combo scaling removal is so stupid lol. why bother fcing maps,be consistent when you can get a lucky good run or "choke" for high pp.
still very dead mentally
if I keep mapping I want to get my head out of mappooling
I already curse the day where I try resuming my activites in this game.
whoever added me show yourself pls
Mapping: barely touching the editor and placing a few circles Modding: indefinite break due to unclear motivations and unclear judgment Tournaments: short version,I know I am partially responsible and assume my choices and possible mistakes but the playerbase I used to admire is: too annoying/stressful/not trustworthy(scheduling lol)/ungrateful/dont care about tournaments to be worth the trouble+plenty of other issues i dont want to explain(ie culture format pooling strain etc) so nothing for idk.
I wish staffing/hosting tournaments was less stressful. Its fine to mess around with the editor tho
Having more fun and fullfillment in the fgc(nvm controller broke so nothing).
Probably afk besides staffing every once in a while for tournaments if asked.
Current status: -barely any staffing -slow mapping derust -preparing my next tournament. -osu event lol -pis 2024 preparations(yes)
SOMEONE ELSE POOLED ONE OF MY MAPS IN A TOURNAMENT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !
Never forget about the dark side of this community
Not sure if I want to seriously grind mapping,would still have to find a new approach
About me
Next tournament forum post in August
-osu! tournament organizer,mapper,modder(on hiatus) -the type of guy who forgets to put his name on his copy despite rechecking everything 2795 times. -some asocial shut-in,not very functional human being trying to do something with his life -Started using this account in January 2018,completely stopped playing since 2020 -14th(halfway)+15th Cycle Stack Mentee by some miracle. -hobbies:in osu, mapping/tournaments. other:pokemon "nuzlockes"(inactive),fighting games(inactive) -My ultimate dream in life is(provided I am competent enough to pull this off) to pick up low lifes hopeless rejects and turn them into decent people in general.
If you want mutual for some reason, just ask
You can talk with me if you want. I would like to socialize but im not good at it
-figuring out whether I truly want to pursue some goals and doing it seriously if yes -imagine making friends and meeting people -being alive -building social relationship with people(too hard lol) -succesfully host PIS 2023 LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO -successfully host 2-3 tournaments -successfully staff for other tournaments -more mapping -learning how to properly map lower diffs(lazy/boring zzz) -trying seriously to rank a map -successfully rank a map(almost impossible it would be a Miracle...) -getting back to modding(the day I make substantial mapping improvements so not anytime soon...)
-do something about deranking -helping other countries in tournaments until one they can consistently match std usa playerbase(lol) -i dont care about fame and whatnot but becoming somewhat relevant in this community without becoming infamous -dont really care that much but would be cool to map for big tournaments.I can map for my own tourneys anyway -having friends and social relationships -becoming good at mapping -ranking a map(just a personal milestone) -making good maps:bangers,tournament maps,etc -becoming good at modding and helping people -becoming a BN?(I dont know if I want to do go for this goal anymore) -becoming a successful tournament organizer -helping players to get better at tournaments in general -finding a middle ground to help newer tournaments players to get experience while not having to deal with sandbagging -getting a profile badge(lol)
