wow I feel you. I have the exact same problem as you. Anxiety kills me every time I have to do a very important test, like finals. I also feel under pressure as well because I did badly during past years, and I kind of disappointed my parents for my mistakes. I'm done with my studies since 3 weeks ago or so, but even with anxiety, everything went well at the end. I was able to pull off the best of myself and approve every subject. You have to believe in yourself. Try to study more. In my case, If I study 3 or 2 days before the exam day anxiety takes over me but if I study periodically before the test day I feel more secure and my attitude changes as well. I feel more positive, and stop fearing that my mind will get blank all of a sudden during the exam. This is just my case though, maybe it's not exactly like that for you.Shga wrote:
This is not how I improved myself, these are just the problems I am facing
My mental health is going to deep shit. I constantly feel pressured by other expectations (good grades, lots of studying, pass my university exams etc) and I always fall short. I am trying to perform well at tests and stuff but I get so anxious that I forget things I remembered a second ago. There's been some really unsatisfying grades that I have told no one about. I try to put a happy face on for everyone around me, trying to hide my unhappiness to not affect others negatively but I am afraid that this cover will not last forever. I've been feeling gloomy and I just want to give up on everything. Any advice?
Give yourself time. You're pushing yourself too much. Also, try to don't think too much about what others expect about you and what they'll say about it because it will make your situation even harder to deal with and it will torture you to no end. If you feel too anxious you can try drinking a cup of linden tea. I recommend you this so much. Whenever I drink a cup of linden tea, it soothes my nerves significantly. This kind of tea helped me to relax and focus more when studying. I think it's the best thing you can try to handle anxiety. It works for me.
I also think you need more support as you said you're hiding your worries and problems from everyone. I had support from some friends and it helped me a lot to gain some self-confidence. They were always rooting for me and promising it'd be all okay (and they were right!).
I hope this helps you. I felt so identified with your post so I thought this would help you with your problem, as it helped me when I was in a very similar situation. I also hope you can overcome this!