not the name mix-up,,, x'))
but they do sound so similar!! so its kinda understandable lolll
but they do sound so similar!! so its kinda understandable lolll
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expunged: "yeah lol,,, also, lostie's working on that goofy animatic right now, so be on the lookout for it!!"Achromalia wrote:
not the name mix-up,,, x'))
but they do sound so similar!! so its kinda understandable lolll
also... i've been thinking about what the ashwood-cornbluff fam and the ambwell-bandello fam's fears would be, and i have them wrote down now, so here they are!
dave: arachnophobia (fear of spiders)
bambi: none/unknown
expunged: hemophobia (fear of blood), autophobia (fear of being alone)
bandu: thanatophobia (fear of death), autophobia (fear of being alone)
ps!dave: none/unknown
ps!bambi: none/unknown
ps!expunged: agateophobia (fear of insanity), slight claustrophobia (fear of small or enclosed spaces)
ps!bandu: trypanophobia (fear of needles/injections), isolophobia (fear of isolation and/or solitude)
...i had another nap
for everyone: lunch & sips & stretch <3
for everyone: lunch & sips & stretch <3
dave: "we had grilled cheeses for lunch!"Achromalia wrote:
...i had another nap
for everyone: lunch & sips & stretch <3
bambi: "dave makes some good grilled cheeses, dude."
expunged: "mr. haywood and mr. cornwall had soda, bandu and i had lemonade ^^"
bandu: "yummy!!"
ps!dave: "we went out for lunch today."
ps!bambi: "yep. we went to wendy's, lol."
ps!expunged: "heh... surprisingly, i ate."
ps!bandu: "we all had soda!!"
also, you don't have to reply but i'm a lil curious as to what you thought of the fears thing!
i feel ok sharing ^^ some of them seem interestinggg...lostsilver wrote:
also, you don't have to reply but i'm a lil curious as to what you thought of the fears thing!lostsilver wrote:
dave: arachnophobia (fear of spiders)
bambi: none/unknown
expunged: hemophobia (fear of blood), autophobia (fear of being alone)
bandu: thanatophobia (fear of death), autophobia (fear of being alone)
ps!dave: none/unknown
ps!bambi: none/unknown
ps!expunged: agateophobia (fear of insanity), slight claustrophobia (fear of small or enclosed spaces)
ps!bandu: trypanophobia (fear of needles/injections), isolophobia (fear of isolation and/or solitude)
what i say abt them is more like a headcanon of what could make sense in my heart if i was writing a lil bit abt them, all from how it felt like to be part of something with them over the past few months
im gonna do it piece by piece bc i have a lot of thoughts and love to ramble...
i hope reading it can be enjoyable enough to make it maybe worth it... <3
autophobia:
the ashbluffs being such close siblings for each other and feeling so attached to having someone they can trust and be safe with and share their love with, someone who wont reject them... i feel like some of it can be bigger bc of having such a terrible sad early childhood at the hands of the chaos god parents, where ex feels like the only presence of love they know and understand is that of little baby bandu, and where baby bandu relied a lot on his own older sibling to be his guardian and parent for a little while as his source of love and care and attention...
and when theyre abandoned and find themselves in the human world, they face that sudden extreme trauma of complete alienation from anything and everything except each other... the siblings realize they only have each other, that ultimately the only way to be ok is for them to not be alone bc they dont know who they are on their own at that time or what they can be if theyre alone without each other ;o;
so when the haywalls find them and pick them up, something interesting happens-- maybe it could be that this fear still exists, because although the new dads mean so much and have been so much for them now, the siblings still probably learn that all of this depends on there Being Someone There With Them And For Them... its just that its easier for them to bear, because they now feel like they are part of a loving and "whole" family. but everything from the past still hurts so much, and they dont look like they ever really learned to detach from the dads or each other at all... however, i think they can do a lot of things independently, its just that they might feel like they first have to feel reassured in trusting that everything will be ok, and that nothing will separate their family, and that nobody will be alone, before one of the siblings can move forward in doing something. but just because they can do something on their own... doesnt mean they dont still really really prefer to be with each other and with the dads, so theyre still very attached which can be both to their benefit and detriment :')
and when theyre abandoned and find themselves in the human world, they face that sudden extreme trauma of complete alienation from anything and everything except each other... the siblings realize they only have each other, that ultimately the only way to be ok is for them to not be alone bc they dont know who they are on their own at that time or what they can be if theyre alone without each other ;o;
so when the haywalls find them and pick them up, something interesting happens-- maybe it could be that this fear still exists, because although the new dads mean so much and have been so much for them now, the siblings still probably learn that all of this depends on there Being Someone There With Them And For Them... its just that its easier for them to bear, because they now feel like they are part of a loving and "whole" family. but everything from the past still hurts so much, and they dont look like they ever really learned to detach from the dads or each other at all... however, i think they can do a lot of things independently, its just that they might feel like they first have to feel reassured in trusting that everything will be ok, and that nothing will separate their family, and that nobody will be alone, before one of the siblings can move forward in doing something. but just because they can do something on their own... doesnt mean they dont still really really prefer to be with each other and with the dads, so theyre still very attached which can be both to their benefit and detriment :')
that's exactly what was running through my head when i gave the two that fear! they were too traumatized from being abandoned at such a young age that they can't fathom the fact that it would've happened again... but haywood and cornwall were happy to take the two in and keep them safe!! <3Achromalia wrote:
i feel ok sharing ^^ some of them seem interestinggg...lostsilver wrote:
also, you don't have to reply but i'm a lil curious as to what you thought of the fears thing!lostsilver wrote:
dave: arachnophobia (fear of spiders)
bambi: none/unknown
expunged: hemophobia (fear of blood), autophobia (fear of being alone)
bandu: thanatophobia (fear of death), autophobia (fear of being alone)
ps!dave: none/unknown
ps!bambi: none/unknown
ps!expunged: agateophobia (fear of insanity), slight claustrophobia (fear of small or enclosed spaces)
ps!bandu: trypanophobia (fear of needles/injections), isolophobia (fear of isolation and/or solitude)
what i say abt them is more like a headcanon of what could make sense in my heart if i was writing a lil bit abt them, all from how it felt like to be part of something with them over the past few months
im gonna do it piece by piece bc i have a lot of thoughts and love to ramble...
