5:55pm
Currently contemplating on the decisions made in the past hour
I have an exam tomorrow.
Currently contemplating on the decisions made in the past hour
I have an exam tomorrow.
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3:41 AM
Thanks to rank decay I might actually beat this other trackball osu player in rank soon. Its never really been a goal of mine but I guess it'll bring some satisfaction? Although I don't actually play too often so it may still take a while.
I'm comin for ya booty Trackball dude so ya better buckle that ass up boi
Thanks to rank decay I might actually beat this other trackball osu player in rank soon. Its never really been a goal of mine but I guess it'll bring some satisfaction? Although I don't actually play too often so it may still take a while.
I'm comin for ya booty Trackball dude so ya better buckle that ass up boi
4:07 AM PST.
time to head to bed.
made some progress.
time to head to bed.
made some progress.
Achromalia wrote:
4:07 AM PST.
time to head to bed.
made some progress.
That's good news. I'll be checking out your post on the disc server when I get a chance.
Its 8:43 AM. I'm thinking about next Saturday after this one. That will be the last anatomy sketch I bang out for my month of anatomy and I can finally go back to actually enjoying drawing. I think I'll improve a lot. Not sure what I want to make at that point though.
Also I'm hungry and have a nice lunch for work but cant eat it now.
18:24 School went well. I think I've done really well in the maths exam!
Had lunch today.. I think that the school WAS told about my 'lack' of eating (I honestly don't think I'm eating that little, but what do I know, everyone else irl is concerned), after all, so the TAs are really putting their foot down on lunches. I must have lunch. I can't eat much of it though, and it's just making my poor appetite for dinner worse. I think it's making me eat less, even if it's more meals. At least I've managed to eat SOME dinner today.
I don't know how, or why, my eating habits have changed so much. Used to eat all the time.
Been quite successful, socially. Been chatting a bit. I'm definitely more calm now!
Been studying Biology, and I'll continue to do so.
Had lunch today.. I think that the school WAS told about my 'lack' of eating (I honestly don't think I'm eating that little, but what do I know, everyone else irl is concerned), after all, so the TAs are really putting their foot down on lunches. I must have lunch. I can't eat much of it though, and it's just making my poor appetite for dinner worse. I think it's making me eat less, even if it's more meals. At least I've managed to eat SOME dinner today.
I don't know how, or why, my eating habits have changed so much. Used to eat all the time.
Been quite successful, socially. Been chatting a bit. I'm definitely more calm now!
Been studying Biology, and I'll continue to do so.
08:13PM
Now that I think about it, I'm already making a mistake typing the quotation marks first and then inserting the text afterwards, am I not...
Now that I think about it, I'm already making a mistake typing the quotation marks first and then inserting the text afterwards, am I not...
I just watched a bunch of grandmas twerk
1229pm
Think I just swallowed my wax 908 pm
1229pm
Think I just swallowed my wax 908 pm
Journal wrote:
I just watched a bunch of grandmas twerk
1229pm
Think I just swallowed my wax 908 pm
Uhhhhh
Hey are you okay
It's 9:24 PM and I'm really upset with myself. Anatomy practice went absolutely god awful today. I'm not even sure if I learned anything from it.
11:25 p.m
If I don't take a shower and go to sleep right now, I won't be able to get up in the morning and i'll end up late again
If I don't take a shower and go to sleep right now, I won't be able to get up in the morning and i'll end up late again
2:03 AM
This Asset Forge software is pretty useful for making some simple models for 3D projects. Its got Simplistic UI and is super easy to understand and get right into. It's nice for quickly whipping up some simple-looking models, especially if you've got little to no experience with modeling like me. It's fun to mess around with it as well to see what I can do with it.
I feel like I'm talking about this as if this were an advertisement. Next I'd say something like-
ENTER CODE "WESTONINI" AT CHECKOUT FOR 25% OFF YOUR PURCHASE OF ASSET FORGE!!!
This Asset Forge software is pretty useful for making some simple models for 3D projects. Its got Simplistic UI and is super easy to understand and get right into. It's nice for quickly whipping up some simple-looking models, especially if you've got little to no experience with modeling like me. It's fun to mess around with it as well to see what I can do with it.
