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Tad Fibonacci
When I am really bored and have nothing to do (which is pretty rare lately).
I have would imagine stuffs. Like go on an adventure in my head.
I'd imagine what it's like to fly, to go anywhere I like, to visit countries.
Or I could imagine a story for a novel that I've always wanted but would never write.

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What is the thing that you like and hate most about yourself?
Achromalia
Simultaneously, or separately?

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My apath--...

I'm not sure if I'm even apathetic anymore.

The emotions are there. They're just... repressed, or something.

I hate that I can't understand things well enough.

I appreciate that I at least kept going, kept living, to at least see where I can take this.

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sq.
TeeArctic1
Simultaneously, uh I'd have to go with my naivety, I guess

Makes it easier to make friends and I really like trusting and supporting people, but it also hits me in the face whenever the world isn't as nice as I want it to be or when my kindness prevents me from moving forward in life. I don't want the road to success to be paved by the people I've stepped on to get there

Who's a role model in ypur life, why, and how have they affected you or changed you?
Penguin
I’d say that I have no role models other than myself. I don’t want to strive to be someone else, I want to be me. I want to be the best version of myself that I can be. 2016 version of me is the person who is my role model. I was so happy, motivated, driven, compassionate, etc, but I seem to have lost many of those things.

Same Q
Tad Fibonacci
I don't really have a role model. I just try to become the best version of myself. (Sorry if this sounds a bit similar to Penguin's answer).

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If there are two things that is exactly the same with no differences, but one is real and one is fake.
And of course you know exactly which one is real and which one is fake.
Then which one do you think has a higher value? (Can be monetary value and/or spiritual value)
Penguin
The real one of course has more value. You see it a lot in watches and clothing. There's a lot of fakes that are near identical to the human eye. If you were to buy the fake one, then you wouldn't be supporting the company and people that put so much time and effort into creating it though, so I always go genuine even if the fake is cheaper.

Have you had any teachers that have had a lasting impact on your life? If so, why?
Achromalia
Certainly, in some way or another. I often wind up talking with my teachers for whatever reason, and we can sometimes get into some interesting conversations.

Things like that happened a lot back in middle school and my freshman year.

It's thanks to them for engaging in conversations that I've had the means to analyze and apply my train of thought with.

Not gonna go into too much detail since I'm at school, but yeah, my teachers have certainly played a part in my life as I developed my thought process.

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Your opinion on college? In which cases is it worth it, and in which would it not be worth it?
Tad Fibonacci
I'm in uni atm and in my opinion, it's really up to the person whether it's worth it or not.
To me, it's not that bad.

But is it worth it? Well, I can't say for now, maybe I can answer that question after I've graduated.
Right now I don't really know how I should feel about uni.
I do feel like 4 years in uni is too long and I do feel like I'm missing out a lot.
I'm in 2nd year now but I feel like I haven't learned much at all.
But it did gave me some interesting experience that I won't be able to experience anywhere else that I think would serve me well after I graduated.

So I guess I feel like I didn't learned much, but I did matured a lot ever since I got into uni.
Or maybe that maturity would come gradually anyways regardless of me going to uni or not, but I don't know.
And also if I go to uni, I'll have a better chance at having a good job so that's good I guess.
But I'll have to wait until I graduate to know for sure though. My older brother went to uni too and he got a job that had nothing to do with his major.

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What is the cringiest thing that you've done in the past?
45Traeath
Singing. Well, not the act in itself, but rather what song went out of my mouth.
My audience being classmates of that time I've done it.
I could forgive myself a bit, because it was as a game, the "jukebox".
But that's one of the directions/paths/actions I regret having gone through.


How's the night ("cold", "noisy because of the wind", ...)?
Achromalia
...?

That;s a pretty unusual question, but ehm...

It's a quiet night tonight. Silent, even. I'm just here, on my laptop, in an otherwise pitch-black bedroom, with very little to do.

