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Hungover, writing and looking for new chill music, prolly gonna nap a bit
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12:41 PM PST.
I'm feeling somewhat productive.
I haven't gotten much done with music, but I'm working with digital art a lot more and I'm enjoying the process, even if it's REALLY slow to make art for all the requests I've got in OT.
But, we'll see how it goes!
I'm not feelings as depressed over productivity and I'm not in any rush to release music, since i took a break already. It'll be a little while until anything new comes out, but for now, I'm just experimenting and trying to learn from stuff.
I'm feeling somewhat productive.
I haven't gotten much done with music, but I'm working with digital art a lot more and I'm enjoying the process, even if it's REALLY slow to make art for all the requests I've got in OT.
But, we'll see how it goes!
I'm not feelings as depressed over productivity and I'm not in any rush to release music, since i took a break already. It'll be a little while until anything new comes out, but for now, I'm just experimenting and trying to learn from stuff.
1:45pm. I’m on my break at work. I woke up at 10pm last night and haven’t gone to sleep since. I’m tired. Wah
8:08
Forgot to do my homework fk
Forgot to do my homework fk
8:12 PM.
I'm feeling really unmotivated, honestly.
I don't have much of an inclination to do anything.
I'm feeling really unmotivated, honestly.
I don't have much of an inclination to do anything.
11:54PM
somebody that i used to know is such a great song idc how old it is
somebody that i used to know is such a great song idc how old it is
12:51 am.
Drooling over some SA profile keycaps. Why do they all have to cost like an arm and a leg?
Drooling over some SA profile keycaps. Why do they all have to cost like an arm and a leg?
10:55 AM PST.
Tired as hell, yet school isn't even over.
I've been caught up in a few stray trains of thought about my life circumstances.
Not sure what to do with my music, and to top it off I'm starting to fail my classes, which are going to be a pain in the ass to bring back up.
Tired as hell, yet school isn't even over.
I've been caught up in a few stray trains of thought about my life circumstances.
Not sure what to do with my music, and to top it off I'm starting to fail my classes, which are going to be a pain in the ass to bring back up.
1:29 AM - central european time: im not sure what's going on, but i'll be okay
10:26PM
my everything hurts hmmmm today i will lay in bed all day and do nothing at all
my everything hurts hmmmm today i will lay in bed all day and do nothing at all
11.25pm, still thinking about Date A Live season 3 because I just finished it. I should probably sleep, though.
11:16 pm.
Just got back home from work and had dinner.
I feel like shit.
Just got back home from work and had dinner.
I feel like shit.
6.53am, I woke up at 6.30am and started with my routine. I'm still
KotoriIsMyWaifu wrote:
thinking about Date A Live season 3 because I just finished it
5:04 AM
Haven't really posted around in FG that often as of late. Been kinda busy I suppose. I haven't really felt like posting too much either.
Haven't really posted around in FG that often as of late. Been kinda busy I suppose. I haven't really felt like posting too much either.
2:12 PM PST.
Life's been odd.
I feel like I've fallen behind. The shock from experiencing inertia has subsided, but I feel shitty for hardly doing anything at this point.
TN is makin' me miserable. At least it's nice when I get to see others post there, I can check up on them and whatnot, and have discussions.
But that's kinda rare. I'm mostly just camping around, trying to make progress, progress, progress, in a blind fit of stubbornness and absolute idiocy.
I feel like an idiot.
And I've got to deal with school somehow. I'm failing horribly.
Life's been odd.
I feel like I've fallen behind. The shock from experiencing inertia has subsided, but I feel shitty for hardly doing anything at this point.
TN is makin' me miserable. At least it's nice when I get to see others post there, I can check up on them and whatnot, and have discussions.
But that's kinda rare. I'm mostly just camping around, trying to make progress, progress, progress, in a blind fit of stubbornness and absolute idiocy.
I feel like an idiot.
And I've got to deal with school somehow. I'm failing horribly.
9:00PM
Well, I knew it wasn't a good time to try that "until error" thread, but eh.
Well, I knew it wasn't a good time to try that "until error" thread, but eh.
2:41 PM
This week feels like it's strangely going by pretty quickly for me.
This week feels like it's strangely going by pretty quickly for me.
