9:34 Nervous to go out although it's 4 hours 30 mins away, but hey, at least I'm with my mate. ^-^
It's a looong wait, yet I don't quite feel like doing anything. So I'm just hanging on the forums.

9:49 Also, not sure whether to eat breakfast or not. I kinda want to please her by saying I've eaten breakfast today (I usually don't) and to be truthful about it. But there's also this part of me which wants me to lie and say I did when I actually didn't, because she wouldn't notice anyway. Or just don't eat and be honest. But she seems kinda concerned about my lack of eating. But there's nothing to be concerned about. My brain's in a horrible muddle. :/

10:09 Horribly confused. About, everything.

13:24 I'm a nervous wreck but also excited. Quite happy with the box I've half made. Now just needs the lid.

Puzzle wrote:

GOD FUCKING DAMMIT TAD HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS CRAP! TEA AT 5AM?!?!?! FUCKING 5 AM?!?! YOU DEGENERATE IM DISUGSTED I NEED TO GO BLEACH MYSELF BECAEUSE OF HOW DEPRAVED YOU ARE YOU SAVAGE

23:55

;_;

Tad Fibonacci wrote:

Puzzle wrote:

I love you Tad you're amazing I can't believe you would drink tea at 5AM that's so brave, truly a woke individual

23:55

;_;

Why are you crying tad? I don't understand. Do you not love to be showered in compliments?

Puzzle wrote:

12:21

;_;

Why are you crying, Puzzle? I don't understand. Do you not love to be misquoted?

Achromalia wrote:

Puzzle wrote:

12:21

;_;

Hamburger

2:14 AM

Decided to have tea now instead of 5 AM.

Tad Fibonacci wrote:

Achromalia wrote:

Puzzle wrote:

Honestly, these posts are like quantum superpositioned particles. You don't know what state they're in until you look at them. They could say anything. You only really know when someone else quotes them.

I swear to god Puzzle you better shut the fuck up with your blackmagic fuckery quantum posts. This forum isn't no goddamned Schrodinger's cat.

Did you guys know that water is one of the only things that expands when it freezes (besides some metals?) This is actually one the biggest reasons why life exists on planet Earth. Funny how nature be like that, huh? They don't think it be like it do, but it is.

It's 2:20PM and I swear I must've jumped to another timeline because I don't think any of you guys said this stuff.

Puzzle wrote:

Tad Fibonacci wrote:

Achromalia wrote:

Puzzle wrote:

*sees a customer* Hello sir, what will you take?

...

WE WILL TAKE JERUSALEM!!!

DEUS VULT

DEUS VULT

DEUS VULT

2:20PM

DEUS VULT

DEUS VULT

DEUS VULT

2:26 AM.

Huh.

7:49

I can't do this anymore.

17:20 Had a small salad (cucumbers and carrots) (it was meant to be medium but I didn't finish). This is sufficient enough. I don't want anything else. Feeling bad for having avoided the conversation that started up. I know better than to do this, I know this now. I should've been honest.

12:06 p.m.

hatching does not take this fucking long
my jaw is sore
my bug is also nice
getting hotter
he's performing with his lemon juice
1 inch could draw a decent amount of blood

1:27PM

MORI E OKAERI

reuni wrote:

1:27PM

MORI E OKAERI

Oh God

Its 12:55 PM. I'm wondering what my arts gonna turn out like in a year.