i hope reading it can be enjoyable enough to make it maybe worth it... <3autophobia:the ashbluffs being such close siblings for each other and feeling so attached to having someone they can trust and be safe with and share their love with, someone who wont reject them... i feel like some of it can be bigger bc of having such a terrible sad early childhood at the hands of the chaos god parents, where ex feels like the only presence of love they know and understand is that of little baby bandu, and where baby bandu relied a lot on his own older sibling to be his guardian and parent for a little while as his source of love and care and attention...
and when theyre abandoned and find themselves in the human world, they face that sudden extreme trauma of complete alienation from anything and everything except each other... the siblings realize they only have each other, that ultimately the only way to be ok is for them to not be alone bc they dont know who they are on their own at that time or what they can be if theyre alone without each other ;o;
so when the haywalls find them and pick them up, something interesting happens-- maybe it could be that this fear still exists, because although the new dads mean so much and have been so much for them now, the siblings still probably learn that all of this depends on there Being Someone There With Them And For Them... its just that its easier for them to bear, because they now feel like they are part of a loving and "whole" family. but everything from the past still hurts so much, and they dont look like they ever really learned to detach from the dads or each other at all... however, i think they can do a lot of things independently, its just that they might feel like they first have to feel reassured in trusting that everything will be ok, and that nothing will separate their family, and that nobody will be alone, before one of the siblings can move forward in doing something. but just because they can do something on their own... doesnt mean they dont still really really prefer to be with each other and with the dads, so theyre still very attached which can be both to their benefit and detriment :')
saw myself from the side for about the 7th time ever, not very pretty
here is some more for the ashbluffs ^^
hemophobia + thanatophobia:i dont have many thoughts on these tho (fortunately i was wrong lolll <3), they are both kinda common and although autophobia is sort of common too, i feel like its harder to take them as part of the story... but here is what i have for now!!
expunged is probably in a position where historically they have had to be sorta strong for bandu and for themself, and i think it could be possible that seeing their own blood could make them feel something related to the realization of how vulnerable they can be or how they might not be strong enough, and... maybe more concretely, they could have been old enough to very deeply remember seeing blood and associating it with bad bad times if their chaos god parents physically abused them :c
that mixture of vulnerability and trauma can feel like a dizzying swirling churning pit opening up in expunged's brain... and although a lot of people have very common and naturally-induced reactions to their own blood with zero childhood trauma, i think this would explain the fear a lot more
for bandu, i think the fear of death can be attached to a couple things... he is probably not as familiar with outright abuse, but he knows what it did to ex and he absorbed plenty of pain himself even if it could just be second-hand observation. more importantly, seeing ex vulnerable and stressed and abused in addition to their abandonment to the elements of earth, i think bandu could be feeling something like... a looming sense of doom about really dying for real but not knowing it intimately because of ex protecting them from thinking about it, where maybe ex would have been already familiar with it and maybe thought they would die-- to the extent that there wasnt really any fear anymore as long as they could protect bandu ;-;
because of this mixture of this obscure aura of dread from watching ex + being abandoned + being sheltered and protected from having to think about pain, there's this mystery to death that bandu might not really know how to face, so he might run away and refuse to think about it if at all possible as opposed to ex being very understanding of the concept and reality of it...
expunged is probably in a position where historically they have had to be sorta strong for bandu and for themself, and i think it could be possible that seeing their own blood could make them feel something related to the realization of how vulnerable they can be or how they might not be strong enough, and... maybe more concretely, they could have been old enough to very deeply remember seeing blood and associating it with bad bad times if their chaos god parents physically abused them :c
that mixture of vulnerability and trauma can feel like a dizzying swirling churning pit opening up in expunged's brain... and although a lot of people have very common and naturally-induced reactions to their own blood with zero childhood trauma, i think this would explain the fear a lot more
for bandu, i think the fear of death can be attached to a couple things... he is probably not as familiar with outright abuse, but he knows what it did to ex and he absorbed plenty of pain himself even if it could just be second-hand observation. more importantly, seeing ex vulnerable and stressed and abused in addition to their abandonment to the elements of earth, i think bandu could be feeling something like... a looming sense of doom about really dying for real but not knowing it intimately because of ex protecting them from thinking about it, where maybe ex would have been already familiar with it and maybe thought they would die-- to the extent that there wasnt really any fear anymore as long as they could protect bandu ;-;
because of this mixture of this obscure aura of dread from watching ex + being abandoned + being sheltered and protected from having to think about pain, there's this mystery to death that bandu might not really know how to face, so he might run away and refuse to think about it if at all possible as opposed to ex being very understanding of the concept and reality of it...
