good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
gonna try to draw today, so hopefully i'll have some stuff to share!!
gonna try to draw today, so hopefully i'll have some stuff to share!!
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bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "mhm <3"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaaa <3"
bambi: "we've all stretched + exercised too."
expunged, zoned out: "..."
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "we've stretched and exercised too."
ps!expunged: "mhm."
ps!bandu: "aaa,,"
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa..."
bandu: "hehe :3"
ps!dave: "we've all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu, zoned out: "..."
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
bambi: "make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "aaa..."
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "hello-hello! we've all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaaa <3"
bambi: "we've all stretched and exercised too."
expunged: "mhm <3"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "we've stretched + exercised too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaaa <3"
doodling, but not really getting anywhere...
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
𝙸 𝙸𝙽𝚂𝙴𝚁𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚂𝙷𝙴𝙻𝙻𝚂
𝙸𝙽 𝙰𝙽 𝚄𝙽𝙺𝙽𝙾𝚆𝙽 𝙾𝚁𝙳𝙴𝚁.
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "mhm!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa,,"
bambi: "mm."
expunged: "i took pain meds earlier cuz my head was hurting"
bandu: "i took my ritalin!!"
ps!dave: "cresswell and i haven't had to take anything."
ps!bambi: "mhm."
ps!expunged: "i took some pain meds earlier."
ps!bandu: "took my ritalin + pain meds :p"
also, gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
hopefully i'll have something to share tomorrow lol ;v;
bambi: "we all have water nearby. make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "mhm!"
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "hello-hello! breakfast was good."
ps!bambi: "we have water nearby. make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa <3"
dave: "we’ve eaten and hydrated!"
bambi: "make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!! :3"
ps!dave: "we’ve all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaa,, <3"
bambi: "mhm."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "yup."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaaa,,"
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good morning
i rlly want to listen to "in utero", but i dont have time
doodling...
caloriemaxxing my taco bell order because i let myself close my eyes and relax while i was mildly tired and therefore have barely eaten today
yes
...shit
back there for two weeks again... i didnt really savor this halfway-misshapen peace soon enough
a stagnant humid dread looms overhead. i just want to sleep and dream and sleep and dream and do nothing and have no role in anything and sink into empty listlessness forever
for everyone: lunchtime? stay hydrated <3
back there for two weeks again... i didnt really savor this halfway-misshapen peace soon enough
a stagnant humid dread looms overhead. i just want to sleep and dream and sleep and dream and do nothing and have no role in anything and sink into empty listlessness forever
today's dream was...
...very very interesting, surprisingly halfway coherent and surprisingly long. it started somewhere within a very familiar school cafeteria, briefly meeting students/friends i had known from school life across an entire decade. not sure exactly what happened, it was a generally ambiguous kind of experience between positive/negative moments and relationships that were either unexpectedly endearing or unexpectedly cold. i really enjoyed watching and listening to how those conversations went between them. it's also a relatively common way for dreams to start/intersect/end, and it leaves a very comforting bittersweet residue every time
it led from that to something about me living as a flying drone of some kind, hovering across a town and stopping above an unknown schoolmate's home. they were being targeted by older teenagers with rapid-firing guns, and after a little bit of hovering, i would be spotted and shot at while i narrowly strafed out of the way of that real-life bullet hell for a suspenseful minute, and then eventually slipped past their line of sight
i reached a very familiar home, reminiscent of the one belonging to that family member i've been caring for irl. i hid inside, still hovering, staying out of everyone's sight while a few other students wandered in. i would revolve behind walls and furniture according to where people went, but would eventually be found. nothing really happened until i hovered back outside and spotted those same teenagers that shot at me and planned to shoot the unknown friend from before. the students from inside the house would soon enter the backyard garden, and it seemed those same teenagers with guns would sneak into it, so i tried to warn them. at the same time, a flood of fellow students would pass through the garden and street, so everyone decided to scatter among them and blend in, which i would do as well. by then i think i turned human again
...i feel like more must've happened, i just don't really remember clearly
it led from that to something about me living as a flying drone of some kind, hovering across a town and stopping above an unknown schoolmate's home. they were being targeted by older teenagers with rapid-firing guns, and after a little bit of hovering, i would be spotted and shot at while i narrowly strafed out of the way of that real-life bullet hell for a suspenseful minute, and then eventually slipped past their line of sight
i reached a very familiar home, reminiscent of the one belonging to that family member i've been caring for irl. i hid inside, still hovering, staying out of everyone's sight while a few other students wandered in. i would revolve behind walls and furniture according to where people went, but would eventually be found. nothing really happened until i hovered back outside and spotted those same teenagers that shot at me and planned to shoot the unknown friend from before. the students from inside the house would soon enter the backyard garden, and it seemed those same teenagers with guns would sneak into it, so i tried to warn them. at the same time, a flood of fellow students would pass through the garden and street, so everyone decided to scatter among them and blend in, which i would do as well. by then i think i turned human again
...i feel like more must've happened, i just don't really remember clearly
