i appreciate that :)
...some part of me really would, maybe
in reality im not doing anything with people i dont know deeply but the escapist idealist bits leave me daydreaming and romanticizing (for lack of a better term) any interactive connective experience
but people are scary, and im kind of a scattered collection of shallow waters for there to be that much substance... or maybe im lying to myself to keep from disappointing myself about who i am
in my imagination, there would be 0.63% chances on the cannabis probably, idle inhibition and sensitivity to "weird" "new" experiences really :p
...i claim to distrust, and claim to fear various kinds of people, but im always far too much of an open book, it seems. it seems i suspect im not quite as alien as i imagine or describe myself to be, but im a bit blind to how/why/when/if thats true or untrue when my experiential continuity of phanera are exclusive to my mind