VERY BAD DAY TODAY IM SO UPSET.
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Fucking hell, just when I thought I've dealt with the things that are falling apart in my house. Guess what, more shit just got broken again.
I just went back home from work and all of a sudden, there's no electricity.
So I had to call an electrician to fix it.
I had to sit in a dark room, without any fans or AC to wait for him to come.
But at least I could wash my fucking face right? No of course not!
The water is out too.
The fucking water pump fucking broke down.
Fucking shit.
Fuck.
I hate my life.
I just went back home from work and all of a sudden, there's no electricity.
So I had to call an electrician to fix it.
I had to sit in a dark room, without any fans or AC to wait for him to come.
But at least I could wash my fucking face right? No of course not!
The water is out too.
The fucking water pump fucking broke down.
Fucking shit.
Fuck.
I hate my life.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Fucking hell, just when I thought I've dealt with the things that are falling apart in my house. Guess what, more shit just got broken again.
I just went back home from work and all of a sudden, there's no electricity.
So I had to call an electrician to fix it.
I had to sit in a dark room, without any fans or AC to wait for him to come.
But at least I could wash my fucking face right? No of course not!
The water is out too.
The fucking water pump fucking broke down.
Fucking shit.
Fuck.
I hate my life.
What the hell, that sounds awful. Do you live in like - a nice area? Or kinda not so good?
I live in a decent area but for some reason everything in my house just decides to break. It's just bad luck I guess.
Damn. Feelsbadman. Hopefully this is the end of it.
Meh
There has been a ton of lightning strike today, I can remember seeing and hearing some from probabaly 5 pm and now it's 11:30 pm and I can see one every minute or so. At least I am far away from them so it's not too frightening but I can't imagine what it must be like having such frequent lightning strike right next to your home.
Status: little stress with an issue happening in a discord server, and as a "staff member" I'm the only one who cares enough to do anything about it. But it's difficult to even do something.
Also trying to think of more things to add to my userpage to make it interesting
Also trying to think of more things to add to my userpage to make it interesting
Rebmare wrote:
Status: little stress with an issue happening in a discord server, and as a "staff member" I'm the only one who cares enough to do anything about it. But it's difficult to even do something.
Well doing something is normally better than doing nothin. I'm sure there's at least some people there that appreciate that you're trying.
Rebmare wrote:
Also trying to think of more things to add to my userpage to make it interesting
I see a lot of people putting osu milestones and goals on their page, like "Best Rank: 20,000" or "First time beating a 6-star map", etc. Dunno, just a suggestion. It could be a fun little thing to do. Just check out what other people have and maybe you could
Ay just look at my amazing userpage
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OT: finally got some free time to fuck around and do practically nothing. hell ye. i mean i like doin productive stuff cuz otherwise if i go too long without doing anything i start to feel sorta useless and sad, but it was just non-stop for a while and i needed a break.
Welp. Chitoge avatar picture now. I remember being obsessed with her in 2015. Not so much anymore tbh, plus I reconsidered my tsun tastes in that time span too.
Oh shit it's 4 am already.
New avatar.
Probably changing my behaviour in the forums to match the avatar.
Probably changing my behaviour in the forums to match the avatar.
2nd of July is tomorrow.
For once, I'm trying not to reveal too much here.
I'm prepared to have remembered something wrong.
If not, I'm kinda nervous, but also happy.
She wont message me immediately on that day, surely? I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. These past few weeks have been pure confusion.
For once, I'm trying not to reveal too much here.
I'm prepared to have remembered something wrong.
If not, I'm kinda nervous, but also happy.
She wont message me immediately on that day, surely? I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. These past few weeks have been pure confusion.
Taking a hiatus from posting on OT. I dont think I really have the time to continue playing investigative journalist. Also lacking a bit of energy today.
Already missed Puzzle on OT.
I'm trying to figure out how the transfert does not work.
Don't tell me to get a hard-disk or a better USB, I'm not going through that.
