Tagalog and German perhaps. My mother is filipino, and I took German for two years in high school.

Favorite video game?

This is hard.

Probably Archeblade. But its dead.

League used to be good. Ehhhhhh now. I only watch pro matches anymore. Dont play.

Osu is awesome.

Starcraft 2 is an amazing game and probably deserves more Love.

Halo 3 was an integral part of my childhood.

Final fantasy 7 is one of the greatest video games ever created.

Monster Hunter World is similarly an absolutely stellar game.

It's hard to decide between this. I still think I pick Archeblade. I just wish the game had been created by reliable dev's who had the funding to back the game up. It was really an amazing game.

Same question

Yeah pretty difficult question, I don't play video games as much as I used to before. I used to be really big on the Splatoon games. I grew up playing Mario Kart so I guess you could say that's one of them

same

UHHHHH this is hard. undertale hit me really hard when i first played it and thats where i got my first user from so lets go with that for now

SQ

My favorite game for the gameplay has to be the Binding of Isaac rebirth, it's one of the very first game I played on PC and I absolutely loved it, it's also the only game at which I can say I was very good although after leaving it for a while I got washed up. For the story my favorite game would be Danganronpa, all 3 games were memorable to me.

SQ

pretty tough.

so many games with so much nostalgia.

i have no fucking idea.

i'd like to just say undertale/deltarune for the community and amazing writing and charming humor behind it, as well as the fucking greatest and most charming characters i've seen aaaaaa, but uhhh

as far as games that i enjoy playing?

The. :clap: Original. :clap: Starcraft.

oh and of course the expansion, Brood War, which i enjoyed more, but yee. SC:BW is my answer.

then there's Starcraft 2, with variants from WoL, HotS, then finally, LotV. those were good too.

it's actually really tough, but i think it's a fair answer considering it's taken up a lot of my childhood and a good bit of later years.

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favorite fandom?

bad question theyre all garbage

i can only speak for the ones that i take part in and i guess i’d say the pokémon fandom. lot of really good content comes from it and i love it.

SQ

Splatoon fandom is pretty chill, that's all I could think of

What's something that really frustrates you to the point of tears/rage?

People who deny absolutely objective facts.

SQ

samX500 wrote:

People who deny absolutely objective facts.

SQ

Ahha
Aha

You said it for me, really

I've talked about that before on here though so I'll try to answer something else

Myself. I never seem to be good enough despite the fact I'm always trying to improve. Most of the time I can deal with that and I've learned to feel satisfied with the progress I make. It makes things bearable, managable, and even enjoyable. And I know if I keep going and manage myself well, I'll succeed. But there are sometimes where I let my emotions and frustrations really get the better of me and it's generally something like "Why am I not good enough?" at something. I've had a stint of that the past couple of days and it's not pleasant.

SQ

Oh man, mine isn't as severe. Just things like people bothering me/making me mad. I'm not the kind of person to express annoyance or to yell at people. So I just get extremely frustrated because I don't know how to del with the situation. So I kind of tear up a little.

same

Puzzle wrote:

Myself. I never seem to be good enough despite the fact I'm always trying to improve. Most of the time I can deal with that and I've learned to feel satisfied with the progress I make. It makes things bearable, manageable, and even enjoyable. And I know if I keep going and manage myself well, I'll succeed. But there are sometimes where I let my emotions and frustrations really get the better of me and it's generally something like "Why am I not good enough?" at something. I've had a stint of that the past couple of days and it's not pleasant.

something similar to this.

it's a good load of self-hatred, and my perfectionism doesn't help much.

i'm struggling to explain it.

there's some basic emotions people get to feel.

anger. joy. grief. fear.

the best i get to feel from them?

angry enough to sulk. enough joy to chuckle.

not much else. the two others?

fear? only whatever human instinct serves, bodily flinches, and all. other than that, i've yet to be horrified by anything. i haven't really experienced real fear.

but then there's grief.

i just shut down. no emotion, no expression, no life, no thoughts. just a still body, staring into the void. completely inert.

now, though apathy has been the shield that makes all this possible and completely negates hysteria, there's something about my internal thoughts that really get to me.

seething self-hatred. it's clear. it's there. it's real. hate.

