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hii <3Achromalia wrote:
i understand, youre ok!! welcome back ^^lostsilver wrote:
SORRY WAS AWAY FROM LAPTOP HI IM BACK
ps!dave: "when i helped sem make make pepperoni rolls for the first time. i've always told sem that cooking something semself makes it taste better, and it's true! :>"
ps!bandu: "i like to stay under seir desk so i don't bother sem on accident, so se checks on me while i'm under there alot,, se did actually have to draw my blood a few weeks ago, of which i... was really... really terrified to let sem do... se needed it for testing, as se had wanted to see if ps!kandi's blood was different from mine. (it was to some degree, i think...) but afterward, se sat down next to me as i trembled under seir desk, held me close, and gently pet my head to comfort me... at least i know se doesn't have to do it again, haha..."
and i see...
for everyone: qna queue!
dave: "give me something sweet/cozy about expunged and bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
ps!dave: "give me something silly about cresswell and cornwall."
ps!bambi: "gimme something funny about ambrose and haywood."
ps!expunged: "give me something sweet/funny about ps!bandu. <3"
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly and food related about ps!ex!! <3"
:3!!vi_xlt wrote:
:3
expunged: "also... bandu's birthday is tomorrow!! if any of you want to wish him a happy early birthday, go ahead!! <33"
wishing him a happy birthday ahead of time, on-time, and for all time <3lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "also... bandu's birthday is tomorrow!! if any of you want to wish him a happy early birthday, go ahead!! <33"
bandu: "thank you!! ex's birthday is the 9th, so theirs is three days after mine!"Achromalia wrote:
wishing him a happy birthday ahead of time, on-time, and for all time <3lostsilver wrote:
expunged: "also... bandu's birthday is tomorrow!! if any of you want to wish him a happy early birthday, go ahead!! <33"
looking out for it ^^lostsilver wrote:
bandu: "thank you!! ex's birthday is the 9th, so theirs is three days after mine!"
for ps!dave: with the bambi bunch, what's something that sometimes makes them hard to tell apart?
for ps!bambi: with the dave duo, what was most entertaining to watch between them during your visits?
qna queue:
dave: "give me something sweet/cozy about expunged and bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
ps!expunged: "give me something sweet/funny about ps!bandu. <3"
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly and food related about ps!ex!! <3"
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
ps!expunged: "give me something sweet/funny about ps!bandu. <3"
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly and food related about ps!ex!! <3"
<3Achromalia wrote:
looking out for it ^^lostsilver wrote:
bandu: "thank you!! ex's birthday is the 9th, so theirs is three days after mine!"
for ps!dave: with the bambi bunch, what's something that sometimes makes them hard to tell apart?
for ps!bambi: with the dave duo, what was most entertaining to watch between them during your visits?qna queue:dave: "give me something sweet/cozy about expunged and bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
ps!expunged: "give me something sweet/funny about ps!bandu. <3"
ps!bandu: "gimme something cuddly and food related about ps!ex!! <3"
ps!dave: "hm... their voices. they basically have the same voice. except cresswell's is just a tiny bit deeper than cornwall's."
ps!bambi: "the little handshakes they do. it's absolutely adorable. i kinda think they're brothers from another mother, lol."
for ps!expunged: was there a sentimental moment you shared with ps!bandu that ze would try to lighten with something that made you two laugh?
for ps!bandu: does ps!ex appear more cuddly after eating? do you feel more comfortable or cuddly with sem after eating?
for ps!bandu: does ps!ex appear more cuddly after eating? do you feel more comfortable or cuddly with sem after eating?
qna queue:
dave: "give me something sweet/cozy about expunged and bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
Speed bump ahead!
18 minutes
18 minutes
ps!expunged: "i'm not sure if this counts, but... i remember this one time where i was talking to zem about my mental health, and ze asked if i wanted to vent to zem. i said yes, and vented for a while. afterward, ps!bandu started to try cracking little jokes to help cheer me up, and it ended up working. <3"Achromalia wrote:
for ps!expunged: was there a sentimental moment you shared with ps!bandu that ze would try to lighten with something that made you two laugh?
for ps!bandu: does ps!ex appear more cuddly after eating? do you feel more comfortable or cuddly with sem after eating?qna queue:dave: "give me something sweet/cozy about expunged and bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' silly/fun about ex and bandu."