expunged: "that's exactly why i have the fear of blood. it kills me inside knowing how terrified and vulnerable i was when i was young, and now that i'm stronger and in a better headspace/spot in my life, i don't really have to face it anymore. seeing blood just... gives me that overwhelming sense of dread that being afraid of death or what may become of you in the future does. because of all the abuse i went through, there was alot of bloodshed that sparked my fear of it. but... yeah... at least i know it's okay to be somewhat vulnerable with bandu, mr. haywood and mr. cornwall. protecting bandu was the whole reason i was so hesitant about being around mr. haywood and mr. cornwall at first, but now i know that they were just trying to help. and now that they're in my life, i feel so much better <3"Achromalia wrote:
here is some more for the ashbluffs ^^hemophobia + thanatophobia:i dont have many thoughts on these tho(fortunately i was wrong lolll <3), they are both kinda common and although autophobia is sort of common too, i feel like its harder to take them as part of the story... but here is what i have for now!!
expunged is probably in a position where historically they have had to be sorta strong for bandu and for themself, and i think it could be possible that seeing their own blood could make them feel something related to the realization of how vulnerable they can be, and... maybe more concretely, they could have been old enough to very deeply remember seeing blood and associating it with bad bad times if their chaos god parents physically abused them :c
that mixture of vulnerability and trauma can feel like a dizzying swirling churning pit opening up in expunged's brain... and although a lot of people have very common and naturally-induced reactions to their own blood with zero childhood trauma, i think this would explain the fear a lot more
for bandu, i think the fear of death can be attached to a couple things... he is probably not as familiar with outright abuse, but he knows what it did to ex and he absorbed plenty of pain himself even if it could just be second-hand observation. more importantly, seeing ex vulnerable and stressed and abused in addition to their abandonment to the elements of earth, i think bandu could be feeling something like... a looming sense of doom about really dying for real but not knowing it intimately because of ex protecting them from thinking about it, where maybe ex would have been already familiar with it and maybe thought they would die-- to the extent that there wasnt really any fear anymore as long as they could protect bandu ;-;
because of this mixture of this obscure aura of dread from watching ex + being abandoned + being sheltered and protected from having to think about pain, there's this mystery to death that bandu might not really know how to face, so he might run away and refuse to think about it if at all possible as opposed to ex being very understanding of the concept and reality of it...
bandu: "yeah, i'm not as familiar with it as ex is, but knowing how they felt then and feel now just... killed me inside... seeing what happened to them and knowing what could've become of us before we were abandoned terrifies me. even thinking about anything else happening to ex and i scares me... i've always been afraid of death, ever since i was young, and i think it was sparked by how injured we were when we were young. but dave and bambi have really helped ex and i recover! even if we're not fully mentally healed, it's still good knowing we have people who care about us and will protect us even if it costs us all our lives. i love them all <3"
expunged: "heh... sorry for ramblin..."
now to consider the fears of the bandellos, starting with ps!expunged
agateophobia + claustrophobia:
hmmn...
i wonder how to articulate the impressions/intuitions i have abt it and those impressions/intuitions are kinda simple theyre just,, not easy to find words for even when they feel like they could make sense
ps!ex does seem like someone who would rely a lotttt on seir brain. with lots of pressure on seir mind, from things like a heavy heavy fixation on understanding organic and chemical compounds in seir labwork to treat-but-not-cure ps!bandu and spare zem from the harsher physical effects, and then the more general ethics/ideals of hoping to prevent the spread of the parasite's influence on other people or otherwise cure it for people who do not want anything to do with it... that is hard on the heart and heavy on the mind
it isnt just pressure tho-- se would probably also legitimately enjoy learning and thinking about what se would observe of the world around them... there is a curiosity in sem that probably feels very dependent on seir ability to think, and... i kinda relate to the fear of losing yourself or your ability to think and perceive things correctly/accurately, being unable to trust my own thoughts/feelings/impressions/intuitions, not knowing if anything i interpreted would even be remotely close to reality
i dont fear small spaces generally but im sure some more-specific small spaces could be really awful like cave-diving or something... i don't really know what this means for ps!ex, and i genuinely cant imagine what it might relate to if anything-- maybe it just exists as a result of feeling swallowed up and suffocated by things bigger than you with only smaller and tighter areas left to exist in... maybe if there's something, claustrophobia could connect to that pressure...
i wonder how to articulate the impressions/intuitions i have abt it and those impressions/intuitions are kinda simple theyre just,, not easy to find words for even when they feel like they could make sense
ps!ex does seem like someone who would rely a lotttt on seir brain. with lots of pressure on seir mind, from things like a heavy heavy fixation on understanding organic and chemical compounds in seir labwork to treat-but-not-cure ps!bandu and spare zem from the harsher physical effects, and then the more general ethics/ideals of hoping to prevent the spread of the parasite's influence on other people or otherwise cure it for people who do not want anything to do with it... that is hard on the heart and heavy on the mind
it isnt just pressure tho-- se would probably also legitimately enjoy learning and thinking about what se would observe of the world around them... there is a curiosity in sem that probably feels very dependent on seir ability to think, and... i kinda relate to the fear of losing yourself or your ability to think and perceive things correctly/accurately, being unable to trust my own thoughts/feelings/impressions/intuitions, not knowing if anything i interpreted would even be remotely close to reality
i dont fear small spaces generally but im sure some more-specific small spaces could be really awful like cave-diving or something... i don't really know what this means for ps!ex, and i genuinely cant imagine what it might relate to if anything-- maybe it just exists as a result of feeling swallowed up and suffocated by things bigger than you with only smaller and tighter areas left to exist in... maybe if there's something, claustrophobia could connect to that pressure...
