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Honestly I feel like you just described me o_o, esp. when I was in high school. I did have a bad memory, was bad in social situations and I was lazy and didn't go to school much, didn't get along with my parents and didn't have any motivation. But the school psychologist/support worker person helped me move to my own place, and now I go to college. I'm still pretty lazy, esp. in the classes I don't like, but I enjoy learning Japanese at least. I still don't know what I'm going to do in the future, but I want to go on a trip to Japan and that gives me some motivation for the future. Chris9427 wrote:
"So Nano Ka?" means "Is that so?" afaik.
Also, it wasn't because my freetime was shortened, but I'm forced to do some work for school. And I'm also stressed.
Yeah, it may sound retarded to you, but it's a huge problem for me. I'm an idiot, but I can't help it.
A different confession; I'm afraid that I'm actually a huge retard, while everyone around me is way smarter than me.
I often don't understand things when someone talks to me irl. I also suck with words. And my memory is horrible. I often think I already did something until someone somehow manages to prove me otherwise.
I also act like I'm bad at something when I hate it / don't care about it. Especially in school. I'm about to fail my year because of this attitude.
Oh, I have one more confession. A pretty huge one. I'd rather keep it for myself for a time though.
Try not to worry about the things you can't change about yourself, there's no point in stressing about it or any temporary problems you have, things always change in life and if you're down now then things can only get better. If there's some support worker or psychologist at your school they're a good person to talk about your problems, and they can help, and maybe if you think about it you can find something to look forward to the future.