hate, because of my failure to have fixed anything. all i've done was sit and watch as my life fell apart. i was too numb to do anything. too stupid to, in fact. too ignorant to listen to what i should've done. i want to climb out of my damn skin and smack myself, and let myself know exactly what i should do. i want out. get out. fix this mess. get something done. actually do something. for fuck's sake, just do something. DO SOMETHING. FUCKING GET IT DONE. FIX IT. YOU LAZY APATHETIC FUCK. STOP STARING AT THE FUCKING CEILING. ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH THE CEILING FAN?? GET OFF THE FUCKING COUCH. GO. DO IT. STOP FUCKING UP YOUR GRADES. STOP BEING SUCH A CHERRY-PICKING SMARTASS BY DEBATING WITH YOUR TEACHERS, NOONE CARES. STOP THROWING YOUR DEPRESSING SHIT ON EVERYONE ELSE FOR THEM TO HANDLE, YOUR FRIENDS DON'T DESERVE THIS, JUST FUCKING ENJOY LIFE WITH THEM AND LAUGH WITH HER, STOP FUCKING YOURSELF UP OVER HER, STOP RELYING ON HER TO LIVE. ALL YOU DO IS TALK AND COMPLAIN AND TALK AND COMPLAIN AND WHINE AND WRITE ABOUT YOUR SHIT AND YOU DON'T DO ANYTHING. FUCK. NO WONDER SHE HAD DISTANCED HERSELF. CONSIDERING HOW FUCKING DEPRESSIVE YOU ARE, EVEN THE MOST OPTIMISTIC OF PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY HER, JUST DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR SHIT ANYMORE. YOU'LL MANAGE, YES, BUT ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING AND BETTER YOURSELF. YOU FUCKHEAD. YOU KEEP TEARING UP TO SUICIDAL ANIME CHARACTERS THAT YOU RELATE TO, BUT YOU DON'T GIVE ENOUGH OF A FUCK TO CARRY IT OUT YOURSELF? HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT WORK? JUST DO SOMETHING. PLEASE. FUCK.

...and that's where it comes from.

i suppose something like a simple thread of thoughts could just lead to a full-force bullet train running down your ego and pummelling it with the shit you wished you had done.

but it's addicting.

the emptiness. the hollowness.

it's so fucked, but it's so addicting. i can't get enough of it.

apathy.

it really changed me in the most dramatic fashion i've known. everything is internal. the worst of it is something i've yet to excavate, but i know it's there from what i get when i'm in my head for too long.

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sq.

close-minded, intolerant people

What do you want to do right now?

I'm planning to hang out with da bois.

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Same question

Uhhh...

I wanna go on to tomorrow. Mostly because I really want to play osu and kurtzpel and draw so I can feel good about being done with my month of anatomy. Also i plan on getting very drunk tomorrow night after I finish my drawing.

SQ

get everything done despite my minimal amount of energy left that i clearly won't manage anything with.

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sq

Talk to a mate, let her know I'm okay.

But l also don't want to, because my mind's not quite in the right place, and she's busy right now.
For the respect of her, I'm not gonna chat.

I would also like to finish my timetable. I'm trying to get used to working in timetables and having some self-discipline. I'd like to plan how to do my goals so my days aren't as hectic.

How would you feel if your parents had an Osu! account and know what you're posting here?

TL;DR Would be okay, preferred to a degree.

Long Version:
I have accepted that my father doesn't understand me nor shares my interest and thus really don't care what he thinks anymore. If my mother read it, I'd be slightly uncomfortable, but I'd prefer it honestly. She likes my silly humour, that's one thing, but the few depressed things I wrote, I would technically want her to know and talk about them with her, but didn't manage to tell her, yet.

I want to explain a few of my thoughts on this further. I'm the type of person that can put a lot of effort into friends and family, investing time to learn about their interests and motivating myself to be interested in them, too. I try to understand what they like about their interests and try to see it from their perspective. More often than not, I manage to share their joy with them, so I used to have a lot of fun with my father for example, but whenever I tried to select what we do or talk about my interests, it would never work out and it started bothering me more and more over the years, it felt like a onesided investment to me, unfair that I put in effort to this degree, but in the end I just feel like I'm a toy, and that I can't be myself, if that makes sense.