I feel like I'm talking about this as if this were an advertisement. Next I'd say something like-
ENTER CODE "WESTONINI" AT CHECKOUT FOR 25% OFF YOUR PURCHASE OF ASSET FORGE!!!
Tad
Listen to me Tad
We have to make the featherless penguin goddess decide to become trans
9:09
Listen to me Tad
We have to make the featherless penguin goddess decide to become trans
9:09
05:41PM
Damn it.
05:43PM
What the...
9 songs ( . .)
Damn it.
05:43PM
What the...
9 songs ( . .)
17:02 Today has actually been good, and I'm so glad it's the weekend starting from tomorrow! Dreading leaver's assembly already though.. I've never liked any assemblies, I've always avoided them. They're painfully overwhelming.
10:19 AM.
It seems like I'm the only one who doesn't know what to do, write or type sometimes.
I got left behind, and couldn't even finish my first paragraph in time.
This final grade is going to fuck me over.
I don't think I even had a chance.
Eghh.
It seems like I'm the only one who doesn't know what to do, write or type sometimes.
I got left behind, and couldn't even finish my first paragraph in time.
This final grade is going to fuck me over.
I don't think I even had a chance.
Eghh.
Achromalia wrote:
10:19 AM.
It seems like I'm the only one who doesn't know what to do, write or type sometimes.
I got left behind, and couldn't even finish my first paragraph in time.
This final grade is going to fuck me over.
I don't think I even had a chance.
Eghh.
No Ahhhh
Shibbt. Maybe you can talk to your teacher about it. They might be understanding and give you some sort of extension of some type.
8:12
Woke at 5:30. Wow, time's going fast!
I actually have a decent idea for a story, and this always puts me in a great mood. And, while planning, the story keeps improving and improving!
l write science fiction. Easily the best genre to write and read!
Had to explain something (which was emotionally quite difficult for me to explain) to a friend, but I've got a reply starting with 'WOW! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!'. She doesn't seem to be the emotional type, so this is truly special. I nearly cried, I was so happy, I love to know I've made someone so happy! More than worth it!
Damn, that sucks, I've went through the same with much of my English Language exams. I'd be surprised to pass that. (At least my Literature papers were great, though!) You're not the only one screwed. Heck, you probably have more of a chance than I do.
I'm a worrier myself, so I know that this is difficult, but try not to worry until you get your grade. I'm currently trying this, and it does make me more optimistic for the future exams. Maybe, you've not done as bad as you thought. But I don't know how American schooling and grading works.
Woke at 5:30. Wow, time's going fast!
I actually have a decent idea for a story, and this always puts me in a great mood. And, while planning, the story keeps improving and improving!
l write science fiction. Easily the best genre to write and read!
Had to explain something (which was emotionally quite difficult for me to explain) to a friend, but I've got a reply starting with 'WOW! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!'. She doesn't seem to be the emotional type, so this is truly special. I nearly cried, I was so happy, I love to know I've made someone so happy! More than worth it!
Achromalia wrote:
10:19 AM.
It seems like I'm the only one who doesn't know what to do, write or type sometimes.
I got left behind, and couldn't even finish my first paragraph in time.
This final grade is going to fuck me over.
I don't think I even had a chance.
Eghh.
Damn, that sucks, I've went through the same with much of my English Language exams. I'd be surprised to pass that. (At least my Literature papers were great, though!) You're not the only one screwed. Heck, you probably have more of a chance than I do.
I'm a worrier myself, so I know that this is difficult, but try not to worry until you get your grade. I'm currently trying this, and it does make me more optimistic for the future exams. Maybe, you've not done as bad as you thought. But I don't know how American schooling and grading works.
12:52 AM PST.
well, the assignment's already due. i started the second paragraph.
that accounts for something akin to an F. i'd predict somethin' like 15%.
considering how heavily weighted the finals are, it'll bring me from the 85% i struggled to get up to in this damn class down to somewhere between 55% and 70%.
a failing grade's quite a big deal considering my circumstances, though i'd rather not explain them.
today was terrible. but tomorrow should be a nice day.
i'm excited to meet her again, after all these years.
well, the assignment's already due. i started the second paragraph.
that accounts for something akin to an F. i'd predict somethin' like 15%.
considering how heavily weighted the finals are, it'll bring me from the 85% i struggled to get up to in this damn class down to somewhere between 55% and 70%.
a failing grade's quite a big deal considering my circumstances, though i'd rather not explain them.
today was terrible. but tomorrow should be a nice day.
i'm excited to meet her again, after all these years.
