12:40PM
I should be studying.
I should be studying.
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14:06.
I don't know what to think of you anymore. I'm confused more than yesterday. Was everything I did just an act of friendship?
Stop confusing me. Stop leaving me in the dark. I don't know what's going on with you, and I want to. Let me in so you can open up. I came around and talked to you initially because you were hurting. I didn't want to do nothing. It wasn't fake. I wanted to care about you, but it never happened because you didn't let me in enough. I talked with you, sure, but it wasn't talking. It was just "I'm here for you and I want to let you know I love you." Even then, I don't know if your "love you too"'s are real or fake. I love you. I have feelings and thoughts about you that I can't explain. I don't want to explain it to anybody else.
I just want to talk. Not as some "best friend", but as someone you're comfortable with opening up to. I'm not the last guy you were dating. I'm not just some guy that gets satisfied with physical interaction, however serious that may be. I care, but I don't know if you want me to or if you just want me around to be funny or whatever. You say I'm sweet and stuff in our conversations, but never let me express it much outside of those conversations. I want to get to know you more, but you say you're never allowed to go out, even though you get Uber/Lyft drivers to pick you up from school and take you places.
Just talk with me.
I don't know what to think of you anymore. I'm confused more than yesterday. Was everything I did just an act of friendship?
Stop confusing me. Stop leaving me in the dark. I don't know what's going on with you, and I want to. Let me in so you can open up. I came around and talked to you initially because you were hurting. I didn't want to do nothing. It wasn't fake. I wanted to care about you, but it never happened because you didn't let me in enough. I talked with you, sure, but it wasn't talking. It was just "I'm here for you and I want to let you know I love you." Even then, I don't know if your "love you too"'s are real or fake. I love you. I have feelings and thoughts about you that I can't explain. I don't want to explain it to anybody else.
I just want to talk. Not as some "best friend", but as someone you're comfortable with opening up to. I'm not the last guy you were dating. I'm not just some guy that gets satisfied with physical interaction, however serious that may be. I care, but I don't know if you want me to or if you just want me around to be funny or whatever. You say I'm sweet and stuff in our conversations, but never let me express it much outside of those conversations. I want to get to know you more, but you say you're never allowed to go out, even though you get Uber/Lyft drivers to pick you up from school and take you places.
Just talk with me.
4:10 PM.
not sure what to do now.
there's music and art to be done.
maybe later.
still tired.
phone's on low battery, shit.
wait, did i forget to get water?
ffs.
not sure what to do now.
there's music and art to be done.
maybe later.
still tired.
phone's on low battery, shit.
wait, did i forget to get water?
ffs.
9:54 PM.
I should probably take a shit.
I haven't taken care of myself very well as of late, especially with that hospital incident.
I should probably take a shit.
I haven't taken care of myself very well as of late, especially with that hospital incident.
6.17pm
I'm going back to school for an Easter stayover tonight. Looks like I'll have to hold off farming until tomorrow.
I'm going back to school for an Easter stayover tonight. Looks like I'll have to hold off farming until tomorrow.
12:56 PM PST.
I'll hopefully be able to relax today.
I showed my dad what I've made so far. His response is pretty promising, I think this'll work out. Though I'm not sure when it'll be finished, I believe it'll be released someday soon. We'll see.
On the other hand, I'll have to figure out the art for it.
I'll hopefully be able to relax today.
I showed my dad what I've made so far. His response is pretty promising, I think this'll work out. Though I'm not sure when it'll be finished, I believe it'll be released someday soon. We'll see.
On the other hand, I'll have to figure out the art for it.
11:48PM
1:00AM
I've hit nothing, and there's a mosquito...
*Conspiracy intensifies*
At this point, it's a conspiracy, that I'm living.45Traeath wrote:
*All the "raging", "swearing", whatever damnation one would say for a mistake.*
1:00AM
I've hit nothing, and there's a mosquito...
*Conspiracy intensifies*
9:28 PM.
I haven't gotten anything done this time.
I'm too tired today.
I haven't gotten anything done this time.
I'm too tired today.
09:21 am
I really should get better at keeping in touch with my family
I really should get better at keeping in touch with my family
12:40 AM
I'm thinking that my first level is a bit too difficult. Like I'm trying to make it a difficult game but it may be too difficult for a first level where players are still trying to get a feel for the mechanics.
Maybe I'll ask my friends to try it out tomorrow. Depending on their response I may tone it down or add health recovery pick-ups to make it easier? Dunno. It was pretty fun to make, although before I knew it it was already 12:40 AM. Ah geez.
