thankfully, no. to be fair, i'm not aware of any partners my previous crush has or had, but if there are any, i'm pretty comfortable with that. as long as they're comfortable and happy.
it's rather difficult to be actually jealous. i tend to rationalize things and i end up struggling to ever fault people for what they want to do, especially when it comes to romance as it's their choice to make. of course i can understand feeling like you've missed out, but it's likely not necessarily something that would be centered around you to begin with. often, it's a choice made for themselves, just as you'd make one for yourself. with that being known, it's hard to understand why i'd reasonably continue to feel any sort of jealousy.
for example, i do have someone i know these days that i'm really, really comfortable with. it's really hard to discern what i actually think of her, however. it seems we're more-or-less mutually close friends, yet despite a very mild desire to want to be around her more, i find myself plenty comfortable with friendship.
if she has any plans or interests in a partner, that's pretty acceptable. i ultimately think that's what's most ideal.
freedom of choice.
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