Recently I started to pay more attention to studying (unfortunately too late because nearly all the time when I was supposed to studying I was playing videogames and now I can't correct most of my grades). I also restrained playing video games.
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Last night the phase I (multiple choice section) result was out. I passed.
I can’t even explain how I feel… Phase II (short essay section) is incoming in just two weeks, and I still have barely prepared. It’s most likely to be a mixture of joy, relief, and escalated anxiety…
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I've been dealing with bad headaches and an irritating cough for weeks and decided enough was enough.
I changed lots of things in my life in an attempt to combat these, such as sleeping more, drinking more water and less sugary drinks, eating healthier and going outside more. it also helps me feel more positive overall so I'd say it's working out great so far!
I changed lots of things in my life in an attempt to combat these, such as sleeping more, drinking more water and less sugary drinks, eating healthier and going outside more. it also helps me feel more positive overall so I'd say it's working out great so far!
Probably nothing
Is purposely fail this school year AGAIN considered a good thing?
Is purposely fail this school year AGAIN considered a good thing?
decided to actually look to more experienced producers for feedback on the things I need work on, and now I'm integrating with a community of various types of artists and producers. im taking music production more seriously at the moment.
Since my health isn't really all that great, I've also started to do exercise occasionally. My lung capacity is still shit, my heart can't handle very much, and my upper body and core strength are all weak as shit, soft as noodles.
Might as well fuck myself up short-term to strengthen myself in the long run.
Seriously, I've been getting aches and pains in certain joints because i don't eat well and is also partially due to sleep deprivation, and since i don't drink milk or consume much dairy, my bones are fucking twigs.
Oof.
Maybe I can get myself in shape and perhaps gain some weight finally. I'm still barely in the triple digits, like 103 lbs or something. Ugh. I really need to start caring for myself more or I might actually have a high probabilitly of having osteoporosis in the future.
Might as well fuck myself up short-term to strengthen myself in the long run.
Seriously, I've been getting aches and pains in certain joints because i don't eat well and is also partially due to sleep deprivation, and since i don't drink milk or consume much dairy, my bones are fucking twigs.
Oof.
Maybe I can get myself in shape and perhaps gain some weight finally. I'm still barely in the triple digits, like 103 lbs or something. Ugh. I really need to start caring for myself more or I might actually have a high probabilitly of having osteoporosis in the future.
[MTF] Wolfette
i've been taking a look at BMI to see how i can get my licensing and copyrights done once i release my music.
nothing really
Updated my closet
I've been eating a bit more so i can try to gain some weight.
I'm currently far too underweight at 94 pounds, 5'6". My body mass index is 15.2, which is pretty much on the severe end.
I also plan to get up and move around a bit more, maybe exercise a little more.
I never intended to be this underweight, and I never really cared about weight in general, I just thought I had a rather slender body frame.
Basically, I'll be making some gradual changes in hopes of being at least a few pounds closer to a healthy weight by the next 6 weeks.
I'm currently far too underweight at 94 pounds, 5'6". My body mass index is 15.2, which is pretty much on the severe end.
I also plan to get up and move around a bit more, maybe exercise a little more.
I never intended to be this underweight, and I never really cared about weight in general, I just thought I had a rather slender body frame.
Basically, I'll be making some gradual changes in hopes of being at least a few pounds closer to a healthy weight by the next 6 weeks.
I've been trying to be more organized in school and at home, trying my best to organize my binders for every class and put everything in the sections they belong in. I'm doing pretty well so far, so hooray me
trying to break my fingers by playing high bpm maps on osu
i have no life
end me now
i have no life
end me now
I have been attempting to memorize the formulas of the musical scales.
I've already achieved it with six of them. It is really useful, I don't know why I didn't do it before.
I've already achieved it with six of them. It is really useful, I don't know why I didn't do it before.
Sorting some problems around home.
A bit motivated to stay alive for my own things to do before they get me down.
A bit motivated to stay alive for my own things to do before they get me down.
I finally gained some weight.
I weigh about 98 pounds, 5'6".
4 pounds in 2 months. A bit slow, but we're getting there.
I'm working to hopefully reach 100 lbs by the end of the year.
I still need to build up both fat and muscle, and trying to keep myself running without too many issues for a decent amount of time with my jogging unit in PE, in hopes of improving cardiovascular endurance to counter and lower my chances of heart complications later on in life. I'm not doing too well, but I'll keep going at it for however long I can.