Don't tell me to get a hard-disk or a better USB, I'm not going through that.
I just deleted a section in my map and now I have to remap it again...
FUCK
FUCK
Trying to learn some music theory. At least the basic fundamentals for now anyways.
I've been messing around in LMMS for a few days now and been having fun with it, but I figure I could improve greatly with some music theory knowledge. Since I've come to understand how to use LMMS I can actually put what I'm learning into practice in the program, which is helpful to understanding what the fuck they're talking about. I'm on break with a lot of free time right now so I'm just tryna hone some old skills while forming new ones.
I should probably have a job right now but we don't talk about that
I've been messing around in LMMS for a few days now and been having fun with it, but I figure I could improve greatly with some music theory knowledge. Since I've come to understand how to use LMMS I can actually put what I'm learning into practice in the program, which is helpful to understanding what the fuck they're talking about. I'm on break with a lot of free time right now so I'm just tryna hone some old skills while forming new ones.
I should probably have a job right now but we don't talk about that
21-7, 12-21, 21-15
Lost to my 30 year old aunt on a table tennis match. Been 5 years tho since I've last played
Lost to my 30 year old aunt on a table tennis match. Been 5 years tho since I've last played
I just stayed on a car for 2 hours without my phone waiting for someone. Kill me
Like I suspected, I've grown up to become trash and a disappointment to my parents. I'd better take myself out soon.
I don't know what caused you to come to that conclusion and I won't pretend to know.GSG95 wrote:
Like I suspected, I've grown up to become trash and a disappointment to my parents. I'd better take myself out soon.
But I do understand that life can sometimes be depressing. You're fine, you can get through it!
If you hate yourself then go work on yourself enough so that you can learn to appreciate yourself.
If you hate being "trash" and "a disappointment" to your parents then work on yourself to change that.
Life isn't about how hard you hit, it's about how much will you be able to get hit and still get back up.
Being alive alone is pretty much a constant stream of embarrassment, what matters is that you can overcome it.
Sorry if all this may sounds a bit cheesy. But I think that your parents would be truly disappointed if you decides give up on yourself.
GSG95 wrote:
Like I suspected, I've grown up to become trash and a disappointment to my parents. I'd better take myself out soon.
I don’t know much about you or your situation right now and tbh, I can’t give you a solution to your problem at this moment but remember, even though we are internet strangers, there are people on OT who is willing to hear you out, understand and support you so please give it a try. For now, try to brighten up your mood with some good food and some good laugh on the internet. Here is one that always make me laugh whenever I look at it
Another edit: Or some good uplifting music that would cheer you up
Just plucked off my first ever white hair. I feel sad
I'm telling myself to go to sleep, but it took a whole 12mins.
I'm turning the PC off now.
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A new morning...
I found the author of some memes involving Azunyan... I think.
I'm turning the PC off now.
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A new morning...
I found the author of some memes involving Azunyan... I think.
First thing in the morning: get mad because of either the big brother's or the father's "oversimplist" way of...... "Personal space structuration".
Or in other words, one of them messed with my things.
Or in other words, one of them messed with my things.
Our family just went crazy because of a big ass cockroach that can fly. We managed to kill it tho... but at what cost?
finally, 2kGS
Found out that one of my coworker is an osu! player and an even greater weeb than I am. Though I ain't sure why he was so surprised by the fact that I knew Cookiezi after I told him I play osu!.
samX500 wrote:
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Maybe he misunderstood it as "knowing personally/being friends with".
At least, that's a way for me to understand this sentence the way you've written.
Just finish reading “Good Night World”. Kinda give me Kokkoku vibe but overall a pretty good manga
Status: just got into a new collab so I'll probably be posting a lot... FG sure brings me back!
After some time hidden, I'll try to live again. 
Not much has progressed, and I doubt it ever will. I don't have the heart and the right time will never come. For now, I'll enjoy everything as much as possible and stop being so damn angry at myself. Especially with everything which will be going on in the future.
