That's pretty fuckin depressing big time.

Okay, but to give a serious response, that's a pretty fucked up situation.

I'd say life is pretty fuckin hard to endure, but luckily my situational causes of depression haven't been all that bad, comparatively speaking. Otherwise, I'd say my living conditions are pretty shit. Seeing this, I'm sure yours is too.

...fuck.

I'm honestly not even sure where to start.

Having your creations shit on is a fairly common thing, especially for people like artists and musicians. Pretty much everyone gets judged and criticized, and most likely the shit will be thrown by normies too unless there are those who give legitimate constructive criticism. On that aspect, it's a fucking annoying learning experience. Sometimes you tolerate it and do what you want, or give in and provide what they demand, or maybe a bit of both, or something else, i dont know.

By looking at some of Chippy's posts, he sounds like kind of a dick. I can see how that happens. Usually my apathy helps me shrug shit off, but thats probably not the case for you. Im not sure if you reported him or complained about him being a dick, but still, he's a dick.

Why the fuck does whoever that moderates the taiko discord not see the shit everyone throws at you? Do they just actively not give a fuck? Thats pretty fucked.

As for your father... I dunno. Im assuming you're not in a position where you can freely move out and do shit on your own so you can be away from your dad, but... I guess I have a suggestion. It probably wont help, but I'll try. If you have any friends with extra space, ask them if you can stay over. Bring everything you can. Maybe it'll be awkward, or uncomfortable or something. If it's better than dealing with your dad, do it. Unfortunately, that's assuming you have a friend nearby, and that's kind of rare from what I'd imagine.

Your paternal side of your family is fucked. It's sad.

Have you ever gotten a chance to come up with a plan for all of you (on your mom's side ofc) to do something about this, or is the fear that powerful?

...yeah. I cant really help much other than suggestions, shitty therapy (I dont know if I can be therapeutic at all, since im pretty depressed myself and i dont really believe in most of the optimistic shit)...

...I guess if you're active on osu!, I'd be willing to talk or something if perhaps it gives an outlet of sorts. Vent at me if you'd like. I'm kind of used to that since my dad always yells at me for shit.

I also have a discord. If you're willing, I can PM you my tag and everything and we could talk.

...Hopefully this helps.

Xuequinox wrote:

That's pretty fuckin depressing big time.

Okay, but to give a serious response, that's a pretty fucked up situation.

I'd say life is pretty fuckin hard to endure, but luckily my situational causes of depression haven't been all that bad, comparatively speaking. Otherwise, I'd say my living conditions are pretty shit. Seeing this, I'm sure yours is too.

...fuck.

I'm honestly not even sure where to start.

Having your creations shit on is a fairly common thing, especially for people like artists and musicians. Pretty much everyone gets judged and criticized, and most likely the shit will be thrown by normies too unless there are those who give legitimate constructive criticism. On that aspect, it's a fucking annoying learning experience. Sometimes you tolerate it and do what you want, or give in and provide what they demand, or maybe a bit of both, or something else, i dont know.

By looking at some of Chippy's posts, he sounds like kind of a dick. I can see how that happens. Usually my apathy helps me shrug shit off, but thats probably not the case for you. Im not sure if you reported him or complained about him being a dick, but still, he's a dick.

Why the fuck does whoever that moderates the taiko discord not see the shit everyone throws at you? Do they just actively not give a fuck? Thats pretty fucked.

As for your father... I dunno. Im assuming you're not in a position where you can freely move out and do shit on your own so you can be away from your dad, but... I guess I have a suggestion. It probably wont help, but I'll try. If you have any friends with extra space, ask them if you can stay over. Bring everything you can. Maybe it'll be awkward, or uncomfortable or something. If it's better than dealing with your dad, do it. Unfortunately, that's assuming you have a friend nearby, and that's kind of rare from what I'd imagine.

Your paternal side of your family is fucked. It's sad.

Have you ever gotten a chance to come up with a plan for all of you (on your mom's side ofc) to do something about this, or is the fear that powerful?

...yeah. I cant really help much other than suggestions, shitty therapy (I dont know if I can be therapeutic at all, since im pretty depressed myself and i dont really believe in most of the optimistic shit)...

