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the "<3 Philosophical Psychology" checks out, i suppose
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trains?
i'm unsure how to evaluate i would add or respond with toward what you're saying, although it's entirely intelligible...
...but in many cases, i have tried something, it just appears that i haven't tried "hard enough" or "long enough", or i haven't tried quite the right approach in order to see a fruitful outcome. this tends to happen with my art and music-- most of anything i create is stopped halfway somewhere in variably anemic conditions... songs last only 30 seconds, or art consists only of a partial sketch or ambiguous linework or blocked-in coloring or something...
or more distressingly, the art and music i try to make isnt even what i wanted to make to start with
i never seem to make what i want, and outside of creative contexts, i never seem to do what i want
...as for your query for "color"...
i don't think i know about that yet either. inquiries similar to yours were what i've fixated on, sampling and examining how people communicated their emotions and frustrations and how they developed logical arguments or otherwise expressed their perspectives (as well the sources and components of those perspectives), while also trying to examine my own expression and communication of "color". all of this was color i didn't fully understand, color which i didn't know how to identify and recognize for some time. but ultimately, there was some kind of chromaticism, and i wanted to understand how it composed me
i think it led to where i am now, increasingly anxious and pensive and sentimentally attached to particular ideals and comforts that i would've liked to indulge in. i don't really know how to characterize my chromatic sentimentality and rationale yet...
...
you were always a curiosity that i dont think i had a clear or confident impression of. you always seemed so beyond me, nebulously sitting somewhere outside my scope, where my focal points would always miss the point. and yet i wanted to watch and examine you from afar, not being perceived and not mutually engaging, completely leaving each other alone, sharing audiovisual psycho-semantic information indirectly between each other
but that's not possible to my awareness beyond the merest facsimile that words and collaborative rhetoric can offer, so i'm effectively blind to what you experience, and i can't really imagine what you see if i have to view it through my own lenses...
through your history with people in the forum, you seem entirely ok to me, a neutral benign party that i vaguely admire or otherwise seem to look up to
despite all that, i definitely see something there. i don't know what it is, maybe because it hasn't come to fruition yet, but i take it both of us know i'm not saying it "just to be nice" or to feel good about myself. i guess whatever it is, it would take a lot of resolution/work/whatever to bring it out, maybe more than you can do at the moment. i don't know, but it doesn't seem to affect my view of you either way. i guess most i can say is that it's generally better to try to work with yourself rather than against, but that's way easier said than done
i feel like we might have more similarities than either of us realise. probably spotty, probably surface-level, though a part of me doesn't want it to be
Isshiki Kaname has changed their name to Isshiki Kaname!
i have goldfish memory nvm
oh;; i was late... hghngh
i'm generally wary of other people and quick to distrust for extremely personal reasons. i don't advise you take it personally
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college student, car enthusiast, visual code, dry irony, perceptibly "normal", reasonably moderate
i thought they were too long...? i felt like you wouldnt like them and stop halfway through and have to work for it all the time, and that sounds... exhausting... im not sure i should want to do that with you anymore
but if you mean it, then... i can try ^^;;
...
to add to what ive already shared about my time with you:
...well, i still feel guilty, i think. i feel like i havent yet expressed my acknowledgement of the effort you seem to be giving, like i havent really done your time the justice it deserved, or something... it looked to me like you invested a lot and couldnt get anything from it, and for that i feel sorry i wasnt more appreciative or receptive or willing to give more of myself in return. i didnt say enough, didnt share enough, wasnt decisive enough, wasnt direct enough, wasnt normal enough
i fear you a little bit, the interpretable duality of you appearing both callous and sweet, appearing both bluntly insensitive and yet cognitively empathetic, and yet it all feels so in-character. i frequently feel like i perceive distorted ideas of you that arent reflected in who you really are. you seem so assured in yourself, with a dry understated texture to you, wooden and plain but weathered in interesting little places that i dont recognize and dont really connect with that well yet
i imagine im not any better, i must appear rather unpredictable somewhere, being neurotic or paranoid or impractical at one moment, then appearing facetious or "polite" (even if i fully believe im sincere in my concern and curiosity), then being suddenly "fucked up" and callous and rude in my own way when im defensive/protective of myself or when oblivious to something
we are probably kind of complicated for each other. i feel lost, i dont understand what i want when im with you, and i dont understand if i should do something in particular, or... but then you seem so nice at other times, and i question myself
i dont know
but if you mean it, then... i can try ^^;;
...
