22:07 Reki-kun: hi
22:08 Aiseca: Hello~
22:09 Reki-kun: I viewed your profile. Your are doing fortune telling? I'm just interested, because I did such things, too many years ago
22:10 Reki-kun: and it seems you have a deep view about the world. At least how it is in your view
22:13 Aiseca: I try to be optimistic even if the inevitable is getting closer to reveal itself. I try to smile...... even if I know that the faces I see were all lies.
22:15 Aiseca: It's hard to persuade someone that you'll see what lies beyond, they'll just think you are out of mind; so I just shut out, sit down and watch everything in motion like I never knew it'll happen.
22:15 Reki-kun: I see
22:16 Reki-kun: Well you say this things out of nowhere, but I think it's just because you are used in writing and passion
22:16 Reki-kun: but I can understand
22:16 Reki-kun: it's almost subjective what you meant by the inevitable is getting closer
22:17 Aiseca: based on whats happening now, it is easy to read actually but not that easy to absorb the consequences.
22:18 Reki-kun: I saw that, too
22:18 Reki-kun: but I'm not in fear
22:18 Reki-kun: I don't think that something bad will happen to the world
22:19 Aiseca: It won't happen to the world; it'll happen in the people themselves.
22:20 Reki-kun: well, one day they will naturally die and the new generations aren't such much in old views and more in love
22:20 Reki-kun: but I can understand
22:20 Reki-kun: you want to be alive that this happens
22:21 Reki-kun: but to say something productive for the moment and life span
22:22 Reki-kun: it doesn't make sense to try to see others in order to change or hoping
22:22 Reki-kun: try to be focused on yourself
22:22 Reki-kun: I also have very few people, where I feel accepted or at least capable enough to follow and understand me
22:23 Aiseca: yeah. Been doing that- little by little.
22:23 Reki-kun: but they exist
22:24 Aiseca: My passion to help others were sometimes being poison to me. Mostly, my intentions were clear, but they used it to thier advantage, to which I sometimes question why they do it.
22:25 Aiseca: I tried to be accepted.. At least I tried ---- and still trying.
22:25 Reki-kun: Most of the people doesn't want to accept it in the first place
22:25 Reki-kun: to be helped
22:25 Reki-kun: it's their weakness to wanted to be loved
22:26 Reki-kun: that they don't take a cut
22:26 Aiseca: I feel bad for myself then if thats the case.
22:27 Reki-kun: you don't have to
22:27 Reki-kun: the main reason why they don't accept it, is problems with himselfs
22:28 Reki-kun: but it is okay to get help
22:28 Aiseca: they do not want to be seen as helpless to others, might be?
22:28 Reki-kun: maybe. Rather I think they selfjudged
22:28 Reki-kun: or find himselfs not worth enough that they need to prove himself
22:29 Reki-kun: such things like that
22:30 Reki-kun: humans are really exhausting
22:30 Reki-kun: but I don't even think of that for an issue
22:31 Aiseca: Same.
22:31 Aiseca: its better than being bland and uninteresting. A little stress could help.
22:32 Reki-kun: I'm not thinking in this basis
22:32 Reki-kun: and arguments are not clear enough to determine how your own view and feeling about it really is
22:32 Reki-kun: I just think it's okay
22:33 Reki-kun: at least if I don't have to hear or endure them longer as 1 day
22:34 Reki-kun: I can choose what I want in my life
22:35 Reki-kun: and I'm not actually a loner
22:35 Reki-kun: at least from my attitude
22:35 Reki-kun: but many people can't handle me
22:36 Reki-kun: because I'm so directly and deep in my words and confront them with really core parts like that arguments aren't a clear determination how someone find it's really
22:38 Aiseca: You are what you are, thats a fact. And yes, you have the power to choose things for yourself, not others...