Puzzle wrote:

reuni wrote:

1:27PM

MORI E OKAERI

Oh God

Its 12:55 PM. I'm wondering what my arts gonna turn out like in a year.

rā

1:18 AM

Party is over
Soredemo odoritakatta
Nemurenai kurai
Jounetsu no hi wa itsushika
Itsu no hi ni ka

4:34PM

🅱️ruh i rly just posted a novel in ask the person below lmao

Its 3:53 and dear fucking lord I dont think I've ever seen a company ship as much stuff to us as one did today

Help I'm drowning in repair orders

5:11PM

i dont like being sweaty

7:59 server maintenance bout to end

It's 7:20PM and an absolute unit of a fucking tornado is heading straight towards me

Guess I might die shrug




Supposedly like 1mile large

Edit: It went North of me I'm good

7:26pm


so if you get a giant bed, you don't have much bedroom, but you have lots of bed room


huh

8:50 p.m.

cali kids sure get out late

9:39pm

i feel like charging my phone so i can set a alarm to wake up early tomorrow because tomorrow is AR Party in class and the day before the last day of school ^_^

8:10 I've waken up really late, at 7:30. However, I did also have some difficulties sleeping, so this could be a reason why. Yesterday, I woke up quite early. Currently just messing on the forums, and will study some Geography again at some point. Probably after I email a friend. I'm pretty good with my knowledge of all of the information, but I kinda want to learn the specifics so I know them better. As for the emailing, I don't want to do it right now.
I think way too much, it kinda sucks. I just want to be relaxed and free from thoughts, just for a second, but I know that isn't happening.

3:44 pie

Fuck I wish I had something to eat for breakfast 7:30AM

14:00 Mum's decided to order dinner really early. I don't mind much, it's just a slight change from normal schedule.

00:07 opm

Its 4:31 PM. Busy day but damn sometimes things turn out well

2:32 PM PST.

just got home.

6:00 p.m

I just received a message from someone I knew 3 years ago, I'm glad they're doing ok

6:11 am
relieeeeved 😭😭😭😭

5:48PM. I seriously can't remember what days are my days off for mania practice. I think it's... Tuesday anddddd friday?

Shit. I played on Tuesday. Guess I'll take today off.

7:48 pM

catscatscats

CATS

6:00 PM.

nothing.

hungry.

apathy.

10:41 p.m
Using the old osu website design, I know it best. Also, should probably start my homework...

7:46 Today's great! I've been mainly scrolling through Reddit.. For 2 hours! Where's the time going today?! These wholesome memes kinda make me wanna cry though. :3

9:30 I hope she isn't angry I completely changed the topic and refused to answer her question. She would probably understand due to it being a difficult topic even for me to understand fully. She's very understanding. But I'll know when we next meet again.

10:32 I keep having these moments where I feel faint and my chest feels quite heavy. Sometimes my eyes also go weird, like making everything brighter I guess? I've been having this for a while, but they've been becoming more and more frequent. I keep being told it's because of exam anxiety but why I'm pretty chill right now. Probably the most chill I've been all month.

13:08 Oof I just woke up, should probably do something productive today

13:43 bored, thinking about finals

18:49 Joyful and content!

8:22 Maybe I was wrong for being so open.

11:09AM

STREAM ZUU!!!!

16:13 Heh.. Kinda anxious rn.

Its 12pm andddd... Relaxed slow Friday. At the end of the month. What kind of black magic fuckery is this. I'm enjoying it after the last two days.

10:17 AM.

16 days until proposed due date. might want to postpone.

Achromalia wrote:

10:17 AM.

16 days until proposed due date. might want to postpone.

For what? 16 days, honestly, is quite a bit of time.

2:40pm. Fuck this has been a really nice Friday in contrast to the last three days. Only had to ship one thing. P much no stress today. Cant wait for the weekend. Whee. Gonna do more anatomee.

12:56 PM.

16 days until I the day I expect to release something. I'm not in the mood to wind up silent for another 4 months like last time. "Achromatism - Atrophy" isn't doing too well as a result.

Achromalia wrote:

12:56 PM.

16 days until I the day I expect to release something. I'm not in the mood to wind up silent for another 4 months like last time. "Achromatism - Atrophy" isn't doing too well as a result.

Super good luck then.