I'm thinking that my first level is a bit too difficult. Like I'm trying to make it a difficult game but it may be too difficult for a first level where players are still trying to get a feel for the mechanics.
Maybe I'll ask my friends to try it out tomorrow. Depending on their response I may tone it down or add health recovery pick-ups to make it easier? Dunno. It was pretty fun to make, although before I knew it it was already 12:40 AM. Ah geez.
23:05 Should I sleep now or at 0:00?
6.29am
Great, I have a geography test today. Absolutely perfect...
Nah, I do okay, I just don't like it sometimes lol
Great, I have a geography test today. Absolutely perfect...
Nah, I do okay, I just don't like it sometimes lol
4:29 am
...fuck
...fuck
8:10
This thread is good for letting out how you feel and clearing your head. I really appreciate this. I do often have tons of stuff I just need to get out of my head!
I hope that Mary will be happy with my work. I couldn't do much because I find that it's really hard to reflect on positive and negative qualities about yourself. My list is also mostly negative. I'm quite nervous for being with her today. We arranged for playing golf, and I've never done this before!
This thread is good for letting out how you feel and clearing your head. I really appreciate this. I do often have tons of stuff I just need to get out of my head!
I hope that Mary will be happy with my work. I couldn't do much because I find that it's really hard to reflect on positive and negative qualities about yourself. My list is also mostly negative. I'm quite nervous for being with her today. We arranged for playing golf, and I've never done this before!
Carmlillball wrote:
8:10
This thread is good for letting out how you feel and clearing your head. I really appreciate this. I do often have tons of stuff I just need to get out of my head!
I hope that Mary will be happy with my work. I couldn't do much because I find that it's really hard to reflect on positive and negative qualities about yourself. My list is also mostly negative. I'm quite nervous for being with her today. We arranged for playing golf, and I've never done this before!
You’ll be okay. Don’t stress too much. Good luck and have fun with Mary.
2:36 a.m.
heading out for a run
Journal wrote:
Carmlillball wrote:
8:10
This thread is good for letting out how you feel and clearing your head. I really appreciate this. I do often have tons of stuff I just need to get out of my head!
I hope that Mary will be happy with my work. I couldn't do much because I find that it's really hard to reflect on positive and negative qualities about yourself. My list is also mostly negative. I'm quite nervous for being with her today. We arranged for playing golf, and I've never done this before!
You’ll be okay. Don’t stress too much. Good luck and have fun with Mary.
2:36 a.m.
heading out for a run
I really do appreciate the reply.
Seems like a really early run. I assume it's quieter during that time?
2:53 AM PST.
Spent a lot of time writing a whole essay in the forums.
But the conversation revolving around the topic should be interesting, I think.
Hopefully it'll remain civil, since it's normally a pretty heated subject.
Spent a lot of time writing a whole essay in the forums.
But the conversation revolving around the topic should be interesting, I think.
Hopefully it'll remain civil, since it's normally a pretty heated subject.
~22:31~
Today has been very emotional. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight. But I'm pretty sure I have an art exam tomorrow. I'm very much behind on the coursework mainly for anxiety-induced issues. I hope the exam will help with the grade. At least being with Mary was great. Done some new things for the first time. Turned out very well. Her emails are so sweet. She's definitely an inspiration to me. <3
Today has been very emotional. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight. But I'm pretty sure I have an art exam tomorrow. I'm very much behind on the coursework mainly for anxiety-induced issues. I hope the exam will help with the grade. At least being with Mary was great. Done some new things for the first time. Turned out very well. Her emails are so sweet. She's definitely an inspiration to me. <3
8.15pm
Gathering some thoughts on my mapping from experienced mappers. I mostly need to pay attention to the way I do my switching of circular flow... I don't think about it consciously all the time. I'll need to pay more attention the next time I map something.
Gathering some thoughts on my mapping from experienced mappers. I mostly need to pay attention to the way I do my switching of circular flow... I don't think about it consciously all the time. I'll need to pay more attention the next time I map something.
9.33pm
My next test will be for additional mathematics. Why am I not worried? I should really study for it tomorrow.
My next test will be for additional mathematics. Why am I not worried? I should really study for it tomorrow.
*Spots Akinator video.*
09:53PM
Actually, he's stupid, if you have him try to guess... Really, rare, stuff.
He might know about Marina, by now, but that would only be thanks to less than 10 people...