00:02 AM
I've missed being home, feel way more calm than I used to. It's nice. Easter break is gonna give me plenty of time to shitpost and structure my plans later.
I've missed being home, feel way more calm than I used to. It's nice. Easter break is gonna give me plenty of time to shitpost and structure my plans later.
6:07pm got some shrimp in my fridge, might go cook them. Jungkook is pretty hot.
17:12 A song stuck in my head.
19:11 What and how should I tell her?
Also, this song's pretty lit.
19:13 Am I taking the title of this forum too seriously?
.. Likely.
Also, this song's pretty lit.
19:13 Am I taking the title of this forum too seriously?
.. Likely.
8:16pm i'm pissed since i can't fc this map, and none of my mates are online to talk. I have nothing to do.
Rip
6.23pm
What's taking my laptop so long to install updates?
What's taking my laptop so long to install updates?
17:38
Kids are kind of cute, but I'm so glad I don't have take care of any full-time
Kids are kind of cute, but I'm so glad I don't have take care of any full-time
12 midnight
What am I still doing awake?
What am I still doing awake?
14:06.
I don't know what to think of you anymore. I'm confused more than yesterday. Was everything I did just an act of friendship?
Stop confusing me. Stop leaving me in the dark. I don't know what's going on with you, and I want to. Let me in so you can open up. I came around and talked to you initially because you were hurting. I didn't want to do nothing. It wasn't fake. I wanted to care about you, but it never happened because you didn't let me in enough. I talked with you, sure, but it wasn't talking. It was just "I'm here for you and I want to let you know I love you." Even then, I don't know if your "love you too"'s are real or fake. I love you. I have feelings and thoughts about you that I can't explain. I don't want to explain it to anybody else.
I just want to talk. Not as some "best friend", but as someone you're comfortable with opening up to. I'm not the last guy you were dating. I'm not just some guy that gets satisfied with physical interaction, however serious that may be. I care, but I don't know if you want me to or if you just want me around to be funny or whatever. You say I'm sweet and stuff in our conversations, but never let me express it much outside of those conversations. I want to get to know you more, but you say you're never allowed to go out, even though you get Uber/Lyft drivers to pick you up from school and take you places.
Just talk with me.
I don't know what to think of you anymore. I'm confused more than yesterday. Was everything I did just an act of friendship?
Stop confusing me. Stop leaving me in the dark. I don't know what's going on with you, and I want to. Let me in so you can open up. I came around and talked to you initially because you were hurting. I didn't want to do nothing. It wasn't fake. I wanted to care about you, but it never happened because you didn't let me in enough. I talked with you, sure, but it wasn't talking. It was just "I'm here for you and I want to let you know I love you." Even then, I don't know if your "love you too"'s are real or fake. I love you. I have feelings and thoughts about you that I can't explain. I don't want to explain it to anybody else.
I just want to talk. Not as some "best friend", but as someone you're comfortable with opening up to. I'm not the last guy you were dating. I'm not just some guy that gets satisfied with physical interaction, however serious that may be. I care, but I don't know if you want me to or if you just want me around to be funny or whatever. You say I'm sweet and stuff in our conversations, but never let me express it much outside of those conversations. I want to get to know you more, but you say you're never allowed to go out, even though you get Uber/Lyft drivers to pick you up from school and take you places.
Just talk with me.
4:10 PM.
not sure what to do now.
there's music and art to be done.
maybe later.
still tired.
phone's on low battery, shit.
wait, did i forget to get water?
ffs.
not sure what to do now.
there's music and art to be done.
maybe later.
still tired.
phone's on low battery, shit.
wait, did i forget to get water?
ffs.
9:54 PM.
I should probably take a shit.
I haven't taken care of myself very well as of late, especially with that hospital incident.
I should probably take a shit.
I haven't taken care of myself very well as of late, especially with that hospital incident.
6.17pm
I'm going back to school for an Easter stayover tonight. Looks like I'll have to hold off farming until tomorrow.
I'm going back to school for an Easter stayover tonight. Looks like I'll have to hold off farming until tomorrow.
12:56 PM PST.
I'll hopefully be able to relax today.
I showed my dad what I've made so far. His response is pretty promising, I think this'll work out. Though I'm not sure when it'll be finished, I believe it'll be released someday soon. We'll see.
