Achromalia wrote:

for ps!dave: the most heartwarming memory of a meal you've had together with ps!expunged?
for ps!bandu: a memory of ps!ex making sure you were safe when you were in the laboratory? if you had to do something there, did se comfort you afterward?

lostsilver wrote:

SORRY WAS AWAY FROM LAPTOP HI IM BACK

ps!dave: "when i helped sem make make pepperoni rolls for the first time. i've always told sem that cooking something semself makes it taste better, and it's true! :>"
ps!bandu: "i like to stay under seir desk so i don't bother sem on accident, so se checks on me while i'm under there alot,, se did actually have to draw my blood a few weeks ago, of which i... was really... really terrified to let sem do... se needed it for testing, as se had wanted to see if ps!kandi's blood was different from mine. (it was to some degree, i think...) but afterward, se sat down next to me as i trembled under seir desk, held me close, and gently pet my head to comfort me... at least i know se doesn't have to do it again, haha..."

Achromalia wrote:

lostsilver wrote:

SORRY WAS AWAY FROM LAPTOP HI IM BACK

ps!dave: "when i helped sem make make pepperoni rolls for the first time. i've always told sem that cooking something semself makes it taste better, and it's true! :>"
ps!bandu: "i like to stay under seir desk so i don't bother sem on accident, so se checks on me while i'm under there alot,, se did actually have to draw my blood a few weeks ago, of which i... was really... really terrified to let sem do... se needed it for testing, as se had wanted to see if ps!kandi's blood was different from mine. (it was to some degree, i think...) but afterward, se sat down next to me as i trembled under seir desk, held me close, and gently pet my head to comfort me... at least i know se doesn't have to do it again, haha..."

i understand, youre ok!! welcome back ^^

and i see...

for everyone: qna queue!

vi_xlt wrote:

:3

lostsilver wrote:

expunged: "also... bandu's birthday is tomorrow!! if any of you want to wish him a happy early birthday, go ahead!! <33"

Achromalia wrote:

lostsilver wrote:

expunged: "also... bandu's birthday is tomorrow!! if any of you want to wish him a happy early birthday, go ahead!! <33"

wishing him a happy birthday ahead of time, on-time, and for all time <3

lostsilver wrote:

bandu: "thank you!! ex's birthday is the 9th, so theirs is three days after mine!"

Achromalia wrote:

lostsilver wrote:

bandu: "thank you!! ex's birthday is the 9th, so theirs is three days after mine!"

looking out for it ^^

for ps!dave: with the bambi bunch, what's something that sometimes makes them hard to tell apart?
for ps!bambi: with the dave duo, what was most entertaining to watch between them during your visits?

qna queue:

dave: "give me something sweet/cozy about expunged and bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"

ps!expunged: "give me something sweet/funny about ps!bandu. <3"
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly and food related about ps!ex!! <3"

Achromalia wrote:

for ps!expunged: was there a sentimental moment you shared with ps!bandu that ze would try to lighten with something that made you two laugh?
for ps!bandu: does ps!ex appear more cuddly after eating? do you feel more comfortable or cuddly with sem after eating?

qna queue:

dave: "give me something sweet/cozy about expunged and bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"

Achromalia wrote:

for everyone: water your plants and water yourself ^^ and maybe try some stretches after a long day?

ps!dave: "yep! "

Achromalia wrote:

there is so much to love that i wish i could actually like... love, and its so sad but so funny because like, there is so much significance found through the people and animals and music and art and stories and videos that i've wanted to feel that love for, and appreciating them makes me want to cry, but not being able to feel like i appreciate them enough also makes me want to cry :')

or more accurately, i am more sad the more i love something, and i am more sad the more i realize im so bad at being able to feel/create/generate/appreciate that love for those things... which i guess could seem very similar to loving it, but idk, it feels and looks very fundamentally different to me, people seem so mysterious when theyre able to do it