4:36PM

holy shit everything that happens from after the 6th badge to the 7th badge in pokemon b2/w2 is GARBAGE wtf??

edit: why are the legendary pokemon just kinda... appearing... for no reason????? why are these routes (except for the really long one) absolute trash for catching pokemon??? who’s idea was it to let u catch a lvl 42 sewaddle/tranquill?????? yea lemme just give u a lvl 40 fuckin weedle, essentially. whats the point in ANY of these towns other than like 2 sentences of story, if even??????
WHY ARE THE LEGENDARIES JUST APPEARING FOR NO REASON???? like theyre just chilling in the middle of these shitty routes... no special dialouge or hideout or anything except for their cry i guess. PLEASE dont be like this for the rest of the game i was having such a fun time.

3:41pm just realized that chara/reuni's timezone is EST/EDT and my timezone is CDT/CST.

*cries in italic*


edit: today's the day after the last day of school, i'm officially on summer break

10:26 Feeling quite ill, but got to study some Geography at 10:30, or maybe 11:00. Not sure whether or not studying English is necessary. I write stories and ideas for them in my spare time so that part of the exam would just be me doing a hobby! However, I write sci-fi and fantasy, while the exam wants boring realistic stories. I think that they can be historical, as the teacher encouraged me to practice writing for a war story idea I had, so I might brush up on my knowledge of Ancient Greece to make my story interesting, and to have more of an idea of what to write about. Quite sad how I know more about history than I do about present teenage life, due to my lack of real life social interaction.

Somebody told me
That you have a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend

Carmlillball wrote:

Somebody told me
That you have a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend

11:33AM

FFS, it has to be a trap, if it's like this.
I thought about it, months ago.


12:24PM
That Card aside...
READ THE FIELD, YOU DAMNED STUPID!
12:25PM
AND THE CARDS' DESCRIPTION!

6:42
Meds

45Traeath wrote:

Carmlillball wrote:

Somebody told me
That you have a boyfriend
Who looks like a girlfriend

11:33AM

FFS, it has to be a trap, if it's like this.
I thought about it, months ago.


12:24PM
That Card aside...
READ THE FIELD, YOU DAMNED STUPID!
12:25PM
AND THE CARDS' DESCRIPTION!

11:44 ^ Seems interesting.

Quite bored. Now decided to space out geography revision throughout the day, as this would be most helpful. Not sure whether to have a bath today, or tomorrow. Tomorrow I'll need to be out at 14:00, which is more than enough time, but I'm just so bored right now, and not feeling like doing much, and, either later today, or tomorrow, I'll probably be chatting a lot beforehand about plans, with the friend I'll be out with. Or she'll probably be sneaky on me. Any of these will do. I just like hanging out with her.

Carmlillball wrote:

11:44 ^ Seems interesting.

10:24PM
A'ight, what to do next, now that I'm done with this.

45Traeath wrote:

Carmlillball wrote:

11:44 ^ Seems interesting.

I don't see which part is but if the context is wanted...

Both.

21:27 Not that worried now. It's all well.

4:48 Been awake for 10 minutes. Woke up way too early! But l cant sleep again!

S:48 Listening to some old rock, and don't know what else to do.

04:35PM

Oh no, not mango again...

17:44 Upset and regretful. Of, just everything!
20:23 I'm feeling pretty relaxed and joyful.
What is this? A complete contradiction of the above statement? Yes, yes it is.

4:44 p.m.

city lights are pretty

6:59 am

About to take finals test. I hate my life.

7:09 p.m.

PLS FUCK OFF DOGS

Journal wrote:

7:09 p.m.

PLS FUCK OFF DOGS

n o

8:22PM

god i wanna play football or something

18:52 Now I have school again, I finally have a life!
Somewhat

1258 PM. It has taken over 20 minutes for my work computer to boot up. Fuck.

Edit: I read hitchhikers guide to the galaxy when I was younger and liked it a lot, but not nearly as much as I do rereading it now. Douglas Adam's is amazing.

11:06PM

*Weather Forecast tells "16°C/29°C"*

Kae used two "Blazing!" Cards, holy ****...