On the other hand, I'll have to figure out the art for it.
I'll hopefully be able to relax today.
I showed my dad what I've made so far. His response is pretty promising, I think this'll work out. Though I'm not sure when it'll be finished, I believe it'll be released someday soon. We'll see.
On the other hand, I'll have to figure out the art for it.
11:48PM
1:00AM
I've hit nothing, and there's a mosquito...
*Conspiracy intensifies*
At this point, it's a conspiracy, that I'm living.45Traeath wrote:
*All the "raging", "swearing", whatever damnation one would say for a mistake.*
1:00AM
I've hit nothing, and there's a mosquito...
*Conspiracy intensifies*
9:28 PM.
I haven't gotten anything done this time.
I'm too tired today.
I haven't gotten anything done this time.
I'm too tired today.
09:21 am
I really should get better at keeping in touch with my family
I really should get better at keeping in touch with my family
12:40 AM
I'm thinking that my first level is a bit too difficult. Like I'm trying to make it a difficult game but it may be too difficult for a first level where players are still trying to get a feel for the mechanics.
Maybe I'll ask my friends to try it out tomorrow. Depending on their response I may tone it down or add health recovery pick-ups to make it easier? Dunno. It was pretty fun to make, although before I knew it it was already 12:40 AM. Ah geez.
I'm thinking that my first level is a bit too difficult. Like I'm trying to make it a difficult game but it may be too difficult for a first level where players are still trying to get a feel for the mechanics.
Maybe I'll ask my friends to try it out tomorrow. Depending on their response I may tone it down or add health recovery pick-ups to make it easier? Dunno. It was pretty fun to make, although before I knew it it was already 12:40 AM. Ah geez.
23:05 Should I sleep now or at 0:00?
6.29am
Great, I have a geography test today. Absolutely perfect...
Nah, I do okay, I just don't like it sometimes lol
Great, I have a geography test today. Absolutely perfect...
Nah, I do okay, I just don't like it sometimes lol
4:29 am
...fuck
...fuck
8:10
This thread is good for letting out how you feel and clearing your head. I really appreciate this. I do often have tons of stuff I just need to get out of my head!
I hope that Mary will be happy with my work. I couldn't do much because I find that it's really hard to reflect on positive and negative qualities about yourself. My list is also mostly negative. I'm quite nervous for being with her today. We arranged for playing golf, and I've never done this before!
This thread is good for letting out how you feel and clearing your head. I really appreciate this. I do often have tons of stuff I just need to get out of my head!
I hope that Mary will be happy with my work. I couldn't do much because I find that it's really hard to reflect on positive and negative qualities about yourself. My list is also mostly negative. I'm quite nervous for being with her today. We arranged for playing golf, and I've never done this before!
Carmlillball wrote:
8:10
This thread is good for letting out how you feel and clearing your head. I really appreciate this. I do often have tons of stuff I just need to get out of my head!
I hope that Mary will be happy with my work. I couldn't do much because I find that it's really hard to reflect on positive and negative qualities about yourself. My list is also mostly negative. I'm quite nervous for being with her today. We arranged for playing golf, and I've never done this before!
You’ll be okay. Don’t stress too much. Good luck and have fun with Mary.
2:36 a.m.
heading out for a run
Journal wrote:
Carmlillball wrote:
8:10
This thread is good for letting out how you feel and clearing your head. I really appreciate this. I do often have tons of stuff I just need to get out of my head!
I hope that Mary will be happy with my work. I couldn't do much because I find that it's really hard to reflect on positive and negative qualities about yourself. My list is also mostly negative. I'm quite nervous for being with her today. We arranged for playing golf, and I've never done this before!
You’ll be okay. Don’t stress too much. Good luck and have fun with Mary.
2:36 a.m.
heading out for a run
I really do appreciate the reply.
Seems like a really early run. I assume it's quieter during that time?
2:53 AM PST.
Spent a lot of time writing a whole essay in the forums.
But the conversation revolving around the topic should be interesting, I think.
Hopefully it'll remain civil, since it's normally a pretty heated subject.
Spent a lot of time writing a whole essay in the forums.
But the conversation revolving around the topic should be interesting, I think.
