Hey Koc, M4M req!
To be honest, I never had much ambition in osu! in either playing or mapping; for playing, I knew I wasn't good enough skill-wise (and my computer/mouse really suck lol) and wasn't too interested in and didn't have the time to spend hours into improving basic skills. I just played for the sake of playing--for fun, and nothing really more. Mapping's different in that I do have a drive to improve, but my confidence and self-esteem have been shot down so many times (still are) to the point that I'm starting to believe there's something wrong with me; not just as a mapper, but also as a person, instead of simply being a phase all developing mappers go through. In the meantime, even though I don't have a clear long-term goal yet, for now I want to find the fun in mapping that I had when I first started mapping, and I think I can if I keep at it without giving up.
Anyway thank
Map: https://osu.ppy.sh/s/585631
To be honest, I never had much ambition in osu! in either playing or mapping; for playing, I knew I wasn't good enough skill-wise (and my computer/mouse really suck lol) and wasn't too interested in and didn't have the time to spend hours into improving basic skills. I just played for the sake of playing--for fun, and nothing really more. Mapping's different in that I do have a drive to improve, but my confidence and self-esteem have been shot down so many times (still are) to the point that I'm starting to believe there's something wrong with me; not just as a mapper, but also as a person, instead of simply being a phase all developing mappers go through. In the meantime, even though I don't have a clear long-term goal yet, for now I want to find the fun in mapping that I had when I first started mapping, and I think I can if I keep at it without giving up.
Anyway thank
Map: https://osu.ppy.sh/s/585631