6:46PM

IRIS’ HAXORUS HAS A FUCKING FOCUS SASH THATS A LEGIT RUN KILLER SJSJSJSJSJSJ

8:02 PM.

Anatomy practice time. I only have 12 days left of my allotted 4 weeks of anatomy drawing. Less than 2 weeks, I'm over halfway done. Progress has definitely been made, too, so I'm all looking forward to when I'll be finished.

7:10
Must get ready for school soon (I mostly did earlier, but I'm waking until 7:30 for the rest, when my siblings wake up). I'm begging myself to believe that everything's going to be okay. Somehow my 2 hour exam in the morning isn't the cause of this massive heap of anxiety, but it sure doesn't help. I hope everything's alright, I hope. Great way to start the morning, being all worried and upset like this. Why can't I just stop guessing what will happen? Why can't I just accept whatever happens?

Carmlillball wrote:

7:10
Must get ready for school soon (I mostly did earlier, but I'm waking until 7:30 for the rest, when my siblings wake up). I'm begging myself to believe that everything's going to be okay. Somehow my 2 hour exam in the morning isn't the cause of this massive heap of anxiety, but it sure doesn't help. I hope everything's alright, I hope. Great way to start the morning, being all worried and upset like this. Why can't I just stop guessing what will happen? Why can't I just accept whatever happens?

GHFFF I hope it turned out okay, anxiety is the fucking worst

It's 8:25PM andddddd I'm thinking about work, I suppose. Hope it turns out to be an alright day.

Puzzle wrote:

Carmlillball wrote:

7:10
Must get ready for school soon (I mostly did earlier, but I'm waking until 7:30 for the rest, when my siblings wake up). I'm begging myself to believe that everything's going to be okay. Somehow my 2 hour exam in the morning isn't the cause of this massive heap of anxiety, but it sure doesn't help. I hope everything's alright, I hope. Great way to start the morning, being all worried and upset like this. Why can't I just stop guessing what will happen? Why can't I just accept whatever happens?

GHFFF I hope it turned out okay, anxiety is the fucking worst

It's 8:25PM andddddd I'm thinking about work, I suppose. Hope it turns out to be an alright day.

15:31
Hiya!
Thanks a ton! It really does mean a lot for you to care!
I hope your day's also going well!

Sadly, this anxiety's more long term than just today. It's more worrying about the future. Friend found out something about me, they were concerned, and yesterday promised that they'll talk to someone of higher authority in this group thing we're both in, and I don't know what the Hell is going on. I know this person has quite a close tie with the school and I worry about the special needs staff of the school knowing about this, and possibly having a meeting with my mum, and making my mum anxious about this thing. I've always tried to semi cover it up for her and don't want my cover absolutely destroyed. The matter isn't big of a deal for me. I think that everyone else is way too concerned. I'm personally really concerned about everyone blowing it out of proportion. Every day, I panic, today is the day I'm going to be questioned. Today is the day this person who's been told everything will want to meet up with me to discuss it. And it hurts when the concerns I've sent this friend weren't getting answered at the time. I've only just came back from school, so I haven't checked email yet to see if she's answered my emails, but I very much think that today will come to the same disappointment. The confusion hurts. And I don't feel like going through that stuff again right now, so I'm not checking for the time being. Either if I go on there my questions will be answered and I'll be more relaxed, or I'm going to be disappointed and end up horribly anxious and upset. I think I'm coming to terms now with just how bad my anxiety really is. Opens up a new load of self-loathe. My bravery has been all I've ever liked about myself, because I love taking challenges and facing my fears. This 'bravery', it's completely fake, faked for myself. I should not be this emotional, I hate how emotional I am. Good times are amazing and build me up, making me feel like a queen. Bad times completely screw me over. There's no middle, and that's tiring.

My head is truly messed today. Might just need to get off the internet for now.

That sounds even worse than what I thought. Sheesh. It sounds like you're in a rough spot.

I dont know how much random internet advice can really help, but the way I defeat (or at least fight) my anxiety is by putting things in perspective.