Hopefully it'll remain civil, since it's normally a pretty heated subject.
~22:31~
Today has been very emotional. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight. But I'm pretty sure I have an art exam tomorrow. I'm very much behind on the coursework mainly for anxiety-induced issues. I hope the exam will help with the grade. At least being with Mary was great. Done some new things for the first time. Turned out very well. Her emails are so sweet. She's definitely an inspiration to me. <3
Today has been very emotional. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight. But I'm pretty sure I have an art exam tomorrow. I'm very much behind on the coursework mainly for anxiety-induced issues. I hope the exam will help with the grade. At least being with Mary was great. Done some new things for the first time. Turned out very well. Her emails are so sweet. She's definitely an inspiration to me. <3
8.15pm
Gathering some thoughts on my mapping from experienced mappers. I mostly need to pay attention to the way I do my switching of circular flow... I don't think about it consciously all the time. I'll need to pay more attention the next time I map something.
Gathering some thoughts on my mapping from experienced mappers. I mostly need to pay attention to the way I do my switching of circular flow... I don't think about it consciously all the time. I'll need to pay more attention the next time I map something.
9.33pm
My next test will be for additional mathematics. Why am I not worried? I should really study for it tomorrow.
My next test will be for additional mathematics. Why am I not worried? I should really study for it tomorrow.
*Spots Akinator video.*
09:53PM
Actually, he's stupid, if you have him try to guess... Really, rare, stuff.
He might know about Marina, by now, but that would only be thanks to less than 10 people...
And I left this message without a single hint.
It's better like this.
09:53PM
Actually, he's stupid, if you have him try to guess... Really, rare, stuff.
He might know about Marina, by now, but that would only be thanks to less than 10 people...
And I left this message without a single hint.
It's better like this.
9:53 PM PST.
I haven't gotten any damn work done.
I need to just get to work.
But I keep watching Youtube videos on universities and colleges and shit, and now i've wasted all my time.
I haven't gotten any damn work done.
I need to just get to work.
But I keep watching Youtube videos on universities and colleges and shit, and now i've wasted all my time.
10:06 PM PST.
Considering a possible community college.
I should still consider whether or not college is necessary for what I do, and if there's opportunities for some career beyond a home-made music and art career by getting a college degree.
Considering a possible community college.
I should still consider whether or not college is necessary for what I do, and if there's opportunities for some career beyond a home-made music and art career by getting a college degree.
3.09pm
So I learned about the Coriolis effect today. Apparently, it's what causes Singapore to pour the most violently at the end of the year. Pretty cool stuff, actually. Or I might just be a nerd, idk.
So I learned about the Coriolis effect today. Apparently, it's what causes Singapore to pour the most violently at the end of the year. Pretty cool stuff, actually. Or I might just be a nerd, idk.
9:15 PM PST.
Still got nothing done. Watched a bit of Youtube, checked the forums a bit, and did absolutely nothing of worth to anyone.
Still got nothing done. Watched a bit of Youtube, checked the forums a bit, and did absolutely nothing of worth to anyone.
9.21pm
Looking back at my old maps. My maps now are trash, but my earlier works were ten times that. Damn.
Looking back at my old maps. My maps now are trash, but my earlier works were ten times that. Damn.
1:32 am.
I guess I'm lonely. That's depressing.
I guess I'm lonely. That's depressing.
14:29 pm
Yep, this is gonna be a long day full of controversial opinions
Yep, this is gonna be a long day full of controversial opinions
1.56am
Okay, what the fuck am I doing, I should sleep
Okay, what the fuck am I doing, I should sleep
1:28 PM. What should I get to eat? KFC, Pizza, Chinese...?
Puzzle wrote:
1:28 PM. What should I get to eat? KFC, Pizza, Chinese...?
1:32 p.m.
they all sound good 0:
Indecision, indecision
Journal wrote:
they all sound good 0:
Indecision, indecision
It's 1:33pm and you've not helped me one bit. Thanks~
Puzzle wrote:
Journal wrote:
they all sound good 0:
Indecision, indecision
It's 1:33pm and you've not helped me one bit. Thanks~
Fiiiiiiine.
Go for some pizza
09:47PM
In that kind of problem, I would go for what I feel like I've eaten the less.
