headache headache headache headache headache
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edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
dave: "we've taken our meds!"
bambi: "we've all exercised too."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds and exercised!"
ps!bambi: "yup."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa,,"
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mhm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaaa <3"
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
hopefully i can draw something tomorrow lol ;v;
maybe da best nirvana remix out there
i'll be here when you're ready to do the qna :
trying to doodle, but not really getting anywhere yet...
edit 4: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ahswood-cornbluffs and the mabwell-bandellos say good night too <3
hopefully i can draw something tomorrow lol ;v;
my son... (i got to the bnunny room)
>>
>>>
"wrong" as in like if having that attitude only serves to exhaust you not if someone "deserves" it
idk looking at your posts for the past while seems like a bunch of shit's been going on. maybe you're burned out or smthg
+ how curious, the description feels gently nostalgic somehow
in most cases its the conflict in perspective/personality that exhausts me, im bad at differences and try to assimilate myself sometimes unless its a mutually acknowledged thing. im very much influenced by externalities and absorb a surface-level imprint of what people seem to feel, and i often fear being entangled in it to the detriment of either party
or maybe im describing something different from what the original quote was about... i cant keep track of it when im vague and lost as i usually am
anyway
im normally very low-energy even if i type contrary to that-- still, some of those times would consist of me genuinely being in a spike of excitement. a lot of people-ing and perspective-ing and mediating will drain me unless it's a very very specific kind of person or topic of interest, and most places will be hard for me to want to be in. these recent events are very very people-oriented and suffocating, and my presence is inextricable from them and their contexts. i guess in hindsight that im not horrible at them, and the spongy mirror-y nature of certain things helps me be very sincerely sweet/warm (it is not something i fake, or at least i dont think im being fake) until it stops being immediately related
burnout is right, i would guess, but im a little too lazy to chase the extent of its truth
as a result im mostly in an inconsistent space of habit, coming and going, present and absent, mostly passive and distracted by wherever attention brings me rather than making anything happen on my own
like emptied order for emptying chaos maybe, or not
im not sure if i imbued this with some kind of pretense... im kind of tired of doubting myself but i also really do not like the thought that i may be lying or misrepresenting things when presumably my whole thing is sincerity/clarity/accuracy in some form
ps!bambi: "it's pretty fun. :]"
oh yes, thats me, émile u. williams
...
...
...
oh
thats unfortunate
bambi: "we've all hydrated too."
expunged: "make sure you hydrate aswell! :>"
bandu: "yeah!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "we've hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "make sure you hydrate too. :]"
ps!bandu: "mhm! <3"
bambi: "we've all hydrated too."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we had pasta tonight. :]"
ps!bambi: "we've hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa,, <3"
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ahswood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
the chorus of this won't leave my head
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concept: eyefestation blahaj
asphyxia
doodling... hopefully i'll have something to share soon :>
shoot i should really start drawing againnnn :<
but
other things
idk, in pain and tired
but
other things
idk, in pain and tired
take your time!! make sure you get the sleep you need <3Achromalia wrote:
shoot i should really start drawing againnnn :<
but
other things
idk, in pain and tired
here are the two things i've drawn today :>
sleepy ashbluffs (origin form ver)
sleepy ashbluffs (normal form ver)
sleepy ashbluffs (normal form ver)
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
<33 rhraghh so cozily adorable, i love both, the second especiallylostsilver wrote:
take your time!! make sure you get the sleep you need <3Achromalia wrote:
shoot i should really start drawing againnnn :<here are the two things i've drawn today :>sleepy ashbluffs (origin form ver)
sleepy ashbluffs (normal form ver)
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
oops
there, there
no alarms and no suprises pls
Yea
yeeeeeeeeeeeeee
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
gonna try to draw more today, so hopefully i'll have some stuff to share :
gonna try to draw more today, so hopefully i'll have some stuff to share :
<3Achromalia wrote:
<33 rhraghh so cozily adorable, i love both, the second especiallylostsilver wrote:
take your time!! make sure you get the sleep you need <3Achromalia wrote:
shoot i should really start drawing againnnn :<here are the two things i've drawn today :>sleepy ashbluffs (origin form ver)
sleepy ashbluffs (normal form ver)
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
i have 8 cans of red bull
lots of sleep, knots lie deep (nearly literal, feeling like piles of dense rocks
for everyone: any medicine to take? lil bits of exercise if you can :>
for everyone: any medicine to take? lil bits of exercise if you can :>
(playing games with a friend right now so replies may be delayed--)Achromalia wrote:
lots of sleep, knots lie deep (nearly literal, feeling like piles of dense rocks
for everyone: any medicine to take? lil bits of exercise if you can :>
dave: "we've taken our meds!"