Things happen. Time passes. At the end of a year, will I care about what's happening to make me anxious? How about 5 years? 10? The answer is generally no. And how much of my life do I have left to live? Quite a lot more than just a year, or 5, or 10. So I just tryo to focus on the things that will help me long term. Maybe what I'm anxious about is something that will help me in the long run. I stop caring about it so much then. The important thing is moving forward and working through the things that are hard so I can have a better future.

Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is often the things that make you anxious aren't things that matter in the long run. And if they are, the most you can do about it is try to work on whatever it is. In the end, I find worrying almost never benefits me except if I take it and turn it into motivation. So the situation sounds scary, but I hope you can use it to your advantage. Anxiety really does suck, though; I hope it passes soon.

12:25PM

my altaria killed the haxorus bc it tried to dual chop it and missed

run saved

Puzzle wrote:

That sounds even worse than what I thought. Sheesh. It sounds like you're in a rough spot.

I dont know how much random internet advice can really help, but the way I defeat (or at least fight) my anxiety is by putting things in perspective.

Things happen. Time passes. At the end of a year, will I care about what's happening to make me anxious? How about 5 years? 10? The answer is generally no. And how much of my life do I have left to live? Quite a lot more than just a year, or 5, or 10. So I just tryo to focus on the things that will help me long term. Maybe what I'm anxious about is something that will help me in the long run. I stop caring about it so much then. The important thing is moving forward and working through the things that are hard so I can have a better future.

Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is often the things that make you anxious aren't things that matter in the long run. And if they are, the most you can do about it is try to work on whatever it is. In the end, I find worrying almost never benefits me except if I take it and turn it into motivation. So the situation sounds scary, but I hope you can use it to your advantage. Anxiety really does suck, though; I hope it passes soon.

Hello!

I really thank you for the advice! Very encouraging! I'll try to think more like this!


18:26 Finally had the courage to open emails. And yes, it crashed to the ground. I ended up just sending a email, apologising for bothering her. I've tried to talk, but clearly she didn't want this. I'm not checking anymore, I'm really not. I'm done with that bullshit, getting my hopes high for them to fall. Shame. Shame on me. I hate making others upset, and I feel I've done just that.

08:01PM

Journal wrote:

I’m assuming we’re talking about the major tennis tournament, [...].

Yes, this, sorry for the lack of accuracy.

It's 8:30 PM and I've finally drawn my first semi-decent anatomy sketch. The proportions are alright, the figure looks realistic enough and decently accurate. The only issue with it is the pose is really un-lifelike, which I hear is a very common issue when people first get into anatomy; and I didn't have a reference to draw the hands from, so they look like shit.

Learned a lot from the sketch though. I think my big takeaways are how to better structure the hips, a little bit about how the knees protrude, how I should be actively thinking about how joints are altered by perspective, and that I should start practicing drawing hands from memory. My hands are pretty good if I've got a reference picture but without one I seem to struggle a little.

Anyway, I'm really happy and pretty proud of myself. This actually looks passable instead of the mangled pieces of garbage with god-awful proportions and body structure I've been producing for the entirety of the last 2 weeks. Progress.

7:31 Got fully ready for school early. I'm not sure when the silence will end. I'll probably check after school. Geography exam, and I feel alright about that. My head is a little more clear now. Yesterday I honestly thought my worrying would turn me crazy. It kinda did. But at least that's all slowly packing it's bags.

7:49 Part of me wants to check emails now and possibly have my worries sorted, part of me wants to not check at all.

11:33pm

Only 5 more hours til my shift is over. Fuck graveyard shifts.

4:13 AM

Tryna look into 3D stuff in Unity. I'm planning on doing one of these new short 3D courses that they've provided on their official site just to understand some basics, since I've only ever worked with 2D stuff. Then maybe after that I could do a game jam using Unity 3D so that the experience can help me learn and improve at it.