Not much has progressed, and I doubt it ever will. I don't have the heart and the right time will never come. For now, I'll enjoy everything as much as possible and stop being so damn angry at myself. Especially with everything which will be going on in the future.
It feels so good when you find out a game that you used to play a lot during childhood but can't seem to remember the name
I got the funniest collab lmao
Woke at 5, eating butter candies (the best!). Yesterday, I shared some positive news to a friend, so I'm waiting eagerly for her to reply! Trying to start being productive, instead of just doing nothing. I need to learn to get motivation for myself instead of only doing stuff because I feel forced to by others.
Yes, very good!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH wrote:
It feels so good when you find out a game that you used to play a lot during childhood but can't seem to remember the name
Yes, very good!
Feeling bothered about AHHHH's signature because this is what it does to the old forums:
https://imgur.com/Wp8bZpQ
https://imgur.com/Wp8bZpQ
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
Feeling bothered about AHHHH's signature because this is what it does to the old forums:
https://imgur.com/Wp8bZpQ
Oh gosh that”s annoying. Lemme fix it
are you kidding me? I just updated the emergency thread about your signature breaking the wall of the old forums. Do I look silly now.
Yes
Not anymore
got to submit scores today for the first time in months B)
back to good level of mania accuracy, working on that first before i get back into ctb and taiko, then next stop is standard
My mental health might get astonishingly better.
Found an item that can give me (probably more than) a bit of peace of mind.
For the moment, I feel more motivated, alive, like I won't be giving up easily yet.
Found an item that can give me (probably more than) a bit of peace of mind.
For the moment, I feel more motivated, alive, like I won't be giving up easily yet.
feeling kind of sick right now... probably because i dipped my feet in water yesterday unfortunately due to bad weather...
its just the common colds with a mix of cough, so nothing much for me to worry about... glad i didn't get leptospirosis, hopefully...
its just the common colds with a mix of cough, so nothing much for me to worry about... glad i didn't get leptospirosis, hopefully...
Got sick, went to the hospital and now I have to take a bazillion of pills. Yay.
Been thinking a lot about the improvements I've been making these past few months, and those which I'll be making in the future.
I'm going to the town centre alone on Monday, using a bus, and then going to a college class, which I talk quite a lot in. Around 2 months ago, I would've never been able to go on a bus. Before May/June, I was pretty much mute, and I still only just got comfortable with talking [comfortable to the point where I (reluctantly) start conversations] last week.
There's a lot of other things, too.
Mm, everything in my life is weird, but change isn't always bad. 💙
I'm going to the town centre alone on Monday, using a bus, and then going to a college class, which I talk quite a lot in. Around 2 months ago, I would've never been able to go on a bus. Before May/June, I was pretty much mute, and I still only just got comfortable with talking [comfortable to the point where I (reluctantly) start conversations] last week.
There's a lot of other things, too.
Mm, everything in my life is weird, but change isn't always bad. 💙
Let's try to keep thinking about this for 2h:
Makoto: Sometimes I get the strange urge to clean when I visit a friend's room.
Futaba: No, don't! They might already have everything exactly where they want it!
In other words, I'm just being mad.
Even for one item to be moved from its original place would just...
Yes, this is stupid.
FROM A NORMAL POINT OF VIEW, FOR DOOM'S SAKE, CAN I BE DIFFERENT. I'M ALREADY TECHNICALLY DIFFERENT BY BEING UNIQUE IN THIS PLANET BUT STILL.
Unless the one moving it is someone I can "trust", but of course in this case with 2 items, it's not.
Worst part of it: their positions have been switched. Ew.
And now I'm stuck in front of this screen/PC because I can't make a move without having them criticize what I'm doing with my things.
THOSE, ARE, MY, THINGS, YOU [...].
Makoto: Sometimes I get the strange urge to clean when I visit a friend's room.
