^ Singing. I LOVE singing. But I can't do it. I've never been able to learn, or even sing much at all (except maybe for a tiny bit of time when alone in the house) because my family hates the idea of me singing. But it's my only true passion. I'd love to learn it when I'm older and living alone so I can manage what I do. I'd love to learn classical singing. I think I'm naturally gifted when it comes to higher notes, as well as my extreme enthusiasm and motivation. It kills me that I can't sing more than maybe 30 minutes a month. I just can't do lower notes or sing correctly. There's a difference between singing correctly and singing. I've gotten annoyed recently though, and started to learn singing stuff from free online tutorials. But I can barely practise because I'm self conscious as Hell. I used to sing all the time as a kid, and all that happened was my mum knocking down every single bit of my self confidence. Probably for the best.
< I basically returned because my mind's going down to Hell. All the mainstream Gods ain't enough for me. I need the Gods of Osu!. Today, I've completely lost someone I really trusted, and during a long, depressive episode, too. Everything's ultra stressful and the help I've been getting seems to all be escaping just as things are actually getting hard. And I have my mum stressed af, which I feel guilty for. I do have new opportunities for help, but I'm too scared to accept them. Just shoot me.
> I hate that I'm enjoying Jojo villain theme songs.
v Likes Japanese music.
< I basically returned because my mind's going down to Hell. All the mainstream Gods ain't enough for me. I need the Gods of Osu!. Today, I've completely lost someone I really trusted, and during a long, depressive episode, too. Everything's ultra stressful and the help I've been getting seems to all be escaping just as things are actually getting hard. And I have my mum stressed af, which I feel guilty for. I do have new opportunities for help, but I'm too scared to accept them. Just shoot me.
> I hate that I'm enjoying Jojo villain theme songs.
v Likes Japanese music.