ITS NOT YOUR CRINGE FAVORITE PLAYERS/INSPIRATION LIST!!!!!!!!! Louka: a classmate who was playing osu,made me discover the game. created my acc around late 2017 started playing in 2018 Sotarks: despite how cringe he is,how cringe his maps are,I started using the editor then mapping after watching him Live mapping Raise My Sword(in 2018). he suggested me to go to osu! event 2019 by taking the bus,ty! idke: watched your streams a lot back then,been a good influence on me for mental. Kroytz: you got me into actual mapping thanks to your streams,I appreciate your guidance. Ty for the roast too Seto Kousuke: roasted me(took 2 weeks to recover) got me out of inting and suggested me to map simpler stuff to learn, thank you! Stack: thank you for mentoring me and helping me to get better at mapping despite starting from nothing(I was inting back then). I have yet to talk with you again or reach my mapping goals but I will. Halfslashed: opened my eyes to fix my mental and taught me the hard way that my mental needs to be changed. Your insights helped me too,thank you again for explaining me how to use more the playfield too. esmb17:i was randomly chatting and said on a whim if anyone would be down to host a tournament with me,and you followed me. Thank you for starting my tournament staffing career lol. I dont blame you for quitting TWMT#2 during regs. HitomiChan_: My biggest success/failure? helped me pooling Kaizo Cup and influenced me,I have an insanely hard time interacting with guy but i dont think he is evil,just because I dont get along with the dude doesnt mean I dont respect his work as a tournament organizer. Wanted to help him back but things went wrong... The World if I knew how to deal with this type of people,its too hard. Nevermind,blessing in disguise. Dodged a bullet,but dont wanna spit on the soup
others
bubbleman,despite being annoying and edgy at some points,influenced my tournament/mappool perspective in a good way.His vision/hindsights were helpful. He helped me developing my critical thinking.if I never heard of him nor watched his content,I would still be a npc
dios dong for influencing my tournament perspective
no npc mode,but WhiteCat unbanned stream then his "road" to #1 was such a sight to behold and opened my mind. Same deal with mrekk,was a doubter in 2020,he proved everyone wrong in 2021. They broke the "omg hvick225/cookiezi/vaxei is invincible" myth "omg this map is impossible you cannot fc it"
owc 2020 gf match usa vs germany: was expected a boring one sided match,but germany took usa to tiebreaker,I found the match very good and it inspired me to start my tournament hosting career on a whim lol corsace closed 2021 inspired me to host open rank,as well as players like Utami,Intercambing,Arnold24x24 after seeing them getting better at tournaments. corsace heavily influenced my tournament and my mapping perspective,if this tournament series didnt exist I would never consider custom mapping. Used to find tournaments boring because most of the maps pooled in tournaments were easy in the vacuum,but never considered high star rating until this tournament,makes things more entertaining to follow.
Hosts who gave me a change:Stan,phox,Millie Good Staff Members: shadeceglgmn,louiszpro,homuki,hkttycatz,nspire_cas,a secret,aidown,ToshiroKen Honorable Mentions:other mappers/modders who roasted me and helped me,the other guys who made sheet templates,its not very fun to do everything manually(haha twmt#1 goes brr)
NEEDS TO UPDATE BUT SUMMARY 2019: 2020:learnt some basic but still a noob 2021: mental boomed,barely maps,little to no improvement compared to 2020 2022: mapped more but minimal improvement early 2023: signs of improvement WHEN SOMEONE FINALLY TELLS YOU SOMETHING THAT YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN FOR AGES!
-late 2018:started using the editor -2019: "mapping",aka inting and meme maps. -2020: started mapping seriously,mentored by Stack <3 Jan 2020-July 2020: half decent improvement Aug 2020: wanted to try ranking a map simply to improve and get valuable feedback and all,got ghosted instead. killed my mental 2020- early 2021: irregular mapping,improvement drought. then irl stuff,mental booming, mar-jul 2021 "quit w" attempt. Aug 2021- Early 2022: somewhat mapping derust,very very very slow progress,first tournament mapping thoughts?(checker flag night line TB lol) 2022: started custom mapping,mapped "Drive Your Fire" because every other map was horrendous,turned out well. Some occasional mapping attempts but been omega dead. Mapped a couple of random unsubmitted maps and started thinking about making more tournament maps too. August 2022:made more customs for LTA,despite some notable flops it was worthwhile. 2023: ???