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What are your favorite songs?
Tad Fibonacci
I have a lot of favorite songs, but I guess most of them came from video games.
Some of them are:

Rivers in the desert
Memories of dust
Snow drive
Teo
Bad apple
Take me home, country road
Idola circus
The lost one's weeping
The importance of being idle
Francium - Nanahira
Everyday is night
Power - Kanye West
Stand by me
Wanderer

And so on but that's all I can remember right now.

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Same question
Birdy
Secede - Born in a Tropical Swamp (most likely my all-time favourite song)
Sweet Trip - To All the Dancers of the World, a Round Form of Fantasy
múm - The Land Between Solar Systems
Belong - October Language
Paavoharju - Pimeänkarkelo
Paavoharju - Italialaisella Laivalla
Candy Claws - White Seal (Shell and Spine)
William Basinski - dlp 1.1
Massive Attack - Small Time Shot Away
Massive Attack - Unfinished Sympathy
The Future Sound of London - Viewed From an Obscure Angle
Angèle - Ta Reine
Healer - The Answer
Carbon Based Lifeforms - Euphotic
Braids - Glass Deers
Igorrr - Infinite Loop
Birdy - 1901
Choongum - A Church of Beauty and Despair

same q
Achromalia
Argh, I really wanna answer this question but I'm going have a hell of a hard time sifting through the music I listen to...

I'll edit this to include 30 of my favorites (in no particular order) so I dont flood the damn post and so I dont die trying to find my favorites.

Thank you for understanding, I will edit this soon.

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SQ.
keremaru
TL;DR, catchy Touhou songs, mostly from Akatsuki Records, some from Yellow Zebra, めらみぽっぷ, and あよ, but too ranged to be definitive.

Would you prefer coffee or ice cream on a fictional date?
Tad Fibonacci
I don't really get the "fictional date" part. But normally, I would prefer coffee over ice cream.

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Would you rather having to beat Dark souls with only a broken sword or pass a 7* map on Osu! With mouse only?
Penguin
7* map with mouse only. I’m already a mouse player, so I pretty much just have to pick a map with few triples/streams and only jumps and I can pass it.

If you watch movies, do you tend to look for new movies or rewatch ones you’ve already seen.
Achromalia
Hmm, tendencies. Unless anime counts, I don't really watch movies. For anime, it's a bit of both for varying reasons, but I think I'd be willing to try different anime a bit more.

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Do you constantly second-guess yourself and get caught up in your own flowing long trains of thought?
arbusion
yes, all the time, i have anxiety about stupid things all the time, and think i've messed things up in the past, and then i just constantly think about what would be different, etc.
i also get caught in long trains of thought related to daydreams, or people i miss etc. basically i'm a mess lmao, anyway..

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what is the most egotistical thing you said in the past that you find stupid and cringe now?
Journal
The closest I've ever come to 'egotistical' was when I asked a classmate in 4th grade,
"Why are you so stupid?" Other than that, I keep my actual thoughts hidden.

Trigger Warning
In your opinion, do you think the right/motive to commit/attempt suicide is debatable or not?
Achromalia
First, the phrasing is a little hard to figure out, as "right" and "motive" are not synonymous, and neither are "commit" and "attempt". In the latter two, it's more understandable to some extent? But anyways, not to go too into detail, I'm being led to cherrypick my ways of answering this question. I'll answer it in whatever way seems to make most sense.

"In your opinion, do you think the motive to commit suicide is debatable or not?" - The motive? Generally speaking, many people can and would debate anyone's motive, so yes, it's technically debatable,...

...but would I debate someone's motive to kill themselves? I can only say it depends on the motive, but within my own conclusions, i'd recommend against suicide.

In my case, I felt little reason to continue living, as I resided within an existentially nihilistic worldview. I avoided that by somehow coming across the thought that when regarding our existence, if life seemed pointless, death would be equally as pointless. Everyone's case varies though and may depend on misfortune in their life, or on having the knowledge of the misfortune of others, or on any other sort of perspective or basis.

Hopefully it sufficiently answered the question.

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What's your MBTI or "Myers-Briggs" personality type?
Tad Fibonacci
I think there's already a thread about this if I'm not mistaken.

Well, anyways I got INTJ-A.