ps!expunged: "mhm. i do want to say something about the slight claustrophobia, though. it may not make sense, but the reason i have it is because of where i feel like i'm trapped in my own head sometimes. i just feels so small and crowded sometimes, and i just despise it... and the 'swallowed by something bigger than you' thing kind of also explains it. i sometimes feel like the overwhelming stress of over-working myself is swallowing me whole, giving me nothing but a small hole to sit in. it's just... something with me, i suppose... but anyways, thank you for your thoughts. (and i did end up making a vaccine, which i gave to everyone except ps!bandu and ps!kandi.)"Achromalia wrote:
now to consider the fears of the bandellos, starting with ps!expungedagateophobia + claustrophobia:hmmn...
i wonder how to articulate the impressions/intuitions i have abt it and those impressions/intuitions are kinda simple theyre just,, not easy to find words for even when they feel like they could make sense
ps!ex does seem like someone who would rely a lotttt on seir brain. with lots of pressure on seir mind, from things like a heavy heavy fixation on understanding organic and chemical compounds in seir labwork to treat-but-not-cure ps!bandu and spare zem from the harsher physical effects, and then the more general ethics/ideals of hoping to prevent the spread of the parasite's influence on other people or otherwise cure it for people who do not want anything to do with it... that is hard on the heart and heavy on the mind
it isnt just pressure tho-- se would probably also legitimately enjoy learning and thinking about what se would observe of the world around them... there is a curiosity in sem that probably feels very dependent on seir ability to think, and... i kinda relate to the fear of losing yourself or your ability to think and perceive things correctly/accurately, being unable to trust my own thoughts/feelings/impressions/intuitions, not knowing if anything i interpreted would even be remotely close to reality
i dont fear small spaces generally but im sure some more-specific small spaces could be really awful like cave-diving or something... i don't really know what this means for ps!ex, and i genuinely cant imagine what it might relate to if anything-- maybe it just exists as a result of feeling swallowed up and suffocated by things bigger than you with only smaller and tighter areas left to exist in... maybe if there's something, claustrophobia could connect to that pressure...
ps!bandu: "i do wanna say something abt why i don't want to be cured,,, it's because of my trypanophobia, and plus, i feel like if i do get cured, i'm not gonna feel comfortable in my own skin anymore... but yeah, just how i feel... :')"
entirely understandable from both of you actually :') from ps!bandu it explains a little bit as welllostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged: "mhm. i do want to say something about the slight claustrophobia, though. it may not make sense, but the reason i have it is because of where i feel like i'm trapped in my own head sometimes. i just feels so small and crowded sometimes, and i just despise it... and the 'swallowed by something bigger than you' thing kind of also explains it. i sometimes feel like the overwhelming stress of over-working myself is swallowing me whole, giving me nothing but a small hole to sit in. it's just... something with me, i suppose... but anyways, thank you for your thoughts. (and i did end up making a vaccine, which i gave to everyone except ps!bandu and ps!kandi.)"Achromalia wrote:
now to consider the fears of the bandellos, starting with ps!expungedagateophobia + claustrophobia:hmmn...
i wonder how to articulate the impressions/intuitions i have abt it and those impressions/intuitions are kinda simple theyre just,, not easy to find words for even when they feel like they could make sense
ps!ex does seem like someone who would rely a lotttt on seir brain. with lots of pressure on seir mind, from things like a heavy heavy fixation on understanding organic and chemical compounds in seir labwork to treat-but-not-cure ps!bandu and spare zem from the harsher physical effects, and then the more general ethics/ideals of hoping to prevent the spread of the parasite's influence on other people or otherwise cure it for people who do not want anything to do with it... that is hard on the heart and heavy on the mind
it isnt just pressure tho-- se would probably also legitimately enjoy learning and thinking about what se would observe of the world around them... there is a curiosity in sem that probably feels very dependent on seir ability to think, and... i kinda relate to the fear of losing yourself or your ability to think and perceive things correctly/accurately, being unable to trust my own thoughts/feelings/impressions/intuitions, not knowing if anything i interpreted would even be remotely close to reality
i dont fear small spaces generally but im sure some more-specific small spaces could be really awful like cave-diving or something... i don't really know what this means for ps!ex, and i genuinely cant imagine what it might relate to if anything-- maybe it just exists as a result of feeling swallowed up and suffocated by things bigger than you with only smaller and tighter areas left to exist in... maybe if there's something, claustrophobia could connect to that pressure...
ps!bandu: "i do wanna say something abt why i don't want to be cured,,, it's because of my trypanophobia, and plus, i feel like if i do get cured, i'm not gonna feel comfortable in my own skin anymore... but yeah, just how i feel... :')"
mine does that when i go to bed sometimessametdze wrote:
ear lightly ringing
ps!expunged, smiling: "thank you."Achromalia wrote:
entirely understandable from both of you actually :') from ps!bandu it explains a little bit as welllostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged: "mhm. i do want to say something about the slight claustrophobia, though. it may not make sense, but the reason i have it is because of where i feel like i'm trapped in my own head sometimes. i just feels so small and crowded sometimes, and i just despise it... and the 'swallowed by something bigger than you' thing kind of also explains it. i sometimes feel like the overwhelming stress of over-working myself is swallowing me whole, giving me nothing but a small hole to sit in. it's just... something with me, i suppose... but anyways, thank you for your thoughts. (and i did end up making a vaccine, which i gave to everyone except ps!bandu and ps!kandi.)"Achromalia wrote:
now to consider the fears of the bandellos, starting with ps!expungedagateophobia + claustrophobia:hmmn...