The other thing I wanted to get a little more into is "talking about things". It can be really hard to open up, especially about topics that worry and bother you, but it does really help if you manage to do so. In the example of my mother reading my forum posts, she knows quite a bit about my thoughts and worries, but there are always things I still can't manage to speak about, which makes me feel alone with my problems sometimes, not a good feeling, yet it's just a weakness of myself that prevents me to just talk about it. It's a feeling of people not being able to understand what I would want to express, not being able to relate to it, or people maybe trying to belittle my worries and emotions, even though they're real and quite heavy for me.

SQ cause it was an interesting one to think about and answer for me.

They wouldn't. They actually don't want me to play because they know it makes me prone to repetitive strain injury, which I shouldn't risk since I'm a student. They know I would chat on forums though (I spend some time in Discord servers), and it's not like I upload anything explicit or suggestive here (which isn't allowed anyway) or in those Discord servers, so I wouldn't be too worried. They know I am not the type of person to distribute some naked anime girl on a forum that doesn't allow it, for example, or to access that material in general.

Sometimes I see people writing essays to answer these questions. If you're one of them, do you wonder if you should really spend that much time to answer these questions? If not, what are your impressions of those who do?

I'm one of these people, for certain. I like to get things out of my head. I've been improving on typing shorter answers since I got a diary, but I may type a lot if I feel really stuck on something.

Sq

It's more a way of self reflection / meditation to type out thoughts for me and it can be interesting to read what's going through other peoples minds. Then there's always the chance that someone responds something interesting to one my thought essays and I learn something new / get a new perspective. I could probably spend less time on FG and or write shorter answers, I don't actually spend much time on it anyways, but I could still spend less time on it, but atm I find it's passable and makes me think about interesting things from time to time. (not to mention that even if I were to write shorter answers, all the things I didn't type would still be going through my head and all that would change would be me being more reserved and dishonest with my responses)

SQ

When I write answer, I try to write them so that I am happy with the answer given and if the answer requires a lot of words, then I have to write all of those words. I don't try to cut corners with my explanation when writing answer to question. And sometimes question just requires you to write a long essay for your answer to be understood.

SQ

...eugh. this topic.

if you express your thoughts in detail, and explain your answer in depth, you're taking the question seriously and showing exactly what you think about it. if i'm spending a few more minutes doing that, i don't really mind. we came here to spend our time away from things anyways.

it's somewhat bothersome to have others yelp for a tl;dr and generally just not give a shit about the answer. you asked, so i answered.

plus, it's fairly typical for there to be words that are too vague to simplify sentences to, and sometimes, you just have to describe it as it really is, to clarify.

there's tons of "reasons" why one would write "essays for answers". it's not like it needs much of a reason. there isn't a "should" or "shouldn't" in terms of how long your answers are, as long as they're not actual fucking spam.

i'm glad to see people explain their perspective in clarity. i can understand them better.

i think that's about as simple as it could be, if any of that makes sense. it's actually a fairly tiresome topic, as this is normally where things go when people decide i'm "taking things too seriously".

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sq.

"Should"? How would I know.
I'm someone who spends time thinking about it and at the same time doing something else, mostly. As an example: I'm playing "TF2" while thinking about and writing this.
Calling those long answers "essays" feels kind of... Negative (but that's just my usual perception). Like, people writing such long answers, are writing so because of the question that was asked. Especially if you didn't say anything about the length of the answer you'd like to read. And if someone doesn't want to make it short, why wouldn't it be fine.

Thinking about it feels more and more stupid.


How's Music Day (June 21st) going in your country?

Those who does prolly has lot of free time

Ashton wrote:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M46FRJsB0Qw

June 21 ordinary day

Sq

Ashton wrote:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M46FRJsB0Qw

depending on the question im absolutely one of those people. i don’t really care whether or not anyone actually reads my answer, i just want to answer the question to the best of my ability. i don’t care if that means i give a three word answer or a whole novel. i don’t think i’m wasting my time or anything, i mean i don’t imagine anyone’s gonna care anymore than just “hmm nice”, but it’s more about answering the question so that i’m comfortable with it.

that’s really about it.

FUCK.

i don’t really know.

if you could be anywhere you wanted at this moment, where would you be?

I am at home. And I want to be home. I love being home.

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Same question.

Same answer, same question.

Tad Fibonacci wrote:

I am at home. And I want to be home. I love being home.

What do you think of the world we live in?

It's alright. Humanity is going through a growing process. The state of the world will probably always be objectively awful, and I think there are a million trillion things to criticize about the world we live in. It's fucked up in all sorts of ways. Society is awful.