And I left this message without a single hint.
It's better like this.
09:53PM
Actually, he's stupid, if you have him try to guess... Really, rare, stuff.
He might know about Marina, by now, but that would only be thanks to less than 10 people...
And I left this message without a single hint.
It's better like this.
9:53 PM PST.
I haven't gotten any damn work done.
I need to just get to work.
But I keep watching Youtube videos on universities and colleges and shit, and now i've wasted all my time.
I haven't gotten any damn work done.
I need to just get to work.
But I keep watching Youtube videos on universities and colleges and shit, and now i've wasted all my time.
10:06 PM PST.
Considering a possible community college.
I should still consider whether or not college is necessary for what I do, and if there's opportunities for some career beyond a home-made music and art career by getting a college degree.
Considering a possible community college.
I should still consider whether or not college is necessary for what I do, and if there's opportunities for some career beyond a home-made music and art career by getting a college degree.
3.09pm
So I learned about the Coriolis effect today. Apparently, it's what causes Singapore to pour the most violently at the end of the year. Pretty cool stuff, actually. Or I might just be a nerd, idk.
So I learned about the Coriolis effect today. Apparently, it's what causes Singapore to pour the most violently at the end of the year. Pretty cool stuff, actually. Or I might just be a nerd, idk.
9:15 PM PST.
Still got nothing done. Watched a bit of Youtube, checked the forums a bit, and did absolutely nothing of worth to anyone.
Still got nothing done. Watched a bit of Youtube, checked the forums a bit, and did absolutely nothing of worth to anyone.
9.21pm
Looking back at my old maps. My maps now are trash, but my earlier works were ten times that. Damn.
Looking back at my old maps. My maps now are trash, but my earlier works were ten times that. Damn.
1:32 am.
I guess I'm lonely. That's depressing.
I guess I'm lonely. That's depressing.
14:29 pm
Yep, this is gonna be a long day full of controversial opinions
Yep, this is gonna be a long day full of controversial opinions
1.56am
Okay, what the fuck am I doing, I should sleep
Okay, what the fuck am I doing, I should sleep
1:28 PM. What should I get to eat? KFC, Pizza, Chinese...?
Puzzle wrote:
1:28 PM. What should I get to eat? KFC, Pizza, Chinese...?
1:32 p.m.
they all sound good 0:
Indecision, indecision
Journal wrote:
they all sound good 0:
Indecision, indecision
It's 1:33pm and you've not helped me one bit. Thanks~
Puzzle wrote:
Journal wrote:
they all sound good 0:
Indecision, indecision
It's 1:33pm and you've not helped me one bit. Thanks~
Fiiiiiiine.
Go for some pizza
09:47PM
In that kind of problem, I would go for what I feel like I've eaten the less.
In that kind of problem, I would go for what I feel like I've eaten the less.
45Traeath wrote:
09:47PM
In that kind of problem, I would go for what I feel like I've eaten the less.
3:02 PM. That's... That's actually a really good idea. Huh.
Well, I already got the Pizza, thanks to Journals decision and I am not regretting it. It is some *good* pizza. But that's an idea I'll have to keep in mind for the future...
00:16AM~00:29AM
Like. I've written "road" and "path" on purpose.
To picture it, here's a road.
I want to know "how far" you can see it, "based on a spot from the road".
I was wondering if that example I had in mind, and written in the "Ask" thread, was right.
It's just, translation stuff.
The problem is that "until" adverb from the source text.
I could use "How clear is it", so that the answer could be something around "I can see [whatever] beyond it / until [a certain distance]".
But I kind of hesitated with "How far", because the source text asks "Until what distance can you see past [this road]".
I spent 13mins to clarify myself ( . .)
Actually, I was being literal.Puzzle wrote:
I'm taking it to mean the question you're asking is if measured distance is always a relative thing.
Like. I've written "road" and "path" on purpose.
To picture it, here's a road.
I want to know "how far" you can see it, "based on a spot from the road".
I was wondering if that example I had in mind, and written in the "Ask" thread, was right.
It's just, translation stuff.
The problem is that "until" adverb from the source text.
I could use "How clear is it", so that the answer could be something around "I can see [whatever] beyond it / until [a certain distance]".
But I kind of hesitated with "How far", because the source text asks "Until what distance can you see past [this road]".
I spent 13mins to clarify myself ( . .)
45Traeath wrote:
00:16AM~00:29AM
Actually, I was being literal.
Like. I've written "road" and "path" on purpose.
