Status: Writing a bit of a self-reflection, right here. I hope you'll read it.
Refills (aka Jax) was a mapping buddy of mine until recently. I needed friends to mod my map, so I got him. He started saying lots of bad things. I won't go into details here, but he basically told me everything was bad and it should be remapped. I completely disagreed with his opinions. I lashed at him only to be drowned out by two other modders who agreed with him. I started to throw a huge tantrum and flamed, something that was most certainly immature and retarded for a teenager like me.
I ended up unfriending and blocking him on Discord, and in osu!. Now that I'm thinking about this, I realize I have failed to mature from my old self when I was, maybe up until I was 12 years old, where my Asperger's syndrome was most obvious. I realize that this was all something I could have discussed further at a later time. It isn't too late to turn back, but as a learning experience I shall assume otherwise and let this incident scar me and my feelings for others and how I shall proceed to do things online.
I really feel so immature... I should have been able to calm myself with what I was taught, but I have failed. For the next few days, this will definitely stay on my mind.
One day, maybe, I can be sure of myself that an incident and outcry like this will never happen again.
Refills (aka Jax) was a mapping buddy of mine until recently. I needed friends to mod my map, so I got him. He started saying lots of bad things. I won't go into details here, but he basically told me everything was bad and it should be remapped. I completely disagreed with his opinions. I lashed at him only to be drowned out by two other modders who agreed with him. I started to throw a huge tantrum and flamed, something that was most certainly immature and retarded for a teenager like me.
I ended up unfriending and blocking him on Discord, and in osu!. Now that I'm thinking about this, I realize I have failed to mature from my old self when I was, maybe up until I was 12 years old, where my Asperger's syndrome was most obvious. I realize that this was all something I could have discussed further at a later time. It isn't too late to turn back, but as a learning experience I shall assume otherwise and let this incident scar me and my feelings for others and how I shall proceed to do things online.
I really feel so immature... I should have been able to calm myself with what I was taught, but I have failed. For the next few days, this will definitely stay on my mind.
One day, maybe, I can be sure of myself that an incident and outcry like this will never happen again.