-I deleted a couple of random unfinished wip maps www -one day I will learn how to map lower difficulties/spreads but this is soooooooo boring. -too lazy to make a list of Arists that I like. I dislike tuyu/luschka/kessoku band/earrape/timing hell/very low bpm songs ig -they are some maps I like there and there but I dont have any "favorite mappers" list for now. -I feel like I am slowly getting better(since around 2022),feels cool. I am not very consistent yet,not sure about what style I want to go for either but I will take it
Modding
Modding queue(dead lol) -current status:indefinite hiatus because I would rather focus on mapping and reach a certain level. I want to feel more qualified before helping people. -still unsure whether I want to become a beatmap nominator
Dont care what other people think about this rambling attempt
basically they are 2 sides of me when it comes to hosting: 1.open rank:I want to give an opportunity to players to improve while still pushing the very best players to their limits,when I host PIS,the goal is also to push myself to give everything I have in my tournament,hoping players will do the same.While still dealing with issues like low star rating coinflips/accuracy battles,tournaments taking forever etc. Also I like pooling and making maps for the following reasons:pools are the very core of the tournament,want to have agency and test players myself,imagine trusting other poolers,same reasoning with custom maps. While I want to give my very best,I dont forget the primary goal of community tournaments,aka having fun,for staff and players alike. I always try to remember this crucial part while pooling/mapping Custom maps are cool to give a players a unique experience and make your tournaments more exclusive,with moderation. Custom "songs" are nothing but at best a flexing attempt(just buy a lamborghini or something),at worst a waste of money.Most of the time you can achieve the same results by finding songs.Finding songs yourself and making maps out of them is one the best parts about mapping and custom songs ruin that part for me,thats just my subjective opiniong anyway. If you have the money to afford them just do something else,unless you are some rich boi who wants to flex.
Also high difficulty pools are good to ensure players get value out of their time. One of my favorite things to do in life is making others improve. As for the already very best players,I just wanna find out by myself if they are really that good by making sure they get a very hard challenge but not impossible either,ideally pushing them at their current limit,except I have no clout nor an insane amount of ressources to get them to do so XD! I can give them the opportunity,the rest is up to them.
2.rank restricted: i used to dislike them and struggle to find a reason to justify investing time and energy hosting them,aside from getting my first hosting experience,because they incentivize deranking,and sandbagging. But I remembered the important part about tournaments,having fun. They can be a nice break from the high stakes open rank stress,if every tournament was open rank,it would be good to let players improve but community tournaments would end up being too elitist.
1v1s>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>team tournaments cuz osu is not a team game. scheduling hell makes me want to cry
No Matter What,I always remember that at the end of the day,osu is at its core a solo player game meant to have fun,its not a pvp game and will never ever be. Even if every community tournaments and owc disappeared the game would still be alive. I am not into trying to make osu! an "esport". If you kill tournaments in inherent pvp games like figthing games,moba,fps,they straight up die,unlike osu! I dont like sponsors cuz I am not a sellout and I hate ads Community tournaments are just one side of osu!(and not the biggest one) like farming in solo play,making skins,mapping,modding etc
If I can successfully host tournaments,then litterally anyone can. Hosting/pooling is not something thaa only a handful of people should be allowed to do
I am neither a high level player,let alone a tournament player,nor a billionaire,a big streamer,a "demon ref",someone who gets along with people easy(shut-in moment),friend with every big tournament staffer(impossible)
My personal opinion but imagine hosting but not pooling nor reffing
I envy host/staff members who easily get good registrations,staff,especially refs with ease. I also envy newgen 2020+ "demon-refs" who are friends with everyone as I dont have their social skills
trying to become a good tournament host/staff without hopefully digging my own grave and getting a terrible reputation. Just having enough players to run an acceptable tournament is sufficient for me
Despite things going wrong,afk staff members,ff,registrations stress and all,its a very fullfulling endeavor that I enjoy doing! I am not a billionnaire prince,someone who excels at streaming/commentating,I have no social capabilities,no clout. I can At the very least map,make mappools,ref,and do mostly everything at the same time.
