Hope you get better dude. Really, just talking about the issues you have I feel is doing something to better yourself, so don't be so hard on yourself.KuroTX wrote:
What I've done to better my self... well to be frankly honest, nothing, my life has been a shit hole since I was 7, ever since then I've been going to see many doctors and other people. Most days I come home from a shit day at school, lock my self in my room, play osu and some other games (Usually RPGs and MMOs) Because of my past, I'm not to trusted with freedom inside my school or the choices I make there as of an attempt I did to well extract my self a few years ago. It's not like I want to stay in school, get GCSE's ETC and move on to work a boring life waltzing around on train platforms, getting on the train causally just to go to work, do work, come back home, sleep; or any bull shit like that (and no, I can't live the life that I want). When it comes to online gaming, that's usually the only place that I feel safe/fit in... for about 8 years now of my life I've been depressed and honestly empty. My problem isn't to do with a falling out with a girl or, losing money or having a really bad family, unlike most problems surrounding depression, my one has no sollution, no end, no relief (No it's not fucking autism or ADHD), and that's why... I haven't and will never be able to do anything to better my self; my only plans are to grow up until I'm 30 maybe then die, that's about all I have planned for life.
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Started 2 small clothing businesses and joined a gym gotta keep that BELLY at bay hahaha hope all of you are well
been eating healthier, ever since last year i've been cutting down the amount of sugary and fatty foods i eat/drink
this year i want to start exercising and building up some muscle
this year i want to start exercising and building up some muscle
I started going to the gym, despite it being pretty expensive- with this I've started to drink more water and think more about what I eat.
I've gotten better at spreading my money on more reasonable things.
I think I'm becoming pretty adult...
I've gotten better at spreading my money on more reasonable things.
I think I'm becoming pretty adult...
Eating 10k calories a day
YOU HAVE TO LIVE IT
YOU HAVE TO LIVE IT
E m i
Im wanting to improve my voice to start getting into voice acting. So I started by quitting on consuming Carbonated Drinks and caffeine altogether. I soon realized I couldn't handle it (-_-). So instead I'm only limiting myself to an occasional carbonated drink and one caffeinated drink a month. I can confirm my voice is a lot more clear now than it ever was.
I am motivating myself to become a hard worker and finish my school.
Finding a job and learning to be independent from my parents.
Probably 15kMomiji wrote:
what was your highest ever? mine was 11000 2 timesJordan wrote:
Eating 10k calories a day
YOU HAVE TO LIVE IT
E m i
absolutely nothing ;w;
pointless bump, I know
pointless bump, I know
I've decided to let go of some of my past hate and reconnect with people whom I have lost touch with!
tried to move on with things that has been really pulling myself off, so i guess that's something!
I watched anime like always.
started working out and joined the military, ship out for bootcamp May 14.
got kicked out of qat (legitimately)
Applied for universities, practised producing an even wider variety of music and I'm moving out of the shittiest suburb of the entire country within 10 days.
Hmm...
Having struggled with always being stressed out and busy with something, I forced myself to "meditate" for 30 mins. I wanted to read instead, but I'm so used to reading books for learning, I found it hard to do as a relaxation method. So yeah, I'm doing that for 2 weeks now.
Also decided to go back to osu! after a long break, so now I've got a game that keeps me from thinking too much, so that's also a good thing.
Unfortunately though, outside of osu! or other focus-heavy activities, I still tend to think over my past more often than I'd like, so if anyone has any advice that'd be nice.
Having struggled with always being stressed out and busy with something, I forced myself to "meditate" for 30 mins. I wanted to read instead, but I'm so used to reading books for learning, I found it hard to do as a relaxation method. So yeah, I'm doing that for 2 weeks now.
Also decided to go back to osu! after a long break, so now I've got a game that keeps me from thinking too much, so that's also a good thing.
Unfortunately though, outside of osu! or other focus-heavy activities, I still tend to think over my past more often than I'd like, so if anyone has any advice that'd be nice.
Just really put my head down and i'm trying to do my best at school, i wish you luck.
I've started to be a little more responsible when it comes to doing things for people or helping people out. I've been a bit more active in trying to go out of my way to do something for someone, though it's a bit hard if it's someone I don't know anything about, unless they ask me first, or unless it seems they're in some trouble.