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
ps!bandu: "yeah! if se eats enough to the point se feels full, se gets a bit sleepy, meaning se gets more cuddly! and it's the same with me! if i eat enough to where i feel full, i get more comfy and cuddly with sem! <3"
gonna play guitar hero with a friend for a bit :3
for everyone: water your plants and water yourself ^^ and maybe try some stretches after a long day?
sorry for the late reply, i'm still playing games with my friends,,Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: water your plants and water yourself ^^ and maybe try some stretches after a long day?
dave: "mhm. :>"
bambi: "we made dinner about an hour ago."
expunged, purring as they stretch: "mmm... stretchies... <3"
bandu: "hehe,, and i've watered the garden + the plants that ps!bandu has!! <3"
ps!dave: "yep!
"ps!bambi: "we've eaten and hydrated. :]"
ps!expunged, stretching: "hh... mmgh-- alright... much better..."
ps!bandu, stretching: "mmm,, hehe,, <3"
there is so much to love that i wish i could actually like... love, and its so sad but so funny because like, there is so much significance found through the people and animals and music and art and stories and videos that i've wanted to feel that love for, and appreciating them makes me want to cry, but not being able to feel like i appreciate them enough also makes me want to cry :')
or more accurately, i am more sad the more i love something, and i am more sad the more i realize im so bad at being able to feel/create/generate/appreciate that love for those things... which i guess could seem very similar to loving it, but idk, it feels and looks very fundamentally different to me, people seem so mysterious when theyre able to do it
idk, its tiring bc everything is kinda hard to feel, everything is hard to be grateful or appreciative about-- its not that i feel i have to, its that i desperately want to and it looks almost like i physically/psychologically cant. it is so interesting, but also very exhausting and sad when it makes creating things and viewing things just that much harder to enjoy and be a part of, yknow
hmm
i wish i could let go of wanting to be everyone... but collecting and appreciating and learning to empathize with those experiences as a result, that seems so valuable... there is a lot to fear too, but i think i would want to see it through the eyes of the people involved to at least learn more about the way those things are caused and perceived. humanity is so weird and tiring yet interesting and life-giving yet cruel and sad yet beautiful and precious
but in the end, in my limited senses, humanity is a big block of ambiguous nothing-y ambivalence of people that i dont know what to do with
anyway
...its getting late, i should eat something...
be well, everyone
or more accurately, i am more sad the more i love something, and i am more sad the more i realize im so bad at being able to feel/create/generate/appreciate that love for those things... which i guess could seem very similar to loving it, but idk, it feels and looks very fundamentally different to me, people seem so mysterious when theyre able to do it
idk, its tiring bc everything is kinda hard to feel, everything is hard to be grateful or appreciative about-- its not that i feel i have to, its that i desperately want to and it looks almost like i physically/psychologically cant. it is so interesting, but also very exhausting and sad when it makes creating things and viewing things just that much harder to enjoy and be a part of, yknow
hmm
i wish i could let go of wanting to be everyone... but collecting and appreciating and learning to empathize with those experiences as a result, that seems so valuable... there is a lot to fear too, but i think i would want to see it through the eyes of the people involved to at least learn more about the way those things are caused and perceived. humanity is so weird and tiring yet interesting and life-giving yet cruel and sad yet beautiful and precious
but in the end, in my limited senses, humanity is a big block of ambiguous nothing-y ambivalence of people that i dont know what to do with
anyway
...its getting late, i should eat something...
be well, everyone
i see... i hope your foods yummy, and i hope you start to feel better soon,, <3Achromalia wrote:
there is so much to love that i wish i could actually like... love, and its so sad but so funny because like, there is so much significance found through the people and animals and music and art and stories and videos that i've wanted to feel that love for, and appreciating them makes me want to cry, but not being able to feel like i appreciate them enough also makes me want to cry :')
or more accurately, i am more sad the more i love something, and i am more sad the more i realize im so bad at being able to feel/create/generate/appreciate that love for those things... which i guess could seem very similar to loving it, but idk, it feels and looks very fundamentally different to me, people seem so mysterious when theyre able to do it
idk, its tiring bc everything is kinda hard to feel, everything is hard to be grateful or appreciative about-- its not that i feel i have to, its that i desperately want to and it looks almost like i physically/psychologically cant. it is so interesting, but also very exhausting and sad when it makes creating things and viewing things just that much harder to enjoy and be a part of, yknow
hmm
i wish i could let go of wanting to be everyone... but collecting and appreciating and learning to empathize with those experiences as a result, that seems so valuable... there is a lot to fear too, but i think i would want to see it through the eyes of the people involved to at least learn more about the way those things are caused and perceived. humanity is so weird and tiring yet interesting and life-giving yet cruel and sad yet beautiful and precious
but in the end, in my limited senses, humanity is a big block of ambiguous nothing-y ambivalence of people that i dont know what to do with
anyway
...its getting late, i should eat something...