bambi: "we've all exercised too."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds and exercised!"
ps!bambi: "yup."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa,,"
i have 10 cans of red bull
for everyone: be nourished, hydrate well, dream sweet
dave: "we've all eaten and hydrated!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: be nourished, hydrate well, dream sweet
bambi: "make sure you do the same."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we've eaten + hydrated!"
ps!bambi: "make sure you eat + hydrate too."
ps!expunged: "mhm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaaa <3"
chaos chaos chaos
continuing to slink through malaise
god i want a taco bell quesadilla so bad rn but it's basically like 11. in pm
woke up from a nap, these were still here untouched by me so i should try more soonlostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."Achromalia wrote:
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: qna queueeeee...!!
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/cute about ex."
expunged: "give me something cozy/sleepy about mr. cornwall <3"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
ps!dave: "give me something silly/cute about cresswell."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute/goofy about ambrose."
ps!expunged: "give me something sleepy/cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cute/cozy about ps!ex <3"
welcome back!! take your time, i'll be here <3Achromalia wrote:
woke up from a nap, these were still here untouched by me so i should try more soonlostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."Achromalia wrote:
for the ashwood-cornbluffs and ambwell-bandellos: qna queueeeee...!!
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/cute about ex."
expunged: "give me something cozy/sleepy about mr. cornwall <3"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
ps!dave: "give me something silly/cute about cresswell."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute/goofy about ambrose."
ps!expunged: "give me something sleepy/cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cute/cozy about ps!ex <3"
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too!! <3
hopefully i can draw something tomorrow lol ;v;
weird errors appear to have granted me free pizza as well. yippee
oh shit votv update
oh shit votv update
whacking a segment of this stupid brain with a newspaper i swear to god
*thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack* *thwack*
maybe da best nirvana remix out there
a dry half-crushed leaf beside the road, sailing the wind into the bank of a coursing river, where im taken through a world that feels so beyond me
people and things beyond me, selves beyond me within realities beyond me-- those which i occupy, and those which escape me
a gentle empty daze
people and things beyond me, selves beyond me within realities beyond me-- those which i occupy, and those which escape me
a gentle empty daze
need water but im lazy and tired and just want to dream
Somehow more than 160 minutes without a claim, so I'm just here. Alright, goodbye.
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
hopefully i can draw something today :')
hopefully i can draw something today :')
hehe
who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
doodling...
guh
juneberry red bull is actually pretty good. it's like blue and berry but not blueberry
doodling while i wait for achro...
mostly giving up on being anywhere or doing anything
but habits will drag me where they will
im growing "colder/drier" in personality when i really really would rather not be like that
not that im necessarily fundamentally changing, im just not as able/willing/inclined to consistently be a "warm" person, or... something, im not sure i mean what i think i mean, nor think what i mean to think or what i suggest im thinking. what i think i mean is that i expect id be wrong about a lot of things i say or describe about myself or my opinions/impressions
this is exhausting
easier not to do anything but hard to stop not-doing things about what im--
...i just needed thirty more seconds
whatever
but habits will drag me where they will
im growing "colder/drier" in personality when i really really would rather not be like that
not that im necessarily fundamentally changing, im just not as able/willing/inclined to consistently be a "warm" person, or... something, im not sure i mean what i think i mean, nor think what i mean to think or what i suggest im thinking. what i think i mean is that i expect id be wrong about a lot of things i say or describe about myself or my opinions/impressions
this is exhausting
easier not to do anything but hard to stop not-doing things about what im--
...i just needed thirty more seconds
whatever
i see... it's okay, take all the time you need to! you'll get through this <3Achromalia wrote:
mostly giving up on being anywhere or doing anything
but habits will drag me where they will
im growing "colder/drier" in personality when i really really would rather not be like that
not that im necessarily fundamentally changing, im just not as able/willing/inclined to consistently be a "warm" person, or... something, im not sure i mean what i think i mean, nor think what i mean to think or what i suggest im thinking. what i think i mean is that i expect id be wrong about a lot of things i say or describe about myself or my opinions/impressions
this is exhausting
easier not to do anything but hard to stop not-doing things about what im--
...i just needed thirty more seconds
whatever
i'll be here when you're ready to do the qna :
trying to doodle, but not really getting anywhere yet...