...I guess if you're active on osu!, I'd be willing to talk or something if perhaps it gives an outlet of sorts. Vent at me if you'd like. I'm kind of used to that since my dad always yells at me for shit.

I also have a discord. If you're willing, I can PM you my tag and everything and we could talk.

...Hopefully this helps.

My discord tag is Big Breasted Wolf Demon#7667. I'd be happy to talk

Well this thread is a darker shade of black I hoped did exist

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

In January, I create a map of Backbeat Maniac, spend hours making it, 20 just to make the beat master diff... nd for what? To have the map fucking shit on by normies who are 2b and low AR phobic? It fucking pissed me off, I'm kinda glad I got some actual legitimate mods and advice there.

I spend too much time mapping shit nobody cares about. I don't know why I do it either. Today I mapped a 2 min 8k EZ diff that is more than likely be going to graveyard. I could have been doing something more productive like watching anime, but no.

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

In February, I had my birthday, that was nice, but you know what else happened? I had Chippy call me retarded and just act like a general asshole. I only got like a few mods out of that Discord. And again, my maps got shit on, even my "normal" ones.

You might want to support this very crazy idea that make look like an idot and see this joke which most of osugame took too seriously.

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

My psychopatic father (who was diagnosed as being a sociopathic narcissist) refused to apologize for abusing me during my whole childhood, and then got mad when I broke the mirror in his car. He's a stubborn asshole and the only reason I even live with him is so that I can have a slight chance at getting hormone therapy. And guess what else? My brother threatened to fucking kick me out last night and responded to a legitimate argument with complete nonsense.

Childhood abuse is bad, yes. Braking a car mirror is bad too, I would get mad as well. Brother-sister feud is more common than you think. I and my sister never got along and would always make the other look like the bad guy in front of parents. Just the goal of one of us getting punished was a victory of battle in the long war that was that 14 year long feud.

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

Xuequinox wrote:

That's pretty fuckin depressing big time.

Okay, but to give a serious response, that's a pretty fucked up situation.

I'd say life is pretty fuckin hard to endure, but luckily my situational causes of depression haven't been all that bad, comparatively speaking. Otherwise, I'd say my living conditions are pretty shit. Seeing this, I'm sure yours is too.

...fuck.

I'm honestly not even sure where to start.

Having your creations shit on is a fairly common thing, especially for people like artists and musicians. Pretty much everyone gets judged and criticized, and most likely the shit will be thrown by normies too unless there are those who give legitimate constructive criticism. On that aspect, it's a fucking annoying learning experience. Sometimes you tolerate it and do what you want, or give in and provide what they demand, or maybe a bit of both, or something else, i dont know.

By looking at some of Chippy's posts, he sounds like kind of a dick. I can see how that happens. Usually my apathy helps me shrug shit off, but thats probably not the case for you. Im not sure if you reported him or complained about him being a dick, but still, he's a dick.

Why the fuck does whoever that moderates the taiko discord not see the shit everyone throws at you? Do they just actively not give a fuck? Thats pretty fucked.

As for your father... I dunno. Im assuming you're not in a position where you can freely move out and do shit on your own so you can be away from your dad, but... I guess I have a suggestion. It probably wont help, but I'll try. If you have any friends with extra space, ask them if you can stay over. Bring everything you can. Maybe it'll be awkward, or uncomfortable or something. If it's better than dealing with your dad, do it. Unfortunately, that's assuming you have a friend nearby, and that's kind of rare from what I'd imagine.

Your paternal side of your family is fucked. It's sad.

Have you ever gotten a chance to come up with a plan for all of you (on your mom's side ofc) to do something about this, or is the fear that powerful?

...yeah. I cant really help much other than suggestions, shitty therapy (I dont know if I can be therapeutic at all, since im pretty depressed myself and i dont really believe in most of the optimistic shit)...

...I guess if you're active on osu!, I'd be willing to talk or something if perhaps it gives an outlet of sorts. Vent at me if you'd like. I'm kind of used to that since my dad always yells at me for shit.

I also have a discord. If you're willing, I can PM you my tag and everything and we could talk.

...Hopefully this helps.