11:21AM
Hope you go through a nice day ( '-')b
11:33AM
FOR F***'S SAKE, SHAM!
YOU'VE BEEN IN MY WAY FOR LIKE, AT LEAST 6 TIMES!!
Hope you go through a nice day ( '-')b
11:33AM
FOR F***'S SAKE, SHAM!
YOU'VE BEEN IN MY WAY FOR LIKE, AT LEAST 6 TIMES!!
17:23 Nice and calm. Did some maths studying and been chilling a bit.
Thinkingofgettingapiercing 1138am also 女團 album is pretty good
packages are taking a long time to arrive 1142am
packages are taking a long time to arrive 1142am
Its 12 PM. I'm gonna go swimming with my little brother. Should be alright.
18:04
I have 5 hours to study. Time to make a start!
I have 5 hours to study. Time to make a start!
Journal wrote:
Thinkingofgettingapiercing 1138am also 女團 album is pretty good
packages are taking a long time to arrive 1142am
Oh neat, what type of piercing? I've kinda always wanted to get one as well.
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5:06 PM
My cat seems to be back to normal. He wasn't eating or drinking, was constantly hiding and throwing up, and was losing a lot of weight. He wasn't acting like his normal self at all.
Took him to the vet a few times where they gave him shots and had some scans done and what-not. I believe they said that they suspect that he has Pancreatitis, but they aren't entirely sure how cats get that in the first place.
Either way hes been acting like his usual self recently and has started eating again so I'm pretty relieved.
Double helix, and nostril (studs probably)Westonini wrote:
Oh neat, what type of piercing? I've kinda always wanted to get one as well.
What's been holding you back?
I'm hoping he'll stay this way, good luck.Westonini wrote:
Either way hes been acting like his usual self recently and has started eating again so I'm pretty relieved.
817pm
6:27 PM
Not sure. I never really looked too much into it I suppose. Also it may or may not be a hassle dealing with it depending on where you put them and stuff like that. Could hurt you when applying for a job as well, same with tats (which I've also considered getting). They can look pretty cool tho so who knows, maybe eventually I'll get one. My sis has a really cool apocalypse-skull type thing on her upper back that looks pretty nice. Thing is fucking huge tho.
Journal wrote:
What's been holding you back?
Not sure. I never really looked too much into it I suppose. Also it may or may not be a hassle dealing with it depending on where you put them and stuff like that. Could hurt you when applying for a job as well, same with tats (which I've also considered getting). They can look pretty cool tho so who knows, maybe eventually I'll get one. My sis has a really cool apocalypse-skull type thing on her upper back that looks pretty nice. Thing is fucking huge tho.
It's 9:53 PM and I'm actually a zombie right now. So tired after today. Was productive though. And fairly stressful... but productive. Learned lots in my anatomy practice. It went well. Only 1 week left. That translates to 5 days of drawing anatomy only. I'm doing ittttt
10:33
Time's going quite quickly!
I've been wanting to go outside for a walk, but I think it's going to rain!
Ate breakfast, made my mum proud. I only ate a Lunchable and I feel quite ill. I'm not really surprised, this has been happening all the time when I eat recently. Very unpleasant.
I used to eat way more than a normal person would, without feeling full, until just a few months ago. How on Earth did I manage to eat so much back then, while I now struggle with a proper breakfast and dinner?
Sunday today, most likely having roast dinner. That's going to make me feel horribly self-conscious.
Played some Osu!. After posting this, I'm going back on. I'm just having a bit of a break right now. Definitely getting much better at alternating!
Planning to study some maths. I studied a lot yesterday and don't have that much to study now for the star-marked topics. Might secure the unmarked. And going to study some Geography. I'm hopeless with this topic!
Been typing out my story, slowly but surely.
Time's going quite quickly!
I've been wanting to go outside for a walk, but I think it's going to rain!