to add to what ive already shared about my time with you:
...well, i still feel guilty, i think. i feel like i havent yet expressed my acknowledgement of the effort you seem to be giving, like i havent really done your time the justice it deserved, or something... it looked to me like you invested a lot and couldnt get anything from it, and for that i feel sorry i wasnt more appreciative or receptive or willing to give more of myself in return. i didnt say enough, didnt share enough, wasnt decisive enough, wasnt direct enough, wasnt normal enough
i fear you a little bit, the interpretable duality of you appearing both callous and sweet, appearing both bluntly insensitive and yet cognitively empathetic, and yet it all feels so in-character. i frequently feel like i perceive distorted ideas of you that arent reflected in who you really are. you seem so assured in yourself, with a dry understated texture to you, wooden and plain but weathered in interesting little places that i dont recognize and dont really connect with that well yet
i imagine im not any better, i must appear rather unpredictable somewhere, being neurotic or paranoid or impractical at one moment, then appearing facetious or "polite" (even if i fully believe im sincere in my concern and curiosity), then being suddenly "fucked up" and callous and rude in my own way when im defensive/protective of myself or when oblivious to something
we are probably kind of complicated for each other. i feel lost, i dont understand what i want when im with you, and i dont understand if i should do something in particular, or... but then you seem so nice at other times, and i question myself
i dont know
Its not that I started appreciating the long walls of text, its just that its what makes you, you.
so the simple answer you gave me prior is just, empty. even if its not actually meaningless.
I didnt receive an achromalia answer when I was expecting one.
to be honest I kinda miss these walls of text, I dont think I've talked that deeply with someone for over 6 years.
things just dont feel that important nowadays, I'm just living and waiting for something to happen.
anyway that was a signature achromalia answer!!!!! thanks
so the simple answer you gave me prior is just, empty. even if its not actually meaningless.
I didnt receive an achromalia answer when I was expecting one.
to be honest I kinda miss these walls of text, I dont think I've talked that deeply with someone for over 6 years.
things just dont feel that important nowadays, I'm just living and waiting for something to happen.
anyway that was a signature achromalia answer!!!!! thanks
mm, then i suppose i appear more real/authentic if im typing long paragraphs
i do like walls of text :) explorative depth is fulfilling for me to receive from people, and i love to give just as much, but i just... i guess im not always ready to give myself to all that many people
for me, things feel far too important, everything seems more meaningful and consequential than im ever able to account for, i care too much about things that dont conventionally matter nearly as much to people, i dont really move on or let go or do anything other than freeze in place and retreat from everything. and even then, even when i presumably could be doing something about those urgent things... i think i would say the same thing you have, that i also have just been living and waiting for something to happen
im not sure if that really reflects an objective reality about you or the world around us. not nearly as much as it could just mean that im not enough for the world around me, presumably because im not willing to "take responsibility" for myself and my agency and at least try
you seem more well-equipped at that, and so i seem to tentatively look up to you in that sense
i do like walls of text :) explorative depth is fulfilling for me to receive from people, and i love to give just as much, but i just... i guess im not always ready to give myself to all that many people
for me, things feel far too important, everything seems more meaningful and consequential than im ever able to account for, i care too much about things that dont conventionally matter nearly as much to people, i dont really move on or let go or do anything other than freeze in place and retreat from everything. and even then, even when i presumably could be doing something about those urgent things... i think i would say the same thing you have, that i also have just been living and waiting for something to happen
im not sure if that really reflects an objective reality about you or the world around us. not nearly as much as it could just mean that im not enough for the world around me, presumably because im not willing to "take responsibility" for myself and my agency and at least try
you seem more well-equipped at that, and so i seem to tentatively look up to you in that sense
i wish i fully understood what makes people so "colourful"
which isn't a thought specific to you, but it's something i find myself thinking a lot. for something more specific, i think you're unfair to yourself in regards to your ability (potential ability?), maybe as unfair as i am with myself at times (though i guess i can't really be sure?). you've got more going for yourself than you seem to think you do, is what i think i'm trying to say
which isn't a thought specific to you, but it's something i find myself thinking a lot. for something more specific, i think you're unfair to yourself in regards to your ability (potential ability?), maybe as unfair as i am with myself at times (though i guess i can't really be sure?). you've got more going for yourself than you seem to think you do, is what i think i'm trying to say
I think if you rationalize why you feel what you feel and why you think what you think. You become aware of feelings and thoughts. Once you know yourself better, you will start to see others better. Of course, some actions and thoughts are not easily rationalized even by experts.