It hasn't really done anything for what I want to accomplish, but I think it might help me learn to be more generous and open with them, instead of reclusive and cold to them. I tend to come off as "cold", but usually I just am not great at being social, and I typically will be very blunt and candid, and uh... well, I still end up doing so, but I have made some progress.
Maybe it'll make me more approachable.
It hasn't really done anything for what I want to accomplish, but I think it might help me learn to be more generous and open with them, instead of reclusive and cold to them. I tend to come off as "cold", but usually I just am not great at being social, and I typically will be very blunt and candid, and uh... well, I still end up doing so, but I have made some progress.
Maybe it'll make me more approachable.
i've started to avoid social interaction as much as possible, it has made me alot happier :^)
stopped reading reddit posts
*Reviving This Thread*
I started teaching myself Korean language and culture so that I can learn more about my ethnicity. I've also enlisted myself into the Army so that I can serve my country and earn a full scholarship after my service.
I started teaching myself Korean language and culture so that I can learn more about my ethnicity. I've also enlisted myself into the Army so that I can serve my country and earn a full scholarship after my service.
Recently I started to pay more attention to studying (unfortunately too late because nearly all the time when I was supposed to studying I was playing videogames and now I can't correct most of my grades). I also restrained playing video games.
I've been dealing with bad headaches and an irritating cough for weeks and decided enough was enough.
I changed lots of things in my life in an attempt to combat these, such as sleeping more, drinking more water and less sugary drinks, eating healthier and going outside more. it also helps me feel more positive overall so I'd say it's working out great so far!
I changed lots of things in my life in an attempt to combat these, such as sleeping more, drinking more water and less sugary drinks, eating healthier and going outside more. it also helps me feel more positive overall so I'd say it's working out great so far!
Probably nothing
Is purposely fail this school year AGAIN considered a good thing?
Is purposely fail this school year AGAIN considered a good thing?
decided to actually look to more experienced producers for feedback on the things I need work on, and now I'm integrating with a community of various types of artists and producers. im taking music production more seriously at the moment.
Since my health isn't really all that great, I've also started to do exercise occasionally. My lung capacity is still shit, my heart can't handle very much, and my upper body and core strength are all weak as shit, soft as noodles.
Might as well fuck myself up short-term to strengthen myself in the long run.
Seriously, I've been getting aches and pains in certain joints because i don't eat well and is also partially due to sleep deprivation, and since i don't drink milk or consume much dairy, my bones are fucking twigs.
Oof.
Maybe I can get myself in shape and perhaps gain some weight finally. I'm still barely in the triple digits, like 103 lbs or something. Ugh. I really need to start caring for myself more or I might actually have a high probabilitly of having osteoporosis in the future.
Might as well fuck myself up short-term to strengthen myself in the long run.
Seriously, I've been getting aches and pains in certain joints because i don't eat well and is also partially due to sleep deprivation, and since i don't drink milk or consume much dairy, my bones are fucking twigs.
Oof.
Maybe I can get myself in shape and perhaps gain some weight finally. I'm still barely in the triple digits, like 103 lbs or something. Ugh. I really need to start caring for myself more or I might actually have a high probabilitly of having osteoporosis in the future.
[MTF] Wolfette
i've been taking a look at BMI to see how i can get my licensing and copyrights done once i release my music.
nothing really
Updated my closet
I've been eating a bit more so i can try to gain some weight.
I'm currently far too underweight at 94 pounds, 5'6". My body mass index is 15.2, which is pretty much on the severe end.
I also plan to get up and move around a bit more, maybe exercise a little more.
I never intended to be this underweight, and I never really cared about weight in general, I just thought I had a rather slender body frame.
Basically, I'll be making some gradual changes in hopes of being at least a few pounds closer to a healthy weight by the next 6 weeks.
I'm currently far too underweight at 94 pounds, 5'6". My body mass index is 15.2, which is pretty much on the severe end.
I also plan to get up and move around a bit more, maybe exercise a little more.
I never intended to be this underweight, and I never really cared about weight in general, I just thought I had a rather slender body frame.
