You are making excuses.Catgirl wrote:
everybody i could find in real life sucks, i don't want sociability with them. every single person i've talked to online is better than every person i've met in real life. basically i want a real life but not with any of the people who exist in the world around me.Railey2 wrote:
first step is to stop being in denial over it. The last sentence you wrote to conclude the paragraphs before, is a direct contradiction. If your life sucks because of your absence of a real sociability, then it does affect you.
Just to point out how implausible what you said is: Most of the people you talk to online probably have a real life too, unless you only attract the sort of people that are in a similar situation. You could come across one of them IRL randomly and probably wouldn't even notice.
The thing is, you just don't want to leave your room and get to know people in the real world. It is easier for you to accept your state if you tell yourself that everyone outside sucks balls anyway. If you tell yourself that the alternative is bad, your own way seems more compelling all of the sudden.
Quite sad. I'd expect something like that from an anxious 15 year old, but not from a 22 year old. You really should know better.
Do yourself a favor and give people IRL a chance. Try to get to know them like you try to get to know people online. Online or offline, people are just people.
Or don't do that, that's fine by me too. But at least stop making poor excuses for yourself, you can do better than that.