Here's the text if you're interested.

SPOILER
https://www.16personalities.com/intj-personality

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Same question since I can't think of anything else to ask.
Achromalia
INTP-A, on my end. Interesting.

huh, I guess I would've expected that of ya.

so far, I'm finding INTJs to be relatively easy to spot. I really only say that with the background knowledge of knowing my dad who I've typed as an INTJ, as I've shown him the MBTI website, test, and 16 personalities recently.

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Achromalia wrote:

What's your MBTI or "Myers-Briggs" personality type?
Westonini
Took this last month.


edit: https://www.16personalities.com/infj-personality

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same question.
Sosteneshion


What do you think about the immigrants in your country?
Achromalia
Taking a quick break from the music.

It's hard for me to generalize United States immigrants much. It's quite the mixed bag and with the influx of immigrants from various countries, comes a whole lot of weight on numerous aspects of things the US government would be preparing for. That's about it, I guess?

Primarily, I'm assuming as I've got little to no definite knowledge on political topics and hadn't focused on it much, with everything else I've got going on.

I just see them as... well, people.

They're fellow human beings.

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In your perspective, how does one best develop an understanding of others' emotions?
Tad Fibonacci
I can't say that I have an answer for that. I can't even understand my own emotions most of the times.

I don't think the concept of human emotions can be understood fully by anyone.
The thing with other people is that I can get to know them, understand them to an extent. Even predict them in certain situations. But I can't understand how they feel at all. And sometimes, I hurt the people around me because of that.

I just don't understand why they'd feel how they felt.

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Same question.
Li77L3
In my perspective? Not being mentally disabled.

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Who are you gay for?
TeeArctic1
Probably Tom Hiddleston, what class

What period of your life do you appreciate the most?
45Traeath
The one during which I'm hanging out with friends.

Would you "frequently" play "Metal Slug 3" with me on Steam, if I offered the game to you?
(Not actually "frequently", just lesser than it, but whatever.)
Achromalia
Honestly, I'd find it unlikely that I'd have time to play anything nowadays. I've been pretty focused on music and art and plan to stick with them for a good while until I can learn to prioritize and organize how I do things, as well as figure out a solid plan for making and income. Stuff like that.

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Any particular things you dislike about your life circumstances?
Wuxo

Achromalia wrote:

Any particular things you dislike about your life circumstances?

as whiny as i can be, i really don’t want to complain or went on here. it ain’t perfect but it could be much much worse. so i try to be satisfied with what i’ve got.

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what’s your favorite color?
Tad Fibonacci
Black, red, blue and white from best to worst in that order.
Those are my favorite colors.

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What do you think about kids?
Achromalia
in what sense?

well, it's hard to generalize my thought for every child as each child has varying personalities, and whatnot...

but kids are pretty charming. it's because they have varying personalities that make them intriguing. i feel compelled to observe the way they look at the world and the way they interact with the world. it may be representative of a few things, and i'm fascinated by the learning process that they go through just to figure things out.

if i were to have kids? that'd be fairly difficult to handle, but i'd be pretty happy to have my own children. i'd like to have the experience of watching them grow and mature, to become what they feel works best for them, and to see them follow their passions. I'll guide them if they want to go somewhere. I'll broaden their perspective a bit with their decisions, and explain everything I can. I'd like to teach them some things, and I feel like nurturing their critical thinking would be really nice. On the other hand... they're probably going to be giving a good pile of work and stress management to do. I wonder how that'd go.

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How would you approach if you were to have children?
Tad Fibonacci
Tbh, I'd be scared, I'm not ready to have kids yet.

I don't even have my life sorted out yet, I can't even imagine how I'd take care of another. Heck, I can't even take care of myself properly.

Although, I'd like to have kids one day. Even though it's quite contradictory since I've always hated kids.
Kids are annoying, loud, dirty and helpless in my eyes. But there is something about them makes me cannot fully hate them.
Maybe it's in our genetics, maybe we were designed to not hate kids despite how annoying they are.