Basically, I'll be making some gradual changes in hopes of being at least a few pounds closer to a healthy weight by the next 6 weeks.
I've been trying to be more organized in school and at home, trying my best to organize my binders for every class and put everything in the sections they belong in. I'm doing pretty well so far, so hooray me
trying to break my fingers by playing high bpm maps on osu
i have no life
end me now
i have no life
end me now
I have been attempting to memorize the formulas of the musical scales.
I've already achieved it with six of them. It is really useful, I don't know why I didn't do it before.
I've already achieved it with six of them. It is really useful, I don't know why I didn't do it before.
Sorting some problems around home.
A bit motivated to stay alive for my own things to do before they get me down.
A bit motivated to stay alive for my own things to do before they get me down.
I finally gained some weight.
I weigh about 98 pounds, 5'6".
4 pounds in 2 months. A bit slow, but we're getting there.
I'm working to hopefully reach 100 lbs by the end of the year.
I still need to build up both fat and muscle, and trying to keep myself running without too many issues for a decent amount of time with my jogging unit in PE, in hopes of improving cardiovascular endurance to counter and lower my chances of heart complications later on in life. I'm not doing too well, but I'll keep going at it for however long I can.
I weigh about 98 pounds, 5'6".
4 pounds in 2 months. A bit slow, but we're getting there.
I'm working to hopefully reach 100 lbs by the end of the year.
I still need to build up both fat and muscle, and trying to keep myself running without too many issues for a decent amount of time with my jogging unit in PE, in hopes of improving cardiovascular endurance to counter and lower my chances of heart complications later on in life. I'm not doing too well, but I'll keep going at it for however long I can.
I stopped smoking, and picked up a new habit in the form of vaping, which while not perfectly healthy, is supposedly 95% healthier, especially for people quitting smoking. Quite a controversy, that, but I believe what i've read and what i've seen, not to mention I feel just overall better than I have a few weeks prior when I was still smoking cigs.
I started losing weight and started actually getting on top of my problem with spending money and staying motivated. Losing weight has been going well but for some reason, Saving money for me is quite hard. If I see something nice or a sale, my impulse is to buy it haha. Good luck to everyone else with what they're doing!
I just started to become friends with a lot of people so that's good
How do I get out of bed? I always spend at least 10 hours on my bed a day
Exercise and osu! are my coping mechanisms for stress which I started at exactly February 1 of this year. So far the stress I've been experiencing (mostly from education) has been lessened so I guess its a good thing.
kxium_old
i'm only 16 right now so i'm still in school, anyway for me,
i have been getting low grades like 89 below in major subjects especially math. the reason was because i haven't been able to listen to lessons because of my friends, i've became a lot talkative and lost focus in school. i prioritized osu! and social life.
- i distant my self with them, i started with not eating lunch with them and soon requested my sensei to change my seats so i'll be in front. it was successful and got myself higher grades since i became a highschooler.
before i distant myself with my friends, i started to think what will happen to my future.
i plan to become a chem engineer, but with my current grades i knew it won't cut it. i guess this also helped my mind to decide whether i should still have fun at the mean time or just focus on my future.
there have been highs and lows in my life, 2 of my closest friends ended their lives early. they were the ones who praised my arts ever since the beginning, and my girlfriend cheated on me.
it has been 4 months after all of these and i think i'm enjoying this life a bit more than what i expected it to be. i thought it will be really boring without my friends in school. well they sometimes look and laugh at me, when i'm alone and going straight to the library. discord has really been my friend, i've been chatting with other people i met in osu in my server. hope this can help you in some way, i just want to get this out of my chest.
i have been getting low grades like 89 below in major subjects especially math. the reason was because i haven't been able to listen to lessons because of my friends, i've became a lot talkative and lost focus in school. i prioritized osu! and social life.