In that kind of problem, I would go for what I feel like I've eaten the less.
45Traeath wrote:
09:47PM
In that kind of problem, I would go for what I feel like I've eaten the less.
3:02 PM. That's... That's actually a really good idea. Huh.
Well, I already got the Pizza, thanks to Journals decision and I am not regretting it. It is some *good* pizza. But that's an idea I'll have to keep in mind for the future...
00:16AM~00:29AM
Like. I've written "road" and "path" on purpose.
To picture it, here's a road.
I want to know "how far" you can see it, "based on a spot from the road".
I was wondering if that example I had in mind, and written in the "Ask" thread, was right.
It's just, translation stuff.
The problem is that "until" adverb from the source text.
I could use "How clear is it", so that the answer could be something around "I can see [whatever] beyond it / until [a certain distance]".
But I kind of hesitated with "How far", because the source text asks "Until what distance can you see past [this road]".
I spent 13mins to clarify myself ( . .)
Actually, I was being literal.Puzzle wrote:
I'm taking it to mean the question you're asking is if measured distance is always a relative thing.
Like. I've written "road" and "path" on purpose.
To picture it, here's a road.
I want to know "how far" you can see it, "based on a spot from the road".
I was wondering if that example I had in mind, and written in the "Ask" thread, was right.
It's just, translation stuff.
The problem is that "until" adverb from the source text.
I could use "How clear is it", so that the answer could be something around "I can see [whatever] beyond it / until [a certain distance]".
But I kind of hesitated with "How far", because the source text asks "Until what distance can you see past [this road]".
I spent 13mins to clarify myself ( . .)
45Traeath wrote:
00:16AM~00:29AM
Actually, I was being literal.
Like. I've written "road" and "path" on purpose.
To picture it, here's a road.
I want to know "how far" you can see it, "based on a spot from the road".
I was wondering if that example I had in mind, and written in the "Ask" thread, was right.
It's just, translation stuff.
The problem is that "until" adverb from the source text.
I could use "How clear is it", so that the answer could be something around "I can see [whatever] beyond it / until [a certain distance]".
But I kind of hesitated with "How far", because the source text asks "Until what distance can you see past [this road]".
I spent 13mins to clarify myself ( . .)
5:36 PM. What's on my mind?
Ooooh. That's what you meant, okay. Yeah, I contrived a totally different meaning out of that...
4:06 - 4:17 PM PST.
Morality essay is not going to get anywhere anytime soon, I guess.
Youtube.
Fucking hell, I'm really distracted today, and slept abnormally long. That was about... 9 hours? It's disorienting.
update: no morality questions for me today.
Morality essay is not going to get anywhere anytime soon, I guess.
Youtube.
Fucking hell, I'm really distracted today, and slept abnormally long. That was about... 9 hours? It's disorienting.
update: no morality questions for me today.
1:10 a.m.
Going out for a walk+need to clear the air
Edit: 3:33 a.m.
Magic number woo ~o~
Going out for a walk+need to clear the air
Edit: 3:33 a.m.
Magic number woo ~o~
8.05pm
Well, I'm tired. I won't look a gift horse in the mouth, though, I've got a test tomorrow.
Well, I'm tired. I won't look a gift horse in the mouth, though, I've got a test tomorrow.
10:11 AM. Wondering if my sleep will help with my osu play. I was only going on 5 hours yesterday but I actually was doing really well and improving as much as I normally do; which is surprising for that amount of sleep. Usually getting only 5 hours will seriously hamper my ability to play well, and sometimes it can mess with my ability to learn things.
Wonder if today will be the same or better. Shoot, I guess it could even be worse. I hope not.
Wonder if today will be the same or better. Shoot, I guess it could even be worse. I hope not.
8:14 AM PST.
I have to get this shit done, but I'll also need to keep a healthy schedule in mind to keep my mind fresh so I can avoid burnout.
I've got a song to finish, and track art to make.
I have to get this shit done, but I'll also need to keep a healthy schedule in mind to keep my mind fresh so I can avoid burnout.
I've got a song to finish, and track art to make.
9.30pm
Hey, that math test went pretty well. Next up is chemistry, but I'm pretty confident as well.
Hey, that math test went pretty well. Next up is chemistry, but I'm pretty confident as well.