I feel like I don't deserve my rank, many friends passed me in rank and skill and I know many that are under my rank and still are better than me.
I could only get ranks from shitty nomod that everyone does and slow DT farm, so idk how to feel.
I can't do well streams because my coordination alternating (as well singletapping with z) is just terrible. I'm also really slow and when I'm tapping something I tense too much my hand without being able to do anything to avoid it, causing that my stamina is shit.
I can't do HR because I'm bad at OD10 and also I have never been able to get comfortable with AR10.
The only thing I think I'm good at is old maps. Yeah that's so fkn useless.
Just seeing my top plays fkn depress me, spending so much time in improving in a way I thought it was the right to end up stuck in 2k with Daidai and Koigokoro.
And many people who I thought they would get stuck because they were playing with bad habits like retrying too much or playing too much DT/HR now beat me in skill.
And if you tell me to just "pls enjoy game" I always enjoyed this game through the feel of satisfaction when improving in something.
And no, I don't need to just "play more" I've been in this situation like 2 months playing almost everyday with only a week break.
I could only get ranks from shitty nomod that everyone does and slow DT farm, so idk how to feel.
I can't do well streams because my coordination alternating (as well singletapping with z) is just terrible. I'm also really slow and when I'm tapping something I tense too much my hand without being able to do anything to avoid it, causing that my stamina is shit.
I can't do HR because I'm bad at OD10 and also I have never been able to get comfortable with AR10.
The only thing I think I'm good at is old maps. Yeah that's so fkn useless.
Just seeing my top plays fkn depress me, spending so much time in improving in a way I thought it was the right to end up stuck in 2k with Daidai and Koigokoro.
And many people who I thought they would get stuck because they were playing with bad habits like retrying too much or playing too much DT/HR now beat me in skill.
And if you tell me to just "pls enjoy game" I always enjoyed this game through the feel of satisfaction when improving in something.
And no, I don't need to just "play more" I've been in this situation like 2 months playing almost everyday with only a week break.