be well, everyone
gonna play a board game and then try to doodle some more, so maybe i'll have something to share later ^^
sleepy....
mhmm, good luck ^^lostsilver wrote:
i see... i hope your foods yummy, and i hope you start to feel better soon,, <3
gonna play a board game and then try to doodle some more, so maybe i'll have something to share later ^^
we got done playing about,, 20 minutes ago i think?Achromalia wrote:
sleepy....mhmm, good luck ^^lostsilver wrote:
i see... i hope your foods yummy, and i hope you start to feel better soon,, <3
gonna play a board game and then try to doodle some more, so maybe i'll have something to share later ^^
also!! before i go to sleep, have these two doodles!!
sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3
zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3
and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3
ze is confused,,
good night guys!! will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos wish you a good night too <3
fell asleep... hello samet ^^
i think i;ll just lay here for a while...
imbackasalways
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos all say hi to you too <3
also... TODAY'S BANDU'S BIRHTDAY!! <3 (both bandus actually!! both bandu ashbluff and bandu bandello's birthday's are today!! gonna make a drawing for it <33)
also achro, idk if you saw these last night, so here you go <3
also... TODAY'S BANDU'S BIRHTDAY!! <3 (both bandus actually!! both bandu ashbluff and bandu bandello's birthday's are today!! gonna make a drawing for it <33)
also achro, idk if you saw these last night, so here you go <3
lostsilver wrote:
sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3ze is confused,,
32
doodling, doodling... so many ideas, but so little motivation to do them all...
at least i have the motivation to do the birthday drawing and the other small doodles ^^
bumping this for convenience when achro comes back <3
at least i have the motivation to do the birthday drawing and the other small doodles ^^
bumping this for convenience when achro comes back <3
hope you're alright achro!! if you're asleep, i wish you had a nice cozy rest <3lostsilver wrote:
sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3ze is confused,,
waking up again-- birthday! birthday! happy birthday bandu!! im mostly ok, i had lots of interesting dreams this time, including having the same parts of a dream twice but through the eyes of different people
the motivation and ideas thing is painful, yea :c
confusion is funny <3
the motivation and ideas thing is painful, yea :c
fluffy burrito.... and i love the way bambi was drawn too, i would like to adore it for a while longerlostsilver wrote:
lostsilver wrote:
sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3ze is confused,,
confusion is funny <3
hii!! and tysm!!! i'm almost done with the lineart to the birthday drawing too!! i also kinda wanna try doing the omori emotion chart but with ex, bandu, dave and bambi,,, i wish i could somewhat remember my dreams...Achromalia wrote:
waking up again-- birthday! birthday! happy birthday bandu!! im mostly ok, i had lots of interesting dreams this time, including having the same parts of a dream twice but through the eyes of different people
the motivation and ideas thing is painful, yea :cfluffy burrito.... and i love the way bambi was drawn too, i would like to adore it for a while longerlostsilver wrote:
lostsilver wrote:
sketch of ps!bandu in a blanket burrito <3zeir still very hyper so ps!bambi put zem in a blanket burrito to help zem wind down <3and i drew this earlier today but never posted it so yeah :3ze is confused,,
confusion is funny <3
oh yay!! and an emotion chart seems fun, i think :)lostsilver wrote:
hii!! and tysm!!! i'm almost done with the lineart to the birthday drawing too!! i also kinda wanna try doing the omori emotion chart but with ex, bandu, dave and bambi,,, i wish i could somewhat remember my dreams...