i'd hope so...Asaiga wrote:
Once you know yourself better, you will start to see others better.
the "<3 Philosophical Psychology" checks out, i suppose
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trains?
i still don't quite understand why i remember you... but i don't quite remember you enough to have anything to say in particularAsaiga wrote:
I think if you rationalize why you feel what you feel and why you think what you think. You become aware of feelings and thoughts. Once you know yourself better, you will start to see others better. Of course, some actions and thoughts are not easily rationalized even by experts.
i'm unsure how to evaluate i would add or respond with toward what you're saying, although it's entirely intelligible...
mm, i've wondered this before but often find the suggestion unconvincing (not to suggest i'm unconvinced as a result of a definitive or rational conclusion, i think i just don't feel as though everything has been resolved enough to clear any doubt) when that potential isnt reliably exercised, especially when i seem to not recognize what abilities i might have. if i dont have any clarity with who i am or what i can do, and if i dont trust myself without the certainty i look to cling to, then i wouldnt have known or proved to myself whether that imagined potential was ever really true. i'm also highly risk-averse, or at least seem to convince myself of it at inopportune and irrational fleeting moments on a whim, which tends to mean i don't even really try to do anything with myself to find out whether i am or am not capable of something...synthwavesquid wrote:
i wish i fully understood what makes people so "colourful"
which isn't a thought specific to you, but it's something i find myself thinking a lot. for something more specific, i think you're unfair to yourself in regards to your ability (potential ability?), maybe as unfair as i am with myself at times (though i guess i can't really be sure?). you've got more going for yourself than you seem to think you do, is what i think i'm trying to say
...but in many cases, i have tried something, it just appears that i haven't tried "hard enough" or "long enough", or i haven't tried quite the right approach in order to see a fruitful outcome. this tends to happen with my art and music-- most of anything i create is stopped halfway somewhere in variably anemic conditions... songs last only 30 seconds, or art consists only of a partial sketch or ambiguous linework or blocked-in coloring or something...
or more distressingly, the art and music i try to make isnt even what i wanted to make to start with
i never seem to make what i want, and outside of creative contexts, i never seem to do what i want
...as for your query for "color"...
i don't think i know about that yet either. inquiries similar to yours were what i've fixated on, sampling and examining how people communicated their emotions and frustrations and how they developed logical arguments or otherwise expressed their perspectives (as well the sources and components of those perspectives), while also trying to examine my own expression and communication of "color". all of this was color i didn't fully understand, color which i didn't know how to identify and recognize for some time. but ultimately, there was some kind of chromaticism, and i wanted to understand how it composed me
i think it led to where i am now, increasingly anxious and pensive and sentimentally attached to particular ideals and comforts that i would've liked to indulge in. i don't really know how to characterize my chromatic sentimentality and rationale yet...
...
you were always a curiosity that i dont think i had a clear or confident impression of. you always seemed so beyond me, nebulously sitting somewhere outside my scope, where my focal points would always miss the point. and yet i wanted to watch and examine you from afar, not being perceived and not mutually engaging, completely leaving each other alone, sharing audiovisual psycho-semantic information indirectly between each other
but that's not possible to my awareness beyond the merest facsimile that words and collaborative rhetoric can offer, so i'm effectively blind to what you experience, and i can't really imagine what you see if i have to view it through my own lenses...
through your history with people in the forum, you seem entirely ok to me, a neutral benign party that i vaguely admire or otherwise seem to look up to
Pretty much someone I highly respect in the forums here. Your words may be text vomit but I like someone who expresses their thoughts and feelings like you do.
