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𝙸 𝙸𝙽𝚂𝙴𝚁𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚂𝙷𝙴𝙻𝙻𝚂
𝙸𝙽 𝙰𝙽 𝚄𝙽𝙺𝙽𝙾𝚆𝙽 𝙾𝚁𝙳𝙴𝚁.
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "mhm!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa,,"
bambi: "mm."
expunged: "i took pain meds earlier cuz my head was hurting"
bandu: "i took my ritalin!!"
ps!dave: "cresswell and i haven't had to take anything."
ps!bambi: "mhm."
ps!expunged: "i took some pain meds earlier."
ps!bandu: "took my ritalin + pain meds :p"
also, gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
hopefully i'll have something to share tomorrow lol ;v;
bambi: "we all have water nearby. make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "mhm!"
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "hello-hello! breakfast was good."
ps!bambi: "we have water nearby. make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa <3"
dave: "we’ve eaten and hydrated!"
bambi: "make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!! :3"
ps!dave: "we’ve all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaa,, <3"
bambi: "mhm."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "yup."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaaa,,"
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-ronbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "we've all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaaa <3"
bambi: "mhm."
expunged, zoned out: "..."
bandu: "aaa!! :3"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "yup."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaa!! <3"
fictional dj and their cockatiel fursona, again
i still am not any better at character designs;; i assume the cockatiel persona is like a foil to the real person in daily life??? kinda like how an introvert might play with an extroverted facade online :0
...it feels very shallowly thought-out, but
maybe i should be happy to make anything at all
HELL YEAAAAAAHHHH MORE GRUNGE MIKU PLSSSSSSSSSSSS
dave: "we've eaten and hydrated!"
bambi: "make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "aaa..."
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "we've all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaa <3"
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naught
𝙸𝙽 𝙰𝙽 𝚄𝙽𝙺𝙽𝙾𝚆𝙽 𝙾𝚁𝙳𝙴𝚁.
catch
i feel like changing my real genuine legal name to samet. i think i might just do that
if only changing legal name could include optionally expunging all records of every tie to any previous names;;
thats... probably not a practicable idea at all, but such is escapism...
thats... probably not a practicable idea at all, but such is escapism...
i hope something fixes this fuckass brain for even a moment because Oh My God It's Not Supposed To Handle Everything At Once Like This
cyclical recursion, tautological perpetuity, again and again and again
mourning things and grieving for things, none of which makes anything better
...
i wish i had half the mind to keep myself from being melodramatic about it at all times, its not going anywhere and not helping anything and is annoying to listen to from myself, if not for anyone else then at least for me, but i dont seem to listen to myself
mourning things and grieving for things, none of which makes anything better
...
i wish i had half the mind to keep myself from being melodramatic about it at all times, its not going anywhere and not helping anything and is annoying to listen to from myself, if not for anyone else then at least for me, but i dont seem to listen to myself
(: but upside-down
(:
🙃
>>
oh my god that was a coping mechanism the whole time. why did i let myself stop
>>
oh my god that was a coping mechanism the whole time. why did i let myself stop
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
hopefully i can draw something today, but if not, that's okay :>
hopefully i can draw something today, but if not, that's okay :>
and faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaade oooooooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuut agAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN
is this even worthwhile?
why try to go against the mould when adhering to it obviously benefits you?
...and yet trying to seems to have been the most damaging thing
why try to go against the mould when adhering to it obviously benefits you?
...and yet trying to seems to have been the most damaging thing
-^-
for everyone: had a healthy hearty breakfast? staying watered? <3
for everyone: had a healthy hearty breakfast? staying watered? <3
dave: "yep!"Achromalia wrote:
-^-
for everyone: had a healthy hearty breakfast? staying watered? <3
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "mhm!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa,,"
n/a
desperately trying to make music...
delicately lifts a finger
it falls shorty after
ACCIDENTALLY GETS A 3 HOUR SCORE???
yeah im still not interested
vanishes
it falls shorty after
ACCIDENTALLY GETS A 3 HOUR SCORE???