dreams... understandable, i suppose you know the feeling of having seen something you loved or thought was interesting from them but then just... completely feeling robbed of the actual experience of how it looked and sounded, maybe you hear songs you wished you could hold onto and re-create, or maybe you saw ideas for character designs or character relationships that were interesting for you but then just couldnt hold onto them before they vanished
they are still hard to remember for me, most of the time i dont remember them so much as remember that certain plot points might have happened, its super time-sensitive for me and i try to summarize everything i can, but sometimes i dont remember to do that either. i love love love dreams but i dont often know what exactly they are, and i tend to feel like i have quite vivid compelling dreams but once im awake its kind of like they never happened and i forget all the details that i wanted to memorize and record somewhere :c
some of those dreams are so haunting and scary (in a positive way, because i usually like those), where totally mysterious things just kind of happen in such creative and strange ways. sometimes the relationships between people in my dreams are just so interesting, and seeing how i interact with them also feels so real and important, but i just... forget what it looked like or how it happened or what it felt like at each moment
i really wish we all could hold onto those... some dreams feel like they lasted so long, like maybe multiple days or sometimes multiple months, sometimes there are time-skips too... and they all feel like a wonderful escape from living, or if not that then at least they're like... extra lifetimes that exist outside of our real-world environments and contexts, and thats just so wonderful
or at least, it would be, if we knew how to hold onto them...
yeah... :<Achromalia wrote:
oh yay!! and an emotion chart seems fun, i think :)lostsilver wrote:
hii!! and tysm!!! i'm almost done with the lineart to the birthday drawing too!! i also kinda wanna try doing the omori emotion chart but with ex, bandu, dave and bambi,,, i wish i could somewhat remember my dreams...dreams...understandable, i suppose you know the feeling of having seen something you loved or thought was interesting from them but then just... completely feeling robbed of the actual experience of how it looked and sounded, maybe you hear songs you wished you could hold onto and re-create, or maybe you saw ideas for character designs or character relationships that were interesting for you but then just couldnt hold onto them before they vanished
they are still hard to remember for me, most of the time i dont remember them so much as remember that certain plot points might have happened, its super time-sensitive for me and i try to summarize everything i can, but sometimes i dont remember to do that either. i love love love dreams but i dont often know what exactly they are, and i tend to feel like i have quite vivid compelling dreams but once im awake its kind of like they never happened and i forget all the details that i wanted to memorize and record somewhere :c
some of those dreams are so haunting and scary (in a positive way, because i usually like those), where totally mysterious things just kind of happen in such creative and strange ways. sometimes the relationships between people in my dreams are just so interesting, and seeing how i interact with them also feels so real and important, but i just... forget what it looked like or how it happened or what it felt like at each moment
i really wish we all could hold onto those... some dreams feel like they lasted so long, like maybe multiple days or sometimes multiple months, sometimes there are time-skips too... and they all feel like a wonderful escape from living, or if not that then at least they're like... extra lifetimes that exist outside of our real-world environments and contexts, and thats just so wonderful
or at least, it would be, if we knew how to hold onto them...
i seem to only remember if a dream had someone i knew/loved/idolized in them... like one time, i had a dream about meeting billie joe armstrong, and when i woke up i was so sad because he's my idol and i didn't want the dream to end :(
but anyways...
the birthday drawing is done!!
happy birthday bandu ashbluff and bandu bandello!! <3
dave and bambi: "happy birthday, bandu. <3"
expunged: "happy birthday banban!! <3"
ps!dave and ps!bambi: "happy birthday, buddy. <3"
ps!expunged: "happy birthday, kiddo! <3"
expunged: "happy birthday banban!! <3"
ps!dave and ps!bambi: "happy birthday, buddy. <3"
ps!expunged: "happy birthday, kiddo! <3"
yeah that makes sense, im sorry those dreams keep ending like that though, that does sound sad :(lostsilver wrote:
yeah... :<
i seem to only remember if a dream had someone i knew/loved/idolized in them... like one time, i had a dream about meeting billie joe armstrong, and when i woke up i was so sad because he's my idol and i didn't want the dream to end :(
but anyways...