I weigh about 98 pounds, 5'6".
4 pounds in 2 months. A bit slow, but we're getting there.
I'm working to hopefully reach 100 lbs by the end of the year.
I still need to build up both fat and muscle, and trying to keep myself running without too many issues for a decent amount of time with my jogging unit in PE, in hopes of improving cardiovascular endurance to counter and lower my chances of heart complications later on in life. I'm not doing too well, but I'll keep going at it for however long I can.
I stopped smoking, and picked up a new habit in the form of vaping, which while not perfectly healthy, is supposedly 95% healthier, especially for people quitting smoking. Quite a controversy, that, but I believe what i've read and what i've seen, not to mention I feel just overall better than I have a few weeks prior when I was still smoking cigs.
I started losing weight and started actually getting on top of my problem with spending money and staying motivated. Losing weight has been going well but for some reason, Saving money for me is quite hard. If I see something nice or a sale, my impulse is to buy it haha. Good luck to everyone else with what they're doing!
I just started to become friends with a lot of people so that's good
How do I get out of bed? I always spend at least 10 hours on my bed a day
Exercise and osu! are my coping mechanisms for stress which I started at exactly February 1 of this year. So far the stress I've been experiencing (mostly from education) has been lessened so I guess its a good thing.
kxium_old
i'm only 16 right now so i'm still in school, anyway for me,
i have been getting low grades like 89 below in major subjects especially math. the reason was because i haven't been able to listen to lessons because of my friends, i've became a lot talkative and lost focus in school. i prioritized osu! and social life.
- i distant my self with them, i started with not eating lunch with them and soon requested my sensei to change my seats so i'll be in front. it was successful and got myself higher grades since i became a highschooler.
before i distant myself with my friends, i started to think what will happen to my future.
i plan to become a chem engineer, but with my current grades i knew it won't cut it. i guess this also helped my mind to decide whether i should still have fun at the mean time or just focus on my future.
there have been highs and lows in my life, 2 of my closest friends ended their lives early. they were the ones who praised my arts ever since the beginning, and my girlfriend cheated on me.
it has been 4 months after all of these and i think i'm enjoying this life a bit more than what i expected it to be. i thought it will be really boring without my friends in school. well they sometimes look and laugh at me, when i'm alone and going straight to the library. discord has really been my friend, i've been chatting with other people i met in osu in my server. hope this can help you in some way, i just want to get this out of my chest.
i have been getting low grades like 89 below in major subjects especially math. the reason was because i haven't been able to listen to lessons because of my friends, i've became a lot talkative and lost focus in school. i prioritized osu! and social life.
- i distant my self with them, i started with not eating lunch with them and soon requested my sensei to change my seats so i'll be in front. it was successful and got myself higher grades since i became a highschooler.
before i distant myself with my friends, i started to think what will happen to my future.
i plan to become a chem engineer, but with my current grades i knew it won't cut it. i guess this also helped my mind to decide whether i should still have fun at the mean time or just focus on my future.
there have been highs and lows in my life, 2 of my closest friends ended their lives early. they were the ones who praised my arts ever since the beginning, and my girlfriend cheated on me.
it has been 4 months after all of these and i think i'm enjoying this life a bit more than what i expected it to be. i thought it will be really boring without my friends in school. well they sometimes look and laugh at me, when i'm alone and going straight to the library. discord has really been my friend, i've been chatting with other people i met in osu in my server. hope this can help you in some way, i just want to get this out of my chest.
I have a lot of bad habits I have to break... like uh, not finishing my own songs, triple tapping on doubles in osu, forgetting about my japanese anki deck for a week and having to review 500 cards. :/
started opening up to my friends more and relieved a lot of emotional and mental stress as a result
uninstalled discord and reddit from my phone, started playing wayy less vidya, got a part time jobe
trying to eat less junk food
l started to study way more for school and I'm doing Physical Education after the half term. l also have a friend.
I suffer with anxiety which is depressingly bad and l isolate myself a lot from people irl. However, I'm now reading aloud sometimes in English class. This, to me, is my biggest ever achievement. Even if me reading is the only time anyone hears my voice.
Started to care a lot more about art too, this year, as in my school coursework and hobby. I've improving with both quite dramatically.