- i distant my self with them, i started with not eating lunch with them and soon requested my sensei to change my seats so i'll be in front. it was successful and got myself higher grades since i became a highschooler.
before i distant myself with my friends, i started to think what will happen to my future.
i plan to become a chem engineer, but with my current grades i knew it won't cut it. i guess this also helped my mind to decide whether i should still have fun at the mean time or just focus on my future.
there have been highs and lows in my life, 2 of my closest friends ended their lives early. they were the ones who praised my arts ever since the beginning, and my girlfriend cheated on me.
it has been 4 months after all of these and i think i'm enjoying this life a bit more than what i expected it to be. i thought it will be really boring without my friends in school. well they sometimes look and laugh at me, when i'm alone and going straight to the library. discord has really been my friend, i've been chatting with other people i met in osu in my server. hope this can help you in some way, i just want to get this out of my chest.
I have a lot of bad habits I have to break... like uh, not finishing my own songs, triple tapping on doubles in osu, forgetting about my japanese anki deck for a week and having to review 500 cards. :/
started opening up to my friends more and relieved a lot of emotional and mental stress as a result
uninstalled discord and reddit from my phone, started playing wayy less vidya, got a part time jobe
trying to eat less junk food
l started to study way more for school and I'm doing Physical Education after the half term. l also have a friend.
I suffer with anxiety which is depressingly bad and l isolate myself a lot from people irl. However, I'm now reading aloud sometimes in English class. This, to me, is my biggest ever achievement. Even if me reading is the only time anyone hears my voice.
Started to care a lot more about art too, this year, as in my school coursework and hobby. I've improving with both quite dramatically.
I suffer with anxiety which is depressingly bad and l isolate myself a lot from people irl. However, I'm now reading aloud sometimes in English class. This, to me, is my biggest ever achievement. Even if me reading is the only time anyone hears my voice.
Started to care a lot more about art too, this year, as in my school coursework and hobby. I've improving with both quite dramatically.
I stopped smoking, 4 months already
Mekki
hmm... I'm trying to practice my creative writing with the help of TRPG
ive been exercising a lot more than i used to, eating better, and trying to go out of my way to hang out with the people that i’m closest with. this year’s been pretty rough so far but i’m doing my best to push through and get back to where i need to be.
became more active and engrossed in my interests, spending more time outside of the internet, taking care of financial responsibilities
I am an aspiring programmer and am studying in this domain in Cegep (a school unique to Quebec that is between high school and univeristy). But the work we get there are way too simple for me (and many others in my course) so I often do my own code, which are a lot more complex than the teacher asks. Lately I have been coding a game of go in Java and I am also thinking of trying out python and code a maze with it.
I have started to learn motion graphics! it was the releief i was looking to have, it calms my mind and it keeps me in my comfort zone which has its ups and downs. I will update you guys if i succeed in what im dreaming about! have a good one!
I quit this MMORPG I have been wasting my life on for 6 years and came back to osu
I wouldn't call this an improvement...jcdizon416 wrote:
I quit this MMORPG I have been wasting my life on for 6 years and came back to osu
I kinda understand the mmo thing. I played alot of them as well and I always came out at the end more depressed and angry then happy and fulfilled. Since I came back to osu after a long hiatus I've found it just more entertaining and less stressful then other type of community drivin games. I'm sure over time it will get more annoying, at least I'm not part of the beat map review team lol. I hear that stuff is crazy stressful.
Stopped drinking for the time being and started making coffee instead.
started to play osu! casually
started talking to this girl, i think we be hitting things off
s yes i found out S
I let go of my past self and all the people and things that held me down
Finally, after almost 6 years, feeling a bit empty but relieved
Finally, after almost 6 years, feeling a bit empty but relieved
I'm currently trying to do something that doesn't involve anything digatal.
Taking some cooking lessons for my chef dream<3
not giving a shit
lately i've been learning to take mistakes less seriously so that my mental health doesn't completely deteriorate lmao
same, and also with other people. ironically through games.abagofchapz wrote:
lately i've been learning to take mistakes less seriously so that my mental health doesn't completely deteriorate lmao
changing sleep schedule so I wake up with the sun has helped a lot
but like... how do you not stay up until 4AMclayton wrote:
changing sleep schedule so I wake up with the sun has helped a lot
For myself: I had started meditation and planning on finding an summer job soon (Today going to see if i could be able to get an job near a bounce house place near me) and I have also dealt with some toxic friends of mine by ending some of those relationships and I have an support group atm <3