My discord tag is Big Breasted Wolf Demon#7667. I'd be happy to talk

Mine is Xuequinox#9003. I've sent a friend request.

tl;dr please

Saturnalize wrote:

tl;dr please

He's depressed big time

Saturnalize wrote:

tl;dr please

It’s less than a paragraph you illiterate potato

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

Saturnalize wrote:

tl;dr please

It’s less than a paragraph you illiterate potato

do you know what a fucking paragraph is lmao

Wow so you were "bullied" by people in osu? Wow poor you.

If you're having problems with your family... move out. Sort out your problems yourself. And I doubt that fucking up you body with hormone therapy will make you any happier.

B1rd wrote:

Wow so you were "bullied" by people in osu? Wow poor you.

If you're having problems with your family... move out. Sort out your problems yourself. And I doubt that fucking up you body with hormone therapy will make you any happier.

Hormone therapy isn’t “fucking up my body” if anything, it’s improving my body, like putting new oil in a car.

do you know what a fucking paragraph is lmao[/quote]

4 sentences

B1rd wrote:

And I doubt that fucking up you body with hormone therapy will make you any happier.

sorry but breast cancer and blood clots are countered by less prostate cancer and testosterone-related life expectancy, so even ignoring the fact that she wants it it's a minor unfuckup

yeah this is longer than the usual paragraph gonna need a TL;DR here lads

Depends if you're getting hormones to make up for a deficiency, or taking hormones to try to become like the other sex, the latter of which can cause permanent impotency.

B1rd wrote:

Depends if you're getting hormones to make up for a deficiency, or taking hormones to try to become like the other sex, the latter of which can cause permanent impotency.

i get it it's a fuckup in that sense, still depends if they care or not (or prefer it too)

Well too bad if you change your mind at a later date, but then you find you you can't have kids any more. Teenagers are prone to going though all sorts of phases, and people live for a long time so you don't want to affect the rest of your life because of some bad decisions when you were young.

I read a study that stated that gender tradition doesn't make actually make trans people any happier, so I either way I don't see the utility in it.

B1rd wrote:

Wow so you were "bullied" by people in osu? Wow poor you.

If you're having problems with your family... move out. Sort out your problems yourself. And I doubt that fucking up you body with hormone therapy will make you any happier.

lmfao "yeah just get the money from 0 savings to move out and live on your own and maintain your own livelyhood" ok sure Daniel.

Get a job and find an apartment, it's not rocket science.

well even if she took what you said into account she would take hormones because infertility is reversible with them, and not with surgery.

regarding phases, by saying "trans" you implied it's not a phase - ask her, not me, how long she's been feeling this way. i don't really know.

B1rd wrote:

I read a study that stated that gender tradition doesn't make actually make trans people any happier, so I either way I don't see the utility in it.

tradition? transition? no matter which one the studies are conflicting for some reason so yay

hence make your decisions based on your situation, taking everything into account...

Dawnsday wrote:

yeah this is longer than the usual paragraph gonna need a TL;DR here lads

Oh hey Dawnsday

B1rd wrote:

Get a job and find an apartment, it's not rocket science.

I'd argue way more since I've you know actually moved out and live in my own apartment now and know that that shit isn't particularly something you can just up and do really easily due to the way that the housing market is sort of done, especially when someone is an 18 year old American child who seems to not really have the support of their family behind them but it's B1rd so I'm just gonna avoid the 5 pages of pseudo-intellectualism and not lmao

B1rd wrote:

I read a study that stated that gender tradition doesn't make actually make trans people any happier, so I either way I don't see the utility in it.

I read a study that said the earth was flat, your point?

Also, you’re an uneducated cunt if you think all trans people that transition aren’t happy, just saying. Maybe you should listen to the stories of trans people instead of believing studies created by cis people

Please link to the study that says the earth is flat.

Trans people seem to all have a large range of mental problems that aren't cured by transitioning, and case in point, you hardly seem like the most mentally-stable person to be making big decisions, considering you're using a forum like this to go on such rants about every trivial problem you have.

CDFA wrote:

B1rd wrote:

Get a job and find an apartment, it's not rocket science.