i wonder how to articulate the impressions/intuitions i have abt it and those impressions/intuitions are kinda simple theyre just,, not easy to find words for even when they feel like they could make sense
ps!ex does seem like someone who would rely a lotttt on seir brain. with lots of pressure on seir mind, from things like a heavy heavy fixation on understanding organic and chemical compounds in seir labwork to treat-but-not-cure ps!bandu and spare zem from the harsher physical effects, and then the more general ethics/ideals of hoping to prevent the spread of the parasite's influence on other people or otherwise cure it for people who do not want anything to do with it... that is hard on the heart and heavy on the mind
it isnt just pressure tho-- se would probably also legitimately enjoy learning and thinking about what se would observe of the world around them... there is a curiosity in sem that probably feels very dependent on seir ability to think, and... i kinda relate to the fear of losing yourself or your ability to think and perceive things correctly/accurately, being unable to trust my own thoughts/feelings/impressions/intuitions, not knowing if anything i interpreted would even be remotely close to reality
i dont fear small spaces generally but im sure some more-specific small spaces could be really awful like cave-diving or something... i don't really know what this means for ps!ex, and i genuinely cant imagine what it might relate to if anything-- maybe it just exists as a result of feeling swallowed up and suffocated by things bigger than you with only smaller and tighter areas left to exist in... maybe if there's something, claustrophobia could connect to that pressure...
ps!bandu: "i do wanna say something abt why i don't want to be cured,,, it's because of my trypanophobia, and plus, i feel like if i do get cured, i'm not gonna feel comfortable in my own skin anymore... but yeah, just how i feel... :')"
ps!bandu: "glad to know it at least somewhat explains things!! alsoo,,, lostie's workin on the goofy animatic again!! she made cupcakes earlier today so that's why she was gone for a bit :> she'll try to post progress as she goes!!"
huh
that sounds,, a lil uncomfy :(lostsilver wrote:
mine does that when i go to bed sometimessametdze wrote:
ear lightly ringing
ok <3lostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged, smiling: "thank you."Achromalia wrote:
entirely understandable from both of you actually :') from ps!bandu it explains a little bit as well
ps!bandu: "glad to know it at least somewhat explains things!! alsoo,,, lostie's workin on the goofy animatic again!! she made cupcakes earlier today so that's why she was gone for a bit :> she'll try to post progress as she goes!!"
for everyone: dinner before bed? a little sip of water, get cozy ^^
it kinda is yeah... it always happens when i'm comfy too so it kinda scares me lol,,, :')Achromalia wrote:
that sounds,, a lil uncomfy :(lostsilver wrote:
mine does that when i go to bed sometimessametdze wrote:
ear lightly ringing
dave: "we had tacos tonight."Achromalia wrote:
ok <3lostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged, smiling: "thank you."Achromalia wrote:
entirely understandable from both of you actually :') from ps!bandu it explains a little bit as well
ps!bandu: "glad to know it at least somewhat explains things!! alsoo,,, lostie's workin on the goofy animatic again!! she made cupcakes earlier today so that's why she was gone for a bit :> she'll try to post progress as she goes!!"
for everyone: dinner before bed? a little sip of water, get cozy ^^
bambi: "we all had soda."
expunged: "mr. haywood and i made some for the ps!au aswell so they didn't have worry about making dinner tonight!! hehe ^^"
bandu: "yay!!"
ps!dave: "like expunged said, them and dave made some for us too, just so we didn't have to make dinner."
ps!bambi: "it's nice of 'em to make food for us, even when we don't need 'em to."
ps!expunged: "mhm. also, another little thing that ps!bandu asked me to tell you about zeir fear of needles/injections: another reason that ze is so scared of them is because of what ze knows other scientists would do to experiment on zem. even just thinking about a needle going into zeir skin scares zem. i'll never try to inject zem with anything, unless it is absolutely necessary. but until that day comes (which will most likely be never), no needles are ever getting jabbed into zeir arm. sorry for rambling, ze just asked me to tell you that. ze was... to afraid to admit it zemself, which is understandable."
ps!bandu: "mhm,,, *yawn...* mm,, sleepy,,"
*ps!bandu sleepily cuddles ps!expunged, nuzzling into sem as ze purrs quietly. ps!expunged smiles, and gently rubs zeir head*
oop,, did i steal samet's points? i'm sorry if i did :'(
i actually like it when my ear ringsAchromalia wrote:
that sounds,, a lil uncomfy :(lostsilver wrote:
mine does that when i go to bed sometimessametdze wrote:
ear lightly ringing
edit: this ad basically just happened to me but replace the kid with me and replace anthony davis with lostsilver and replace the sport of basketball with the sport of thread necromancy
mvp!! mvp!! mvp!! what a hustle play~
ok but actually i need to have better priorities i cant decide what i want to do x'p
ok but actually i need to have better priorities i cant decide what i want to do x'p
why does light blue look kinda purplish compared to actual blue?
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#2222FF actual blueam I colorblind
oh!! there was a video for this!! it was very briefly mentioned in "everything sbout color (literally)" or something similar to thatNicNock wrote:
why does light blue look kinda purplish compared to actual blue?
■ -#BB99FFpurple
■ -#AAAAFFlight "blue"
■ -#2222FFactual blue
am I colorblind
urgh i dont remember it
I am watching what I think is the video right nowAchromalia wrote:
oh!! there was a video for this!! it was very briefly mentioned in "everything sbout color (literally)" or something similar to thatNicNock wrote:
why does light blue look kinda purplish compared to actual blue?
■ -#BB99FFpurple
■ -#AAAAFFlight "blue"
■ -#2222FFactual blue
am I colorblind
urgh i dont remember it
so it's called the Abney effect
the abney effect @ 22:22!! thats what i was looking forNicNock wrote:
I am watching what I think is the video right nowAchromalia wrote:
oh!! there was a video for this!! it was very briefly mentioned in "everything sbout color (literally)" or something similar to thatNicNock wrote:
why does light blue look kinda purplish compared to actual blue?