I suffer with anxiety which is depressingly bad and l isolate myself a lot from people irl. However, I'm now reading aloud sometimes in English class. This, to me, is my biggest ever achievement. Even if me reading is the only time anyone hears my voice.
Started to care a lot more about art too, this year, as in my school coursework and hobby. I've improving with both quite dramatically.
I stopped smoking, 4 months already
Mekki
hmm... I'm trying to practice my creative writing with the help of TRPG
ive been exercising a lot more than i used to, eating better, and trying to go out of my way to hang out with the people that i’m closest with. this year’s been pretty rough so far but i’m doing my best to push through and get back to where i need to be.
became more active and engrossed in my interests, spending more time outside of the internet, taking care of financial responsibilities
I am an aspiring programmer and am studying in this domain in Cegep (a school unique to Quebec that is between high school and univeristy). But the work we get there are way too simple for me (and many others in my course) so I often do my own code, which are a lot more complex than the teacher asks. Lately I have been coding a game of go in Java and I am also thinking of trying out python and code a maze with it.
I have started to learn motion graphics! it was the releief i was looking to have, it calms my mind and it keeps me in my comfort zone which has its ups and downs. I will update you guys if i succeed in what im dreaming about! have a good one!
I quit this MMORPG I have been wasting my life on for 6 years and came back to osu
I wouldn't call this an improvement...jcdizon416 wrote:
I quit this MMORPG I have been wasting my life on for 6 years and came back to osu
I kinda understand the mmo thing. I played alot of them as well and I always came out at the end more depressed and angry then happy and fulfilled. Since I came back to osu after a long hiatus I've found it just more entertaining and less stressful then other type of community drivin games. I'm sure over time it will get more annoying, at least I'm not part of the beat map review team lol. I hear that stuff is crazy stressful.
Stopped drinking for the time being and started making coffee instead.
started to play osu! casually
started talking to this girl, i think we be hitting things off
s yes i found out S
I let go of my past self and all the people and things that held me down
Finally, after almost 6 years, feeling a bit empty but relieved
Finally, after almost 6 years, feeling a bit empty but relieved
I'm currently trying to do something that doesn't involve anything digatal.
Taking some cooking lessons for my chef dream<3
not giving a shit
lately i've been learning to take mistakes less seriously so that my mental health doesn't completely deteriorate lmao
same, and also with other people. ironically through games.abagofchapz wrote:
lately i've been learning to take mistakes less seriously so that my mental health doesn't completely deteriorate lmao
changing sleep schedule so I wake up with the sun has helped a lot
but like... how do you not stay up until 4AMclayton wrote:
changing sleep schedule so I wake up with the sun has helped a lot
For myself: I had started meditation and planning on finding an summer job soon (Today going to see if i could be able to get an job near a bounce house place near me) and I have also dealt with some toxic friends of mine by ending some of those relationships and I have an support group atm <3
Taking rest
By investing time into taking care of my pets, and telling myself that I am allowed to also have a good quality life.
Paying better attention in school. (It works you should try it)
right now i'm trying to sort out my sleep schedule for uni. i used to wake up at 1 AM just to get stuff done, and tho i was productive it was pretty harmful to my health + i felt like shit after doing so. so now i hope this would get me ready for my zoom classes at 6 in the morning
I started better myself, but since corona I fell a bit back in old behaviors. I stopped being polite and started being lazy again
A bit of backstory.
I am disabled. This is primarily due to severe mental illnesses (including, but sadly not limited to, PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), clinical depression, and social anxiety.) I also am extremely frail for my age. Despite being about 5'6", I can barely ever weigh more than 105.
As you can probably imagine, this makes my everyday life pretty difficult. I have little to no motivation to do anything. In fact, when I'm not playing osu! someone else is probably fronting. Quarantine and these two hurricanes and everything else happening in the world have taken a huge toll on me mentally. I rarely leave my room. I haven't been taking my medicine like I should be.
However I've been trying to get myself back on track. My boyfriend (the kind soul) has been texting me reminders to take my meds. I've been attending therapy instead of skipping it, and am in the process of getting a psychiatric service dog. My system and I have all been working together on communication, so that we can be less confused if someone fronts in the middle of something someone else was doing. (What a confusing sentence...) I've even been trying to keep up with my classes.