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What is the one goal of r achievement that you really want to get in life?
Achromalia
Being a self-sustaining and proficient animator and musician.

No particular award or anything, but I'd like to be able to express everything in every way I know how. If only I can improve myself with my work, and get my hands on something to make things easier. If I were to earn enough with both music and art to not need any sort of other job, I'd be really damn happy. I could live as I need to without much worry.

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What's your view on Thread Necromancy?
Penguin
It's a fun thing to focus on throughout the day, whether you're checking up on it on your phone out and about in the real world or camping it while at home chilling. I gave up as a competitor because you guys are just too damn competitive with it and I honestly just sometimes forget to post and get really far behind. It's a fun game though.

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Do you think you have a nice sense of fashion?
Tad Fibonacci
I guess not.
I tend to wear really normal clothes that you can find anywhere. I guess I don't really care much about fashion.
Most of my clothes are in dark color and I don't tend to spend too much on clothes either.

If there's a formal occasion then I might wear a suit and/or a trench coat and might use some of my brother's hair pomade but that's it.

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Same question since I can't think of anything to ask.
Wuxo
i do!! (i think) but i never wear, nor own anything cute or fancy lol, all my clothes are plain and boring sigh

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same q
Achromalia
I dont consider myself to be fashionable. I wear the same clothes. As long as it works and keeps me comfortable or warm, I'm fine with it. I wear whatever I need to. I spend very little on clothing.

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SQ.
45Traeath
"Nice"? From the global opinion I've heard, when asked (by my family) in a store "let's spend some, what do you want to wear?"...
No.
I'm really plain and minimal, am aware of it (as much by myself as by their opinion), and am not trying the slightest to get "flashy".


Are "combat" sports really a good therapy to help myself vent out?
Wuxo
im personally against any kind of violence so i'd say no.
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what does life mean to you
Achromalia
Depends on the context.

But most often it's in an existential context.

"Whatever I want it to be", in other words, nothing much. I don't have much reason for my life aside from my passion in music and art, and just the love of creating things. Had I not concluded that dying would be as pointless as I'd perceive life to be, I'd possibly have already killed myself by now.

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What do you think of death?
Tad Fibonacci
Death is the person who approved my petition to save the shitpost thread so I think he's a cool guy.

Just kidding, to me death is just the ending of a cycle. There isn't anything inherently bad about it, nor is it a good thing.

I don't believe in that reincarnation bullshit though. Death to me is just the body and mind shutting down.
I don't believe in human souls, nor do I believe in heaven or hell.
To me, the concept of a life after death is ludicrous and is just there for the people who are afraid of death to believe in.

If life is beautiful then death can also be beautiful.

If life can be full of meaning then death is too.

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Same question.
Achromalia
Pretty much the same thing.

I've had little inclination to believe in reincarnation or an afterlife.

I merely think of death as an end to life, the state of nothingness you're to experience as your body decays or is damaged beyond repair for whatever reason.

I think and care little for death. I can appreciate it to some extent, but the concept of oblivion, though pretty beautiful in some sense, is not much more than the embodiment of... well, nothingness. pointlessness.

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same question.
Penguin
I welcome death with open arms. I don't believe in an afterlife or none of that, so I truly have no idea what I think death would be like. It's literally incomprehensible for the human to imagine a sense of complete and absolute nothingness. This question is making me have an existential crisis.

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What's the point?
Tateshina Eve
Of living? Cherishing it, obviously. I'd prefer not to think about my death as I'm still young.

When was the last time you were able to relate to what I wrote on my userpage?
Journal
I never bothered to look until now, but I agree with your twitter link lol

Future aspirations?
Achromalia
As usual, it's been to improve as an artist and musician.

I want to remedy the shit that's happened in my family's life, if I can.

I'd also like to be the person that friends would find reliable for a thought-provoking discussion.

I hope to tell my story, and help people understand others better, or perhaps provide new perspectives as to what things are, or how things are.

There's probably a good number of things, but these are a good few themselves, and should give you an idea of what I hope to do with my life.