the birthday drawing is done!!happy birthday bandu ashbluff and bandu bandello!! <3dave and bambi: "happy birthday, bandu. <3"
expunged: "happy birthday banban!! <3"
ps!dave and ps!bambi: "happy birthday, buddy. <3"
ps!expunged: "happy birthday, kiddo! <3"
i dont have the same thing bc i never really had real-life idols in the same way pop-culture idols exist for people, but i think it might be close... for me, its old childhood friends and teachers i used to know/love, i have dreams of reuniting with them or watching them move on and have happy lives with other friends, or we maybe meet and resolve old thoughts and feelings i dreamed of, and i always miss them a lot when i wake up ;v;
sometimes its more like, old nostalgic places, too... which makes it even more sweet and even more sad
the way i attach to people is so weird for me, its like it doesnt make up its mind? i care so much in my dreams but in real life its hard to think/feel things about them clearly;;
anyway, i love the ambwell designs, specifically mister ambrose...!! confetti in the hair though oh no x'p
hopefully bandu of the ashbluffs will have a wonderful birthday <3
i see... but tysm!!Achromalia wrote:
yeah that makes sense, im sorry those dreams keep ending like that though, that does sound sad :(lostsilver wrote:
yeah... :<
i seem to only remember if a dream had someone i knew/loved/idolized in them... like one time, i had a dream about meeting billie joe armstrong, and when i woke up i was so sad because he's my idol and i didn't want the dream to end :(
but anyways...
the birthday drawing is done!!happy birthday bandu ashbluff and bandu bandello!! <3dave and bambi: "happy birthday, bandu. <3"
expunged: "happy birthday banban!! <3"
ps!dave and ps!bambi: "happy birthday, buddy. <3"
ps!expunged: "happy birthday, kiddo! <3"
i dont have the same thing bc i never really had real-life idols in the same way pop-culture idols exist for people, but i think it might be close... for me, its old childhood friends and teachers i used to know/love, i have dreams of reuniting with them or watching them move on and have happy lives with other friends, or we maybe meet and resolve old thoughts and feelings i dreamed of, and i always miss them a lot when i wake up ;v;
sometimes its more like, old nostalgic places, too... which makes it even more sweet and even more sad
the way i attach to people is so weird for me, its like it doesnt make up its mind? i care so much in my dreams but in real life its hard to think/feel things about them clearly;;
anyway, i love the ambwell designs, specifically mister ambrose...!! confetti in the hair though oh no x'p
hopefully bandu of the ashbluffs will have a wonderful birthday <3
bandu, excitedly: "hehe,, thank you!! ps!bandu and i will make sure today is awesome for both of us, since we share the same birthday!! (so do dave/ps!dave, bambi/ps!bambi, ex/ps!ex, bendu/ps!bendu and kandi/ps!kandi!!) <3"
ps!bandu, pulling confetti out of zeir hair: "this is gonna be absolutely awful to wash out of my hair lol ;v; but today for sure will be super fun!! <3"
I had a dream that I saw that this thread had no posts for 16 hours. naturally I posted and it somehow got me up to #1 rank with an e appearing in my total points, which is definitely not what would happen since 16 hours is worth 1300 max
for dave: were there any times where you would share old photos of the ashbluffs with them and reminisce together?
for bambi: whats something ex and bandu roped you into recently?
for bambi: whats something ex and bandu roped you into recently?
qna queue:
expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
dave: "mhm! we do it all the time now. i have a photo album to keep all of our cherished memories in. <3"Achromalia wrote:
for dave: were there any times where you would share old photos of the ashbluffs with them and reminisce together?
for bambi: whats something ex and bandu roped you into recently?qna queue:expunged: "give me something cuddly/comfy about mr. haywood!!"
bandu: "gimme something playful/goofy about bambi!! >:3"
bambi: "making a few videos with them. we did a sort of 'cooking show' thing, some sort of hair related video, and then a dance video. if expunged is okay with it, i'll share the dance video. :]"
(im making the video rn!! no background tho bc i legit cant figure it out ;v; this is probably gonna take me a while because of me sucking at anatomy so yeah,, hopefully i can get it out tonight!!)
sgh im falling asleep, but i did eat a couple hours ago ^^;;
im glad you ate!! im just doodling rn hehe <3Achromalia wrote:
sgh im falling asleep, but i did eat a couple hours ago ^^;;
ps!expunged: "also, i don't know if i've mentioned this, but sometimes ps!bandu growls when ze plays. but not like how a dog would, it's more like how a cat would. i just think it's interesting."