Westonini wrote:

4:13 AM

Tryna look into 3D stuff in Unity. I'm planning on doing one of these new short 3D courses that they've provided on their official site just to understand some basics, since I've only ever worked with 2D stuff. Then maybe after that I could do a game jam using Unity 3D so that the experience can help me learn and improve at it.

that'd be pretty damn cool. would love to see what you make.

4:19 AM PST.

I shall never sleep.

I've woken up recently in the middle of the night, and decided that considering the amount of time that passed, I'd be best off just taking a shit anyways. I did all that, and now I'm here, struggling to come up with music stuff, because for whatever reason, I'm absolute shit at properly doing what I envisioned.

it's frustrating.

but at least the buildup is out of the way now.

fucking hell, i've got school in a few hours, too.

15:58 Geography exam was easy, apart from the damn map stuff. But that wasn't a huge deal of marks. The last paper went amazing, so I think I'd definitely get a good mark as a whole. I have no idea what's going to be on the last paper, except maybe questions about some trips the geography classes went on. I didn't go to a trip due to stomach issues so damn I'm going to revise that certain trip a lot.

Ate lunch today. I don't really like when I'm made to eat lunch, but my mum insists.

Maths exam tomorrow, I've been studying that quite a lot yesterday, and I'll continue to today. Thank goodness that exam wasn't yesterday or the day before. I've had an English exam yesterday, and I did absolutely terribly on it, because my mind was in a really bad place. At least, with English, I think I've done very good at the other exams, and will do amazing at the non-fiction, so I'm not really concerned with that one exam. Maths I'll need to be more careful for. On the last mocks, I've barely got a 4. I'm terrified. But I also did a lot of revision since then. I know a lot more now.

I'll check emails after the main studying is finished with. Soo.. Probably not today. Dammit, me doing studying is causing me to procrastinate! Who knew that was possible!

16:34 Screw it, I shouldn't be getting surprised if there's no reply. And, if there is one, I'll be way more energetic and positive. I need that for hours of studying.

OH LORD THERE'S LOTS I'M CRYING
I'm sorry, it's just, a huge relief. She's amazing with explaining stuff to me and I really need her positivity. Really fights my negativity.

I kEeP eDiTiNg ThIs, UnSuRe WhAt To ShArE

Ahh. I can see why that'd be a cause for drama. Well I dont wanna add more to it so I'll just say try to stay healthy.

Its 10:23 AM and I'm thinking about what kind of car to get. I dont really know, to be honest. Urgh.

11:37AM

i want to give wooloo a fuckin g hug

hypercyte wrote:

Y'all too good for me and my trackpad : (

Meah wrote:

Aww..

1155am

5:55pm

Currently contemplating on the decisions made in the past hour


I have an exam tomorrow.

3:41 AM

Thanks to rank decay I might actually beat this other trackball osu player in rank soon. Its never really been a goal of mine but I guess it'll bring some satisfaction? Although I don't actually play too often so it may still take a while.

I'm comin for ya booty Trackball dude so ya better buckle that ass up boi

4:07 AM PST.

time to head to bed.

made some progress.

Achromalia wrote:

4:07 AM PST.

time to head to bed.

made some progress.

That's good news. I'll be checking out your post on the disc server when I get a chance.

Its 8:43 AM. I'm thinking about next Saturday after this one. That will be the last anatomy sketch I bang out for my month of anatomy and I can finally go back to actually enjoying drawing. I think I'll improve a lot. Not sure what I want to make at that point though.

Also I'm hungry and have a nice lunch for work but cant eat it now.

2147 ginger tea

18:24 School went well. I think I've done really well in the maths exam!

Had lunch today.. I think that the school WAS told about my 'lack' of eating (I honestly don't think I'm eating that little, but what do I know, everyone else irl is concerned), after all, so the TAs are really putting their foot down on lunches. I must have lunch. I can't eat much of it though, and it's just making my poor appetite for dinner worse. I think it's making me eat less, even if it's more meals. At least I've managed to eat SOME dinner today.