for everyone: lunchtime? stay hydrated <3
dave: "we've all eaten and hydrated!"Achromalia wrote:
...shit
back there for two weeks again... i didnt really savor this halfway-misshapen peace soon enough
a stagnant humid dread looms overhead. i just want to sleep and dream and sleep and dream and do nothing and have no role in anything and sink into empty listlessness forevertoday's dream was......very very interesting, surprisingly halfway coherent and surprisingly long. it started somewhere within a very familiar school cafeteria, briefly meeting students/friends i had known from school life across an entire decade. not sure exactly what happened, it was a generally ambiguous kind of experience between positive/negative moments and relationships that were either unexpectedly enduring or unexpectedly cold
it led from that to something about me living as a flying drone of some kind, hovering across a town and stopping above an unknown schoolmate's home. they were being targeted by older teenagers with rapid-firing guns, and after a little bit of hovering, i would be spotted and shot at while i narrowly strafed out of the way of that real-life bullet hell for a suspenseful minute, and then eventually slipped past their line of sight
i reached a very familiar home, reminiscent of the one belonging to that family member i've been caring for irl. i hid inside, still hovering, staying out of peoples' sight while a few other students wandered in. i would revolve behind walls and furniture according to where people went, but would eventually be found. nothing really happened until i hovered back outside and spotted those same teenagers that shot at me and planned to shoot the unknown friend from before. the students from inside the house would soon enter the backyard garden, and it seemed those same teenagers with guns would sneak into it, so i tried to warn them. at the same time, a flood of fellow students would pass through the garden and street, so everyone decided to scatter among them and blend in, which i would do as well. by then i think i turned human again
...i feel like more must've happened, i just don't really remember clearly
for everyone: lunchtime? stay hydrated <3
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "mhm <3"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaaa <3"
for everyone: medication check? stretch and exercise a little if you'd like to ^^
dave: "we've taken our meds!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: medication check? stretch and exercise a little if you'd like to ^^
bambi: "we've all stretched + exercised too."
expunged, zoned out: "..."
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "we've stretched and exercised too."
ps!expunged: "mhm."
ps!bandu: "aaa,,"
why is time suddenly passing so quickly :(
hmmn
hmmn
for everyone: nutrition and hydration check <3
dave: "we've eaten and hydrated!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: nutrition and hydration check <3
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa..."
bandu: "hehe :3"
ps!dave: "we've all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu, zoned out: "..."
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
cheese
wheeze
im listening to "In Utero" rn. i think it's my fav nirvana album
weary
i swear bro this cheap airbuds is sooo bad
oh
,,,
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-corbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
hopefully i can draw something today lol :')
hopefully i can draw something today lol :')
for everyone: nutrition and hydration!! and hello :>
dave: "hello! we've eaten and hydrated!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: nutrition and hydration!! and hello :>
bambi: "make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "aaa..."
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "hello-hello! we've all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaaa <3"
for everyone: medications to take, stretches and exercise plans to make, as always ^^
dave: "we've taken our meds!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: medications to take, stretches and exercise plans to make, as always ^^
bambi: "we've all stretched and exercised too."
expunged: "mhm <3"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "we've stretched + exercised too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaaa <3"
all day fire fresh!
owe weight eye fur gore
on fortune ate
7:27 p.m.
one of two kbity
kbity,,Achromalia wrote:
one of two kbity
doodling, but not really getting anywhere...
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
naught
𝙸𝙽 𝙰𝙽 𝚄𝙽𝙺𝙽𝙾𝚆𝙽 𝙾𝚁𝙳𝙴𝚁.
catch
i feel like changing my real genuine legal name to samet. i think i might just do that
if only changing legal name could include optionally expunging all records of every tie to any previous names;;
thats... probably not a practicable idea at all, but such is escapism...
thats... probably not a practicable idea at all, but such is escapism...
i hope something fixes this fuckass brain for even a moment because Oh My God It's Not Supposed To Handle Everything At Once Like This
cyclical recursion, tautological perpetuity, again and again and again
mourning things and grieving for things, none of which makes anything better
...
i wish i had half the mind to keep myself from being melodramatic about it at all times, its not going anywhere and not helping anything and is annoying to listen to from myself, if not for anyone else then at least for me, but i dont seem to listen to myself
mourning things and grieving for things, none of which makes anything better
...
i wish i had half the mind to keep myself from being melodramatic about it at all times, its not going anywhere and not helping anything and is annoying to listen to from myself, if not for anyone else then at least for me, but i dont seem to listen to myself
(: but upside-down
(:
🙃
>>
oh my god that was a coping mechanism the whole time. why did i let myself stop
>>
oh my god that was a coping mechanism the whole time. why did i let myself stop
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
hopefully i can draw something today, but if not, that's okay :>
hopefully i can draw something today, but if not, that's okay :>
and faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaade oooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuut agAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN
is this even worthwhile?
why try to go against the mould when adhering to it obviously benefits you?
...and yet trying to seems to have been the most damaging thing
why try to go against the mould when adhering to it obviously benefits you?