awake again! good luck on the doodles...!
growling makes sense, at least as a general premise of feral behavior, and i think its interesting too ^^
growling makes sense, at least as a general premise of feral behavior, and i think its interesting too ^^
ps!expunged: "hello, and welcome back! and yeah. sometimes ze does it as a warning/to say that zeir mad/annoyed/irritated, too. but that only happens if the bambi minions and/or ps!david annoy zem. lostie will draw that + the other doodles too. ^^"Achromalia wrote:
awake again! good luck on the doodles...!
growling makes sense, at least as a general premise of feral behavior, and i think its interesting too ^^
mm, thats also fair...
for everyone: stay hydrated! hopefully dinner will be a hearty and filling meal :>
for everyone: stay hydrated! hopefully dinner will be a hearty and filling meal :>
pwetty,,Achromalia wrote:
mm, thats also fair...
for everyone: stay hydrated! hopefully dinner will be a hearty and filling meal :>
dave: "we're having steak tonight!"
bambi: "we've all hydrated, too. :]"
expunged: "yippee!!"
bandu: "ee :3"
ps!dave: "we're also having steak, hehe."
ps!bambi: "we've all hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "mhm. i've actually watched zem snap at one of the bambi minions. ze was in alot of pain and was trying to lay down, and the bambi minion kept poking at zem to see what ze would do. then ze snapped at them and they backed off. after a while ze did apologize, but the bambi minion understood why ze snapped at them."
ps!bandu: "yeah,, sometimes i get too overwhelmed and bark/almost bite to get the bambi minions to go away ;v;"
i see...
(getting food now)
lots of thoughts that wont form clearly. lots of sadness that i try to savor from myself, bittersweet feelings and nostalgia for lives and experiences i never had, for people i've never been. i wish my personality was a little more adaptable, and a lot more varied. i wish i could sincerely experience and express things the way others do, and although i do try to appreciate my own experiences and expressions... they dont seem to surface very easily, and theyre usually so hazy and foggy... after all, most of my experience is that of watching other people and loving them through that
it doesnt really make for a good individual life of my own, though...
but i guess i never wanted the one i had anyway
(getting food now)
lots of thoughts that wont form clearly. lots of sadness that i try to savor from myself, bittersweet feelings and nostalgia for lives and experiences i never had, for people i've never been. i wish my personality was a little more adaptable, and a lot more varied. i wish i could sincerely experience and express things the way others do, and although i do try to appreciate my own experiences and expressions... they dont seem to surface very easily, and theyre usually so hazy and foggy... after all, most of my experience is that of watching other people and loving them through that
it doesnt really make for a good individual life of my own, though...
but i guess i never wanted the one i had anyway
i see... i hope things get better... you'll get through this, we believe in you <3Achromalia wrote:
i see...
(getting food now)
lots of thoughts that wont form clearly. lots of sadness that i try to savor from myself, bittersweet feelings and nostalgia for lives and experiences i never had, for people i've never been. i wish my personality was a little more adaptable, and a lot more varied. i wish i could sincerely experience and express things the way others do, and although i do try to appreciate my own experiences and expressions... they dont seem to surface very easily, and theyre usually so hazy and foggy... after all, most of my experience is that of watching other people and loving them through that
it doesnt really make for a good individual life of my own, though...
but i guess i never wanted the one i had anyway
also, to (hopefully) make you feel better!!
those teeth must be super strong! o-o;;lostsilver wrote:
i see... i hope things get better... you'll get through this, we believe in you <3
also, to (hopefully) make you feel better!!
very precious moments :)
i appreciate the thought/sentiment a lot, thank you, it doesnt exactly change anything but... it usually feels good to cherish more joy and indulgence from other people <3
<3!! ze does have very strong teeth yeah,,Achromalia wrote:
those teeth must be super strong! o-o;;lostsilver wrote:
i see... i hope things get better... you'll get through this, we believe in you <3
also, to (hopefully) make you feel better!!
very precious moments :)
i appreciate the thought/sentiment a lot, thank you, it doesnt exactly change anything but... it usually feels good to cherish more joy and indulgence from other people <3
also good night everyone!! will see you tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos wish you well too <3