Ate breakfast, made my mum proud. I only ate a Lunchable and I feel quite ill. I'm not really surprised, this has been happening all the time when I eat recently. Very unpleasant.
I used to eat way more than a normal person would, without feeling full, until just a few months ago. How on Earth did I manage to eat so much back then, while I now struggle with a proper breakfast and dinner?
Sunday today, most likely having roast dinner. That's going to make me feel horribly self-conscious.
Played some Osu!. After posting this, I'm going back on. I'm just having a bit of a break right now. Definitely getting much better at alternating!
Planning to study some maths. I studied a lot yesterday and don't have that much to study now for the star-marked topics. Might secure the unmarked. And going to study some Geography. I'm hopeless with this topic!
Been typing out my story, slowly but surely.
21:56
Studying civil law for the test tomorrow.
Kill me.
Studying civil law for the test tomorrow.
Kill me.
5:05PM
I have finals in a week and haven't started studying yet
what should I do
I have finals in a week and haven't started studying yet
what should I do
toonisoop wrote:
5:05PM
I have finals in a week and haven't started studying yet
what should I do
07:22PM
Bah mets-toi y ( . .)
07:23PM
Bon, après, si tu foires, bah ca ira mieux la prochaine fois.
J'espere ( . .)
12:18 PM.
a bit bored.
i'll likely get back to producing music in a little bit, i might make some more progress today.
i need to take care of myself better as well, though.
a bit bored.
i'll likely get back to producing music in a little bit, i might make some more progress today.
i need to take care of myself better as well, though.
8:16 am.
About to take the test.
Only 2 more subjects to go.
I hate finals.
Wish me luck bois.
About to take the test.
Only 2 more subjects to go.
I hate finals.
Wish me luck bois.
18:06
Good luck!
My head's been aching a ton so I've been relaxing. Have to study some maths now.
Decided to send a friend a video my sister sent me. I took a quick glace of the video, saw it should be educational, and rushed into sending it. But I then realised my sister isn't the sort of person to be helpful, nor sensible, and I watched the video. Most of it was okay and would've been funny jokes, but there was a religious joke and.. another joke at the end.. and I really regret sending that video. I apologised as quickly as possible. She would've probably just seen the video as funny, and I've told her far worse (stuff that actually got her concerned) but I just wanted to make sure.
Don't feel like having anything to eat today. Didn't have anything since around 17:00 yesterday but still.
19:52 I'm impressed, still not feeling like anything.
6:54
Got a maths test and I'm super worried for it. I've been studying a ton but I fear just forgetting everything when I'm in the exam. Went over some equations. Circle equations, area of a non right-angled triangle and Cosine stuff. Did a tiny bit of Sine rule, but I'm great at that. Gonna start getting ready for school around 7:00-7:30.
16:24 Maths test ended up going surprisingly well. Kept switching between teachers, which was quite stressful, but also helped with not getting bored. I think I'll do okay in my Chemistry. Stressed. Anxious. Playing some Osu! to rewind.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
8:16 am.
About to take the test.
Only 2 more subjects to go.
I hate finals.
Wish me luck bois.
Good luck!
My head's been aching a ton so I've been relaxing. Have to study some maths now.
Decided to send a friend a video my sister sent me. I took a quick glace of the video, saw it should be educational, and rushed into sending it. But I then realised my sister isn't the sort of person to be helpful, nor sensible, and I watched the video. Most of it was okay and would've been funny jokes, but there was a religious joke and.. another joke at the end.. and I really regret sending that video. I apologised as quickly as possible. She would've probably just seen the video as funny, and I've told her far worse (stuff that actually got her concerned) but I just wanted to make sure.
Don't feel like having anything to eat today. Didn't have anything since around 17:00 yesterday but still.
19:52 I'm impressed, still not feeling like anything.
6:54
Got a maths test and I'm super worried for it. I've been studying a ton but I fear just forgetting everything when I'm in the exam. Went over some equations. Circle equations, area of a non right-angled triangle and Cosine stuff. Did a tiny bit of Sine rule, but I'm great at that. Gonna start getting ready for school around 7:00-7:30.
16:24 Maths test ended up going surprisingly well. Kept switching between teachers, which was quite stressful, but also helped with not getting bored. I think I'll do okay in my Chemistry. Stressed. Anxious. Playing some Osu! to rewind.