idk, its tiring bc everything is kinda hard to feel, everything is hard to be grateful or appreciative about-- its not that i feel i have to, its that i desperately want to and it looks almost like i physically/psychologically cant. it is so interesting, but also very exhausting and sad when it makes creating things and viewing things just that much harder to enjoy and be a part of, yknow

hmm

i wish i could let go of wanting to be everyone... but collecting and appreciating and learning to empathize with those experiences as a result, that seems so valuable... there is a lot to fear too, but i think i would want to see it through the eyes of the people involved to at least learn more about the way those things are caused and perceived. humanity is so weird and tiring yet interesting and life-giving yet cruel and sad yet beautiful and precious

but in the end, in my limited senses, humanity is a big block of ambiguous nothing-y ambivalence of people that i dont know what to do with

anyway

...its getting late, i should eat something...

be well, everyone

lostsilver wrote:

i see... i hope your foods yummy, and i hope you start to feel better soon,, <3

gonna play a board game and then try to doodle some more, so maybe i'll have something to share later ^^

Achromalia wrote:

sleepy....

lostsilver wrote:

i see... i hope your foods yummy, and i hope you start to feel better soon,, <3

gonna play a board game and then try to doodle some more, so maybe i'll have something to share later ^^

mhmm, good luck ^^

sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3

zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3

and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3

ze is confused,,

lostsilver wrote:

sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3

zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3

and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3

ze is confused,,

lostsilver wrote:

sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3

zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3

and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3

ze is confused,,

lostsilver wrote:

lostsilver wrote:

sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3

zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3

and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3

ze is confused,,

Achromalia wrote:

waking up again-- birthday! birthday! happy birthday bandu!! im mostly ok, i had lots of interesting dreams this time, including having the same parts of a dream twice but through the eyes of different people

the motivation and ideas thing is painful, yea :c

lostsilver wrote:

lostsilver wrote:

sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3

zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3

and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3

ze is confused,,

fluffy burrito.... and i love the way bambi was drawn too, i would like to adore it for a while longer
confusion is funny <3

lostsilver wrote:

hii!! and tysm!!! i'm almost done with the lineart to the birthday drawing too!! i also kinda wanna try doing the omori emotion chart but with ex, bandu, dave and bambi,,, i wish i could somewhat remember my dreams...

Achromalia wrote:

lostsilver wrote:

hii!! and tysm!!! i'm almost done with the lineart to the birthday drawing too!! i also kinda wanna try doing the omori emotion chart but with ex, bandu, dave and bambi,,, i wish i could somewhat remember my dreams...

oh yay!! and an emotion chart seems fun, i think :)

dreams...

understandable, i suppose you know the feeling of having seen something you loved or thought was interesting from them but then just... completely feeling robbed of the actual experience of how it looked and sounded, maybe you hear songs you wished you could hold onto and re-create, or maybe you saw ideas for character designs or character relationships that were interesting for you but then just couldnt hold onto them before they vanished

they are still hard to remember for me, most of the time i dont remember them so much as remember that certain plot points might have happened, its super time-sensitive for me and i try to summarize everything i can, but sometimes i dont remember to do that either. i love love love dreams but i dont often know what exactly they are, and i tend to feel like i have quite vivid compelling dreams but once im awake its kind of like they never happened and i forget all the details that i wanted to memorize and record somewhere :c

some of those dreams are so haunting and scary (in a positive way, because i usually like those), where totally mysterious things just kind of happen in such creative and strange ways. sometimes the relationships between people in my dreams are just so interesting, and seeing how i interact with them also feels so real and important, but i just... forget what it looked like or how it happened or what it felt like at each moment

i really wish we all could hold onto those... some dreams feel like they lasted so long, like maybe multiple days or sometimes multiple months, sometimes there are time-skips too... and they all feel like a wonderful escape from living, or if not that then at least they're like... extra lifetimes that exist outside of our real-world environments and contexts, and thats just so wonderful

or at least, it would be, if we knew how to hold onto them...

