Sorry to lay this on all of you but you guys would be the only ones I know who would read this.
I've been going though a lot of emotional trouble lately. But here's a little history about how this all started. Mind you, for the sake of the privacy of the people involved, I'm using psuedo-names, so don't try to actually hunt these people down for me.
Back in October, I broke up with my girlfriend (who is two years older than me) of almost 2 years, "Marie", because she cheated on me. It wasn't anything big, she just got drunk at a party and made out with a random douchebag. She told me three days later, and I could tell she was extremely sorry about it. I, strangely enough, wasn't angry like many other boyfriends would be (trust me, I hear about them allllllll the time) and took this as an opportunity. We decided it would be best if we parted ways for a bit to "explore our options," but we still remained best of friends. You could say "Friends with Benefits." December came (and went), and neither of us had a significant other by then, so we unofficially were dating for two years. March came around, and one of us finally found what he/she was looking for. Unfortunatly it wasn't me, and into this whole picture is "Doug." "Doug" is a 21 year old senior at a community college. "Doug" is probably the "sweetest guy [Marie]'s ever met."
"Doug" is a fucking Sex God compared to me!!!!!!!
She's told me about her "adventures" with "Doug", including (but not limited to) where, when, how, and more. My heart feels like its been stabbed with thousands upon thousands of needles. We never hang out anymore, and if we do, I screw things up because I'm lonely and jealous.
Let's see how "Remmy" is doing.
SO Where are we now?
I have my final choir concert tomorrow night. Not just the last of the year, but my last one in High School. I've tried to get "Marie" to come this last time, but unfortunately her job holds her back as shes the only one who can stay tomorrow night. Why does this hurt? Because I'm still slightly attached to her. And today at dress rehearsal, I nearly broke down in the middle of a song. What song, you ask? You Raise Me Up. You know, the one by Josh Groban? Yea. That one. My god it was awful.
Tomorrow's not going to be fun. I'll inform you how that goes.
I've been going though a lot of emotional trouble lately. But here's a little history about how this all started. Mind you, for the sake of the privacy of the people involved, I'm using psuedo-names, so don't try to actually hunt these people down for me.
Back in October, I broke up with my girlfriend (who is two years older than me) of almost 2 years, "Marie", because she cheated on me. It wasn't anything big, she just got drunk at a party and made out with a random douchebag. She told me three days later, and I could tell she was extremely sorry about it. I, strangely enough, wasn't angry like many other boyfriends would be (trust me, I hear about them allllllll the time) and took this as an opportunity. We decided it would be best if we parted ways for a bit to "explore our options," but we still remained best of friends. You could say "Friends with Benefits." December came (and went), and neither of us had a significant other by then, so we unofficially were dating for two years. March came around, and one of us finally found what he/she was looking for. Unfortunatly it wasn't me, and into this whole picture is "Doug." "Doug" is a 21 year old senior at a community college. "Doug" is probably the "sweetest guy [Marie]'s ever met."
"Doug" is a fucking Sex God compared to me!!!!!!!
She's told me about her "adventures" with "Doug", including (but not limited to) where, when, how, and more. My heart feels like its been stabbed with thousands upon thousands of needles. We never hang out anymore, and if we do, I screw things up because I'm lonely and jealous.
Let's see how "Remmy" is doing.
- Feels lucky to just get a hug from a girl
- Turned down 8 times to prom (on their defense, a number of those girls had legit reasons to, including but not limited to an Important Softball game, parents were going to family reunion, etc. I think about 5 were actual rejections)
- Turned down by the single people at prom to slow dance
SO Where are we now?
I have my final choir concert tomorrow night. Not just the last of the year, but my last one in High School. I've tried to get "Marie" to come this last time, but unfortunately her job holds her back as shes the only one who can stay tomorrow night. Why does this hurt? Because I'm still slightly attached to her. And today at dress rehearsal, I nearly broke down in the middle of a song. What song, you ask? You Raise Me Up. You know, the one by Josh Groban? Yea. That one. My god it was awful.
Tomorrow's not going to be fun. I'll inform you how that goes.