17:42
2nd Mathematics A-Level exam tomorrow morning, and have 6 hours left to prepare : (
2nd Mathematics A-Level exam tomorrow morning, and have 6 hours left to prepare : (
01:36 WIB
checking some neocities web
....mebious.neocities.org
checking some neocities web
....mebious.neocities.org
Its 3:42 PM. I'm reading a series of books that have a fairly interesting world but are kind of written pretty badly. The first book was really gripping but I'm on the second now and it just feels really eh. Lackluster. The writing style is seriously bland and the characters are a lot less interesting than they were in the first book. The characters and the world the story was set in were what really made things interesting in the first. Now everything's really getting kind of boring. Which sucks, because I thought it would be very nice to see how the characters progress. I guess I just have to hope something interesting happens soon in the second book to cover for the bland writing.
Other than that, now I'm kinda just sitting around and waiting to go home. I want to practice drawing and osu and stuff. I'm gonna finish out the week strong with my anatomy, I think. Then I can get to drawing stuff that's more fun again.
Other than that, now I'm kinda just sitting around and waiting to go home. I want to practice drawing and osu and stuff. I'm gonna finish out the week strong with my anatomy, I think. Then I can get to drawing stuff that's more fun again.
[A bit before 06:10PM, after some CtB]
I'm losing focus at the most stupid moments...
I'm losing focus at the most stupid moments...
12.21am
I'm still awake because I'm calling my mentee... Great, I guess this is my life now, a life where sleep doesn't exist
I'm still awake because I'm calling my mentee... Great, I guess this is my life now, a life where sleep doesn't exist
18:02 Stressed as Hell. I regret telling my friend so much about my eating. Now so many people are getting involved and most likely my mum's very stressed. She gets very worried because she thinks that everything's her fault, even if it's clearly mine.
Carmlillball wrote:
18:02 Stressed as Hell. I regret telling my friend so much about my eating. Now so many people are getting involved and most likely my mum's very stressed. She gets very worried because she thinks that everything's her fault, even if it's clearly mine.
Fhhh. I hope it all ends up well. Sounds stressful...
Its 4:14 PM and it's raining pretty hard. But the only 2 days left in the week are Thursday and Friday which are my favorite workdays so the rain can suck it. Cant wait for the weekend, as per usual. Especially since I'm planning on Friday being my last day of anatomy sketches.
Journal wrote:
Being called a toe has never felt so nostalgic 903am
04:29PM
*"A toe"...*
...What?
21:46
Journal's a toe.
Journal's a toe.
... ToeHou.
10:22
Ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn
Ph'nglui mglw'nafh Cthulhu R'lyeh wgah'nagl fhtagn
20:58 Today has been strange. These couple of days have been strange. I want everything to return to normal, but know they can't.
Carmlillball wrote:
20:58 Today has been strange. These couple of days have been strange. I want everything to return to normal, but know they can't.
Change can very easily be very frightening.
I think because of this humanity has a tendency to force their environment to adapt to them instead of adapting themselves to the environment - to almost universally disastrous result. If things change, I generally look favorably on the idea of changing yourself to meet those differences.
4:28 PM
AirPods are overrated and Chobani is disgusting1221 am
What do religions that believe in reincarnation think of yolo
1228am
What do religions that believe in reincarnation think of yolo
1228am
Its 9:15 am. Not in a good mood.
16:24. I'm watching isekai trash again for some reason. AND I'M ENJOYING IT.
Puzzle wrote:
Carmlillball wrote:
20:58 Today has been strange. These couple of days have been strange. I want everything to return to normal, but know they can't.
Change can very easily be very frightening.
I think because of this humanity has a tendency to force their environment to adapt to them instead of adapting themselves to the environment - to almost universally disastrous result. If things change, I generally look favorably on the idea of changing yourself to meet those differences.
4:28 PM
19:13
Hiya!
I mainly like to look on the positives, but it's still horribly difficult.
In the end, time is the best thing to solve this. To have the changes happen for so long that they feel normal. And getting used to this concept helps. 'I wont be panicking about these changes in a month or so, so why am I panicking?'. I admire this way of thinking and find it very helpful.