I don't know how, or why, my eating habits have changed so much. Used to eat all the time.

Been quite successful, socially. Been chatting a bit. I'm definitely more calm now!

Been studying Biology, and I'll continue to do so.

08:13PM

Now that I think about it, I'm already making a mistake typing the quotation marks first and then inserting the text afterwards, am I not...

I just watched a bunch of grandmas twerk
1229pm
Think I just swallowed my wax 908 pm

Journal wrote:

I just watched a bunch of grandmas twerk
1229pm
Think I just swallowed my wax 908 pm

Uhhhhh

Hey are you okay

It's 9:24 PM and I'm really upset with myself. Anatomy practice went absolutely god awful today. I'm not even sure if I learned anything from it.

11:25 p.m
If I don't take a shower and go to sleep right now, I won't be able to get up in the morning and i'll end up late again

2:03 AM

This Asset Forge software is pretty useful for making some simple models for 3D projects. Its got Simplistic UI and is super easy to understand and get right into. It's nice for quickly whipping up some simple-looking models, especially if you've got little to no experience with modeling like me. It's fun to mess around with it as well to see what I can do with it.

I feel like I'm talking about this as if this were an advertisement. Next I'd say something like-

ENTER CODE "WESTONINI" AT CHECKOUT FOR 25% OFF YOUR PURCHASE OF ASSET FORGE!!!

Tad

Listen to me Tad

We have to make the featherless penguin goddess decide to become trans

9:09

05:41PM

Damn it.

05:43PM

What the...
9 songs ( . .)

17:02 Today has actually been good, and I'm so glad it's the weekend starting from tomorrow! Dreading leaver's assembly already though.. I've never liked any assemblies, I've always avoided them. They're painfully overwhelming.

10:19 AM.

It seems like I'm the only one who doesn't know what to do, write or type sometimes.

I got left behind, and couldn't even finish my first paragraph in time.

This final grade is going to fuck me over.

I don't think I even had a chance.

Eghh.

Achromalia wrote:

10:19 AM.

It seems like I'm the only one who doesn't know what to do, write or type sometimes.

I got left behind, and couldn't even finish my first paragraph in time.

This final grade is going to fuck me over.

I don't think I even had a chance.

Eghh.

No Ahhhh

Shibbt. Maybe you can talk to your teacher about it. They might be understanding and give you some sort of extension of some type.

8:12
Woke at 5:30. Wow, time's going fast!

I actually have a decent idea for a story, and this always puts me in a great mood. And, while planning, the story keeps improving and improving!
l write science fiction. Easily the best genre to write and read!

Had to explain something (which was emotionally quite difficult for me to explain) to a friend, but I've got a reply starting with 'WOW! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!'. She doesn't seem to be the emotional type, so this is truly special. I nearly cried, I was so happy, I love to know I've made someone so happy! More than worth it!

Achromalia wrote:

10:19 AM.

It seems like I'm the only one who doesn't know what to do, write or type sometimes.

I got left behind, and couldn't even finish my first paragraph in time.

This final grade is going to fuck me over.

I don't think I even had a chance.

Eghh.

Damn, that sucks, I've went through the same with much of my English Language exams. I'd be surprised to pass that. (At least my Literature papers were great, though!) You're not the only one screwed. Heck, you probably have more of a chance than I do.
I'm a worrier myself, so I know that this is difficult, but try not to worry until you get your grade. I'm currently trying this, and it does make me more optimistic for the future exams. Maybe, you've not done as bad as you thought. But I don't know how American schooling and grading works.

12:52 AM PST.

well, the assignment's already due. i started the second paragraph.

that accounts for something akin to an F. i'd predict somethin' like 15%.

considering how heavily weighted the finals are, it'll bring me from the 85% i struggled to get up to in this damn class down to somewhere between 55% and 70%.

a failing grade's quite a big deal considering my circumstances, though i'd rather not explain them.

today was terrible. but tomorrow should be a nice day.

i'm excited to meet her again, after all these years.