■ -#BB99FFpurple
■ -#AAAAFFlight "blue"
■ -#2222FFactual blue
am I colorblind
urgh i dont remember it
another interesting thing is probably the context of where that light blue appears, since the osu forum website is all full of this monochrome magenta-grey palette, colors that make a lot of other colors look like total uggo trashy poop
edit: ah i forgot to refresh lol;; but yea :>
not a thing but a collection of things <3NicNock wrote:
if an achromalia was a real thing, what would it be?
i didnt realize it but there is another more naturally-plausible etymological interpretation for this username :O
+
a- (prefix: "without") +
chrom- (prefix: "purity of color", freedom of hue, freedom from black/grey/white) +
-alia (suffix: "a collection", in neuter plural reference)=
"a collection of things without any purity of color, wholly buried in greyscale"and it turns out that nearly all chemical elements are colorless ^^
so an achromalia would include
hydrogen + helium + lithium + beryllium + boron + carbon + nitrogen + oxygen + fluorine + neon + [...]...
my 15 y/o self definitely wasnt exactly thinking of that though... in their head, it looked more like...
+
a- (prefix: "without") +
chrom- (prefix: "purity of color", freedom of hue, freedom from black/grey/white) +
anomalia (translation: "anomaly" or "irregularity", from spanish, originally greek)=
"an anomaly or irregularity without any purity of color, wholly buried in greyscale"I personally was thinking more of cashews
you see the joke is that my brain is filled with nonsense
nah I did actually think of something, I just have no idea how to write it down, the ideas just kept on piling on 'til it turned into an unwritable 300-page book
(also wow I did not expect to ninja sametdze lol)
you see the joke is that my brain is filled with nonsense
nah I did actually think of something, I just have no idea how to write it down, the ideas just kept on piling on 'til it turned into an unwritable 300-page book
(also wow I did not expect to ninja sametdze lol)
my username is quite literally
samet (my middle name)
dze (random shit i made when i was like 9)
sametdze has the points in hand, he goes to redeem them, REEEJEECTED BY NICNOCK. THE CROWD IS CHANTING MVP, MVP MVP!
samet (my middle name)
dze (random shit i made when i was like 9)
sametdze has the points in hand, he goes to redeem them, REEEJEECTED BY NICNOCK. THE CROWD IS CHANTING MVP, MVP MVP!
I'll try to salvage something, let's start small.
The achromalia itself:
The achromalia itself:
- The achromalia is a flower resembling a rose with iridescent, glassy petals. The plant is known for it's strange properties, historical significance, and psychoactive effects.
i pick up the point :>
edit: i did not pick up the point o-o
edit: i did not pick up the point o-o
i... really adore this, actually... i would love to see more ;-;NicNock wrote:
I'll try to salvage something, let's start small.
The achromalia itself:There. I'll try to expand upon it little by little.
- The achromalia is a flower resembling a rose with iridescent, glassy petals. The plant is known for it's strange properties, historical significance, and psychoactive effects.
imbackasalways
I FOUND IT !!reffty_gag wrote:
imbackasalways
i have a mental breakdance after sees my friends beat my score on a map, like BROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
PLS I WANNA COME BACK BUT MY PC CAN'T, IT WILL BE SERVICE TOMMOROW I HOPE
THE FIRST EPISODE OF "imbackasalways" !!!!
I also realized that i was in this thread for a long and long time
Edit: guess im losing 100 pts again..... (yay)
dont even mind ze point, things are rather relaxing as of now. maybe its the lack of a leaderbpoard, idk
dang I just ninja'd twice
The achromalia's active state:
The achromalia's active state:
- The achromalia in its active state absorbs the chroma of light, shifting incident rays towards white. Nanoseconds after absorption, light is not reflected, but redirected outwards.
- Chroma is then converted into chromion, an important substance to be used in self-sustaining systems.
i have returned from my slumber!! good morning guys!!lostsilver wrote:
it kinda is yeah... it always happens when i'm comfy too so it kinda scares me lol,,, :')Achromalia wrote:
that sounds,, a lil uncomfy :(lostsilver wrote:
mine does that when i go to bed sometimessametdze wrote:
ear lightly ringingAchromalia wrote:
ok <3lostsilver wrote:
ps!expunged, smiling: "thank you."Achromalia wrote:
entirely understandable from both of you actually :') from ps!bandu it explains a little bit as well
ps!bandu: "glad to know it at least somewhat explains things!! alsoo,,, lostie's workin on the goofy animatic again!! she made cupcakes earlier today so that's why she was gone for a bit :> she'll try to post progress as she goes!!"
for everyone: dinner before bed? a little sip of water, get cozy ^^
dave: "we had tacos tonight."
bambi: "we all had soda."
expunged: "mr. haywood and i made some for the ps!au aswell so they didn't have worry about making dinner tonight!! hehe ^^"
bandu: "yay!!"
ps!dave: "like expunged said, them and dave made some for us too, just so we didn't have to make dinner."
ps!bambi: "it's nice of 'em to make food for us, even when we don't need 'em to."ps!expunged: "mhm. also, another little thing that ps!bandu asked me to tell you about zeir fear of needles/injections:"ps!bandu: "mhm,,, *yawn...* mm,, sleepy,,""another reason that ze is so scared of them is because of what ze knows other scientists would do to experiment on zem. even just thinking about a needle going into zeir skin scares zem. i'll never try to inject zem with anything, unless it is absolutely necessary. but until that day comes (which will most likely be never), no needles are ever getting jabbed into zeir arm. sorry for rambling, ze just asked me to tell you that. ze was... to afraid to admit it zemself, which is understandable."