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same question.
Nikolai
nothing really I feel like I already have everything i have dreamed for :roll:

same question
Tateshina Eve
Do well in school so that I can get a good job and do well for my family

When was the last time you drew something on paper? (Writing isn't drawing unless you're drawing some abstract thing or whatever with words)
Tad Fibonacci
It was a few weeks ago I believe. I was bored in class so I dew Raphtalia.

I used to draw a lot back in high school though.

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Same question.
Achromalia
ah, just two or three days ago. it was for some page of characters i've been thinking about making.

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what belief have you held in the past that you no longer hold now?
Journal
A belief. Well, I used to believe in a God. Certain circumstances have changed that.
Sq.
Achromalia
I had at some point believed I was someone with little to no capacity for emotion due to my apathy. Based off of that conclusion, I had assumed I'd do well at calmly handling life, but as the years have passed, my apathy didn't really hold up as well as I've thought. It's reliable to some degree, but can crack under enough extreme pressure.

Usually when that happens, it'll be a slow-release type of reaction in which emotion, primarily anger, leaks out through my actions, words, thoughts, and feelings. It's a fairly controlled anger of sorts, but I ultimately wind up directing whatever anger that bubbles and surfaces back into my self. I'm pretty quick to blame myself for things and it'll gradually tear me apart as I hold on to whatever scattered logic I can cling to that'll help me find my way out of my messes.

Though it has yet to happen, I think it's possible for it to be much worse. Perhaps, it could be some sort of explosive emotion that I'd have difficulty understanding. I'll be throwing myself into some shitty trains of thought with very little in terms of reasonable logic for that, aside from personal belief and a seething self-hatred.

Self-hatred's played a good part in any sort of anger I experience. It's almost always at myself.

So now I've learned that strong emotions do dwell within me, but are pretty heavily repressed under that stoicism and apathy I hold.

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same question.
Tateshina Eve
I always believed that I would get better at this game. I don't see myself reaching 10k within this year now. My progress has stagnated due to studies, but on the plus side, my grades are going up. Well, they were quite high already, but it's nice to go even higher.

Would you be able to continue with your life if your parents passed? I remember a similar question being asked before, and I don't wish this on anyone, of course.
Journal
I could continue on with my life if they died. It might be jarring at first, because I’ve always been used to have someone hovering over me. I have been told I’m insensitive and selfish for that particular reason, but death is a natural part of living as well. Even if it’s “sad” at first, it’s no use for me to wallow in the long run. I’d probably try to internalize any emotions and continue on. Any positive feelings directed towards them were nonexistent in the first place, so that’ll help somewhat. Let’s just say some people deserve what they get, and moping about it would get me nowhere.
Sq.
Westonini
Continue with your life? As in being able to continue doing daily functions or just being able to live?

Well if it's the former then I'd probably be alright. I'd probably have to end up moving in with my sister and her fiancee if that were the case, but I should be capable of taking care of myself. Even if my parents would be gone it's not like I'd be completely alone and helpless either, I could ask my other loved ones or even google about how to do things if need be. The only big issues I could see is that I'd need to actually get a job so I can make enough money to get a place of my own, and I'd need to be able to take care of my brother, who requires special needs. That second one would definitely be tough for me since my mother and father are the ones that take care of him while I just assist them if they ever need me to.

If it's the latter then that's a simple question. Yes. Even if I deeply love my parents, killing myself over their deaths is fucking retarded. Not to be overly rude, but killing yourself over something like that is pretty pathetic and honestly infuriating. 1.) How would your parents react to you doing something so stupid? and 2.) Imagine the heart-break that you'd cause the others that care about you. But also in my case I'd be leaving my brother behind, and there's no damn way I'm aboutta do that.

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Perhaps we should move to a lighter topic now.

What trait(s) do you like the most in a person?
Ryoid
Sadism Honest with yourself

Do you like thinking about the past or the future?
Tad Fibonacci
Tbh, neither.

Thinking of the past makes me want to die of regrets and cringe.

And thinking of the future will make me depressed out of anxiety.

And so, neither.

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Same question.
Achromalia
...

I'm not sure.

To some extent, neither, yet... both.