yeah im still not interested
vanishes
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
had multiple dreams, one including a rare vividly memorable moment where i nearly went lucid but tried to straddle the line of cognizance so that my dream could still qualify as the extent of my reality, but it was too hard to keep myself from scrutinizing the details and committing them to attention. i tried to take off a coat or jacket in a process of trying to "feel" the world better during the one chance i had to savor some kind of sensation. i could infer there was a gentle fresh breeze, but i couldnt get far enough with it for anything to mean anything
i wrote some of it down but its not really worth it if i cant visualize it anymore, visuals and raw sensation are the things i rely on and wish i could hold onto but can never seem to have with these things-- audio too of course, but they dont often define places and environments for me quite as fast or definitively, sound is still an incredibly important sense in this though
it was a very mundane place to be, just a street outside a familiar elementary school, late afternoon skies with a deep shadow of dusk looming close with dark bluish tones. gravel and dirt, poorly maintained roads, creeks and alleys, a truck that wasnt what i thought it shouldve been, a car that passed by me as i crossed
...mundane thin wooden houses with thin layers of paint and a messy facade of brush and trees obscuring the details
if only i could have stayed there longer, if only i could have "felt" more
dreams are strangely more lifelike than real life, i feel more real there than i do here, more alive there than i do here
i wrote some of it down but its not really worth it if i cant visualize it anymore, visuals and raw sensation are the things i rely on and wish i could hold onto but can never seem to have with these things-- audio too of course, but they dont often define places and environments for me quite as fast or definitively, sound is still an incredibly important sense in this though
it was a very mundane place to be, just a street outside a familiar elementary school, late afternoon skies with a deep shadow of dusk looming close with dark bluish tones. gravel and dirt, poorly maintained roads, creeks and alleys, a truck that wasnt what i thought it shouldve been, a car that passed by me as i crossed
...mundane thin wooden houses with thin layers of paint and a messy facade of brush and trees obscuring the details
if only i could have stayed there longer, if only i could have "felt" more
dreams are strangely more lifelike than real life, i feel more real there than i do here, more alive there than i do here
doodling, but not really getting anywhere...
same,,
for everyone: no medication? ^-^;
for everyone: no medication? ^-^;
dave: "bambi and i haven't had to take anything yet."Achromalia wrote:
same,,
for everyone: no medication? ^-^;
bambi: "mm."
expunged: "i took pain meds earlier cuz my head was hurting"
bandu: "i took my ritalin!!"
ps!dave: "cresswell and i haven't had to take anything."
ps!bambi: "mhm."
ps!expunged: "i took some pain meds earlier."
ps!bandu: "took my ritalin + pain meds :p"
unambiguous
hours wasted, nothing made
why is this how it is every time i open krita/fl
why is this how it is every time i open krita/fl
oof :')Achromalia wrote:
hours wasted, nothing made
why is this how it is every time i open krita/fl
also, gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
hopefully i'll have something to share tomorrow lol ;v;
...
the more i think about it, the more it makes perfect sense
of course my only saviour must be a god
metaphorically speaking... kind of
of course my only saviour must be a god
metaphorically speaking... kind of
...
meow
from the mirror pool
meow
eep
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
hopefully i can draw something today x')
hopefully i can draw something today x')
stealy stealy
#aaaaaa
i tested this with the color bbcode and it's actually kinda pretty :OAchromalia wrote:
#aaaaaa
for everyone: good morning!! how was breakfast today? keep some water nearby as always :>
dave: "hello! breakfast was good this morning!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: good morning!! how was breakfast today? keep some water nearby as always :>
bambi: "we all have water nearby. make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "mhm!"
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "hello-hello! breakfast was good."
ps!bambi: "we have water nearby. make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa <3"
ah,,
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: nutrition... hydration... be nourished and stay well <3
(playing games with a friend so replies may be delayed)Achromalia wrote:
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: nutrition... hydration... be nourished and stay well <3
dave: "we’ve eaten and hydrated!"
bambi: "make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!! :3"
ps!dave: "we’ve all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaa,, <3"
interesting dream
like a clinic in form and practice but also like a home
for everyone: medication check :3
like a clinic in form and practice but also like a home
for everyone: medication check :3
dave: "we've taken our meds!"Achromalia wrote:
interesting dream
like a clinic in form and practice but also like a home
for everyone: medication check :3
bambi: "mhm."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "yup."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaaa,,"
first sketch of some person in like a week :sob: and i did it from a really dumb position (reaching over to the tablet on the desk, while laying down in bed) but im glad i did literally anything at all x'))
cute!! i haven't drawn anything yet lol ;v;Achromalia wrote:
first sketch in like a week :sob: and i did it from a really dumb position (reaching over to the tablet on the desk, while laying down in bed) but im glad i did literally anything at all x'))
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-ronbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
every time my brain isn't totally folding in on itself it's like "haha everything's fine actually" meanwhile the stuff i've just grown complacent with are still extremely present
should i necro more forum games
should i necro more forum games
that dream clinic(?)... i remember some of the clinicians(?) and patients that passed through.