Unless I find something to experiment with,I wont host another rank restricted tournament. I ideally want to host a tournament below open rank level without encouraging players to sandbag,something to help upcoming tournament players to get more experience and improve
If you need my help for staffing a tourney,just ask lol. if I ref I can at the very least guarantee I take some matches every week. I can somewhat make maps too if needed lol. Same deal with editing my maps(if someone is crazy enough to consider such a thing)
IF im not too busy hosting a tournament I can make custom maps lol(nm1 yes;nm2 yes;nm3 maybe;nm4 no;nm5 yes;nm6 no;hd1 maybe;hd2 maybe;hd3 maybe;hr1 i dont care;hr2 maybe;hr3 unlikely;dt1 i dont want to;dt2 sure;dt3 i dont want to;dt4 i dont want to;tb maybe but very hard)
Total Number of Maps:15+1 ******MAPPED FOR MY TOURNAMENTS****** -ssh night line:TWMT#2 GF Tiebreaker // tiebreaker hype xd -drive your fine:Pandemonium Super GF DT2 // First actual custom,based map,exactly the type of map i aimed for -modern strange cowboy: Lunar Triple Axel Qualifiers AIM2 // not very inspired,flop -Utami: Lunar Triple Axel Qualifiers TECH1 // a masterpiece -Treasure Dream: Lunar Triple Axel Semifinals SPEED3// classic straightforward stam map cuz its mid stage zzz -Fiesta: Lunar Triple Axel Semifinals TECH3 // Best background in the game,period -ZENITH: Lunar Triple Axel Finals AIM1 // Banger,accused for theft LOL. not quite polished idk -NXC Fanatics: Lunar Triple Axel Finals SPEED2 // good song,map is funky,difficulty? aside cool -Apotheosis Realism: Lunar Triple Axel Grand Finals AIM 2 // streams,hopefully better than quals. kinda hard? -APPLE JOKER: Lunar Triple Axel Grand Finals SPEED 3 // tapping,like tweeker.allright map -Let it Fire: PIS 2023 Qualifiers NM1 //i like the map but players doesnt sheesh(fast sliders ig).good reference though.No regret -Sky Magic Together !!: PIS 2023 Qualifiers NM2 //a step up compared to Modern Strange Cowboy,cool map. -Zanki : PIS 2023 Semifinals NM3 // First tournament NM3 style lets go. -Japanese Transformation: PIS 2023 Finals NM5 // attempt to make a nerfed and playable tapping map.not that awful -Perfect Crime 66 BANG!: PIS 2023 Grand Finals NM1 // 8* mapping yeah boi. I swear on my life I will break the "who put jumps/streams in my stream/jump map" thingy -Brilliant & Shining!: PIS 2023 Grand Finals HR2 // First HR custom maps ooo. turned out allright,although the hr pool had its own issues as a whole :/ -Shi so shojo no shogontaru tasogare: PIS 2023 Super Grand Finals NM2 // the ultimate NM2,the map is so hard lol -Sto Bene cosi: PIS 2023 Super Grand Finals HD1 // hidden map lets go XD -Endless Seeker: PIS 2023 Super Grand Finals DT2 // not that hard hopefully. nvm its still too hard lol -Erza Tai Erza: EWP SF HD2 // first reading map,not that horrible -Mighty Girl of the Supernatural: EWP GF NM2 // chill lower bpm but more aim intensive stream map
******MAPPED FOR OTHER TOURNAMENTS****** -Smoking Dragon: PHNS 2023 NM2 // First custom map for another tournament Ever!
.devotion 5kilobyte .the evangile spawn of possession .Katagiri wa denki kitsune no yumewomiru ka?(someone else is mapping it F,ilay) .Warudosu Pakemomimi Taisen Z .ban ge fuse (96-glass more bang remix) .Taric al arabi DB .Aoi Kodoku denkare(lasse mapped it,god flipping dammit..)
Other Stuff
-Unsubmitted/pretty much finished maps number(mapped in 2022): 9
First of all,I am not even sure whether I want to be a bn. Second,I have to get better at mapping,then mod maps again,then get even better at modding WIP LMFAO
imagine being closed,def not me bigger priority for mappers with 3 ranked maps or less Dont feel like nominating maps from established mappers with hundred of ranked maps,nor the seasonal tv size anime opening,nor participate in speedranking wars No maps below 4* at least 120mins long,no "clip farm" No blatant farm No songs below 130bpm(99.99% its giga boring to listen to) NO SONG COMPILATIONS/CUT VER(unless official) EVER! I ONLY CARE ABOUT REAL SONGS!