Carmlillball wrote:
Puzzle wrote:
Carmlillball wrote:
20:58 Today has been strange. These couple of days have been strange. I want everything to return to normal, but know they can't.
Change can very easily be very frightening.
I think because of this humanity has a tendency to force their environment to adapt to them instead of adapting themselves to the environment - to almost universally disastrous result. If things change, I generally look favorably on the idea of changing yourself to meet those differences.
4:28 PM
19:13
Hiya!
I mainly like to look on the positives, but it's still horribly difficult.
In the end, time is the best thing to solve this. To have the changes happen for so long that they feel normal. And getting used to this concept helps. 'I wont be panicking about these changes in a month or so, so why am I panicking?'. I admire this way of thinking and find it very helpful.
I'm pretty glad I could suggest something that was helpful, then.
4:05 PM. I'm really, really upset right now. The gist of it is I busted my ass off at work today, promised some customers that I would have things shipped today (literally like 18-20 different parts in a single shipment which is ridiculous) and it's not going to go out because FedEx pickup was fucking early. Early, of all fucking things. We have an entire hour window for pickup- 3:30 to 4:30 - and they come by before 3:20 for the fucking pickup and now because of it this fucking 31 pound box that I worked my ass off to get out on time with literally 20 different parts in it under 8 separate repair orders - that I had to do the paperwork on, package, ship - which I explicitly told our customers would be shipping today - is not going to go out because they come by early. Which we've told them not to do before. I got that shit out in record time and now it doesnt even matter. We even had another package after that - which is supposed to be an expedited package - which won't be going because of this. And I've just generally had an awful day and this made it so much worse.
Wow that sucks. It's always annoying how the things that other people do directly inconveniences you or if serious enough, completely fuck you over and you'll have no control over it whatsoever.Puzzle wrote:
4:05 PM. I'm really, really upset right now. The gist of it is I busted my ass off at work today, promised some customers that I would have things shipped today (literally like 18-20 different parts in a single shipment which is ridiculous) and it's not going to go out because FedEx pickup was fucking early. Early, of all fucking things. We have an entire hour window for pickup- 3:30 to 4:30 - and they come by before 3:20 for the fucking pickup and now because of it this fucking 31 pound box that I worked my ass off to get out on time with literally 20 different parts in it under 8 separate repair orders - that I had to do the paperwork on, package, ship - which I explicitly told our customers would be shipping today - is not going to go out because they come by early. Which we've told them not to do before. I got that shit out in record time and now it doesnt even matter. We even had another package after that - which is supposed to be an expedited package - which won't be going because of this. And I've just generally had an awful day and this made it so much worse.
All you can do is simply hope that it won't happen and be prepared when it inevitably do happen.
It's even more annoying when you realized that it's completely normal and happens somewhat frequent to anyone.
At least it's not too unbearable if it's a genuine honest mistake, like sometimes people just want to fuck over other people for the sake of it and you can't do shit about it.
My older brother is a prime example of such people, he constantly fucked me over for no real reason. He always fucks up and acts incompetent, even though I'm pretty sure he's not that incompetent, just to annoy me or fuck me over with something. And he always use the same fucking excuse of "oh, we're family so you're supposed to forgive me" and he talks as if I'm the petty person and it's my fault that he fucked up that badly.
Like, what the fuck?
I don't really hate my brother, but it's really hard for me to take him seriously.
OT: 4:36 am
I should go to bed.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Wow that sucks. It's always annoying how the things that other people do directly inconveniences you or if serious enough, completely fuck you over and you'll have no control over it whatsoever.
All you can do is simply hope that it won't happen and be prepared when it inevitably do happen.
It's even more annoying when you realized that it's completely normal and happens somewhat frequent to anyone.
At least it's not too unbearable if it's a genuine honest mistake, like sometimes people just want to fuck over other people for the sake of it and you can't do shit about it.
My older brother is a prime example of such people, he constantly fucked me over for no real reason. He always fucks up and acts incompetent, even though I'm pretty sure he's not that incompetent, just to annoy me or fuck me over with something. And he always use the same fucking excuse of "oh, we're family so you're supposed to forgive me" and he talks as if I'm the petty person and it's my fault that he fucked up that badly.