someone in a wheelchair who looked like a grandparent ive been frequently visiting/living with, but who didnt seem to have a clear purpose for being there, as though this place was always home. someone resembling a parent who arrived to check in and/or pick me up as though i was a child again, a vague sentimental imprint of backpacks and being even shorter as i look up at adults move events along like immovable gods. more wizened women who would make conversation with each other and with me, exchanging lively words and expressions as im absorbed into our little social microcosm with a profound intangible bond glueing us together. staff who would kindly guide me. a someone with a mysteriously familiar/calming presence in the midst of recovering after birthing a child vaguely recently. a child looking for someone through the halls.
these dreams lately would have been intoxicating if they werent so wispy and intangible after the fact. if only i could live there and watch through these sights and actions and embody them as my own...
someone in a wheelchair who looked like a grandparent ive been frequently visiting/living with, but who didnt seem to have a clear purpose for being there, as though this place was always home. someone resembling a parent who arrived to check in and/or pick me up as though i was a child again, a vague sentimental imprint of backpacks and being even shorter as i look up at adults move events along like immovable gods. more wizened women who would make conversation with each other and with me, exchanging lively words and expressions as im absorbed into our little social microcosm with a profound intangible bond glueing us together. staff who would kindly guide me. a someone with a mysteriously familiar/calming presence in the midst of recovering after birthing a child vaguely recently. a child looking for someone through the halls.
these dreams lately would have been intoxicating if they werent so wispy and intangible after the fact. if only i could live there and watch through these sights and actions and embody them as my own...
you who loom near will soon know fear
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
hopefully i can draw something today lol,, but if not, that's okay :>
hopefully i can draw something today lol,, but if not, that's okay :>
sleepy just in time for sunrise
nyan
i miss tofu guy ;-;
i'm an osu zoomer but i luv playing old 2012-2016 maps so i'm technically an osu unc ???
for everyone: nutrition and hydration are important :>
dave: "we've eaten and hydrated!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: nutrition and hydration are important :>
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "we've all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawawaaaa <3"
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: medication check! awawa <3
dave: "we've taken our meds!"Achromalia wrote:
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: medication check! awawa <3
bambi: "mhm."
expunged, zoned out: "..."
bandu: "aaa!! :3"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "yup."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaa!! <3"
trying to draw that one other bird...
doodling, but not really getting anywhere...
need to speedrun a book 🙃
gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornwall and ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
dreamt of stepparents i dont recognize
unexpectedly large home
unexpectedly large home
i saw the fukouna shojo #3 gif and.......... wtf im just see ?????? i need to wash my eyes
illustration is a sisyphean quest
everything looks and feels wrong
JamieP songs kinda banger
i still am not any better at character designs;; i assume the cockatiel persona is like a foil to the real person in daily life??? kinda like how an introvert might play with an extroverted facade online :0
...it feels very shallowly thought-out, but
maybe i should be happy to make anything at all
HELL YEAAAAAAHHHH MORE GRUNGE MIKU PLSSSSSSSSSSSS
responding to achro
that was sick !!i hope there is a complete drawing with thisAchromalia wrote:
fictional dj and their cockatiel fursona, again
i still am not any better at character designs;; i assume the cockatiel persona is like a foil to the real person in daily life??? kinda like how an introvert might play with an extroverted facade online :0
...it feels very shallowly thought-out, but
maybe i should be happy to make anything at all
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too :)
cute!! <3Achromalia wrote:
fictional dj and their cockatiel fursona, again
i still am not any better at character designs;; i assume the cockatiel persona is like a foil to the real person in daily life??? kinda like how an introvert might play with an extroverted facade online :0
...it feels very shallowly thought-out, but
maybe i should be happy to make anything at all
idc if it's basic or whatever but heart shaped-box is my fav nirvana song ever
for everyone: anything good for breakfast? keep some water handy <3
(playing games with a friend so replies may be delayed)Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: anything good for breakfast? keep some water handy <3
dave: "we've eaten and hydrated!"
bambi: "make sure you eat and hydrate too."
expunged: "aaa..."
bandu: "aaa!! <3"
ps!dave: "we've all eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you do the same."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaa <3"