There really is nothing about myself that I would say I "love". Though I do have to say that I am quite proud of the fact that I don't chase desire and luxury like I can see many people around me do. That is probably because I am pretty easy to be content so I don't feel the need to chase higher desire. Also I take into acount the risk and the effort of trying to get some desire unlike many person that I know which to my eyes seem to only consider the desire itself.
Is there anything you don't like about yourself that you would like to change/remove and if so, what is it and why?
Hmm, on a deeper level, I think nothing. Because the things we hate/dislike about ourselves is what makes us stronger. For example, if you hate how you always jump to conclusions, making these mistakes is what helps you learn from them. So in the end, you can cut down on doing this.
It also goes on par with one of my life quotes, not having regrets. Because everything you do is an experience that teaches you a lesson in the future.
My annoying attitude to socialising. It terrifies me, but I feel empty and quite depressed while not doing it. I'm probably scared of it due to how I've always lived a very isolating lifestyle. As for enjoying it, being with my friend gives me life, either online or offline.
I'd also like to eliminate some thoughts which are viewed as quite concerning, such as my attitudes towards eating, and life in general. I feel like nothing but a disappointment 24/7 and me existing is a curse to everyone who knows me. I hate seeing my friend being worried about me.
a maze with edges like their knives
someday ill be the shape they want me to be
but i dont know how much more theyll wake away before theyre satisfied
they have sliced away my flesh
shorn of unsightly limbs and organs
more stitch and scar than human
if only marble
grew back so easily
they have stolen away my spirit
memories scattered into the slipstream
i have no idea who i used to be
i can only guess
what they will make me
they found me in my lowest days
breathed life back into my frozen body
promising a more beautiful future
then i discovered
what they really wanted
they pulled me into their vortex
and i saw my future reflected in their eyes
a shimmering halo of impossible dreams
void of my self
it was
perfect
tbh it is more like a hidden message than a lyric but meh
Varies depending on my mood, but right now it's 'Don't wake me 'cause I'm dreaming of angels on the moon'. Beautiful.
(Thriving Ivory - Angels on the moon)
I just need to relax and take care of myself. My potential plans with music and art are useless now. I can't do anything of worth anymore, so I might as well just rest.
I just need to relax and take care of myself. My potential plans with music and art are useless now. I can't do anything of worth anymore, so I might as well just rest.
Don't sweat it bro, you got this
ot:Playing Bleach Brave Souls probably, surfing the internet, reading, I don't know
i don’t like feeling genuine hatred. it’s gross and not a good feeling at all. i don’t understand how certain people live in that feeling with hatred toward ideas or certain people. what’s the point of being hateful to someone who did nothing to deserve it? i’ll never understand.
what do you think is your purpose in life?
for the record i can fly around the world absorbing light
I quite seriously can't hate others. It feels like I'm not even capable of it, though apathy kind of does that with most emotions/dispositions, so... yeah.
...aside from my seething self-hatred.
I just deal with it as it comes.
As far as hate exuded from others, I'm conflicted. Though I aim to state how illogical and pointless that can be, I also view it as quite understandable when considering their perspectives.
edit: welp.
OT: none in particular. it may also lightly imply there was a deity of sorts to provide a purpose if i may interpret it as such.
i mostly live to see things play out, and create what i can, doing my best to let others do the same.
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What are your thoughts on emotions in general, and what are they like to you?
Hmm, interesting question. I think emotions can sometimes be a hindrance to us, but it's much needed in order to live. To want, and to have, to live, and to sense, all driven by emotions. Without it, I don't think we can be individuals.
To me they were a huge hindrance at one point, but still, I believed I wouldn't exchange my emotions for anything.
i think emotions are a result of all the factors of the information (different pieces of information have different weights) including emotion itself around us
to me, they are a result of the recent information gained
Kirito. I was about to say Myne at first but tbh, she's a well designed character. She's a bitch and nobody likes her but she's a pretty good character. Kirito on the other hand is a horrible character with no personality whatsoever. He somehow has life experience equivalent to a 30 years old while being a 16-18 student while spending 2 years stuck inside a video game. He's not a believable character nor is a well designed character imo.
this is only because i dont watch a lot of anime but darkness from konosuba killed the show for me. “hi im a masochist” got pretty old after like 2 episodes and it just made me not want to finish watching an otherwise fine show.
SQ
for the record i can fly around the world absorbing light
I think that Touma and Index from the toAru series are the characters that I dislike the most. I don't hate them as much as some other character but those 2 make their show worse. The best part of the toAru series are those were Misaka and company are leading the story and makes an absolutly amazing show but when they are not there in favor of Touma and index the show becomes quite mediocre.
I always try to think what could have happened to lead them into doing what they are doing at the moment. Also, assumption would be avoided so that there is no misunderstanding. Even when I say it like that, it couldn’t be completely avoided since sometimes, we tend to do that just to make our lives easier.
Has there been any mosquito wandering at your place yet?
[Mar. 19th 2019 Update] _10% procrastinating too much around too many games (Only SV2 on "Osu!", I'm quitting, still trying to ****-mapping) _0.5% ****-mapping _25% enjoying this thread _64% (forced to be) enjoying life _0.5% trying to get back to books I'm supposed to read / translation stuff (minor hobby)
Insect haven't gone back yet, that's the props of being Canadian, insects dies every winter and they take quite a while to come back especially in the city.