I helped a guy that was his first time at the gym, he was so confused on what to do so I decided to show him around.
holy sh... im 15 now i older than you, just watch some anime m8 D:SonGoku1337 wrote:
I probably will sound like a teenager who hates everything.. But i don't think thats the problem.
I didin't done anything better to myself. I even make it worse. So im 14 years old gonna be 15 after few months. And i have a lot to say. Maybe this thread isn't a place to post it but anyways. Im lazy, i dont go outside at all and i have anger issues and when i mean anger issues i mean reall really bad issues. I rarely talk to anyone even with my family is somebody tries to discuss something with me about future, how is it going in my school and etc after few minutes of talking i probably end up screaming and saying that i don't care about school i don't care about anyone just leave me be. And after screaming stupid things like that i realize what i done and i regret it instantly but i don't do anything about it. Its seems like some "darkness" are growing in me. I wish i would have courage to talk about it in real life.. I tried a few times without i just come to my mothers rooms and without saying a word i just almost started crying and just came back like nothing happened. And the more i delay stuff like that the more problems i have. I feel like i couldn't overcome them myself maybe i can get advice in here.
Now other problems. I don't study at all... Everything started ~3 years ago i just started to sleep in most classes i mostly sit in the middle and teachers dont mind me because im really quiet at school. I started to draw in my notebooks and this habit just grew larger and larger i stopped doing my homework. And played games all day watched anime. Before that i had some hobbies like really simple 3d modelling but i dropped that. I dropped photoshop and some other minor stuff. Then i started to skip school. And every time anyone from my family would try to talk about it i just would end up saying that i dont care i will do what i want. I know this is bad i know i have to do something. But i simply can't i just can't force it myself to do something i don't want...
Then i started to worry about my future because i have older sister who is in her last year. So she is discussing alot with my mother where she should to study. And then i realized that i have to do something about it but i didint know what i want to do.. The only idea that came up is something with pc programming etc.. But then i realized i need math to do something and but i slept through all my math classes. After that i tried to learn "python" but i dropped after few minutes saying myself "this is too confusing.. I will try tommorow bla blabla"..
About friends.. I could say i have them.. kinda.. I just spend all my school breaks with them listening what they talking. And answering something if they ask it about it.. I didint got bullied that much. Just a little bit and i think everyone was bullied at some point. I tried to play "LOL" with my friends but i just ended up play all those games like it would be soloq i just sat there quiet listening to music mostly rock and ignoring what they talked about.
So i hope to get some advice. And i know that i look completely hopeless.. Maybe you will think this post wont do anything to me and im lookin stupid but i feel a little better saying my problems even if its a little...
Sorry about all grammar mistakes..
I feel you, im also 14 before October 10, our story's almost the same except for the school part(but I also took my studies very lightly). I think the problem with me(and with you.. i think) is that we lack affection/passion towards anything, it is so me to do things half-assed and I end up regretting what i did, or what decision i made. Right now tho, im doing my best to change this(i try to do things full-assed now haha.. just kidding), try to be positive at all times and give love everywhere(literally) just love everybody(especially ur family), try to have patience in dealing with people and stay chill and happy all the time. I hope this helps, cuz pretty much the same thing is happening to me ryt now. Goodluck to us =]SonGoku1337 wrote:
I probably will sound like a teenager who hates everything.. But i don't think thats the problem.
I didin't done anything better to myself. I even make it worse. So im 14 years old gonna be 15 after few months. And i have a lot to say. Maybe this thread isn't a place to post it but anyways. Im lazy, i dont go outside at all and i have anger issues and when i mean anger issues i mean reall really bad issues. I rarely talk to anyone even with my family is somebody tries to discuss something with me about future, how is it going in my school and etc after few minutes of talking i probably end up screaming and saying that i don't care about school i don't care about anyone just leave me be. And after screaming stupid things like that i realize what i done and i regret it instantly but i don't do anything about it. Its seems like some "darkness" are growing in me. I wish i would have courage to talk about it in real life.. I tried a few times without i just come to my mothers rooms and without saying a word i just almost started crying and just came back like nothing happened. And the more i delay stuff like that the more problems i have. I feel like i couldn't overcome them myself maybe i can get advice in here.
Now other problems. I don't study at all... Everything started ~3 years ago i just started to sleep in most classes i mostly sit in the middle and teachers dont mind me because im really quiet at school. I started to draw in my notebooks and this habit just grew larger and larger i stopped doing my homework. And played games all day watched anime. Before that i had some hobbies like really simple 3d modelling but i dropped that. I dropped photoshop and some other minor stuff. Then i started to skip school. And every time anyone from my family would try to talk about it i just would end up saying that i dont care i will do what i want. I know this is bad i know i have to do something. But i simply can't i just can't force it myself to do something i don't want...
Then i started to worry about my future because i have older sister who is in her last year. So she is discussing alot with my mother where she should to study. And then i realized that i have to do something about it but i didint know what i want to do.. The only idea that came up is something with pc programming etc.. But then i realized i need math to do something and but i slept through all my math classes. After that i tried to learn "python" but i dropped after few minutes saying myself "this is too confusing.. I will try tommorow bla blabla"..