I strongly dislike diff spike maps
If you map high sr I except the map to be complex enough(not an oversimplfied 5* map with 7* jumps)
Its not my cup of tea when you use the song as a pretext to make a map,aka "conceptual" maps
I dont care that much about hitsounding,storyboard and whatnot
If timing is too complex for my tiny brain(wings of justice,tengaku,classical music,i dont know how to use a metronome) I cant nominate either (
Artists I dislike: TUYU/luschka/kessoku band/earrape/boring mid 170bpm repetitive dnb/giga repetitive songs/cry thunder,sidetracked day like songs(nothing,1 min of diff spike,nothing). I happen to be biased towards gameplay(tournaments andy)
I have artists I like but I am too lazy to list them,but the map should live up to the song in some way
I would love to nominate hard tech experimental high iq goofy maps but I dont understand them well enough sorry Not comfortable with giga high star rating e
Edgy is cool, but not TOO edgy either
If you helped me as a mapper,modder,or if you played or staffed in one of my tournaments I will more likely help you
List of names I dont take seriously: Dylan Benjamin Joel Philippe Gertrude Theodore Daniel nakamura in progress
I think at this point we have to accept pp inflation. if everything is overweighted,nothing is ? Is pp balancing a lost cause?
Treating "HDHR" more like (HD)HR as a different thing than HR only. imagine thinking a sidemode makes any difference besides leaderboard/pp. sidetracked day(HD)HR is def harder and worth more pp than blue zenith HR Clueless
Thinking fcing a map with 99.8-or even ss makes you way better than someone who fcd the same map with 99 acc. instead of ssing 6* maps try fcing 6.5* maps (having okay acc is still important tho) "accuracy" players lol
Please prove me coaching is not a meme on osu and its not a way to scam players by stating the obvious
honorable mention to score v1 slider head accuracy leniency too
getting from 97-98 to 99 is still important though
If your username is 3 random letters example PDC,XTH,RBC,etc I cannot take you seriously either Every single username with "uber" 2 letters names are a No.
List of players/mappers who are a map: AJT Ekoro Luscent DeviousPanda Halfslashed Blue Dragon Utami Down
Potential "genetics abusers": I FORGOT TO ADD THE SCOUTED DATES LOL Maybe I should add the current rank pp too idk and maybe months later add whether the player was a flop/success
Santa69 (early 2023) papercandle ?(2022 idk) TotorPotate(late 2022) Zeaqk(jan 2023) sekibae(jan 2023) taro(december 2022) like mid 3 digit MeOwz(august 2021) NewWazeBeatsMe ?(mid 2022?) Bunnylikemoney?(mid 2022) Houshou1 ?(august 2022) Plasma(may 2022) rhythmicrs?(mid 2022) in wonderland?(august 2022) Raspigaous?(late 2022) marcel7?(late 2022) CosmoXR(august 2022) rudj?(mid 2022) Sh4rq_?(jan 2022) Juztan(2022 idk) Tim Kackner?(late 2021) V I C E N T E(around 2022) FD4D(august 2022) nanoya(december 2021) cam the tree(2022 idk) Swiq_(september 2021) Almightydoor(august 2021) kieg(march 2022) ninerik(september 2021) Decaten(early 2022) MINHOCA LOKA(late 2021) KurumiW(late 2021) makux(september 2022) R10sh1(august 2022)
Not quite genetic abusers but osu! speedrunners: -Sp1cyy -WindowLife
If you know any perma zoomer/"genetics abusers" who ranked up/improved at a stupid rate in a very short amount of time,let me know! Its a fun pastime to find players before they become huge.
I swear osu! youtube content and thumbnails make me want to throw up
I will be blunt I dont understand the concept of avatar collabs and I am too embarassed to take part of one of. I am not changing my avatar
I am tired of seeing bocchi the rock pictures/maps EVERYWHERE! I have watched the anime its decent,somewhat entertaining but its nothing to write home about,its not the anime of the year let alone the anime of the decade. Its just another slice of life Most Overhyped anime in the 2020s so far
Tfw you admire/respect people until you find out they are toxic