I'd argue way more since I've you know actually moved out and live in my own apartment now and know that that shit isn't particularly something you can just up and do really easily due to the way that the housing market is sort of done, especially when someone is an 18 year old American child who seems to not really have the support of their family behind them but it's B1rd so I'm just gonna avoid the 5 pages of pseudo-intellectualism and not lmao

100 years ago youth were fighting in the trenches, but apparently now moving out of their parents house is too much of an ordeal.

B1rd wrote:

Trans people seem to all have a large range of mental problems that aren't cured by transitioning

isn't this obvious though, excluding the purple word

like even best case scenario all abuse and bullying disappears, not everything will be cured, it's all random decisions and improvements all over the place based on what you want... you can do other stuff (potentially) to cure other stuff (potentially), it's not complicated at all

Is abuse a trivial problem? Is possibly being forced to live on the streets a trivial problem?

Judging my mental stability by a rant also isn’t very good. And I’m not gonna spoon feed you information, find that study does or doesn’t exist if you really wanna prove me wrong.

I’m done with you boy, go to another thread with your low IQ.

this thread is a trainwreck and a half

You're obviously lying about the flat earth study, no such study exists, and the burden on me isn't to prove that, proving that it doesn't exist is near impossible.

Complaining because you got insulted by some random person is indeed trivial, and what's more indicative of you mental problems is that you think this is a good place to talk about being abused by you parents. Why would you think it's appropriate to expose your life story on some random internet forum? Were you looking for sympathy?

Everyone has problem, if you want to actually fix your problems you'll need to man up instead of blaming everything on everyone else. Go see a psychologist or something.

insults are trivial but like, the reasons why they happen aren't a lot of the time

https://twitter.com/Chippum_/status/965709513809592320

here's the thing btw

i mean i think chippy never implied that self request vs non-self request affects playability or not, there can be other reasons why he doesn't want to play the map lol

SO BASICALLY i don't get what they were arguing about at all. can you read it and explain?

stop arguing and look @ this bros...

B1rd wrote:

If you're having problems with your family... move out. Sort out your problems yourself. And I doubt that fucking up you body with hormone therapy will make you any happier.

You are assuming that it's an option to move out. Take into consideration that AsrielDr33murr might not be of age and/or be in a place where staying on your own is not a viable option. I don't think AsrielDr33murr would be financial dependent on his parents given what said, so that would be pretty much being on your own. If you live in the city in the states, you REALLY need to know what you are doing if you decide to be on your own. That's not even touching on the topic of paying for college, which they might not be able to begin with. B1rd, you underestimate how hard some people have it here in the states, financial speaking.

B1rd wrote:

You're obviously lying about the flat earth study, no such study exists, and the burden on me isn't to prove that, proving that it doesn't exist is near impossible.

Complaining because you got insulted by some random person is indeed trivial, and what's more indicative of you mental problems is that you think this is a good place to talk about being abused by you parents. Why would you think it's appropriate to expose your life story on some random internet forum? Were you looking for sympathy?

Everyone has problem, if you want to actually fix your problems you'll need to man up instead of blaming everything on everyone else. Go see a psychologist or something.

It's my dad's fault he abused me. It's my brother's fault he threatened to kick me out.

Nothing can undo the damage my dad did except an apology from the man himself

Now get outta this thread please

B1rd wrote:

Go see a psychologist or something.

You will pay for the psychologist

abraker wrote:

B1rd wrote:

If you're having problems with your family... move out. Sort out your problems yourself. And I doubt that fucking up you body with hormone therapy will make you any happier.

You are assuming that it's an option to move out. Take into consideration that AsrielDr33murr might not be of age and/or be in a place where staying on your own is not a viable option. I don't think AsrielDr33murr would be financial dependent on his parents given what said, so that would be pretty much being on your own. If you live in the city in the states, you REALLY need to know what you are doing if you decide to be on your own. That's not even touching on the topic of paying for college, which they might not be able to begin with. B1rd, you underestimate how hard some people have it here in the states, financial speaking.