To picture it, here's a road.
I want to know "how far" you can see it, "based on a spot from the road".
I was wondering if that example I had in mind, and written in the "Ask" thread, was right.
It's just, translation stuff.
The problem is that "until" adverb from the source text.
I could use "How clear is it", so that the answer could be something around "I can see [whatever] beyond it / until [a certain distance]".
But I kind of hesitated with "How far", because the source text asks "Until what distance can you see past [this road]".
I spent 13mins to clarify myself ( . .)
5:36 PM. What's on my mind?
Ooooh. That's what you meant, okay. Yeah, I contrived a totally different meaning out of that...
4:06 - 4:17 PM PST.
Morality essay is not going to get anywhere anytime soon, I guess.
Youtube.
Fucking hell, I'm really distracted today, and slept abnormally long. That was about... 9 hours? It's disorienting.
update: no morality questions for me today.
Morality essay is not going to get anywhere anytime soon, I guess.
Youtube.
Fucking hell, I'm really distracted today, and slept abnormally long. That was about... 9 hours? It's disorienting.
update: no morality questions for me today.
1:10 a.m.
Going out for a walk+need to clear the air
Edit: 3:33 a.m.
Magic number woo ~o~
Going out for a walk+need to clear the air
Edit: 3:33 a.m.
Magic number woo ~o~
8.05pm
Well, I'm tired. I won't look a gift horse in the mouth, though, I've got a test tomorrow.
Well, I'm tired. I won't look a gift horse in the mouth, though, I've got a test tomorrow.
10:11 AM. Wondering if my sleep will help with my osu play. I was only going on 5 hours yesterday but I actually was doing really well and improving as much as I normally do; which is surprising for that amount of sleep. Usually getting only 5 hours will seriously hamper my ability to play well, and sometimes it can mess with my ability to learn things.
Wonder if today will be the same or better. Shoot, I guess it could even be worse. I hope not.
Wonder if today will be the same or better. Shoot, I guess it could even be worse. I hope not.
8:14 AM PST.
I have to get this shit done, but I'll also need to keep a healthy schedule in mind to keep my mind fresh so I can avoid burnout.
I've got a song to finish, and track art to make.
I have to get this shit done, but I'll also need to keep a healthy schedule in mind to keep my mind fresh so I can avoid burnout.
I've got a song to finish, and track art to make.
9.30pm
Hey, that math test went pretty well. Next up is chemistry, but I'm pretty confident as well.
Hey, that math test went pretty well. Next up is chemistry, but I'm pretty confident as well.
6:39 AM PST.
...
shit.
i fell asleep.
my art isn't done.
my music isn't polished yet.
i can still release a little later...
...just need time.
for now, i have to put up with school, unfortunately.
this sucks.
...
shit.
i fell asleep.
my art isn't done.
my music isn't polished yet.
i can still release a little later...
...just need time.
for now, i have to put up with school, unfortunately.
this sucks.
9:44 am. Dune is an awesome book series. Hope work is relaxed today. I'm hungry. Also, good luck to Achro.
1:12AM
FANTASYYYY
DREAM ABOUT MEEEEE
AND ALL THAT WE COULD DO WITH THIS EMOTION
FANTASYYYY
DREAM ABOUT MEEEEE
AND ALL THAT WE COULD DO WITH THIS EMOTION
7:33 AM. Ready to draw. Payday today, hell yeah.
8:31 AM.
school.
car broke down.
walked.
ready to die today w/ school -w-
school.
car broke down.
walked.
ready to die today w/ school -w-
10:38 pm
Just got home.
It's pretty shitty to realize that today was a long day and then I'll have to do the same things all over tomorrow.
Well, at least it's almost weekend.
Just got home.
It's pretty shitty to realize that today was a long day and then I'll have to do the same things all over tomorrow.
Well, at least it's almost weekend.
Tad Fibonacci wrote:
10:38 pm
Just got home.
It's pretty shitty to realize that today was a long day and then I'll have to do the same things all over tomorrow.
Well, at least it's almost weekend.
Sorry to hear things won't pick up. Hope tomorrow goes better.
Its 12:57 PM. Hungry.
04:44 WIB
r/paranormal...gonna save it for tomorrow, I'm too tired rn
r/paranormal...gonna save it for tomorrow, I'm too tired rn
1:23 AM.
Haven't taken a shit in a long while so tonight's the night. Was pretty painful.
In the meantime, I'm preparing some things.