Futaba: No, don't! They might already have everything exactly where they want it!
In other words, I'm just being mad.
Even for one item to be moved from its original place would just...
Yes, this is stupid.
FROM A NORMAL POINT OF VIEW, FOR DOOM'S SAKE, CAN I BE DIFFERENT. I'M ALREADY TECHNICALLY DIFFERENT BY BEING UNIQUE IN THIS PLANET BUT STILL.
Unless the one moving it is someone I can "trust", but of course in this case with 2 items, it's not.
Worst part of it: their positions have been switched. Ew.
And now I'm stuck in front of this screen/PC because I can't make a move without having them criticize what I'm doing with my things.
THOSE, ARE, MY, THINGS, YOU [...].
I'm frustrated because I'm debugging a crash that shouldn't even happen...
Access violation in NTDLL....
All of this just because I want to spawn some bullets.
Every bullet has a chance of causing a crash....
Access violation in NTDLL....
All of this just because I want to spawn some bullets.
Every bullet has a chance of causing a crash....
vinnicci wrote:
Meah wrote:
It's Monday soon
ah crap
Monday has arrived as foretold
I just ran a good 30:00 min outside and am extremely exhausted.
Monday then departedWestonini wrote:
Monday has arrived as foretoldvinnicci wrote:
ah crapMeah wrote:
It's Monday soon
didn't take my meds this morning because the bus was running up
i want to sleep again
i want to sleep again
Meah wrote:
Westonini wrote:
vinnicci wrote:
Meah wrote:
It's Monday soon
ah crap
Monday has arrived as foretold
Monday then departed
Not even Meah could predict the Tuesday that had arrived shortly after.
Westonini wrote:
Meah wrote:
Westonini wrote:
vinnicci wrote:
Meah wrote:
It's Monday soon
ah crap
Monday has arrived as foretold
Monday then departed
Not even Meah could predict the Tuesday that had arrived shortly after.
Nor could the cowboy Westonini could foretell of the Wednesday that slowly approached.
My legs are dead. They were already pretty bad this morning because of my run yesterday and I have now taken anoter run and killed them for good. I can't even begin to imagine what it will feel like tommorow
Muscle cramp sucks
im getting better. i feel better about myself. every day is one step closer to truly feeling happy again.
charamaru wrote:
im getting better. i feel better about myself. every day is one step closer to truly feeling happy again.
Nice. Good luck Chara!
Still mourning over old forums
Pretty tired from my jogging. I certainly didn't feel as exhausted this time as I did for my first two times, thought I doubt that's because I've improved.
I don't think two joggings are enough to get a better cardio, I probably just had a better day, or maybe I ran in a more conservative way by instinct.
I don't think two joggings are enough to get a better cardio, I probably just had a better day, or maybe I ran in a more conservative way by instinct.
can someone please tell me how to post youtube videos in this new forum?
45Traeath wrote:
Yep, still the same method as on the old one.
I tried that but it didn't work
Cahyono29 wrote:
Please help me,i can't post YouTube video here
[youtube[That messy section like for example nOj8zbBev41a and only that between the brackets]/youtube]
(Misused the brackets on purpose, because it will mess with what I write in there.)
At least it worked while I was using my phone.
Probably not the best place to be putting this here but if anyone has the free time to spend 10 minutes to do a questionnaire, just for fun, please do my survey related to Friendship views here: https://forms.gle/nfi5Qeq2xaYcEfoe7 Thank you!
45Traeath wrote:
Cahyono29 wrote:
Please help me,i can't post YouTube video here
[youtube[That messy section like for example nOj8zbBev41a and only that between the brackets]/youtube]
(Misused the brackets on purpose, because it will mess with what I write in there.)
At least it worked while I was using my phone.
thanks,it work now
YamiHikari wrote:
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I was in for at least 16mins w
Also, what's with that "Press 1 (...)"; I would understand the "5" one but that w