urgh i remember you from the stick era and i wish i remembered more... you always seemed so well-liked, and i think i appreciated your presence too...? but it's not clear to me
you seem ok :> probably a balance of maturely-respectable and comfortably-awkward traits? i dont know enough to actually conclude anything though, so i can only wish you well and hope you'll visit from time to time
you seem ok :> probably a balance of maturely-respectable and comfortably-awkward traits? i dont know enough to actually conclude anything though, so i can only wish you well and hope you'll visit from time to time
i... actually expected that to be the case (maybe moreso "knew" some things), but i wasn't sure how to word anything so i kind of massively oversimplified my point, but i think you still got what i meantAchromalia wrote:
textmm, i've wondered this before but often find the suggestion unconvincing (not to suggest i'm unconvinced as a result of a definitive or rational conclusion, i think i just don't feel as though everything has been resolved enough to clear any doubt) when that potential isnt reliably exercised, especially when i seem to not recognize what abilities i might have. if i dont have any clarity with who i am or what i can do, and if i dont trust myself without the certainty i look to cling to, then i wouldnt have known or proved to myself whether that imagined potential was ever really true. i'm also highly risk-averse, or at least seem to convince myself of it at inopportune and irrational fleeting moments on a whim, which tends to mean i don't even really try to do anything with myself to find out whether i am or am not capable of something...synthwavesquid wrote:
i wish i fully understood what makes people so "colourful"
which isn't a thought specific to you, but it's something i find myself thinking a lot. for something more specific, i think you're unfair to yourself in regards to your ability (potential ability?), maybe as unfair as i am with myself at times (though i guess i can't really be sure?). you've got more going for yourself than you seem to think you do, is what i think i'm trying to say
...but in many cases, i have tried something, it just appears that i haven't tried "hard enough" or "long enough", or i haven't tried quite the right approach in order to see a fruitful outcome. this tends to happen with my art and music-- most of anything i create is stopped halfway somewhere in variably anemic conditions... songs last only 30 seconds, or art consists only of a partial sketch or ambiguous linework or blocked-in coloring or something...
or more distressingly, the art and music i try to make isnt even what i wanted to make to start with
i never seem to make what i want, and outside of creative contexts, i never seem to do what i want
...as for your query for "color"...
i don't think i know about that yet either. inquiries similar to yours were what i've fixated on, sampling and examining how people communicated their emotions and frustrations and how they developed logical arguments or otherwise expressed their perspectives (as well the sources and components of those perspectives), while also trying to examine my own expression and communication of "color". all of this was color i didn't fully understand, color which i didn't know how to identify and recognize for some time. but ultimately, there was some kind of chromaticism, and i wanted to understand how it composed me
i think it led to where i am now, increasingly anxious and pensive and sentimentally attached to particular ideals and comforts that i would've liked to indulge in. i don't really know how to characterize my chromatic sentimentality and rationale yet...
...
you were always a curiosity that i dont think i had a clear or confident impression of. you always seemed so beyond me, nebulously sitting somewhere outside my scope, where my focal points would always miss the point. and yet i wanted to watch and examine you from afar, not being perceived and not mutually engaging, completely leaving each other alone, sharing audiovisual psycho-semantic information indirectly between each other
but that's not possible to my awareness beyond the merest facsimile that words and collaborative rhetoric can offer, so i'm effectively blind to what you experience, and i can't really imagine what you see if i have to view it through my own lenses...
through your history with people in the forum, you seem entirely ok to me, a neutral benign party that i vaguely admire or otherwise seem to look up to
despite all that, i definitely see something there. i don't know what it is, maybe because it hasn't come to fruition yet, but i take it both of us know i'm not saying it "just to be nice" or to feel good about myself. i guess whatever it is, it would take a lot of resolution/work/whatever to bring it out, maybe more than you can do at the moment. i don't know, but it doesn't seem to affect my view of you either way. i guess most i can say is that it's generally better to try to work with yourself rather than against, but that's way easier said than done
i feel like we might have more similarities than either of us realise. probably spotty, probably surface-level, though a part of me doesn't want it to be
idk, maybe he likes Synthwave ??
wow people really forgot this thread.
on topic: seems to be quite younger than me, just having this hunch
on topic: seems to be quite younger than me, just having this hunch
i have goldfish memory nvm
Dr. Dze
Cool OT regular; should play the game some more to work on those goals listed on their profile.
unfortunately for you when it comes to this game it feels like people are quite hesitant to say what they truly think about you, i think that's a shame. it may be a case of wanting to be nice, maybe a bit of intimidation, or maybe just dont like you at all, and that wraps back to the first idea of being nice.
good attempts at being the best you can be tho, wish you the best
good attempts at being the best you can be tho, wish you the best
hachiroku fan club
idk who is dis
not poland
idk, rushia
dia orang bangladesh
sanic
and he's also cool
husbando
*hugs*
would call husbando too tbh
:flushed:Isshiki Kaname wrote:
would call husbando too tbh
Kurashina Asuka fan
idk
Has nothing to say, should probably at least interact with me or check info on me.
A boy proposed to her shamelessly and she actually expressed interest.