*ps!bandu sleepily cuddles ps!expunged, nuzzling into sem as ze purrs quietly. ps!expunged smiles, and gently rubs zeir head*
oop,, did i steal samet's points? i'm sorry if i did :'(
i think its botanical nomenclature would give us something like...NicNock wrote:
dang I just ninja'd twice
The achromalia's active state:I swear this'll get interesting eventually
- The achromalia in its active state absorbs the chroma of light, shifting incident rays towards white. Nanoseconds after absorption, light is not reflected, but redirected outwards.
- Chroma is then converted into chromion, an important substance to be used in self-sustaining systems.
+ khromalium anomalaceae
actually i regret it immediately,, i dont know anything about botanical naming code :c
good morning ^^ i just woke up so hello world....lostsilver wrote:
i have returned from my slumber!! good morning guys!!lostsilver wrote:
dave: "we had tacos tonight."
bambi: "we all had soda."
expunged: "mr. haywood and i made some for the ps!au aswell so they didn't have worry about making dinner tonight!! hehe ^^"
bandu: "yay!!"
ps!dave: "like expunged said, them and dave made some for us too, just so we didn't have to make dinner."
ps!bambi: "it's nice of 'em to make food for us, even when we don't need 'em to."ps!expunged: "mhm. also, another little thing that ps!bandu asked me to tell you about zeir fear of needles/injections:"ps!bandu: "mhm,,, *yawn...* mm,, sleepy,,""another reason that ze is so scared of them is because of what ze knows other scientists would do to experiment on zem. even just thinking about a needle going into zeir skin scares zem. i'll never try to inject zem with anything, unless it is absolutely necessary. but until that day comes (which will most likely be never), no needles are ever getting jabbed into zeir arm. sorry for rambling, ze just asked me to tell you that. ze was... to afraid to admit it zemself, which is understandable."
*ps!bandu sleepily cuddles ps!expunged, nuzzling into sem as ze purrs quietly. ps!expunged smiles, and gently rubs zeir head*
oop,, did i steal samet's points? i'm sorry if i did :'(
hi achro!!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too!! :>
finally remembered to finish the last two of this qna queue...!
for ps!expunged: are there any lab-related things you like to talk about with ps!bandu?
for ps!bandu: is there something youre learning about from ex that you dont totally understand yet but feel more knowledgeable about now than before?
for ps!expunged: are there any lab-related things you like to talk about with ps!bandu?
for ps!bandu: is there something youre learning about from ex that you dont totally understand yet but feel more knowledgeable about now than before?
ps!expunged: "i like to talk to zem about how i work with flowers and liquids."Achromalia wrote:
finally remembered to finish the last two of this qna queue...!
for ps!expunged: are there any lab-related things you like to talk about with ps!bandu?
for ps!bandu: is there something youre learning about from ex that you dont totally understand yet but feel more knowledgeable about now than before?
ps!bandu: "mmm.... i still feel stupid but i guess,,, how certain chemicals work..? idk,, :')"
and then these...
typanophobia + isolophobia:
actually,, most of my thoughts were already explained by ps!bandu, i didnt have very much to say :c having a needle stuck inside you is just not that unexpected to be scared by in these conditions and i think what makes it harder is also the feeling that the things they inject are unfamiliar and foreign... and i also wonder if it feels like losing a little bit of autonomy? like youre at the mercy of the people who inject you or draw your blood, and also you dont know what something will do whether for you or against you;; if i think of it that way, it feels like a bigger thing
i do wonder how isolophobia differs from autophobia though, what that might mean to you when youre writing these fears for the characters, as well as what it means to ps!bandu... but then i would wonder why ps!ex might not fear it as much
i do wonder how isolophobia differs from autophobia though, what that might mean to you when youre writing these fears for the characters, as well as what it means to ps!bandu... but then i would wonder why ps!ex might not fear it as much
ps!bandu: "the 'losing a little bit of autonomy' thing explains it too!! i'm glad you slightly see it from my perspective... but with isolophobia, the only reason i have it is because if other scientists found me, they'd lock me away to do tests on me... i don't want to be quarantined, because what if someone never comes back to get me out? i'd stay there... starving, dehydrated... it terrifies me knowing what some scientists would do to me if they found me, but i'm in the hands of my sibling, so i don't really have much to worry about, i suppose... but thank you for sharing your thoughts, and i'm glad i could be a help in explaining it! <3"Achromalia wrote:
and then these...typanophobia + isolophobia:actually,, most of my thoughts were already explained by ps!bandu, i didnt have very much to say :c having a needle stuck inside you is just not that unexpected to be scared by in these conditions and i think what makes it harder is also the feeling that the things they inject are unfamiliar and foreign... and i also wonder if it feels like losing a little bit of autonomy? like youre at the mercy of the people who inject you or draw your blood, and also you dont know what something will do whether for you or against you;; if i think of it that way, it feels like a bigger thing
i do wonder how isolophobia differs from autophobia though, what that might mean to you or ps!bandu... but then i would wonder why ps!ex might not fear it as much
also, this is so out of context but i feel like bandu would be the type to say "your honor, i plead nuh-uh!!" and ex would just be like "bandu we are in court please be serious for once"
this is so bandu i love it ;o;lostsilver wrote:
ps!bandu: "the 'losing a little bit of autonomy' thing explains it too!! i'm glad you slightly see it from my perspective... but with isolophobia, the only reason i have it is because if other scientists found me, they'd lock me away to do tests on me... i don't want to be quarantined, because what if someone never comes back to get me out? i'd stay there... starving, dehydrated... it terrifies me knowing what some scientists would do to me if they found me, but i'm in the hands of my sibling, so i don't really have much to worry about, i suppose... but thank you for sharing your thoughts, and i'm glad i could be a help in explaining it! <3"Achromalia wrote:
and then these...typanophobia + isolophobia:actually,, most of my thoughts were already explained by ps!bandu, i didnt have very much to say :c having a needle stuck inside you is just not that unexpected to be scared by in these conditions and i think what makes it harder is also the feeling that the things they inject are unfamiliar and foreign... and i also wonder if it feels like losing a little bit of autonomy? like youre at the mercy of the people who inject you or draw your blood, and also you dont know what something will do whether for you or against you;; if i think of it that way, it feels like a bigger thing
i do wonder how isolophobia differs from autophobia though, what that might mean to you or ps!bandu... but then i would wonder why ps!ex might not fear it as much
also, this is so out of context but i feel like bandu would be the type to say "your honor, i plead nuh-uh!!" and ex would just be like "bandu we are in court please be serious for once"
for everyone: topic check?
