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i really ought not to spiral in public i just dont really know what i could hope to do with it and dont particularly have a place to go, and im already so exhausted
i thought the weekdays at home would recharge me at least a little, instead i am immediately back to being useless and glimpsing The Horrors of this awful Wrongness
stirring my guts and organs, dizzying visceral dread for a world i dont understand... a sense of self i cannot willingly own up to, the person i could not have ever been, the blindspots i have
why cant i be something else, why cant this be somewhere else
let me dream up a vivid delusion in peace, for once, i plead...
i really ought not to spiral in public i just dont really know what i could hope to do with it and dont particularly have a place to go, and im already so exhausted
i thought the weekdays at home would recharge me at least a little, instead i am immediately back to being useless and glimpsing The Horrors of this awful Wrongness
stirring my guts and organs, dizzying visceral dread for a world i dont understand... a sense of self i cannot willingly own up to, the person i could not have ever been, the blindspots i have
why cant i be something else, why cant this be somewhere else
let me dream up a vivid delusion in peace, for once, i plead...