Hi Razor, I think we have all felt this way in one form or another. I think it comes down to what you expect of yourself and what gratifies you. If you expect a top play every time you get on you'll find yourself always looking at your top plays as a way to confirm your "improvement".
I think a solution to this is to think about why you play, it always helped me. I played for rank at first, but soon realized that rank is meaningless if you do not have fun and seek to improve other aspects like streams, calming nerves, and focusing on consist aim (aka not changing tablet areas every 3 days).
Also, its bad to compare to others as people have different situations and passions in life. Someone once said to me, "comparison is the thief of joy". Now nearly 3 years later I know the meaning to that statement. It is good to compare yourself to your past self as you know your strengths and weaknesses best.
For technical advice I can say what helped me the most.
1. Find a tablet area or Dpi that is comfortable and keep it for a long time period of time before changing it again (if ever). The reason I changed was because i thought jumps were hard, but later on I found that although I can aim fast I would often over aim single notes and streams. I changed my tablet area to something bigger to compensate for this. When you finally find that "perfect area/dpi stick with it to build your muscle memory.
2. Download many types of beat maps. I have 4000 and still manage to play the same few over and over again. Playing many beat maps helps to get exposed to different patterns and mapping styles.
3. Try to find out which style works best for you single tapping or alternating. This one is purely opinion, but I find myself wanting to single tap as an alternator for better accuracy. However, in the end I think that alternating is more comfortable. So pick a play style and stick with it so you can build up muscle memory and confidence with your tapping.
I think a solution to this is to think about why you play, it always helped me. I played for rank at first, but soon realized that rank is meaningless if you do not have fun and seek to improve other aspects like streams, calming nerves, and focusing on consist aim (aka not changing tablet areas every 3 days).
Also, its bad to compare to others as people have different situations and passions in life. Someone once said to me, "comparison is the thief of joy". Now nearly 3 years later I know the meaning to that statement. It is good to compare yourself to your past self as you know your strengths and weaknesses best.
For technical advice I can say what helped me the most.
1. Find a tablet area or Dpi that is comfortable and keep it for a long time period of time before changing it again (if ever). The reason I changed was because i thought jumps were hard, but later on I found that although I can aim fast I would often over aim single notes and streams. I changed my tablet area to something bigger to compensate for this. When you finally find that "perfect area/dpi stick with it to build your muscle memory.
2. Download many types of beat maps. I have 4000 and still manage to play the same few over and over again. Playing many beat maps helps to get exposed to different patterns and mapping styles.
3. Try to find out which style works best for you single tapping or alternating. This one is purely opinion, but I find myself wanting to single tap as an alternator for better accuracy. However, in the end I think that alternating is more comfortable. So pick a play style and stick with it so you can build up muscle memory and confidence with your tapping.