...i don't know.
i guess i'd just like to be someone who could figure things out a bit better.
all this time to myself. all this introspection.
and i can still hardly do a thing.
at least i still do what i can.
even if it's not much at times.
things are a bit lonely when life's like this. a bit painful, a hollow, emptying sort of pain.
it's incredibly inconvenient. i just can't connect. there's always this distance.
so, had i been able to understand it all a bit better, and to better figure out how to move around the shit being encountered, maybe i'd also be able to understand how to best help others and perhaps provide others reasons to live, even when there really wouldn't seem to be one anyways. it seems to be something a lot of others really need.
if i could actually do what i envision.
the sort of person who could just... create it all.
no more limitations.
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same question.
i guess i'd just like to be someone who could figure things out a bit better.
all this time to myself. all this introspection.
and i can still hardly do a thing.
at least i still do what i can.
even if it's not much at times.
things are a bit lonely when life's like this. a bit painful, a hollow, emptying sort of pain.
it's incredibly inconvenient. i just can't connect. there's always this distance.
so, had i been able to understand it all a bit better, and to better figure out how to move around the shit being encountered, maybe i'd also be able to understand how to best help others and perhaps provide others reasons to live, even when there really wouldn't seem to be one anyways. it seems to be something a lot of others really need.
if i could actually do what i envision.
the sort of person who could just... create it all.
no more limitations.
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same question.