8:31 PM PST.
I can't help but think my work is dogshit.
I gotta keep figuring out my way around this and keep going.
I can't help but think my work is dogshit.
I gotta keep figuring out my way around this and keep going.
Carmlillball wrote:
12:05
An endless stream of thoughts. I really need to clear my head a bit.
Usually, I find Saturdays quite boring and uneventful. However, while today is barely an exception, at least I have some studying to do to break me out of this vicious cycle of doing the same stuff over and over. And I had to write some story plans in class yesterday. But I never made them stories. It's not required to do, but I want to develop the ideas into stories. Maybe show the teacher afterwards. I might start to type stories for fun again.
I want to get involved with the real world. That really helps with boredom. Surprising to people who know me, but I kinda enjoy being around people, going to new places and being involved. It's fair for me to assume that the only thing most of my peers know about me is that I'm quiet and anxious. I always distance myself from others because I get very scared of messing up if I try to socialise. A friend of mine, she helped me realise that I should be socialising around 2 months back, or possibly somewhat less. However, as getting involved with the real world goes, I'm horribly naive, with going out, and social skills. I've always lived an isolated lifestyle. Which I thought I enjoyed. I was calm. I was safe. But I never really noticed how upset I always was. I've never really felt anything, except fear and sometimes sadness. But I thought that was pretty normal, and feelings are all a show, an act. I feel genuine happiness now. My smiles aren't faked to please others. Annoyingly, not being used to this, I always feel some urge to immediately hide my smiles. But it's starting to lessen. Aches a ton, too. Which is also starting to loosen. Others have noticed and it seems I'm becoming more approachable. Needless to say, I adore this friend.
I have those 2 hours a week to socialise with someone and go to, for example, a café, and this time is precious to me. Which could be a reason why Saturdays seem so boring. I'm practically waiting for this day to come. I love Mondays, because that's when we hang out. I wake up with a smile on a Monday morning, while others in the house don't want to wake up!
I've been up since 6:30, which is quite a good sleep for me nowadays. And 7:00 is amazing. I remember when I've used to be able to sleep until like 11:00 on a weekend. Great times. Or was wasting life away to mess in a dream world truly great? Maybe I quite prefer it like this, spending more time actually doing stuff.
KotoriIsMyWaifu wrote:
2.04am
WTF AM I DOING STILL AWAKE
Carmlillball wrote:
KotoriIsMyWaifu wrote:
2.04am
WTF AM I DOING STILL AWAKE
I don't know.
19:48 In a negative mood. Maybe hanging in the Osu! forums will help.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
3:23 AM.
Yes, I'm still up.
Don't judge me.
4:45 AM.Puzzle wrote:
It's 4:10 PM and the only thing I'm thinking about is just how much I'm judging Tad for being awake a 3:23 AM in the morning. I can't believe it. What an absolute madman. A singular degenerate. My disappointment is immeasurable. 3:23 AM! How ridiculous.Tad Fibonacci wrote:
3:23 AM.
Yes, I'm still up.
Don't judge me.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Puzzle wrote:
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
3:23 AM.
Yes, I'm still up.
Don't judge me.
It's 4:10 PM and the only thing I'm thinking about is just how much I'm judging Tad for being awake a 3:23 AM in the morning. I can't believe it. What an absolute madman. A singular degenerate. My disappointment is immeasurable. 3:23 AM! How ridiculous.
4:45 AM.
It's me again.
No, I haven't went to bed yet.
Kinda want to drink some tea.
Yes, tea at 4 AM.
Don't judge me.
5:03 AM.Puzzle wrote:
Just make sure you're not drinking the tea at 5am. Then we have a problem.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Puzzle wrote:
Just make sure you're not drinking the tea at 5am. Then we have a problem.
5:03 AM.
Uhh...
Oops.
23:55Puzzle wrote:
GOD FUCKING DAMMIT TAD HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS CRAP! TEA AT 5AM?!?!?! FUCKING 5 AM?!?! YOU DEGENERATE IM DISUGSTED I NEED TO GO BLEACH MYSELF BECAEUSE OF HOW DEPRAVED YOU ARE YOU SAVAGE
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Puzzle wrote:
I love you Tad you're amazing I can't believe you would drink tea at 5AM that's so brave, truly a woke individual
23:55
;_;
Puzzle wrote:
12:21
;_;
2:14 AMAchromalia wrote:
HamburgerPuzzle wrote:
12:21
;_;
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Achromalia wrote:
Puzzle wrote:
Honestly, these posts are like quantum superpositioned particles. You don't know what state they're in until you look at them. They could say anything. You only really know when someone else quotes them.
I swear to god Puzzle you better shut the fuck up with your blackmagic fuckery quantum posts. This forum isn't no goddamned Schrodinger's cat.
Did you guys know that water is one of the only things that expands when it freezes (besides some metals?) This is actually one the biggest reasons why life exists on planet Earth. Funny how nature be like that, huh? They don't think it be like it do, but it is.
2:26 AM.Puzzle wrote:
2:20PMTad Fibonacci wrote:
DEUS VULTAchromalia wrote:
...Puzzle wrote:
*sees a customer* Hello sir, what will you take?
WE WILL TAKE JERUSALEM!!!
DEUS VULT
DEUS VULT
DEUS VULT
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DEUS VULT
reuni wrote:
1:27PM
MORI E OKAERI
Puzzle wrote:
reuni wrote:
1:27PM
MORI E OKAERI
Oh God
Its 12:55 PM. I'm wondering what my arts gonna turn out like in a year.