Hello there •u•
Uh... It's been 2 months since I started to play osu!. I was using a mouse back then. And I must say, it was hard for me to control the cursor. I often get it with a long distance from the hit circle and I cannot even spin spinners properly. Then I noticed osu! was in 5-10 fps. So I had to make it run on 800x600, good thing now it has its fps at around 10-20 in the title screen and song selection and 25-40 in the gameplay.
I used to play easy and normal maps, I can rarely do hard ones and I cannot play insane ones with out NF on. A month before, I kind of lost my motivation to play, and I was like: "I'm never gonna improve at this crap.". But then this Jan. 4, my birthday, I got my pen tablet. I was so happy. I can now finish Hard diff.s often and about the insane ones: I still can't finish most of them without NF, but I've already done some of 'em with out NF. I found myself improving. I... I kept on watching professional osu! play on YouTube and in the game, which kinda made me down, I think I'm back in the position of me a month ago, add the fact that I'm not even at the 100,000-(edit)up rank. I tried to play maps to increase my pp, but I wasn't feeling right. I mean... There's a feeling inside me that says that everything that I do in the game won't even do anything better. I think having a supporter will at least inspire or motivate me to do better at this game. Plus, I'm curious about what they (supporters) could do. I think I'm not even gonna be chosen here, but I think it's worth a try.
Sorry and thank you for taking your time in reading this.