happy birthday bandu ashbluff and bandu bandello!! <3

dave and bambi: "happy birthday, bandu. <3"
expunged: "happy birthday banban!! <3"
ps!dave and ps!bambi: "happy birthday, buddy. <3"
ps!expunged: "happy birthday, kiddo! <3"

lostsilver wrote:

yeah... :<
i seem to only remember if a dream had someone i knew/loved/idolized in them... like one time, i had a dream about meeting billie joe armstrong, and when i woke up i was so sad because he's my idol and i didn't want the dream to end :(

but anyways...

the birthday drawing is done!!

happy birthday bandu ashbluff and bandu bandello!! <3

dave and bambi: "happy birthday, bandu. <3"
expunged: "happy birthday banban!! <3"
ps!dave and ps!bambi: "happy birthday, buddy. <3"
ps!expunged: "happy birthday, kiddo! <3"

Achromalia wrote:

lostsilver wrote:

yeah... :<
i seem to only remember if a dream had someone i knew/loved/idolized in them... like one time, i had a dream about meeting billie joe armstrong, and when i woke up i was so sad because he's my idol and i didn't want the dream to end :(

but anyways...

the birthday drawing is done!!

happy birthday bandu ashbluff and bandu bandello!! <3

dave and bambi: "happy birthday, bandu. <3"
expunged: "happy birthday banban!! <3"
ps!dave and ps!bambi: "happy birthday, buddy. <3"
ps!expunged: "happy birthday, kiddo! <3"

yeah that makes sense, im sorry those dreams keep ending like that though, that does sound sad :(

i dont have the same thing bc i never really had real-life idols in the same way pop-culture idols exist for people, but i think it might be close... for me, its old childhood friends and teachers i used to know/love, i have dreams of reuniting with them or watching them move on and have happy lives with other friends, or we maybe meet and resolve old thoughts and feelings i dreamed of, and i always miss them a lot when i wake up ;v;

sometimes its more like, old nostalgic places, too... which makes it even more sweet and even more sad

the way i attach to people is so weird for me, its like it doesnt make up its mind? i care so much in my dreams but in real life its hard to think/feel things about them clearly;;

anyway, i love the ambwell designs, specifically mister ambrose...!! confetti in the hair though oh no x'p

hopefully bandu of the ashbluffs will have a wonderful birthday <3

Achromalia wrote:

for dave: were there any times where you would share old photos of the ashbluffs with them and reminisce together?
for bambi: whats something ex and bandu roped you into recently?

qna queue:

expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"

Achromalia wrote:

sgh im falling asleep, but i did eat a couple hours ago ^^;;

Achromalia wrote:

awake again! good luck on the doodles...!

growling makes sense, at least as a general premise of feral behavior, and i think its interesting too ^^

Achromalia wrote:

mm, thats also fair...

for everyone: stay hydrated! hopefully dinner will be a hearty and filling meal :>

Achromalia wrote:

i see...

(getting food now)

lots of thoughts that wont form clearly. lots of sadness that i try to savor from myself, bittersweet feelings and nostalgia for lives and experiences i never had, for people i've never been. i wish my personality was a little more adaptable, and a lot more varied. i wish i could sincerely experience and express things the way others do, and although i do try to appreciate my own experiences and expressions... they dont seem to surface very easily, and theyre usually so hazy and foggy... after all, most of my experience is that of watching other people and loving them through that

it doesnt really make for a good individual life of my own, though...

but i guess i never wanted the one i had anyway

ps!bandu and ps!ex playing with the toy ps!bambi got zem <3

lostsilver wrote:

i see... i hope things get better... you'll get through this, we believe in you <3

also, to (hopefully) make you feel better!!

ps!bandu and ps!ex playing with the toy ps!bambi got zem <3

Achromalia wrote:

lostsilver wrote:

i see... i hope things get better... you'll get through this, we believe in you <3

also, to (hopefully) make you feel better!!

ps!bandu and ps!ex playing with the toy ps!bambi got zem <3

those teeth must be super strong! o-o;;

very precious moments :)

i appreciate the thought/sentiment a lot, thank you, it doesnt exactly change anything but... it usually feels good to cherish more joy and indulgence from other people <3