edit 4: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ahswood-cornbluffs and the mabwell-bandellos say good night too <3
hopefully i can draw something tomorrow lol ;v;
Hehe
i forgot
i dont know what i want to do here, this is just a compulsion really
i dont know what i want to do here, this is just a compulsion really
my son... (i got to the bnunny room)
>>
shit's like drinking a melted blue raspberry flavoured snowcone or like the syrup they use to flavour it. but the flavouring is significantly more bluesynthwavesquid wrote:
juneberry red bull is actually pretty good. it's like blue and berry but not blueberry
>>>
it's fair though depending on your surroundings. trying to be warm sucks ass when it's meant for the "wrong" kinds of peopleAchromalia wrote:
mostly giving up on being anywhere or doing anything
but habits will drag me where they will
im growing "colder/drier" in personality when i really really would rather not be like that
not that im necessarily fundamentally changing, im just not as able/willing/inclined to consistently be a "warm" person, or... something, im not sure i mean what i think i mean, nor think what i mean to think or what i suggest im thinking. what i think i mean is that i expect id be wrong about a lot of things i say or describe about myself or my opinions/impressions
this is exhausting
easier not to do anything but hard to stop not-doing things about what im--
...i just needed thirty more seconds
whatever
"wrong" as in like if having that attitude only serves to exhaust you not if someone "deserves" it
idk looking at your posts for the past while seems like a bunch of shit's been going on. maybe you're burned out or smthg
+ i love sonsynthwavesquid wrote:
>>shit's like drinking a melted blue raspberry flavoured snowcone or like the syrup they use to flavour it. but the flavouring is significantly more bluesynthwavesquid wrote:
juneberry red bull is actually pretty good. it's like blue and berry but not blueberry
+ how curious, the description feels gently nostalgic somehow
mm. ill-fitting and exhausting may be right, i dont think i would consciously believe its about people being "deserving/undeserving" and if i use criteria like that it may be more about fear/hesitation or personal cost, or i would avoid some if its about how [in]effectively i could "meet them where they are" in an interactionsynthwavesquid wrote:
it's fair though depending on your surroundings. trying to be warm sucks ass when it's meant for the "wrong" kinds of peopleAchromalia wrote:
mostly giving up on being anywhere or doing anythingbut habits will drag me where they will
im growing "colder/drier" in personality when i really really would rather not be like that
not that im necessarily fundamentally changing, im just not as able/willing/inclined to consistently be a "warm" person, or... something, im not sure i [mean what i think i mean], nor [think what i mean to think] or [what i suggest im thinking]. what i think i mean is that i expect id be wrong about a lot of things i say or describe about myself or my opinions/impressions
this is exhausting
easier not to do anything but hard to stop not-doing things about what im--
...i just needed thirty more seconds
whatever
"wrong" as in like if having that attitude only serves to exhaust you not if someone "deserves" it
idk looking at your posts for the past while seems like a bunch of shit's been going on. maybe you're burned out or smthg
in most cases its the conflict in perspective/personality that exhausts me, im bad at differences and try to assimilate myself sometimes unless its a mutually acknowledged thing. im very much influenced by externalities and absorb a surface-level imprint of what people seem to feel, and i often fear being entangled in it to the detriment of either party
or maybe im describing something different from what the original quote was about... i cant keep track of it when im vague and lost as i usually am
anyway
im normally very low-energy even if i type contrary to that-- still, some of those times would consist of me genuinely being in a spike of excitement. a lot of people-ing and perspective-ing and mediating will drain me unless it's a very very specific kind of person or topic of interest, and most places will be hard for me to want to be in. these recent events are very very people-oriented and suffocating, and my presence is inextricable from them and their contexts. i guess in hindsight that im not horrible at them, and the spongy mirror-y nature of certain things helps me be very sincerely sweet/warm (it is not something i fake, or at least i dont think im being fake) until it stops being immediately related
burnout is right, i would guess, but im a little too lazy to chase the extent of its truth
as a result im mostly in an inconsistent space of habit, coming and going, present and absent, mostly passive and distracted by wherever attention brings me rather than making anything happen on my own
like emptied order for emptying chaos maybe, or not
im not sure if i imbued this with some kind of pretense... im kind of tired of doubting myself but i also really do not like the thought that i may be lying or misrepresenting things when presumably my whole thing is sincerity/clarity/accuracy in some form
im
who am i exactly
who am i exactly
Boom! One hour yeHh
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
hopefully i can draw some stuff today X')
hopefully i can draw some stuff today X')
wajking uo
doodling...
welcome back achro!!
welcome back achro!!
for the ambwells: do you remember trading turns with each other for different little activities with the kids? what were those activities, if so?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/cute about ex."
expunged: "give me something cozy/sleepy about mr. cornwall <3"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
ps!dave: "give me something silly/cute about cresswell."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute/goofy about ambrose."