It's a hard journey, but I'm slowly starting to feel more like myself. I even had to courage to come out as non-binary to my mother, who was accepting through and through.
I have a lot to work on still, but this is definitely a start.
I am disabled. This is primarily due to severe mental illnesses (including, but sadly not limited to, PTSD, Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), clinical depression, and social anxiety.) I also am extremely frail for my age. Despite being about 5'6", I can barely ever weigh more than 105.
As you can probably imagine, this makes my everyday life pretty difficult. I have little to no motivation to do anything. In fact, when I'm not playing osu! someone else is probably fronting. Quarantine and these two hurricanes and everything else happening in the world have taken a huge toll on me mentally. I rarely leave my room. I haven't been taking my medicine like I should be.
However I've been trying to get myself back on track. My boyfriend (the kind soul) has been texting me reminders to take my meds. I've been attending therapy instead of skipping it, and am in the process of getting a psychiatric service dog. My system and I have all been working together on communication, so that we can be less confused if someone fronts in the middle of something someone else was doing. (What a confusing sentence...) I've even been trying to keep up with my classes.
It's a hard journey, but I'm slowly starting to feel more like myself. I even had to courage to come out as non-binary to my mother, who was accepting through and through.
I have a lot to work on still, but this is definitely a start.
jpsn
i'm not sure... i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder since 13 y.o, everyday is really difficult for me. when night comes it's like a nightmare and i got an insomnia. i always stayed up all night, no. actually i'm afraid to fall asleep and wake up with the same anxiety. every second of my life is filled with overthinking
even i don't know what i'm worried about, what makes me overthinking, i really don't understand the way of my mind and myself. it feels like i'm not able to control this fucking mood. i stopped getting treatment since last year because it's expensive and my family's economy isn't that good.
honestly i want to die but i must thinking about my uni too. i can't tell anyone that i have a pain and trauma, so i just crying to get better myself. my family is the same. they have their own problems so i don't want to add to anyone's burden
i'm sorry i really suck haha
even i don't know what i'm worried about, what makes me overthinking, i really don't understand the way of my mind and myself. it feels like i'm not able to control this fucking mood. i stopped getting treatment since last year because it's expensive and my family's economy isn't that good.
honestly i want to die but i must thinking about my uni too. i can't tell anyone that i have a pain and trauma, so i just crying to get better myself. my family is the same. they have their own problems so i don't want to add to anyone's burden
i'm sorry i really suck haha
I always lighten up my mood by listening to Classical or any Music. Then investing time into taking care of my pets, watching VTuber stream or clips.
ive been trying to support small buisnesses and also collect cute videos of small animals.
Studying for the bar exam… not quite sure what to do though, anxiety is accumulating faster than actual knowledge.
During these last months I have been exercising.
Why the heck didn't I start before? I have noticed myself being quite stronger than before, and I have started to feel physically better as well.
Why the heck didn't I start before? I have noticed myself being quite stronger than before, and I have started to feel physically better as well.
sametyhjyys wrote:
NOTHING
Sort of an update:Arctos Sagittario wrote:
Studying for the bar exam… not quite sure what to do though, anxiety is accumulating faster than actual knowledge.
Last night the phase I (multiple choice section) result was out. I passed.
I can’t even explain how I feel… Phase II (short essay section) is incoming in just two weeks, and I still have barely prepared. It’s most likely to be a mixture of joy, relief, and escalated anxiety…
I decide to intentionally double post because the last one was 6 days ago and it doesn’t quite feel right if I just edit it—- or so I think.
Long story short, I made up a decision to really go for it.
Long story short, I made up a decision to really go for it.
i had recently been sleeping earlier and earlier. my sleeping schedule is so fucked and i'm trying to fix it.
For me, slowly but getting there. Just have to take it slow, do what I want while not ignoring what I need to do! Mental health is getting better is what I'm trying to say.
Nothing. I’m still a major disappointment to everyone around me.
play osu less
Since quarantine started, my sleeping schedule and... my lifestyle in general is getting worse and worse, as 2020 is come to close soon, i expect and hoping that myself to (hopefully) fix all of those issues
osu! wise : listen to the rhythm more and stop playing for rank
osu! wise : listen to the rhythm more and stop playing for rank
Play less and work out or go outside more often and socializing.