About friends.. I could say i have them.. kinda.. I just spend all my school breaks with them listening what they talking. And answering something if they ask it about it.. I didint got bullied that much. Just a little bit and i think everyone was bullied at some point. I tried to play "LOL" with my friends but i just ended up play all those games like it would be soloq i just sat there quiet listening to music mostly rock and ignoring what they talked about.
So i hope to get some advice. And i know that i look completely hopeless.. Maybe you will think this post wont do anything to me and im lookin stupid but i feel a little better saying my problems even if its a little...
Sorry about all grammar mistakes..
Hmm. I'm your age and I'm 15 in one month.SonGoku1337 wrote:
I probably will sound like a teenager who hates everything.. But i don't think thats the problem.
I didin't done anything better to myself. I even make it worse. So im 14 years old gonna be 15 after few months. And i have a lot to say. Maybe this thread isn't a place to post it but anyways. Im lazy, i dont go outside at all and i have anger issues and when i mean anger issues i mean reall really bad issues. I rarely talk to anyone even with my family is somebody tries to discuss something with me about future, how is it going in my school and etc after few minutes of talking i probably end up screaming and saying that i don't care about school i don't care about anyone just leave me be. And after screaming stupid things like that i realize what i done and i regret it instantly but i don't do anything about it. Its seems like some "darkness" are growing in me. I wish i would have courage to talk about it in real life.. I tried a few times without i just come to my mothers rooms and without saying a word i just almost started crying and just came back like nothing happened. And the more i delay stuff like that the more problems i have. I feel like i couldn't overcome them myself maybe i can get advice in here.
Now other problems. I don't study at all... Everything started ~3 years ago i just started to sleep in most classes i mostly sit in the middle and teachers dont mind me because im really quiet at school. I started to draw in my notebooks and this habit just grew larger and larger i stopped doing my homework. And played games all day watched anime. Before that i had some hobbies like really simple 3d modelling but i dropped that. I dropped photoshop and some other minor stuff. Then i started to skip school. And every time anyone from my family would try to talk about it i just would end up saying that i dont care i will do what i want. I know this is bad i know i have to do something. But i simply can't i just can't force it myself to do something i don't want...
Then i started to worry about my future because i have older sister who is in her last year. So she is discussing alot with my mother where she should to study. And then i realized that i have to do something about it but i didint know what i want to do.. The only idea that came up is something with pc programming etc.. But then i realized i need math to do something and but i slept through all my math classes. After that i tried to learn "python" but i dropped after few minutes saying myself "this is too confusing.. I will try tommorow bla blabla"..
About friends.. I could say i have them.. kinda.. I just spend all my school breaks with them listening what they talking. And answering something if they ask it about it.. I didint got bullied that much. Just a little bit and i think everyone was bullied at some point. I tried to play "LOL" with my friends but i just ended up play all those games like it would be soloq i just sat there quiet listening to music mostly rock and ignoring what they talked about.
So i hope to get some advice. And i know that i look completely hopeless.. Maybe you will think this post wont do anything to me and im lookin stupid but i feel a little better saying my problems even if its a little...
Sorry about all grammar mistakes..
And after screaming stupid things like that i realize what i done and i regret it instantly but i don't do anything about it.Try to say you're sorry and let them know you regret it. If you don't say anything, people are just going to think you don't have any problems and you're just rude.
I tried a few times without i just come to my mothers rooms and without saying a word i just almost started crying and just came back like nothing happened.Keep trying and don't think about what may happen after you try and talk to her. Just go ahead and take the risk and say it, otherwise you're getting nowhere.
Then i started to skip school. And every time anyone from my family would try to talk about it i just would end up saying that i dont care i will do what i want. I know this is bad i know i have to do something.Now this is bad. You should just start going to school again and ignore what anyone else thinks when you're there. School is super important, especially since you don't even know what you want to do in the future.
About friends.. I could say i have them.. kinda.. I just spend all my school breaks with them listening what they talking.I had friends like this for about 2 and a half years of school. At first I thought it was fine, but it really wasn't. You should go and look for friends you can talk to about things you both like. It took me a while, going through different friends after friends, but it was worth it.
?????? why would you share it lol, seeking attention much??Chiuyo wrote:
I've been trying to ignore everything that stresses me and I got back to college again, and actually doing my homework and things I've missed. Unfortunetly life isn't always fair and yesterday I got hit by a car and resulted in me not being able to move my right leg at all and broke my thumb. Meh, now I have to start all over, haha.