...and yet trying to seems to have been the most damaging thing
-^-
for everyone: had a healthy hearty breakfast? staying watered? <3
for everyone: had a healthy hearty breakfast? staying watered? <3
dave: "yep!"Achromalia wrote:
-^-
for everyone: had a healthy hearty breakfast? staying watered? <3
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "mhm!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa,,"
n/a
desperately trying to make music...
delicately lifts a finger
it falls shorty after
ACCIDENTALLY GETS A 3 HOUR SCORE???
yeah im still not interested
vanishes
it falls shorty after
ACCIDENTALLY GETS A 3 HOUR SCORE???
yeah im still not interested
vanishes
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
had multiple dreams, one including a rare vividly memorable moment where i nearly went lucid but tried to straddle the line of cognizance so that my dream could still qualify as the extent of my reality, but it was too hard to keep myself from scrutinizing the details and committing them to attention. i tried to take off a coat or jacket in a process of trying to "feel" the world better during the one chance i had to savor some kind of sensation. i could infer there was a gentle fresh breeze, but i couldnt get far enough with it for anything to mean anything
i wrote some of it down but its not really worth it if i cant visualize it anymore, visuals and raw sensation are the things i rely on and wish i could hold onto but can never seem to have with these things-- audio too of course, but they dont often define places and environments for me quite as fast or definitively, sound is still an incredibly important sense in this though
it was a very mundane place to be, just a street outside a familiar elementary school, late afternoon skies with a deep shadow of dusk looming close with dark bluish tones. gravel and dirt, poorly maintained roads, creeks and alleys, a truck that wasnt what i thought it shouldve been, a car that passed by me as i crossed
...mundane thin wooden houses with thin layers of paint and a messy facade of brush and trees obscuring the details
if only i could have stayed there longer, if only i could have "felt" more
dreams are strangely more lifelike than real life, i feel more real there than i do here, more alive there than i do here
i wrote some of it down but its not really worth it if i cant visualize it anymore, visuals and raw sensation are the things i rely on and wish i could hold onto but can never seem to have with these things-- audio too of course, but they dont often define places and environments for me quite as fast or definitively, sound is still an incredibly important sense in this though
it was a very mundane place to be, just a street outside a familiar elementary school, late afternoon skies with a deep shadow of dusk looming close with dark bluish tones. gravel and dirt, poorly maintained roads, creeks and alleys, a truck that wasnt what i thought it shouldve been, a car that passed by me as i crossed
...mundane thin wooden houses with thin layers of paint and a messy facade of brush and trees obscuring the details
if only i could have stayed there longer, if only i could have "felt" more
dreams are strangely more lifelike than real life, i feel more real there than i do here, more alive there than i do here
doodling, but not really getting anywhere...
same,,
for everyone: no medication? ^-^;
for everyone: no medication? ^-^;
dave: "bambi and i haven't had to take anything yet."Achromalia wrote:
same,,
for everyone: no medication? ^-^;
bambi: "mm."
expunged: "i took pain meds earlier cuz my head was hurting"
bandu: "i took my ritalin!!"
ps!dave: "cresswell and i haven't had to take anything."
ps!bambi: "mhm."
ps!expunged: "i took some pain meds earlier."
ps!bandu: "took my ritalin + pain meds :p"
unambiguous
hours wasted, nothing made
why is this how it is every time i open krita/fl
why is this how it is every time i open krita/fl
oof :')Achromalia wrote:
hours wasted, nothing made
why is this how it is every time i open krita/fl
also, gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
hopefully i'll have something to share tomorrow lol ;v;
...
the more i think about it, the more it makes perfect sense
of course my only saviour must be a god
metaphorically speaking... kind of
of course my only saviour must be a god
metaphorically speaking... kind of
...
meow
from the mirror pool
meow
eep
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
hopefully i can draw something today x')
hopefully i can draw something today x')
stealy stealy
#aaaaaa
i tested this with the color bbcode and it's actually kinda pretty :OAchromalia wrote:
#aaaaaa
for everyone: good morning!! how was breakfast today? keep some water nearby as always :>
dave: "hello! breakfast was good this morning!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: good morning!! how was breakfast today? keep some water nearby as always :>
bambi: "we all have water nearby. make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "mhm!"
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "hello-hello! breakfast was good."
ps!bambi: "we have water nearby. make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa <3"
ah,,
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: nutrition... hydration... be nourished and stay well <3
(playing games with a friend so replies may be delayed)Achromalia wrote:
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: nutrition... hydration... be nourished and stay well <3
dave: "we’ve eaten and hydrated!"
bambi: "make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!! :3"
ps!dave: "we’ve all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaa,, <3"
interesting dream
like a clinic in form and practice but also like a home
for everyone: medication check :3
like a clinic in form and practice but also like a home
for everyone: medication check :3
dave: "we've taken our meds!"Achromalia wrote:
interesting dream
like a clinic in form and practice but also like a home
for everyone: medication check :3
bambi: "mhm."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "yup."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaaa,,"
first sketch of some person in like a week :sob: and i did it from a really dumb position (reaching over to the tablet on the desk, while laying down in bed) but im glad i did literally anything at all x'))