College isn't really a necessity for me, it's more of "how the fuck will i pay for hormone therapy?", "where will i sleep?", "will i have to live in relative poverty?", "am i gonna be stuck with some creepy old man who constantly gropes me for many months until June when i can actually fly up to wisconsin and live with my BF?", "will i end up with another abuser?", and the big one "will i get fuckin' MURDERED?"

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

College isn't really a necessity for me

At least community college. Don't be stuck with low paying job that can later be replaced by a machine. You will be fucked.

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

It's my dad's fault he abused me. It's my brother's fault he threatened to kick me out.

Nothing can undo the damage my dad did except an apology from the man himself

Now get outta this thread please

I don't blame your brother, you don't seem like the easiest person to live with.

...I'm starting to wonder if anyone in this thread gives a fuck.

Welp. good job, this is "How to be an efficient and non-judgmental therapist 101".

...Except you're all failing the class.

...nevermind.

Hwa Yang wrote:

this thread is a trainwreck and a half

this

the whole thread could have been handled much better

johnmedina999 wrote:

Hwa Yang wrote:

this thread is a trainwreck and a half

this

the whole thread could have been handled much better

indeed.

"haha yeah totally owned this kid on off-topic fuck yeah sjws destroyed again epic style"

oh god

Xuequinox wrote:

...I'm starting to wonder if anyone in this thread gives a fuck.

Welp. good job, this is "How to be an efficient and non-judgmental therapist 101".

...Except you're all failing the class.

...nevermind.

Everyone's an asshole and self proclaimed genius in this community apparently

Xuequinox wrote:

...I'm starting to wonder if anyone in this thread gives a fuck.

Hey my last posts are ramming up against B1rd

abraker wrote:

Xuequinox wrote:

...I'm starting to wonder if anyone in this thread gives a fuck.

Hey my last posts are ramming up against B1rd

Sorry, I'm generalizing the nature of this thread. It seems like a lot of us have been commenting some pretty unhelpful shit, and i dont think that's going to do anything for this thread. It's not going to get us anywhere.

Basically, I'm trying to say that regardless of your position, just dont be an asshole about it, thanks fren .w.

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

Xuequinox wrote:

...I'm starting to wonder if anyone in this thread gives a fuck.

Welp. good job, this is "How to be an efficient and non-judgmental therapist 101".

...Except you're all failing the class.

...nevermind.

Everyone's an asshole and self proclaimed genius in this community apparently

You've only figured this out now?

No, just was reminded of that fact

The last thing whiny kids with a victim complexes needs is validation.

B1rd wrote:

The last thing whiny kids with a victim complexes needs is validation.

way to contribute to the thread.

juuust what we need.

we might as well call everyone who's been beaten as a child just someone who has a victim complex.

...i dont think any of this is helping to address anything discussed in the thread.

this is honestly sad.

Xuequinox wrote:

B1rd wrote:

The last thing whiny kids with a victim complexes needs is validation.

way to contribute to the thread.

juuust what we need.

we might as well call everyone who's been beaten as a child just someone who has a victim complex.

...i dont think any of this is helping to address anything discussed in the thread.

this is honestly sad.

Oh yeah, that's b1rd! He's the local politician, that is if he is correct.

im considering if this thread should be locked before it gets any more toxic...

...yeah. it'd be nice if someone brought swift Death to this one.

Most people who are beaten as a child don't extrapolate that event to every area of their lives and act as a perpetual victim in everything including osu! mapping.

But of course I'm the villain for pointing out he needs to get his shit together and grow up instead of whining on the internet.

B1rd wrote:

But of course I'm the villain for pointing out he needs to get his shit together and grow up instead of whining on the internet.

or maybe the truth lies in the middle but i always say this

He name shames his so-called friends and says that basically the entire world is mean to him, rather than admitting he has any problems himself. A lot of his problems are obviously his fault, and those that aren't he isn't going to be able to deal with by complaining.

B1rd wrote:

Most people who are beaten as a child don't extrapolate that event to every area of their lives and act as a perpetual victim in everything including osu! mapping.

But of course I'm the villain for pointing out he needs to get his shit together and grow up instead of whining on the internet.

"a perpetual victim in everything" is quite an assumption to jump to though, especially if you don't even know them. I would agree to the extent of saying that its a possibility, but for that fact, it also means it's not a certainty. Telling people to grow the fuck up just makes shit worse psychologically in the case that this is legitimate, which is currently very likely.