ps!expunged: "give me something sleepy/cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cute/cozy about ps!ex <3"
ps!dave: "yeah. there was this one time where he gave me the turn of gardening with ps!bandu, so i gave him the turn of helping ps!ex in seir lab."Achromalia wrote:
for the ambwells: do you remember trading turns with each other for different little activities with the kids? what were those activities, if so?lostsilver wrote:
dave: "give me something goofy/cute about bandu."
bambi: "gimme somethin' cuddly/cute about ex."
expunged: "give me something cozy/sleepy about mr. cornwall <3"
bandu: "gimme something silly/cute about dave!!"
ps!dave: "give me something silly/cute about cresswell."
ps!bambi: "gimme somethin' cute/goofy about ambrose."
ps!expunged: "give me something sleepy/cuddly about ps!bandu."
ps!bandu: "gimme something cute/cozy about ps!ex <3"
ps!bambi: "it's pretty fun. :]"
lesgoo im in the top 3
send help, I won reffty's contest
taco bell quesadilla my
>>
>>
the one william dollar questionAchromalia wrote:
im
who am i exactly
synthwavesquid wrote:
the one william dollar questionAchromalia wrote:
im
who am i exactly
...
...
...
oh
thats unfortunate
who am i?
ah. fuck.
ah. fuck.
for everyone: medication check!! and some water too :>
you may already be past friday tho
what if youre,, a "flat-tv fuck",,,,synthwavesquid wrote:
who am i?
a. fuck.
you may already be past friday tho
dave: "we've taken our meds!"Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: medication check!! and some water too :>
bambi: "we've all hydrated too."
expunged: "make sure you hydrate aswell! :>"
bandu: "yeah!!"
ps!dave: "we've all taken our meds!"
ps!bambi: "we've hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "make sure you hydrate too. :]"
ps!bandu: "mhm! <3"
in want of something here if it went somewhere, were it not for what we were
playing games with a friend, so replies may be delayed
for everyone: aaand, dinnertime? what did you make tonight? <3
i've flipped some kind of "want taco bell" switch in my head. this may be the third day in recent i get it. hopefully by then i'll be satisfied
>>
or uh. beside me. attached to- nevermind
it was still friday for me when you posted that so it counts. happy belated flat-tv fuck friday
>>
new character dynamic just dropped
like a newborn kitten sticking their arm straight into a cup of boiling tea to see what it is. except the tea is like the equivalent to an eldritch horror for them
>>
what if the flat-tv fuck was within me all alongAchromalia wrote:
for everyone: medication check!! and some water too :>what if youre,, a "flat-tv fuck",,,,synthwavesquid wrote:
who am i?
a. fuck.
you may already be past friday tho
or uh. beside me. attached to- nevermind
it was still friday for me when you posted that so it counts. happy belated flat-tv fuck friday
>>
new character dynamic just dropped
like a newborn kitten sticking their arm straight into a cup of boiling tea to see what it is. except the tea is like the equivalent to an eldritch horror for them
dave: "we had tacos tonight. :Achromalia wrote:
for everyone: aaand, dinnertime? what did you make tonight? <3
bambi: "we've all hydrated too."
expunged: "aaa,,"
bandu: "aaa!!"
ps!dave: "we had pasta tonight. :]"
ps!bambi: "we've hydrated aswell."
ps!expunged: "mm."
ps!bandu: "awawaaaa,, <3"
edit: gonna sleep now,, will see you all tomorrow!! the ahswood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say good night too <3
why is it so impossible to draw Anything
or something like that
or something like that
oh to yearn for a life barely lived
yuh
by viewers like you
the chorus of this won't leave my head
rice.
chicken, stock,
b U T T E R .
parme--,
--szhaun,
onion.
olive, oil, white, wine,
garrrrrrrr-LLLIIIHHCCCKGH.
...
p a r s l e y .
chicken, stock,
b U T T E R .
parme--,
--szhaun,
onion.
olive, oil, white, wine,
garrrrrrrr-LLLIIIHHCCCKGH.
...
p a r s l e y .
call me harry dubois the way i rarely fully know what's going on at any time and am guided by disjointed thought processes in my head
Velleity, and Thirsting From Still Waters
good morning everyone!! the ashwood-cornbluffs and the ambwell-bandellos say hi too <3
gonna try to draw today, so hopefully i'll have some stuff to share!!
gonna try to draw today, so hopefully i'll have some stuff to share!!
good morning
i rlly want to listen to "in utero", but i dont have time
doodling...
caloriemaxxing my taco bell order because i let myself close my eyes and relax while i was mildly tired and therefore have barely eaten today