Like, what the fuck?
I don't really hate my brother, but it's really hard for me to take him seriously.
OT: 4:36 am
I should go to bed.
I hate the family excuse so fucking much. I cant even begin to describe to you how much o hate it. It's such bullshit.
Like, I'm not trying to bash on your brother or anything. I dont know him. I'm just speaking in generalities. But thinking people deserve something just because they're family is such a retarded way of thinking. My family is fucked up. My family is awful. They dont deserve shit from me, and I'm not going to give them a damn thing - whether its money, respect, a place to stay - I dont care what it is - unless they deserve it. My family had fucked my life up. I'm still recovering from it. Its taught me that saying somebody deserves something only because they're family is a nice way to ruin yourself. People deserve what they earn. I will never, ever allow anyone to fuck me over just because they're 'Family'. I will never give someone a pass because they happen to be related to me. I don't treat anyone differently just because they're my family. I might love them more, but that doesnt mean I'm going to ignore the bad things that they do. Maybe forgive them easier, maybe make more of an effort to help them, but let it slide just because they're family? No thanks.
That's just my opinion. My own family has really messed things up for me. So it always pisses me off when I hear something about how somebody deserves this or deserves that just because they're family. No they dont. They deserve it if they earn it.
8:24PM
YEETYEETYEET i dont feel any better but here we are
YEETYEETYEET i dont feel any better but here we are
9:02 PM
Sometimes I think about the sky
Turning into fruits and vegetables for no reason why
Sometimes I think about the sky
Turning into fruits and vegetables for no reason why
reuni wrote:
8:24PM
YEETYEETYEET i dont feel any better but here we are
Reuuunniiii I missed you mist Charamaraharadarau
Puzzle wrote:
reuni wrote:
8:24PM
YEETYEETYEET i dont feel any better but here we are
Reuuunniiii I missed you mist Charamaraharadarau
boom
9:33PM
i watched all of kakegurui s1 and im halfway thru xx and boy do i have a lot to say about it
ill wait till i finish tho
10:19 p.m
I'm kinda bored, thinking of doing some photoshop stuff or finish an essay
I'm kinda bored, thinking of doing some photoshop stuff or finish an essay
04:31PM
Wait, wait, wait, wait...
"Dale (CV: Okamoto Nobuhiko)"...
I guess I'll watch just to see if that fits.
Wait, wait, wait, wait...
"Dale (CV: Okamoto Nobuhiko)"...
I guess I'll watch just to see if that fits.
2:30PM
whats so special about this week and why is it everyones busy week
whats so special about this week and why is it everyones busy week
Well, I had to psuedo-run my family business because my aunt was gone, so that was my reason
1:31 PM, I didn't get enough sleep last night. It's ruining my ability to focus :c
1:31 PM, I didn't get enough sleep last night. It's ruining my ability to focus :c
ok mcafee we get it932pm
sikks music puts me in a mood
cut off my legs
sikks music puts me in a mood
cut off my legs
im so fucking drunk
9:34 pm
9:34 pm
10:36PM
every day i feel closer to a breakdown and it sucks that i dont know when its coming but i can feel it
every day i feel closer to a breakdown and it sucks that i dont know when its coming but i can feel it
io love you reuni dont do it
5:24 Wow I woke up early.
It's 11:42 pm
Hi Carm
Hi Carm
09:57AM
*Sees*
https://forums.warpportal.com/index.php?/topic/244618-patch-notes-6132019-complete/
Damn it, I'm missing...
*Sees*
https://forums.warpportal.com/index.php?/topic/244618-patch-notes-6132019-complete/
Damn it, I'm missing...
9:19
Hi Puzzle! c:
Nothing seems to be giving me any enjoyment today, apart from music. So I'm mainly just listening to music while popping in and out of the forums. But at least I'm eating some breakfast today!
Puzzle wrote:
It's 11:42 pm
Hi Carm
Hi Puzzle! c:
Nothing seems to be giving me any enjoyment today, apart from music. So I'm mainly just listening to music while popping in and out of the forums. But at least I'm eating some breakfast today!