Xuequinox wrote:

Telling people to grow the fuck up just makes shit worse psychologically

You only need to know this and realize some people are fragile

You don't cure pathological fragility by having your complaints validated by everyone around you. We need to get over the narrative that the self-professed victim is always right. No, this person isn't being unjustly persecuted by everyone around him, and just maybe someone should tell him that.

B1rd wrote:

You don't cure pathological fragility by having your complaints validated by everyone around you. We need to get over the narrative that the self-professed victim is always right. No, this person isn't being unjustly persecuted by everyone around him, and just maybe someone should tell him that.

You’re like the Donald Trump of the osu! community. I’m reporting you to osu! support for harassment, due to the fact that I told you to “get out” and “leave this thread” multiple times. Have fun having your name on /r/osureport.

P.S. stop trying to tell people what to do and stop telling people what they are, it just makes you look like an asshole

Protip: just because you created a thread, you don't own it. You're a hypocrite telling me to get out a thread then insulting me for "telling other people what to do". Posting my opinion is not "harassing", and indeed I really couldn't give two shits about you, save for the fact that I like posting in OT. If you don't like hearing my opinion, either get over it or stop posting in OT.

B1rd wrote:

Protip: just because you created a thread, you don't own it. You're a hypocrite telling me to get out a thread then insulting me for "telling other people what to do". Posting my opinion is not "harassing", and indeed I really couldn't give two shits about you, save for the fact that I like posting in OT. If you don't like hearing my opinion, either get over it or stop posting in OT.

If osu! forums had an option to block people, I totally would. But guess what? I reported you to /r/osureport. Have fun getting a silence buddy.

Trying vindictively to use the power of the mods to try to silence me from having conversation with other people - way to convince everyone you don't have a persecution complex. If you didn't want other people to talk about you, then guess what, don't make a thread about yourself.

B1rd wrote:

Trying vindictively to use the power of the mods to try to silence me from having conversation with other people - way to convince everyone you don't have a persecution complex. If you didn't want other people to talk about you, then guess what, don't make a thread about yourself.

I’m fine with people talking about me, what I don’t want is to be bullied and harassed by some fucking little shit who thinks he knows everything and thinks he has the right to diagnose me with a “victim complex.”

I don’t know about your disaster of a country, where literally only one person is in power and above the law; but here in America, we have something called freedom of speech, and one of the exceptions to this rule is, guess what? Hate speech.

What you’ve been saying falls under hate speech, which is an actual fucking crime. Meaning, if you went up to me or anyone else and said it to my face, you’d be behind bars

you're fucking d e a d, kiddo

And even if it wasn’t hate speech, it’s still harassment, which you can be fined thousands of dollars for. So either way, I get the last laugh shit kid.

LMFAOOOO

i'm sorry b1rd but you're under arrest for harassment in my circle clicking game

Imagine posting something publicly and then running to the mods at the first sign of criticism.

AsrielDr33murr wrote:

I’m fine with people talking about me, what I don’t want is to be bullied and harassed by some fucking little shit who thinks he knows everything and thinks he has the right to diagnose me with a “victim complex.”

I don’t know about your disaster of a country, where literally only one person is in power and above the law; but here in America, we have something called freedom of speech, and one of the exceptions to this rule is, guess what? Hate speech.

What you’ve been saying falls under hate speech, which is an actual fucking crime. Meaning, if you went up to me or anyone else and said it to my face, you’d be behind bars

If you want me to stop posting so much, stop replying to me and I'll stop replying to you. But it really seems you just hate me for telling you my opinion and you just want to vindictively try to get me banned because you don't like me. I'm just telling you what other people are too nice to tell you, and that is you're being ridiculous and need to improve your perspective on the world.

And you're a bit off on your political knowledge. In Australia, we have hate speech laws. In America, "hate speech" is protected by freedom of speech, as it should be. And thank goodness for that, because you don't have free speech in any country where unstable people like you can get someone locked up because they took offense to an opinion.

A lesson to be learned: never expect a good outcome out of this kind of thread in this kind of subforum.