Nostalgia hits fairly hard sometimes. Other days I think about the future and the possibilities of how shit could turn out.

I really don't know.

Feeling a bit strange this morning.

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I feel strangely curious of people's thoughts.

What's your perspective on who I am, as in-- what do you think of me?

Be critical and detailed. I'm interested in what flaws people see in me, and whether my shitty perception of myself is worth merit.
Meah
Idk, i hadn't paid attention but cringe + emo mb

Travel by sea, land or air. Why?
Journal
I don't really care, as long as I'm the one taking us there.
What would you want to reincarnate as?
Penguin
If I was able to reincarnate withholding my current knowledge, I would want to reincarnate as myself. I would want to do everything over again.

If not, then I'd totally be a penguin, that would be dope.

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Same Question
Achromalia
there isn't much else that would be nearly as effective at doing anything such as humans.

i'd like to reincarnate as a machine, perhaps. a sort of AI that can live indefinitely under the right conditions. i can suffer until the end of time for as long as my "mind" remains intact. i can assist whatever humans come after, and provide my experience and knowledge to them. they'll learn from previous generations and make life better for themselves.

otherwise, i'd like to return to as i was. a human.

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Achromalia wrote:

I feel strangely curious of people's thoughts.

What's your perspective on who I am, as in-- what do you think of me?

Be critical and detailed. I'm interested in what flaws people see in me, and whether my shitty perception of myself is worth merit.
Ryoid
has some knowledge in music, always lurk in the forum, sometime emo or being negative (like myself), likes to voice your opinion, kinda serious but not being a jerk

its just an opinion on my perspective when seeing you here active in the forum cause i'm not really know anything about you so yeah thats all

hey same question
Achromalia
If I'm to apply it to you, then...

it's a bit difficult considering it's been such a long while.

In my time of seeing you around, I thought of you as a fairly docile person with a pretty calm demeanor. I don't recall you doing a whole lot, you'd just post in whatever threads were there. As of now, I'd consider you to be fairly thoughtful, perhaps reserved to some extent, in the sense that you don't seem to really go out of your way to do anything crazy. You also seem to be pretty thoughtful and introspective.

Not much else I can definitively say about ya, but I remember enjoying your presence around here in the past.

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Achromalia wrote:

Achromalia wrote:

I feel strangely curious of people's thoughts.

What's your perspective on who I am, as in-- what do you think of me?

Be critical and detailed. I'm interested in what flaws people see in me, and whether my shitty perception of myself is worth merit.
Tad Fibonacci
Well, I can't say that I know you well since we only met online for about a few months back so I might be completely wrong about you, so don't take it too seriously.

You're logical, yet you're quite idealistic. You like making music and drawing.
You're really stubborn and you really hate losing (well, I used to be like that too. I still am to an extent).
I can't help but feels like you're quite naive too.
You like playing with words.
You don't seem to know how to take care of yourself very well.
I think you'll self improve better than having someone urging you to improve.

That's it for now.

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Same question I guess.
CatzerTM
i don't know that much about you to give an accurate answer. based on what i've seen i'd say you're a fairly normal person. you have your own limits and you seem like a very articulate person and i appreciate that. but can be little bit too much towards extroversion sometimes. that's all i have to say

again it's just based off what i've seen,

same question i suppose
Journal
I've only seen you around once or twice, but that's because I'm a bit late on the FG. You seem like someone who people come to for comforting, and it doesn't have to be "mushy-mushy" either.
Ryoid
i take it as the same question yes?

well, not seeing you much
but you're polite so i like that

sorry, my choice of word is very limited so there not much thing to say

same
TeeArctic1
Ain't seen you a lot earlier, but oh boy do I love when people come in to the forums and contribute a bunch, breathes new life into the posts by having someone new to bounce off. I'm looking forward to seeing what ideas and fun threads you'll bring to our community though.