lol,,, i could draw it but they're just like,,, playing around with dave and bambi hehe,,Achromalia wrote:
this is so bandu i love it ;o;lostsilver wrote:
ps!bandu: "the 'losing a little bit of autonomy' thing explains it too!! i'm glad you slightly see it from my perspective... but with isolophobia, the only reason i have it is because if other scientists found me, they'd lock me away to do tests on me... i don't want to be quarantined, because what if someone never comes back to get me out? i'd stay there... starving, dehydrated... it terrifies me knowing what some scientists would do to me if they found me, but i'm in the hands of my sibling, so i don't really have much to worry about, i suppose... but thank you for sharing your thoughts, and i'm glad i could be a help in explaining it! <3"Achromalia wrote:
and then these...typanophobia + isolophobia:actually,, most of my thoughts were already explained by ps!bandu, i didnt have very much to say :c having a needle stuck inside you is just not that unexpected to be scared by in these conditions and i think what makes it harder is also the feeling that the things they inject are unfamiliar and foreign... and i also wonder if it feels like losing a little bit of autonomy? like youre at the mercy of the people who inject you or draw your blood, and also you dont know what something will do whether for you or against you;; if i think of it that way, it feels like a bigger thing
i do wonder how isolophobia differs from autophobia though, what that might mean to you or ps!bandu... but then i would wonder why ps!ex might not fear it as much
also, this is so out of context but i feel like bandu would be the type to say "your honor, i plead nuh-uh!!" and ex would just be like "bandu we are in court please be serious for once"
for everyone: topic check?
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about the ashbluffs."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cozy 'bout the ashbluffs."
expunged: "give me something silly about mr. haywood and mr. cornwall ^^"
bandu: "gimme something cozy about dave and bambi!!"
ps!dave: "hm... give me something about haywood, i suppose."
ps!bambi: "yeah, gimme somethin' 'bout cornwall."
ps!expunged: "give me something sweet about ps!bandu. (maybe, if you find a way, could you make it somehow related to the drooling thing? thank you.)"
ps!bandu: "gimme something food related abt ps!expunged again!! :3"
i think i need more sleep y'all....
i hope today is ok for you! gl and enjoy :)
i hope today is ok for you! gl and enjoy :)
expunged: "you're alright!! rest if you must!"Achromalia wrote:
i think i need more sleep y'all....
i hope today is ok for you! gl and enjoy :)
bandu: "mhm!! we'll be here when you come back!!"
ps!expunged: "we all hope you have a nice rest."
ps!bandu: "i feel that tho,,, i'mma rest too,, wake me up when you come back <3"
mmng dreams were a little intense, super fast hyperaggressive dogs in a childhood home, then someone tried to unlock the front door from outside through the mail flap, then a religious sect kidnapped me and my dad and some strangerslostsilver wrote:
expunged: "you're alright!! rest if you must!"Achromalia wrote:
i think i need more sleep y'all....
i hope today is ok for you! gl and enjoy :)
bandu: "mhm!! we'll be here when you come back!!"
ps!expunged: "we all hope you have a nice rest."
ps!bandu: "i feel that tho,,, i'mma rest too,, wake me up when you come back <3"
some other things but i dont remember
...
(hey,, ps!bandu, im back ^^)
(if youre too comfy you can keep sleeping tho, im just letting you know :>)
expunged: "mm... those dreams do sound pretty strange and intense... but welcome back, either way!"Achromalia wrote:
mmng dreams were a little intense, super fast hyperaggressive dogs in a childhood home, then someone tried to unlock the front door from outside through the mail flap, then a religious sect kidnapped me and my dad and some strangerslostsilver wrote:
expunged: "you're alright!! rest if you must!"Achromalia wrote:
i think i need more sleep y'all....
i hope today is ok for you! gl and enjoy :)
bandu: "mhm!! we'll be here when you come back!!"
ps!expunged: "we all hope you have a nice rest."
ps!bandu: "i feel that tho,,, i'mma rest too,, wake me up when you come back <3"
some other things but i dont remember
...
(hey,, ps!bandu, im back ^^)
(if youre too comfy you can keep sleeping tho, im just letting you know :>)
bandu: "hii!!"
ps!expunged: "oh yeah, ze is sleeping, still. i'll wake zem up for you. (ze responds better to a gentle nudge to wake zem up.)"
*ps!expunged gently nudges at ps!bandu, attempting to wake zem up. ps!bandu opens zeir weary eyes and looks at ps!expunged, then to you. ze waves and sits up.*
ps!bandu: "hii... <3"
for everyone: lunch? good nutrition and hydration will nourish you well :>