mental health is the world's hardest balancing game
Keep going king. I'm sure you can do it.UPR wrote:
I am still walking around, I lost my job but have others applied for and an interview set up. I have lost a group of people I hung out with irl cause they couldn't trust me enough to tell me my faults so I lost trust for people even more. I am planning to go seek therapy though so if anything else, those people broke me out of my self-denial for the last 7 years. My dog is in her final days unfortunately, but I am going to stick by her til the end cause she is the one I love the most. Overall things are bad, but they could be worse. I am on the road to trying to be better, even if the world or myself wants to beat me down I am still moving forward
there's not really an easy way to say this so I'm not going to try and sugarcoat it: this is racist. I'm not saying that you yourself are a racist, but that the fetishistic idea of black men being more sexually desireable, presumably because of what you see in porn, is racist.Winnyace wrote:
, I feel inferior and somewhat scared of black males because of their sex appeal.
I know, but that's what I feel at the moment and I am trying to reframe it into something less negative or try... something to make it less painful.xch00F wrote:
there's not really an easy way to say this so I'm not going to try and sugarcoat it: this is racist. I'm not saying that you yourself are a racist, but that the fetishistic idea of black men being more sexually desireable, presumably because of what you see in porn, is racist.Winnyace wrote:
, I feel inferior and somewhat scared of black males because of their sex appeal.
Winnyace wrote:
I know, but that's what I feel at the moment and I am trying to reframe it into something less negative or try... something to make it less painful.xch00F wrote:
there's not really an easy way to say this so I'm not going to try and sugarcoat it: this is racist. I'm not saying that you yourself are a racist, but that the fetishistic idea of black men being more sexually desireable, presumably because of what you see in porn, is racist.Winnyace wrote:
, I feel inferior and somewhat scared of black males because of their sex appeal.
I don't know why you would feel bad about writing this, since I agree with it.xch00F wrote:
Winnyace wrote:
I know, but that's what I feel at the moment and I am trying to reframe it into something less negative or try... something to make it less painful.xch00F wrote:
there's not really an easy way to say this so I'm not going to try and sugarcoat it: this is racist. I'm not saying that you yourself are a racist, but that the fetishistic idea of black men being more sexually desireable, presumably because of what you see in porn, is racist.Winnyace wrote:
, I feel inferior and somewhat scared of black males because of their sex appeal.
I feel kinda shitty writing this lmao, gonna spoiler it
realistically if you're just trying to "reframe" feeling inferior for not being able to get laid, it doesn't need to be in a racial context at all. ppl of every race can feel inferior because they're a virgin, and it can be for a myriad of different reasons. there are things you can improve about yourself that will make you more sexually desireable across the board, skin color is not one of them. and besides, if someone wants to have sex with you based purely on your skin color and not because of some kind of intimate personal relationship, that would also be racist.
this is a rabbit hole that you definitely do not want to fall down and the fact that you're self aware enough about it makes you way less likely to fall into it. not very far, anyway.
also, have you considered not watching porn
my condolences bub, losing a pet is always hardUPR wrote:
My Dog has passed away as of yesterday morning, I am not okay, but I am at least grateful she went peacefully, she had a rough 15 years, but 11 of those were spent with me and my family giving her the best life she could have. I hope it was enough for her
that's so sad... stay strong, man. life is rough. you'll get through this <3UPR wrote:
My Dog has passed away as of yesterday morning, I am not okay, but I am at least grateful she went peacefully, she had a rough 15 years, but 11 of those were spent with me and my family giving her the best life she could have. I hope it was enough for her
Man's got life figured out, GG.le_benny wrote:
working on myself, working out, eating better, moving soon, I'm absolutely SLAYING
+1,Achromalia wrote:
nothing changes when nothing changes
an inertia of inertia
little to no volition to will my way away
i float beside you listlessly, reading and viewing you and your experiences and sensationsEyeonized wrote:
Fucking miserable lol. I need a hug
Have a virtual hug.Eyeonized wrote:
Fucking miserable lol. I need a hug
feeling a little better this week. getting my job back soon and met with some friends thank you to all who offered a hugEyeonized wrote:
Fucking miserable lol. I need a hug
<33 im grateful thimgs are lil better, good luck for employment bc labor markets are brutal q-qEyeonized wrote:
feeling a little better this week. getting my job back soon and met with some friends thank you to all who offered a hugEyeonized wrote:
Fucking miserable lol. I need a hug
music is very interesting indeed, all the funny sounds helps your mind wander around, its a unique experience if you choose the right music and you're in the right mood.Achromalia wrote:
i keep expecting to be in despair but i guess i must be doing a good job of distracting myself lately
incredibly cozy, metaphorically soaking into comfort... i think it's something with the way im laying in bed?? it stretches my joints in the strangest most relieving ways and the music im listening to is an absolute pleasure, it makes me really think about the. satisfying subtleties of sound design ^^ its like im buried in a sensory sea
i know it will fade with time but i want to hold onto how this has been feeling