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Same q
Meah
You're funny and you like ducks

Sq
Achromalia
You're a mixed bag. Don't have a whole lot of positive things to really state as there's a pretty good multitude of things normally said that don't really make sense, and in a way, embodies somethin' akin to narcissism, but it seems like there's more behind it, that it's a mere act of sorts. The strange shit you do or say around these parts can be fairly interesting, I suppose. Seen you around on discord sometimes, with what seemed like a fairly different demeanor and set of mannerisms, so that's pretty much my reasoning.

So, all in all, you seem alright.

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To break the monotony, here's a different question.

What holds you back from the things you desire or enjoy?
Tad Fibonacci
For me, it's what I have to do. Responsibilities I guess.

Often enough I feel like after having to tend to the things that I have to do or taking care of other people, I'm always too exhausted to fully enjoy the things that I love.

And with maturing, the less and less time I have to do what I enjoy.

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Same question.
Ryoid
for me, it would be expectation

well, because people tend to expecting something great from me, i really having hard time just thinking what should i do in the future, and it seems like my resposibilities keep piling up from what i just achieved, and the paranoia is eating me from the inside. because of that, many interest and my desire slowly feeling nothing
its just i can't even enjoy thing when i'm thinking that is this really important than what i told to? but that just a glimpse what i was feeling the whole time so i'm not really depressed or enything its just making me emo and keeping me from doing what i enjoy

thats too the reason why i don't really care anything about social media like instagram, facebook, twitter, discord or something like that feels like a waste of time

thats the old me tho, now i'm brimming with positivity cause of to much suffering
sq
Journal
Fear, I guess. Dk what I'm fearing, but it's there.

I'd like to move out and travel on my own without being stuck anywhere for longer than a week.


How do you react when you're extremely angry?
Tad Fibonacci
Well, I am not a very emotional person. And I don't get mad really easily or very often at all either.
But in rare occasions that I do get extremely mad, I tend to be very critical about the person or the thing that I'm mad about.

My mum said that I'm usually pretty composed but I get really bitter and scary once I get angry.

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Journal
Since no one's responding..
I don't get angry easily, but I do get annoyed easily. I'll make the fact that I'm miffed known to others out of spite, but I tend to keep my more abrasive emotions under wraps.

Sq.
Achromalia
Anger.

Not something I normally experience. Most of whatever anger I have is the self-hatred I bottle up. Whatever would otherwise be anger is instead absorbed and is fed into my apathy.

I'll probably enter one of two states, though the other will pretty much never happen.

If I ever get irritated beyond reason, I'll become entirely apathetic, making cold and cutting remarks, and you'll likely see me cleave my way into every flaw in your logic, undermining every argument and statement you have, and shit like that. Essentially, I'll become antisocial as hell, distancing myself as much as possible from people.

The "other" state of mind. I don't recall ever experiencing this, but with all things considered, I still find it to be entirely possible that this would wind up being how I'd turn out. I'd essentially just...

let loose.

no apathy. just genuine seething rage.

Even if I haven't done this, I hope to hell it doesn't ever happen.

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What's your perspective on apathy, or perhaps, what experiences may you have had with apathy?
TeeArctic1
I often feel apathetic late at night, questioning why my own actions. I have a lot of playlists containing music for when I just feel like staring somewhere and feeling somewhat numb. It's not necessarily a good feeling, but necessary sometimes. I feel like I can breathe more afterwards.

What are your views on online interaction with strangers? Pros, cons and the like? Can real relationships emerge from chatting with someone you've never met?
Tad Fibonacci
I think it's a good thing that we can freely interact on the internet. It's a luxury that some parts of the world can't afford.
I do think that the internet is fun and interesting but also ruthless and brutal.

So I think that the internet isn't a place for the faint of hearts.

You can definitely create real relationships online too imo.

But I do try to separate my online life and my real life one.

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Same question.
Achromalia
I'd have pretty much the same response. The majority of my friendships have formed online. I rarely meet anyone in person that I'd easily have deep conversations with. Often it's insubstantial small talk or something relevant to a fandom of sorts.

I've had a great time talking with others here though. Whoever wants to get into a conversation would be free to join in at any time, and stuff like that. It feels like we've got cleaner slates in some sense when we're online, as we get to express only what we choose to express.