10:19AM
bruh what
i finished kakeguruixx and that should not have been its own season. should’ve been a two part season if anything bc that doesn’t wrap anything up properly, as well as there’s LITERALLY half of the election left. smh my head
bruh what
i finished kakeguruixx and that should not have been its own season. should’ve been a two part season if anything bc that doesn’t wrap anything up properly, as well as there’s LITERALLY half of the election left. smh my head
I can't tell if today was a good day for osu or not.
Well, it's 3:11pm anddddd I wanna draw honestly
Well, it's 3:11pm anddddd I wanna draw honestly
1:12 PM PST.
tired. i wanted to make music and had some actual drive for a second, but now i'm a little inert again.
fuck. just looking at my projects discourages me. i don't know what to do with this mess.
tired. i wanted to make music and had some actual drive for a second, but now i'm a little inert again.
fuck. just looking at my projects discourages me. i don't know what to do with this mess.
21:21 I want it to be 22:00 already and for me to be tired. I just want to sleep and have it quickly be tomorrow. At least something interesting will be happening for a while.
And I'll probably have someone to talk to on email, being a friend of a friend. This entire situation is really confusing and I'm hating it. I want it to be July already. I want to talk to my mate again. I want to know she's okay. I want her to know I'm okay. I was in a bad state of mind last time we talked.
And I'll probably have someone to talk to on email, being a friend of a friend. This entire situation is really confusing and I'm hating it. I want it to be July already. I want to talk to my mate again. I want to know she's okay. I want her to know I'm okay. I was in a bad state of mind last time we talked.
8:37PM
i napped for 4 hours today
thats how my day went
i napped for 4 hours today
thats how my day went
6:04 PM PST.
fuck.
i haven't even gotten anything done today, aside from posting the OT!Parliament announcement.
kill me.
eughhhhhhhhh.
fuck.
i haven't even gotten anything done today, aside from posting the OT!Parliament announcement.
kill me.
eughhhhhhhhh.
COCOOOCOCOCOCOOCOCOCOCOCOCOOCOCOCOCOOCOCOCOCOC 836pm LOVE OF MY LIFE AHAHHAAH
10:00 PM: My mouse is starting to lag to hell more and more frequently, I think I should get a new one.
1:12 AM:
i'm internally screaming because I used to think an inappropriate word (guess it) and thought it meant a kind of body type and used to say "I'm a big (word)" please help me
i'm internally screaming because I used to think an inappropriate word (guess it) and thought it meant a kind of body type and used to say "I'm a big (word)" please help me
11:07 PM PST.
i still feel so fucking terrible.
i don't know why.
i'm just so damn tired.
fuck.
i still feel so fucking terrible.
i don't know why.
i'm just so damn tired.
fuck.
17:12 Welp, time for another day!
At least some interesting things are happening today.
At least some interesting things are happening today.
11:13 PM PST.
fuck fuckfuckfuckffcukfcuk
why
whywhy why why whywhywhy hy
eghhhhhhhh
justfcuking
tired.
tired.
tired.
it's so fuckign late already.
so tired.
fuck this.
fuck fuckfuckfuckffcukfcuk
why
whywhy why why whywhywhy hy
eghhhhhhhh
justfcuking
tired.
tired.
tired.
it's so fuckign late already.
so tired.
fuck this.
11:44 PM PST.
father's day has been lackluster.
i have nothing good to say, and my dad's obviously in an irritable mood.
i still feel fucking miserable.
father's day has been lackluster.
i have nothing good to say, and my dad's obviously in an irritable mood.
i still feel fucking miserable.
1:46 am
what is one solution that is doable?
(for the project that's due tomorrow)
what is one solution that is doable?
(for the project that's due tomorrow)
11:57 PM PST.
i'm an absolute fuck-up of a son sometimes.
i'm an absolute fuck-up of a son sometimes.
12:03 AM PST.
i feel strangely suicidal.
not in any serious sense, but i just feel like i want to fucking relax and not exist or something.
eugh. my creativity is just drained.
i can't do anything.
this is terrible.
i feel strangely suicidal.
not in any serious sense, but i just feel like i want to fucking relax and not exist or something.
eugh. my creativity is just drained.
i can't do anything.
this is terrible.
2:08 pm
I wonder what I should get for dinner
I wonder what I should get for dinner