But, on the other hand, it couldn't really be any other way. We can't be at this point in terms of technology, in terms of understanding the world around us, without having things go wrong or lacking understanding. There's been no precursor to a time like this. This is a completely new era for humanity. With that new era comes a whole host of new problems and issues that we've never encountered before and we certainly don't understand. We need to figure out how to make society work while things are constantly changing, and that's hard. In that sense, society on a whole is objectively horrible, but if you look at it and compare it to history it's quite good.

But there's a problem. I think the great filter is a real thing, and we're probably about to hit it. There seems to be an inherent natural destructiveness about intelligence. It seems that intelligence outstrips instincts and experiences. There's all these new things, all these new facets to society and existence that didn't exist 100, 200, 300 years ago. Completely new and revolutionary. As a side effect, it is imperative that our society adapts to fit around the new world we create. We're generally sort of okay at that... But it really seems like natural intelligence causes animals like us to grow too smart too quickly without the experience to understand the power you end up wielding when you're intelligent. We're more likely than not going to destroy ourselves because of it. We're too tribal. Our insticts are focused around a reality where competition for resources is real. Where the only thing that matters is the people close to you, and there's no damage from our actions to people very far away. It's a tribal mindset, and it's outdated.

Shoes are a good example. How many people do you think, for the shoes you wear on your feet, were involved in the process of creating those shoes? How peoples actions affected those shoes, the creation of them, the shipments, the retail, to finally getting to you? The answer is, seriously, millions. Millions and millions of people from all around the globe. Just for you to get some shoes. Everybody has a pair of shoes, right? Then what's it like if nearly everyone has a pair of shoes and for each pair of shoes millions of people were somehow involved with or affected those shoes?

We're all connected now. The way of thinking about only the immediate vicinty of people is outdated. It's no longer like, ah, yeah, there's a tribe of a few thousand people over there, lets make war with them, and that's an isolated incident. If any wars happen here in the modern age, that's not isolated. The whole globe feels the effects of that, whether people realize it or not.

There are plenty of people who in some way, consciously or not, realize that. We're a global society. But on the whole, we really act like we're not. We act like our actions and our decisions only affect us, immediately. We act like we're a society that's maybe a city big, or a state big, or a country big. But we're not. We're a fucking planet big, now. And in that sense, We don't see the whole picture. We have no foresight. It's not our natural state. It's not what we were evolved to do. We were evolved to survive in a world where we were our own biggest competitors. That or nature. It's not like that anymore. We haven't really learned that, as a people. It's bad.

So, yeah. The worlds alright. Going down a shitty path, but what other path is there to go down? We're probably fucked. That's how I look at things.

SQ

Not too much going on, but overall stable.

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Let's say:
M is 26 years old. T is as twice as old as M. Q is a quarter younger than T. S is ten times younger than M. Take T's age and subtract it by S's age, and you get?

17 yeah 16 or maybe 15

Which comes first, egg or cat

egg make chicken
chicken come before cat
egg

edit: no question

what makes you the happiest about yourself?

How I'm clearly becoming more sociable. This usually makes me very happy about myself. I used to be someone who isolated themselves from the world. Since, I believe a month or two ago, I've been getting more sociable, mainly online. However, I've also changed in real life, as I can now talk, as long as I'm not the one starting the conversation. I still have my weak points. Socialising is still scary. But it's now quite fun to set challenges and goals for myself and try to work towards them. I want to improve.

However, with my changed attitude towards socialising, I've noticed that I've been craving interaction with others. Being alone in my room often makes me quite depressed. I can't find the fun in being alone anymore. I guess it's because I love challenging myself, so I should put challenges of my own into the things that I do. Could be something I try today.


That was some interesting self-evaluation.
Same question.

One thing that I am very proud of having is my logical brain. I am very good at pretty much every field that requires logical thinking, mostly math and programming and I am very proud of that though I am not sure why.

SQ

My ability to continue moving. Stuff fucks me over pretty consistently but I keep working hard. I think that's something to be very proud of.

SQ.

Dunno, as long as there's no big problems

Sq

I think I'm making progress towards the lifestyle I'd like to obtain.


Remind me, whose fault is it that I can't play some "foreign" games... The EU?

Probably. Article 13 is a pain in the ass, I know.

Solve this equation:
log2 x^3 - 12 = 0

How long did it take for you to solve it?