get for dinner
Still don’t know what should I get for dinner
15:45
Seems like dinner's going to be the first meal of the day. I couldn't be bothered to have breakfast or lunch, and I don't think I'm going to get anything within the next 2 hours. Heck, I don't even want dinner.
Been watching some videos by penguinz0. His older content never really gets old so I've spent some time rewatching them. Might go on r/science later.
It feels strange, not checking my emails today.
Seems like dinner's going to be the first meal of the day. I couldn't be bothered to have breakfast or lunch, and I don't think I'm going to get anything within the next 2 hours. Heck, I don't even want dinner.
Been watching some videos by penguinz0. His older content never really gets old so I've spent some time rewatching them. Might go on r/science later.
It feels strange, not checking my emails today.
6:37PM
TIL I CAN SINGLETAP 250-260BPM OKAY ITS FUCKIN DT TIME WHEN I GET MY STUFF BACK
TIL I CAN SINGLETAP 250-260BPM OKAY ITS FUCKIN DT TIME WHEN I GET MY STUFF BACK
6:57 am
When will I start cleaning my modding queue list...
When will I start cleaning my modding queue list...
7:53 Every day's coated in a beautiful layer of odd melancholy.
12:13 Had the opportunity to see the college I'll be going to and get more used to everything. A bit of weight off my shoulders. The change's starting to get less stressful and my mind's starting to get in a better place.
7:50 pm
Had my dinner but still hungry, help
Had my dinner but still hungry, help
15:22 I don't know anymore. l keep going through phases of feeling joyful and feeling plain terrible.
02:32 WIB
i see you're waiting, don't you?
waiting to get an access to that "gate" huh?
i see...
here you go
b3d7q-9ny7g-2xfsz-iv7me
waiting to get an access to that "gate" huh?
i see...
here you go
b3d7q-9ny7g-2xfsz-iv7me
20:55 Please hurry up, tomorrow.
9:35 p.m
Thinking of washing my hair, and grinding for spirit orbs on Brave Souls after
Thinking of washing my hair, and grinding for spirit orbs on Brave Souls after
10:25PM
I HEAR A NOISE AND I CANT TELL IF IT IS AN ANGRY BABY OR AN ANGRY CAT AND IM FUCKING TERRIFIED
I HEAR A NOISE AND I CANT TELL IF IT IS AN ANGRY BABY OR AN ANGRY CAT AND IM FUCKING TERRIFIED
8:33 l don't even know anymore.
10:10 Not very happy with my brother. At all. ._.
18:12 10 more days until July, 10 more days!
Why have I got 'Angels on the moon' stuck in my head despite me listening to 'The Siren'?
10:10 Not very happy with my brother. At all. ._.
18:12 10 more days until July, 10 more days!
Why have I got 'Angels on the moon' stuck in my head despite me listening to 'The Siren'?
11:53 Really bored
21:46 Late night tonight, sleeping at either 10:30 or 11:00
7:20 I'm actually feeling motivated. A rare, beautiful thing.
[A bit before 10:15AM]
What?!
One of the best ships on Steam?!
What?!
One of the best ships on Steam?!
10pm
Pretty sure I’m wasted
Pretty sure I’m wasted
16:21 And I'm addicted to ANOTHER band - Delain.
Currently listening to:
It reminds me of a friend I used to have. She liked Thriving Ivory and Evanescence. In fact, she got me into Thriving Ivory. I know that she would love this band, if she doesn't know it already. The song is quite emotional for me, but I love it all the same. I like emotional songs.
I also love the beat and vocals.
I really thank Osu! for introducing me to Delain (I was searching for Nightwish beatmaps).
16:42 I keep going over and over every possible route I think the conversation in July can go. I can't stop. It's really annoying and quite worrying, but it also makes me feel secure and know my future self will thank me for it.
Currently listening to:
It reminds me of a friend I used to have. She liked Thriving Ivory and Evanescence. In fact, she got me into Thriving Ivory. I know that she would love this band, if she doesn't know it already. The song is quite emotional for me, but I love it all the same. I like emotional songs.
I also love the beat and vocals.
I really thank Osu! for introducing me to Delain (I was searching for Nightwish beatmaps).
16:42 I keep going over and over every possible route I think the conversation in July can go. I can't stop. It's really annoying and quite worrying, but it also makes me feel secure and know my future self will thank me for it.
[Started writing this at 08:00PM]
FPS games feel bland, progressively.
Part of real players have their ways of having fun, toxic/offensive to some other parts, whom the "toxic" people consider "retards". While you can have your way against CPU players, when it comes to skill.
At least, a few of them explain their "behavior"... But that only shows how important(?) is the gap of skill level between them and their victims.
That sentence above kind of irritates me even more. That may say that I'm one of those "retards", but the opposite side are quite wrong as well to me.
"Fun", eh...
FPS games feel bland, progressively.
Part of real players have their ways of having fun, toxic/offensive to some other parts, whom the "toxic" people consider "retards". While you can have your way against CPU players, when it comes to skill.
At least, a few of them explain their "behavior"... But that only shows how important(?) is the gap of skill level between them and their victims.
That sentence above kind of irritates me even more. That may say that I'm one of those "retards", but the opposite side are quite wrong as well to me.
"Fun", eh...