Of course, to play devil's advocate, that's exactly why having online friendships or relationships of any sort can be dangerous. People are capable of manipulation, and could be able to influence others' lives in some pretty scary ways.

So yeah. It's scary but can be pretty nice. Just be careful.

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SQ.
Ryoid
yeah

its just like talking to a real person. even thought they mix some lie in it, i just can see their true feeling

normally i just play along with whatsoever happen all the time but that makes me holding back i think

so yeah, i can't express my feeling so well and hurting the other side feeling is scary

i mean like fuck what happen i will not be honest, thats what i thought about socializing on the internet

but its not really matter tho

what is your form of sadness?
Meah
FeelsBadMan

I accidentally watched this video on twt with a girl putting a pineapple on her ....... How did it fit?
TeeArctic1
Practice

Tried cooking noodles in a dishwasher, cooking meat with a clothing iron. What's next?
Tateshina Eve
wash the vegetables in the toilet and cut them with your hand

what was the most interesting thing you've learnt at school?
Journal
child development


Do you hate anyone?
viagra
Other than myself? Not really. Even the most annoying people in my life have redeeming qualities.

What is your dream job?
Journal
Investigative journalist

Can you handle criticism well?
viagra
I do handle criticism pretty well. Only way to become a better person is to realize that you might not be the amazing person you think you are.

What's a mundane task other than playing osu! that you consider yourself better than average at performing?
Journal
Making small talk. I can feign interest pretty well.

Is there a notable difference between your personality online vs irl
viagra
For sure. IRL i have to be a lot more careful with how i present myself, what i say, how i say it, and the way i act. I feel a lot more safe being open with people online. I do a pretty good job of fitting in tho, i'm indistinguishable from any other normie from an outside viewer's perspective lolol.

What's a hobby you want to get good at, but are too lazy to invest time in?
Journal
Art, music production, and running.
I haven't practiced anything in such a long time, lol

How do you cope with negative emotions?
Achromalia
bad timing?

I happen to be the one without much to speak of in terms of negative emotions. Unless shitty, stressed, and apathetic count.

I typically just keep to myself and put up with them. Distracting myself can help. Music helps.

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What 3 things would you never do?
viagra
Usually spending time by myself. When i feel like shit i like taking my time and just thinking over it, trying to bring forward some sort of reason from the emotions. It's not always easy, but the more i do it, the more it helps me deal with future negative emotions.

How do you cope with the fact that we're all going to die one day?
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As i didn't see the new post i felt like responding do that one too
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I'd never hurt someone with the direct intention of doing so.
I would never let someone change who i am just because they don't agree with who i am.
I would never put pineapple on pizza, that shit's fuckin gross.

What's the best thing that happened in your life today?
Achromalia
How do I, prone to inquire existential meaning, cope with imminent death?

Apathetic nihilism. I'll create as I wish and wait it out. Then I'll just die.

Best thing that happened today?

Laid in bed for a good several minutes. Comfort in tiresome times. Not much else to speak of.

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Regarding people, what do you find most peculiar about others?
viagra
That's a tough one. Probably the fact that some people just aren't interesting.

What's something that you've always wanted to do, but never had the chance to?
Journal
COnfusion for 3 seconds
I arrived when you all posted after the other

OT: I find it peculiar how majority of the teenage population wants to come off as 'cool' to others. Strip away my flesh and bone;we're all the same. Temporary satisfaction is always going to leave you hollow and wanting for more.

In your opinion, what are the root causes of insecurity?

Edit: Oh mcnizzles.
Answering marijuana's question!!

A: I've always wanted to disappear without a trace.
Assume a different identity in a different country, and travel around without having anyone trailing behind.
viagra
Fear that others don't like you. People care too much about what others think of them, instead of focusing on what ultimately makes them happy.

What's something that you hate that the average person tends to like.
Journal
Chocolate. I can't stand it.
I'm not allergic to it, but whenever I eat it, my nose starts hurting, my eyes get watery, and I start coughing.

When you judge a person, what are the three things you judge them on?
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