Winnyace wrote:
Achromalia wrote:
you've always read to me as being so... i guess... kind of ambiguously dry and terse, and yet also ambivalent? it admittedly is both fascinating and intimidating coupled with at least the impression of an earnestness in your unadultered critiques of various things, so it presents a kind of invisible wall, something like an impression of callousness (where any of the rare moments of whimsy counteracting it, like the pyromania thread, would appear slightly dry) which then is "betrayed"/subverted by very vulnerable glimpses of moments where it seems you place lots of care and effort into advising someone to take care of themself or in moments of admitting to insecurities or in describing yourself as sensitive
I believe my attempts at jokes here don't land compared to other members here, so over time, I've began being a bit more serious and whatnot. When I try to joke around, I try to make it obvious, either through the use of emotes or imagery or spelling errors or a combination of different things. Tone is almost impossible to be told through text alone, without hints, clearly stating the tone you have or context and it is easy to miss it too. I've missed with Karmine here.
I'm, probably, coming off as ambivalent because often I'll have one strong opinion about something, then someone comes and completely destroys the image I've had of that and I feel the need to switch up to show my rationality and factual correctness. I attempt to be as rational as I can, as well as factually correct, which certainly isn't the case always and some might say most of the time, but I do attempt to be rational and factually correct.
i imagine the way i read your tone could precisely be informed by that impression of your drive toward...
being rational and factually correct, probably, but in my mind it's also about deliberately
appearing rational and factually correct (rather than correctness simply composing your appearance)-- almost as though insisting that this is something you should Demonstrate and Be (almost like "wearing a suit" made of these characteristics), and that's specifically what i read from even
mentioning "rational and factually correct" + "feeling the need to switch up to *show* [rationality/factuality]", though that could entirely be likely to be an inaccurate made-up conclusion i've held in suspense about you
i thiiink i have some kind of similar impulse, maybe. although i tend to phrase my motive and aspiration as Not being "rational", because i actually generally avoid this self-impression, but rather, it's that i would hope to be "accurate" (which may be considered effectively synonymous with "factual"? but somehow they just seem different) and "perceptive"
ultimately i'm not a very concrete or grounded or realistic person, in terms of my history with those in practice. and so i can't conscionably really be comfortable presuming myself or fashioning myself to appear that way (partly because i have very low logical clarity of mind in my opinion, with hazy impressions that radiate in weblike tangential tendrils to interrelated features), though i will still want to "be right"
in the forms that i critique people, it seems to be more about a mixture of "how harmful/hurtful might they be (inclusive of harm done from being wrong and propagating misinformation, therefore not exclusively a matter of sentiment in that it partly also is about logical consquence, the same way being emotionally hurt is about consequence)?" and "do they make any sense?" and "do they seem to sincerely and curiously introspect?", among some other qualifying conditions
hmmn. it's complicated, though i don't want that to discourage me from examining and parsing it. i just generally am averse to trying to insist that i'm being logical or rational, although i do want to be. i don't think it has to be mutually exclusive from sentimentality and whimsy. i really really don't, and therefore i think i tend to be caught somewhere in an ambiguous midpoint between childlike explorative gentleness and then the need to be soberly accurate and perceptive
idk how you read into this, though i would love to hear more from you about it so... mmyeah