"i'm selfish and i choose to believe i could live without my feelings being hurt."Kaoru wrote:
I'm a little pissy right now and nobody is replying to my PMs so I feel the need to dump my shit here. I'm raging over a whole bunch of nothing but it's still bothering me nontheless so I'm getting it off my chest.
I feel like my family treats me as if I am not entitled to anything and takes me for granted. Being the only one of my siblings who lives at home (out of 4 kids) I have had to change a lot of things to accomodate my family moving back home for the holidays. Their stay is only temporary, and yet I have to change my rooming situation just so my sisters can have a room of their own. They also depend on me for a lot of other things, such as carrying heavy things around the house (as most men should HURRDURR SEXISM (men are generally more muscular, so I'm not actually complaining about this/ saying it's sexist)). I also get commonly sent on errands to do the things that they don't have time to do, simply because my time spent gaming is time wasted to them. Some of my siblings will act entitled to the things that I took for granted while they were gone. I used to have two monitors to use, and now I only have one, simply because my little brother wanted to use the monitor for a SINGLE program on his old PC. That's his fault for getting a mac (and by the way the exact same program is available in public beta for mac; I looked it up. 10 bucks says he'll download it for the mac anyways after he moves back to Tennessee). When my family does shit like this they should at least think about how I feel. I have to defer parking space and other commodities as well as run their errands just for the sake of their convenience. It's incredibly obnoxious and not once do people say "thank you for being so flexible" or "thank you for helping out!"
If I at least got a thanks I would be somewhat appeased. If they let me do my own shit (which, being realistic with myself, would REALLY inconvenience all of them and is never going to happen) I would shut up and happily lug heavy things around all day.
Ah well. That's my rant for the month
P.S.: It is due to this that I have been inactive on osu! Heaven forbid I can't play osu!