I hope to relax a little for a few more days.
Luckily, I've only got one day left of school for the week. I just have to tackle that one and get it over with.
The problem there is that the car broke down. I have to walk to and from school, which should be a fair 30 minute walk. It's just kinda troublesome considering that the weather's getting quite warm here.
My grades are holding up, most of 'em are B's (80%). I should be able to last a little longer or even get some grades up a bit further.
Haven't taken a shit in a long while so tonight's the night. Was pretty painful.
In the meantime, I'm preparing some things.
I hope to relax a little for a few more days.
Luckily, I've only got one day left of school for the week. I just have to tackle that one and get it over with.
The problem there is that the car broke down. I have to walk to and from school, which should be a fair 30 minute walk. It's just kinda troublesome considering that the weather's getting quite warm here.
My grades are holding up, most of 'em are B's (80%). I should be able to last a little longer or even get some grades up a bit further.
10.13pm
Why am I sleeping early when it's Friday, you ask? I need to wake up at 2am. I'm going to the airport to meet my sister who's coming back from India and I'll check out that new thing the airport built there as well.
Why am I sleeping early when it's Friday, you ask? I need to wake up at 2am. I'm going to the airport to meet my sister who's coming back from India and I'll check out that new thing the airport built there as well.
KotoriIsMyWaifu wrote:
10.13pm
Why am I sleeping early when it's Friday, you ask? I need to wake up at 2am. I'm going to the airport to meet my sister who's coming back from India and I'll check out that new thing the airport built there as well.
Sounds really nice, other than the waking up part.
Its 9:32 am for me. I'm really just feeling a little empty. Like, I want to be working on improving my art or Osu right now but I can't. Instead, I've got to work to make a living. This makes me think the world is too full of power hungry people. Why cant I just do the things I like, maaaannnn. Like all the time.
That's okay. I like my job. I just really want to work to be better, not to survive. But then again, you always have to work to survive.
06:10PM
What the **** with those pages in the "ITT" and "Keep/Drop" threads.
What the **** with those pages in the "ITT" and "Keep/Drop" threads.
00:20
sick all over D: unproductive yet so much stuff to do...
sick all over D: unproductive yet so much stuff to do...
mewkies wrote:
00:20
sick all over D: unproductive yet so much stuff to do...
11:25 am
Oof
I'm sorry, that's always awful
Puzzle wrote:
mewkies wrote:
00:20
sick all over D: unproductive yet so much stuff to do...
11:25 am
Oof
I'm sorry, that's always awful
01:06
why am i still awake?
i’ve got events to attend to
also why did i join these forums lol
You joined cause these forums are nice and mildly entertaining. You'll stay because the people are great- if you do
go sleep
1:00 PM. Cant wait to be off work.
go sleep
1:00 PM. Cant wait to be off work.
9:26 PM
Not having a good drawing sesh has really bummed me out today. It probably shouldn't bother me so much but I'm pretty sad because of it.
Not having a good drawing sesh has really bummed me out today. It probably shouldn't bother me so much but I'm pretty sad because of it.
Journal wrote:
9:49p.m. my lips are epeeling
9:52
Solution: peel the rest of your skin off. That'll show your lips who's boss
puzzle iPuzzle wrote:
9:52Journal wrote:
9:49p.m. my lips are epeeling
Solution: peel the rest of your skin off. That'll show your lips who's boss
（・□・；）
Lmfao
9:56 and I'm ded
9:56 and I'm ded
charamaru wrote:
11:06PM
thinkin bout
sasuke.......
Why tho
1007
I
I dont understand
Its 10:14 and Char is scaring me-
I dont understand
Its 10:14 and Char is scaring me-
17:39 WIB
lomando.com.... ah shit, here we go again
lomando.com.... ah shit, here we go again
13:05 Trying to learn how to properly alternate on Osu!Taiko because I suck with stamina. Improving slowly but surely, but have to start again on 2* maps because it's a completely different technique to my one-hand use.
04:26PM
What's with the "LoL" advertisements.
F***'em, I'm not playing that. I got my cozy stuff, YouTube, stop disturbing.
What's with the "LoL" advertisements.
F***'em, I'm not playing that. I got my cozy stuff, YouTube, stop disturbing.
23:37
i’m tired ;p
but surprisingly i think my aim’s getting better today, despite being so tired yawn
also, 24 hour time best time
i’m tired ;p
but surprisingly i think my aim’s getting better today, despite being so tired yawn
also, 24 hour time best time