Changed username to a heroine from hit eroge Select Oblige
Looks like i Already Mutual to you,I dunno Since When. :/
Kurashina Asuka
he/she is russian
I hope he/she loves rendang as much as I do!
an og thread necromancy player, revived and brought to forum games in the flesh
i don't remember you very well, which i might've(?) said before, but here's to hoping that i might quietly learn more about you from a distance in the meanwhile ^^
i don't remember you very well, which i might've(?) said before, but here's to hoping that i might quietly learn more about you from a distance in the meanwhile ^^
Skelly boi <3
inaccessible memories... i wonder how you've been, i wonder who you and i have become
hopefully this will prove to be a relatively sweet reunion! but of course, im content to just be a bystander happily watching you enjoy your time here in whatever way you like :>
hopefully this will prove to be a relatively sweet reunion! but of course, im content to just be a bystander happily watching you enjoy your time here in whatever way you like :>
not many thoughts in particular
Trains
HE'S A VETERAN, HE'S BACKKKK
Active here?
Very old FG poster
idk, you're new here
Last time I jio JAB for durian, now it's your turn!
(I know it's off season, so maybe next year.)
(I know it's off season, so maybe next year.)
Armpits
he's samet, i hope that Will explain
on a kendrick lamar & mf doom binge!!
unbanned gang
Received supporter recently!
Saijou Rinka, わきの下, облизать до мяса
he hopes that he can do better
Kendrick Lamar wannabe/LARPer
Joined the same time as me, which was the best time to join - May 2014
Also Привет!
Also Привет!
none, i dont really know you, although you do appear conventionally friendly and the flavor of your pfp seems sweet as arbitrarily decided by me :)
be well, be kind, if you want to
be well, be kind, if you want to
Ex skele boi, has a lot of free time
Hello, vi_xlt.
Has me blocked, well no point is saving face for me. I'd rather be as open as possible about what is going on, since my goal is to be a better person and reach out to them, as a better person
Edit: I again, harbor no ill will and I feel sorry for my actions that led to this. I do not have anything bad to say about him.
Edit: I again, harbor no ill will and I feel sorry for my actions that led to this. I do not have anything bad to say about him.
i'm not quite sure what my impressions are yet... i feel tentatively positively toward them? but i imagine it would be difficult to connect, partly because of communicative tones and styles and differing priorities. but they seem sincere and forthcoming, and have been trying to grow in whatever ways they realistically can ^-^;;
whether that's effective or enduring, i doubt we will know quite yet, but i look on at them with a fond sense of sympathy <3
whether that's effective or enduring, i doubt we will know quite yet, but i look on at them with a fond sense of sympathy <3
:sob: :ocean: :grip_despair:IAMACROBA wrote:
one of the best people I’ll never see
Still rapper wannabe it seems
not really sure why you seem to comment that toward reffty all the time... maybe im misreading, but it seems oddly condescending? apart from that, hoping you've been ok in the past couple of weeks, since then...Isshiki Kaname wrote:
Still rapper wannabe it seems
oh;; i was late... hghngh
i've seen you around a little more lately and your presence has been appreciated :> you go on and enjoy yourself, y'hear?Xelasto wrote:
I think they really like Narumi Toa.
she loves wall of text. sometimes annoying (pls dont hate me it's just my thoughts), but also cool at the same time to see an intellectual person in OT
thats ok!! i know its a lot, i understand it being tiring :')
also im sorry for not having anything to say for the music you've been sharing, i know youve really been enjoying it so please continue!! its really sweet that you feel comfortable sharing what youve found :>
also im sorry for not having anything to say for the music you've been sharing, i know youve really been enjoying it so please continue!! its really sweet that you feel comfortable sharing what youve found :>
are you a girl? i mean, my bad if that's the case but i'm confused if i just haven't got the memo yet or if it's just cause you have/draw yourself with long hair
uh other than that i don't believe there's much else i have to say that i haven't already. cute ocs/good art/lots of text/ecetera ecetera i think if i put you in a labyrinth with no exit you'd wander around a bit before picking a hallway you like and making a den there (i supply you with crayons and chalk from above)
uh other than that i don't believe there's much else i have to say that i haven't already. cute ocs/good art/lots of text/ecetera ecetera i think if i put you in a labyrinth with no exit you'd wander around a bit before picking a hallway you like and making a den there (i supply you with crayons and chalk from above)
Gave me 5.5/10 for obscure reasons.
(No hate, just made me a bit sad)
(No hate, just made me a bit sad)
perhaps a chill person to have multi together, who knows?
tbf i think most people would end up in the range of 4-6 for varying reasons (mostly not standing out to me much)Tateshina Eve wrote:
Gave me 5.5/10 for obscure reasons.
(No hate, just made me a bit sad)
i'm generally wary of other people and quick to distrust for extremely personal reasons. i don't advise you take it personally
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maitetsu fan, and train fan in general