Nowhere did I seek any attention and if so, please be kind to share. I simply wrote the progress and what has happened in my life. Stop jumping to conclusions and trying to make someones day shittier than it is. Good bye.Katsu wrote:
?????? why would you share it lol, seeking attention much??Chiuyo wrote:
I've been trying to ignore everything that stresses me and I got back to college again, and actually doing my homework and things I've missed. Unfortunetly life isn't always fair and yesterday I got hit by a car and resulted in me not being able to move my right leg at all and broke my thumb. Meh, now I have to start all over, haha.
yeah, getting hit by a car made you so much better, pls. if that's not seeking for people's attention and trying to get sympathy then what is it?Chiuyo wrote:
Just how am I seeking attention? This is a thread where you write what you have done to better yourself lately, what happened to me yesterday basically set a wall into my progress in life. So please, don't.
what does matter is.. was the car diesel, gasoline or gpl?Chiuyo wrote:
I've been trying to ignore everything that stresses me and I got back to college again, and actually doing my homework and things I've missed. Unfortunetly life isn't always fair and yesterday I got hit by a car and resulted in me not being able to move my right leg at all and broke my thumb. Meh, now I have to start all over, haha.
I think it ran on electricity, hence why she didn't die. Those electric cars are hella slow.AlecszkA wrote:
what does matter is.. was the car diesel, gasoline or gpl?Chiuyo wrote:
I've been trying to ignore everything that stresses me and I got back to college again, and actually doing my homework and things I've missed. Unfortunetly life isn't always fair and yesterday I got hit by a car and resulted in me not being able to move my right leg at all and broke my thumb. Meh, now I have to start all over, haha.
Katsu wrote:
yeah, getting hit by a car made you so much better, pls. if that's not seeking for people's attention and trying to get sympathy then what is it?Chiuyo wrote:
Just how am I seeking attention? This is a thread where you write what you have done to better yourself lately, what happened to me yesterday basically set a wall into my progress in life. So please, don't.
and congrats on breaking thumb only, don't lose your right leg, would be a waste
You're a dick, Katsu.Katsu wrote:
yeah, getting hit by a car made you so much better, pls. if that's not seeking for people's attention and trying to get sympathy then what is it?Chiuyo wrote:
Just how am I seeking attention? This is a thread where you write what you have done to better yourself lately, what happened to me yesterday basically set a wall into my progress in life. So please, don't.
and congrats on breaking thumb only, don't lose your right leg, would be a waste
Not to mention that Art student need alot of relations with people, by alot.. i mean... ALOTKei wrote:
I'm studying a lot and doing great with my final exams on my art course. I decided to take this course after trying the science course (and failing miserably at it), and I don't regret it. Now I'm more open to people. I used to be lonely, and kinda hater too. I'd talk shit about people I barely know. I thought that the people around me was the problem, but it was me alone the whole time. I also believed people was isolating me and such, but I was the one isolating myself from the world. I'd listen to music even in school with my earphones, draw doodles on my notebook, and sit alone. Now I enjoy talking with people, going out, and I'm not as shy as I used to be. I'm still kinda shy to people I don't know but I can talk with anybody without feeling nervous.
It may look like the art course doesn't have anything to do with this, but it does. I lost a lot of my shyness because as an art student I have to do things in front of a lot of people, like singing, dancing, acting, etc. It was very difficult for me at first, but I got used to it and feel proud of myself.
wow I feel you. I have the exact same problem as you. Anxiety kills me every time I have to do a very important test, like finals. I also feel under pressure as well because I did badly during past years, and I kind of disappointed my parents for my mistakes. I'm done with my studies since 3 weeks ago or so, but even with anxiety, everything went well at the end. I was able to pull off the best of myself and approve every subject. You have to believe in yourself. Try to study more. In my case, If I study 3 or 2 days before the exam day anxiety takes over me but if I study periodically before the test day I feel more secure and my attitude changes as well. I feel more positive, and stop fearing that my mind will get blank all of a sudden during the exam. This is just my case though, maybe it's not exactly like that for you.Shga wrote:
This is not how I improved myself, these are just the problems I am facing
My mental health is going to deep shit. I constantly feel pressured by other expectations (good grades, lots of studying, pass my university exams etc) and I always fall short. I am trying to perform well at tests and stuff but I get so anxious that I forget things I remembered a second ago. There's been some really unsatisfying grades that I have told no one about. I try to put a happy face on for everyone around me, trying to hide my unhappiness to not affect others negatively but I am afraid that this cover will not last forever. I've been feeling gloomy and I just want to give up on everything. Any advice?
Shga wrote:
This is not how I improved myself, these are just the problems I am facing
My mental health is going to deep shit. I constantly feel pressured by other expectations (good grades, lots of studying, pass my university exams etc) and I always fall short. I am trying to perform well at tests and stuff but I get so anxious that I forget things I remembered a second ago. There's been some really unsatisfying grades that I have told no one about. I try to put a happy face on for everyone around me, trying to hide my unhappiness to not affect others negatively but I am afraid that this cover will not last forever. I've been feeling gloomy and I just want to give up on everything. Any advice?
Hey, that sounds like me. Nice to see similar people here.Kei wrote:
Getting stuff for others makes me feel so enthusiast and happy. I prefer buying things for the people I love rather than buying stuff for myself. The happiness I feel when seeing the happy face of the person receiving a gift from me is one of the best feelings ever. I haven't seen this person yet, but I'm looking forward to see her reaction when opening the gift, since it is something she wanted so badly.